So yesterday Jane walked in on Ian and I. I feel bad about how I hurt her, and how I handled everything. Ian is the love of my life and although I love Jane, I just need to see where this goes with Ian. I could never ever fully give my all to Jane when a piece of my heart still belongs to him. It just wouldn't be right. It would be unfair to all of us.
After cooking breakfast for Ian and making sure he ate, I left to go see Jane. I know she's going to be crying and yelling at me but I have to talk to her. I mean that was my best friend and I'm the one that wanted to change our relationship so I at least owe her an explanation.
I make my way up to her apartment and knock on the door. I stand there for a few minutes and she still hasn't opened the door. So I knock a little harder and a little longer, but still no answer. Just as I was about to open the door with my key the door swings open and I see a blonde woman wearing Jane's bpd shirt and a pair of her running shorts. And I immediately feel jealous and anger washes over my face. Who the hell is this woman and why is she here? More importantly, what is she doing wearing my girlfriend clothes? Whoa Isles, she's not your girlfriend anymore, you have Ian.
"Can I help you?" she asked smiling. Ugh, I don't like her already. It's something about her that strikes a nerve. Something off about her, but I just can't put my finger on it.
"Uh yes I'm looking for Jane Rizzoli," I said trying to compose myself. What I really want to say is get the hell out and stay away from my Jane. But she's not my Jane anymore, I have Ian. I mean I love him, he's the love of my life. So I shouldn't be acting like this. I just need to get it together and compose myself.
"Who are you," she asked. Why the hell does she need to know that? She's acting like she owns the place.
"Dr, Maura Isles, " I said with a slight attitude. This bitch is rude as hell. I don't like her and I don't want her in my girlfriend's apartment. I mean my ex-girlfriend, god I need to get it together.
"Oh right, Yeah. Um, she's asleep, we had a pretty exciting night. Let me go and get her. Come In" oh right, what the hell does that mean? And she's bragging about sleeping with Jane! Why would Jane just sleep with a random chick from a bar? You know what I'm just going to shake it off.
I walk in the house and she closed the door before she walks in the back. I look around and I see clothes discarded everywhere. Jane sure does move on fast. I shouldn't be feeling this upset and this hurt because of what I did with Ian but I do. How could she pick up some random from I'm guessing, even though I don't like it, the bar and bang her? And she's not even all that cute. Who am I kidding she's gorgeous. A few minutes later Jane comes in the living room with her slut walking behind her.
"What are you doing here?" she asked in a calm raspy voice. Which shocked me, I thought she'd be more upset. Of course, she's not upset she had that blonde bimbo to keep her mind off of things.
"I came to talk to you... in private," I said, letting her know that I wanted this slut to leave.
"Jj, can you give us a minute? After she leaves we can go get some breakfast or something yeah?" Jane said to her slut.
"Okay, I'd like that," she said smiling. she kissed Jane and went in Jane's room. Okay, that hurt a lot. The thought of Jane being with another woman is killing me. And I don't understand why. I have Ian I love Ian. I should be happy for her, but I'm not. I hate that she's with her. I hate that she moved on so quickly. I Know that selfish of me considering what I did, but I can't help how I feel.
Jane walked into the living room And moved clothes off the couch before we sat down. We sat in awkward silents because neither of us knew what to say.
"What's up Maura," Jane asked trying to break the awkwardness.
"Well, I came here to apologize for yesterday. I didn't mean to hurt you. Ian and I have a very strong connection and I just want to see where that goes. I'm so sorry that you got hurt in the process. I could have handled things better" I said looking her in her eyes so she can see how sincere I am "I hope we can still be friends. Because believe it or not Jane I still love you, and I will always love you" she smiled at me and said
"Of course we can still be friends. And I hope everything works out for you and Ian. I hope you're happy, and I'll aways love you, Maura, always."
"So, JJ? She's pretty, where did you meet her?" Not that I care because I don't like her at all.
"Yeah JJ, she's gorgeous," she said with a bright smile. A smile that was once only for me. It kind of makes me jealous, but it's okay I'm happy for her I guess."I met her at merch, she's an FBI agent on vacation. She's special and I really like her"
"I'm happy for you Jane, and I'm happy you found someone that makes you happy," I said with a smile that doesn't reach my eyes. Of course, she notices and she knows why. I can tell because she can read me very well. But she doesn't say anything and I can't blame her.
"I'll see you at work, yeah?" She said with a sad smile
"Yeah, I'll see you" I get up and fight the urge to hug and kiss her. Before I leave I put her key on her coffee table. And without looking at her I walk out and I got to my car and drove off with tears in my eyes. Even though we say we will remain, friends, I know that things will never be the same.