Nita

I don't know why I did it! I covered for him when all I wanted to do was scream the truth from the roof tops, it just wasn't that easy. When I was faced with it I chose the easy option and I don't even know why. It was the perfect opportunity to tell them the truth, just blurt it out and they would know. They were listening to me for the first time ever and they would have actually listened to me and it was the first time they would have believed me too; if I'd told them, but I didn't, I lied. I let the opportunity slip through my fingers and now there would probably never be another one again.

I didn't even know what I would do if I had the opportunity again. I would use it to tell the truth? I probably wouldn't. I would chicken out and just let the world carry on as it is. Everyone would carry on as normal and not even realise that what they see is tainted. Not by glass but by him. His lies, his make believe, his world where he's in control, where what ever he says goes and amazingly everyone believes him. They don't question one word that comes out of his mouth; they just take it as the truth.

If I had used that opportunity I could have turned my life around but I would have turned upside down other lives including my mums to get what I wanted. Which was the right choice? To lie even though as a child we are taught to never lie or to tell the truth with devastating consequences.

Adam

I had to tell her, just get it all out in the open. I was dying to see Kirsty and telling Jess was the only way I would be able to. Jess was asleep; she looked so peaceful her dark hair lying across the pillow behind her. Watching her sleep I could imagine that our lives had turned out so differently but then where would Kirsty fit into that life? She didn't, it was simple she wasn't part of my old life like Jess was she was part of my new life and hopefully of my future.

I moved quietly from the doorway and made my way into the kitchen. Leaning against the kitchen units I sighed bringing my hands up to up head brushing them through my hair. I didn't want to hurt her but I had to tell her, I had to see Kirsty.

"Morning." I looked to see Jess hovering in the kitchen doorway watching me just like I had been in the bedroom doorway watching her.

"Sleep well?"

"Mmm, like a baby." She still sounded half asleep although she was dressed. I sat down at the kitchen table and watched as she moved around the kitchen firstly making her self a cup of tea before starting on her 'can't start the day with out it' porridge. She added a drizzling of honey to the top of her bowl and finally took her seat opposite me. It was going to be a difficult conversation but it was one I couldn't put off any longer.

"Jess, it's been really great to see you again, it really has and I'm glad that we've been able to talk about everything and we can finally both try and find a way of living more easily with everything that has happened," I paused trying to find the right words.

"Don't say it."

"Jess I…"

"Please don't," her voice was pleading with me not to continue, she hung her head and I watched as a tear dropped from behind her fringe and onto the wooden table, the bead off water glistening before she swiftly wiped it from the table with the sleeve of her light blue jumper, she sniffed before she continued, "I know what you're going to say; I know. It hurts, it hurts too much. I thought I could do it but I know we can't live like this. I just wanted a couple more days before we said goodbye, before I had to admit that we could never go back to the way we were before. I wish we could, more than anything but everything has changed now, I know you feel it too. I don't know why I thought we could go back to the way things were before but I had to come back to find out that they couldn't be otherwise I would have always been wondering. I love you Adam, I always will but I know things can never work with us, not now.

It was just nice to spend sometime with you, I still miss you. I still think of you everyday. When I think of Harry your always there with us, I think that's what makes it so hard. The memories are entwined, there's no Harry without you so when ever I see you I'm looking for Harry. I know you feel it too you've been so distant, always lost in your thoughts since I've been here and it made me realise that we could never go back, we could never be together again, the memories are too raw. I know this was what you have been trying to talk to me about, what you were about to try and tell me and its ok. We used to be perfect for each other but things have changed, we have changed and now we lead separate lives but he will always connect us no matter how far apart we grow our little boy will always be remembered and loved." She stopped her soft brown eyes glistening with tears. I nodded in agreement a lump in my throat stopping me from speaking.

Jess stood abruptly causing the chair to screech across the kitchen floor. It caught me off guard and I simply stared up at her wondering what caused her to act so suddenly.

"You know how bad I am at goodbyes so I thought we could rip the plaster off quickly." She still had tears running down her cheeks and my heart went out to her but I was too stunned to get up and hug her. Was that it? Was she really leaving now, maybe even forever?

"Your going now?" I asked, feeling a little like child who was being abandoned.

"It's for the best. Its only hurting us more the longer I stay. Goodbye Adam," and with that she walked past me towards the front door and it took me a couple of seconds to react.

"Jess," I jumped up catching her attention but not knowing what to say once I had it, "uuurrr," I failed to find what I wanted to say.

"It's ok," she stood in front of me slowly caressing my cheek with her hand, "it's time," and with that she tenderly placed a kiss on my lips before picking up her already packed bags from beside the door and climbing into a already waiting taxi. The whole time I stood silently and watched her go not able to find the right words, in fact any words to say to her.

Kirsty

Nita arrived home first with Emily and Jay in tow. I desperately wanted to talk to her but I couldn't not with Emily and Jay around. I heard them chatting in the kitchen whilst Nita made them drinks before I realised that Nita didn't even know if I was home. She answered most of my questions when she quickly popped her head around the door before letting them in to see me. She didn't even look at me probably just glanced to see if my body was there, she thought I had let her down, that I didn't care. I had let her down; I let her down the moment that she found out about Warren and what he'd been doing to me. How was I ever going to make up for it? I couldn't protect her any longer. I couldn't pretend I was staying for her, now I was simply staying because I was scared. He didn't even know I was planning to leave today. I couldn't imagine what he would do if he found out, I didn't want to imagine what he would do but it was all I could find myself doing. There was no way out now. Not after today, I Kirsty Clements am too scared to leave; even to protect my daughter. I left hot tears run down my cheeks not caring now that Emily or Jay might see them. I couldn't protect her, not from him; I couldn't protect myself so how could I possibly protect her? I could only see one way out from here but could I really do that to Nita.

Sorry if Jess is completely OC. So what's Kirsty's way out? Good or bad news? Thank you so much for reviewing it makes my day! Please let me know if you have any suggestions they are greatly appreciated, thanks again.