A/N: Hello all. So a little bit about this story. I will be changing the rating to M later. It will have some elements of control but not full on dom/sub aspects because I apparently have enough abnegation in me that, that is just not going to happen. Also interesting enough I have enough of that in me that I cannot apparently even WRITE or read love scenes if I am in the presence of my parents. Grown woman out of her 20's and I blush like a damn teen when I try to. Anyways, hope you guys enjoy.

Chapter 3

He crashed to the floor and I leaped on him and instantly hit him twice in the face and was going for more until I was pulled away. I don't know how long it takes me to register anything else for a bit until I feel that tingle and warmth I have only ever gotten from Eric.

"He's out Raven. He was out before he hit the floor." Eric said looking at me with smugness I couldn't understand.

I nodded and blinked a few times. He smoothed my back encouragingly. "Breathe in through your nose, out through your mouth. You obviously use some type of meditation so go ahead and do that again. It will help break the bleed through adrenaline and rage." He said quietly from close beside me.

I had already started doing as he advised me I just didn't go into the void. I only did the normal meditation breathing exercises. I didn't notice he had been moving me off the mat and to an area where I could calm down. It took several minutes but I finally got calm enough and opened my eyes again.

I let out a sigh when I feel myself releasing the anger. I hadn't counted on it rearing up after I went to the void. I looked up to him since he was a bit taller than me. Luckily he wasn't so tall I had to crane my neck to see him. He was actually the perfect height and if I wanted to I would just need to rise up slightly on my feet to kiss him.

I blinked and my brows furrowed. There was one of those stupid thoughts again. I felt his hand still on my arm but it had moved lower to my wrist and his thumb was stroking slow circles on it. It feels wonderful and helps calm me and confuses me. I push that aside and look into his eyes again and smile at him. "Thank you sir I wouldn't have stopped and I am glad you realized that."

He smiled again and I don't remember him ever smiling around me or anyone other than his friends. When he was around me normally he always looked pissed or his looks were something even my Erudite brain couldn't understand. His touching me isn't new but touching me like this is. "It was a good fight and one of the fastest we have had. You changed your style of fighting didn't you?"

I nodded and inhaled to calm my growing hormones but it got worse because I smelled him. He smelled of freshness almost like an early morning rain in the early spring where it is still cold, along with the smell of steel and sandalwood. I needed to get away from him but I also couldn't without severely pissing him off. Why should I run anyways? That would be being a coward and I could not have that no matter his effect on me.

"Yes, we fought before we came here as our own sparring to prepare. Even then he knew my style and I ended up in the hospital for a day…" I heard him growl and his eyes turn hard so I continued to hopefully ease the anger that I recognized "...but he was there a week. As soon as I realized I would have to face him I have been working on it in off hours. That and my accuracy and speed for weapons. Oh and I have been doing moving targets too."

He nodded and got a calculating look on his face. "So you have been doing this on off hours? That's good?"

I nod "Tris, Four or Zeke come in with me so that I am supervised of course. I always ask the others if they want to go. Lex, Astrid, Benji, Scott and Hector are the only ones that join me. Like I said I don't take this as a joke."

He looked over my shoulder then lightly moves his hand from my wrist up my arm. His finger skimming over the skin up to my shoulder and then finally up to my cheek, which he cupped and then stroked my cheek. My eyes closed briefly and I took in slow breaths. When I met his eyes again they were soft. "Are you ok? I know you had been with him a long time."

I smiled with a bit of sadness. "I am a bit hurt and disappointed in him but I think I was expecting it. Our relationship was…difficult. When we got here he started to change but I just didn't want to see that. I also should be more upset than I am I think. That has to say something about our relationship; that I am pissed but not exactly destroyed by everything. I am actually kind of relieved and feel a bit free." I shrug and frown at the last part.

Eric had been rubbing small circles on my other hand that he had been holding and continued to do so. He smiled at me "I am glad you aren't feeling like that. You deserve better." He gave a nod of approval and then let my hand go as Tris came up for our talk.

She put her arms around my waist and brought me in for a hug and smiled at me "That was amazing Raven. How are you feeling?" She looked at my face searchingly.

I gave her a genuine smile and nodded, I was lucky I had her. "I'm ok really, I don't know how you are supposed to feel when you end a relationship but I don't think it is how I am feeling right now. I was serious about me being more upset about his attitude to initiation. I mean yeah I am pissed that he couldn't just man up and tell me he wanted to move on and date or whatever. But I am more pissed about that the thing I spent four years preparing for, he is treating like it is a joke. I think I am also relieved Tris and feel like I have finally been set free from them all." I shrug and she smiles.

"Well we aren't going to complain, you know how we felt about the fucker. Just so you know he has two broken ribs and a cracked jaw by the way. I had to take him to the infirmary with Gale."

I smiled and shrugged "I could have made it worse, I sure as shit was about to."

We both looked at Eric who had chuckled a bit and then shook his head getting serious. "Go ahead and tell her." He said with a frown.

Tris nodded and frowned "Peter is going to be involved in the next stages of training. He was offered the chance to pick from a few jobs to move him from patrols. He will be working in Control and with initiate training; starting with the survival training after the time off."

I let out a shaky breath and nodded "Well it was bound to happen sooner or later. How do I handle it, I mean…" I trail off and frown. "Fuck it I'm not going to let him get to me. I never really considered him my brother because he never acted like it really. I am not sure he is capable of it to be honest."

She nodded "We will keep an eye on him. He can't be directly involved with your training anyways because you are related by blood even if only from your father. So one of us will be the ones to provide any training or help for you."

I let out a relieved breath "Sounds good to me. So what do you want me to do for the rest of training today? I don't mind hitting the bags or doing the course we set up in that unused training room again."

She laughed "You obliterated that course so it wouldn't benefit you anyways. We will make another one at some point and you can run through that one. You can stick around and watch the fights or take the rest of the day and go do something fun or relax. You deserve it, you did really good during the fights Raven. We are really proud of you."

I frowned "What's fun or this word relax you speak ok?" I smile cheekily and she gives my arm a little punch. I sigh "Seriously I don't know what the fuck to do with myself. Maybe I will go read or something. I can't do what I normally do to relax because you are here so the tattoo is out." I stop in thought and shrug "Fuck it I will go to the parlor and draw up some more designs."

Tris looked at Eric and got uncomfortable. "Sure, Tori and Bud said there have been a few people that have gotten your designs already. I will be up there in an hour or so anyways."

I nodded "Right, well I will work on that modified design for you. You still wanted it without the mechanical or robotic aspect right? But with the two knives?" Tris stiffened and Eric tensed as well. I looked between the two frowning. "What? Did I say something wrong?"

"Tris go back and help with the initiates." Eric ordered her tersely.

She gave a look between Eric and I then nodded and hugged me quickly "I will see you in a little bit."

I frowned and nodded as I watched her walk away. I looked at my hands and realized the gloves had already been taken off but the tape was still on my knuckles so I started to take that off. Eric let out a breath and took one of my hands and started to help me.

"So you designed some tattoos?" He asked quietly.

I nodded trying not to feel the warmth in my belly that Shane had never been able to inspire even on the one time we had been truly intimate. How could Eric affect me so much to the point that even when I am detached I feel anything? "Yeah, drawing is one of my relaxation things. I designed the one I am having done and Tori asked to see some of my sketches so it just went from there."

"You mentioned something about mechanical or robotics in your designs?" He moved on to the other hand.

I smiled and laughed "Yeah I kind of have a fascination with this style from pre-war era called steampunk among other things that I like from pre-war. So I took a few things from that and worked them into my drawings. I have a tattoo on my is 3D and is made to look like a lace pattern has been cut from my leg but in the shadows and underneath you see that instead of muscle and bones there is robotic or mechanical workings. As if you are getting a peek of what is underneath everything. It also has a garter belt above that with a gun tucked into it. I did another one with the robotics and mechanical parts but that has the flesh being ripped pulled back to reveal the gears that could be put on the ribs or even ribs and hip area. I don't know I just think it fits with being a Dauntless. Sometimes I feel like I am a machine, maybe not made up of all that tech but not far off from it I guess."

He sighs and nods. "Believe me I get it. Our bodies are fine tuned into weapons but the way we train to get them into top performance also is machine like." He finished with taking the tape off and held my hand for a minute longer and sat chewing his lip, which is another look I have never seen on him. He gave my hand a squeeze then went back to tracing circles or rubbing my knuckles. "You should go take the day for yourself. You mentioned reading, do you have books?"

I shake my head. "No I have a tablet phone. Tori and Bud insisted that I get something because of my designs so they, along with some other help, traded it for getting that for me" I smiled at the thought of my Aunt just happening to make sure it was one of the newer and faster Table Phones along with any accessory she could think of.

"I have my books and music on it. Once I get my housing I can get the real thing again. There isn't anything like holding an actual book and reading. There is something about the smell of a book and turning a real page. That contact with the book and its weight in my hand are what I miss the most. I guess I am just a very tactile person and that is a big part of the draw for me. I loved my room because my headboard, hell my entire room was basically a library. " I shrug and blush at talking about something I hardly ever revealed to others that I felt or liked. I wonder if my Aunt would let me take some of the books. I would need to message her

Eric smiled a genuine smile."I prefer actual books myself. I have a few if you ever want to borrow one."

I smiled automatically but I was caught up in how his smile completely changed him. He was still built and tall, with this normal heavily styled hair on the top and short sides. His tattoos still fascinated me and the gauges in his ears and dermal piercing above his eye, all that was the same. But just like his smirks and sneers, his smile just seems to draw me in.

I had always found him ridiculously attractive and had sat up at nights thinking about him and the looks he was always giving me and trying to figure them out. I could read others so easily but not Eric. Part of it was admittedly trying to figure out why my body reacted the way it did when he would come up and touch me to adjust me or demonstrate something. Now I was swept up into something different about him and I knew I would be up again trying to decode the mystery that was Eric and his effect on me.

"That would be great. I have missed real books and reading. That is the one of only things I regret having had to leave behind. I had a pretty great book collection." I tried to keep my voice as even as I could, but I think it just came out in this breathy voice.

Eric titled his head and smirked at me then stepped closer. His eyes darkened as he came towards me and my breathing became a bit ragged. His smirk deepened as he stood just centimeters away from me. The hand not holding mine moved to my cheek. He cupped it and ran a thumb across my cheek slowly. Some instinct had me licking my lips a little and leaving my lips slightly parted.

His eyes followed that movement and his hand moved until his thumb was lightly tracing my lips. His eyes moved from my lips to lock with mine. "Meet me after dinner at The Chasm tomorrow. You can go to your party after." It wasn't a request but not quite his normal commands. I blinked because I realize he mentioned the party. How much had he heard at lunch? Oh wait, I had said something earlier.

I nodded my head and tried to regulate my breathing. Something caught his attention behind me and he gave a little huff before he leaned in and his lips brushed against mine slow and teasing. The moment his lips had any contact with mine I let out a sigh that had the shape of his name. "Eric"

I felt him smile against my lips before he pressed in gently but pulled back soon after and all physical contact broke. It was like I suddenly lost one of the major senses. As if suddenly I had lost my sight or something. His eyes were stormy and they held me to their depths.

"Don't call me sir again Raven." He commanded and picked up my jacket where he felt around for a moment. He pulled out my tablet phone and raised an eyebrow as he turned it over looking at the fact that it is a very new version; her started typing something into it and handed both back to me. He brushed my face gently with one knuckle then stepped away and moved past me to go back to the training area. We had been in a relatively secluded section of the training room that I go to and warm up since it is out of view. I looked around and then stepped out of the area we had been in.