I didn't hear him correctly. Did he say what I think he said? Because if this asshole just said what I think he said, I'm really about to lose my mind.
"You said you have a what?" I asked because I really needed him to say that BS again.
"I have a wife and three kids Maura. I'm not leaving them for you, I won't do that. The sex with you is great don't get me wrong. I mean it could be better, you don't even give blowjobs for goodness sake. You're not worth me leaving my family for. I'm sorry but I love my wife and kids. You know what I think I should leave" he said. And I just sat there in shock. I can't believe this shit. This whole time I thought we loved each other but clearly, I was wrong. He was just using me and I'm so pissed off.
"You are a true asshole, honestly. I should kick your ass right now for hurting her. You could have been upfront with her but instead, you fucked with her head. Now I suggest you go up those stairs and get your shit and leave in the next ten minutes or you're going to have a size nine boot up your ass" Jane said through gritted teeth. He started to get up but not before I tell this asshole how I feel about him.
"No, wait" I whispered grabbing his arm.
"Maura?" Jane asked confused as to why I would want this piece of shit to stay in my presence any longer.
"Ian you are the most ignorant, self-centered asshole I know. Don't you ever come back to my house! I never want to see your lying cheating ass ever again! Do you hear me? just act as if I don't exist. "I stood up and grabbed his beer"But don't forget to finish your beer before you go, sweetie" and with that being said I dumped it on his head. Then I empty my wine glass on his head as well. After that, I sat down with a smirk on my face.
"Maura! What the fuck! Why would you do that!" He screamed as he grabbed a napkin and tried to clean his self up. That's when all my self-control went out the window
"Go get your shit and get the fuck out of my house now!" I yelled but he didn't move. He just stared at me like I've lost my mind, which pissed me off even more "NOW IAN! GO! GET THE HELL UP" I screamed at him and started pushing him. He jumped up and I threw my wine glass at him but unfortunately it missed him."GO GET YOUR SHIT AND LEAVE" I got up to attack him but Jane grabbed me. I resisted for a second but I gave up and clasped in her arms and sob. I felt like suck a fool. He played me, and it hurt like hell. I actually believed that he really loved me. In the past, we talk about getting married and having a family. But I guess all of that was a lie.
"How could he do this to me, Jane? He used me, he lied to me and I feel like shit right now Jane." she pulled us down on the floor and rocked me back and forth trying to calm me down.
"I'm so sorry Maura. But you deserve better than him. You're too good for him. It's going to be okay" She whispered kissing my head. I didn't feel like he was going to be okay. The only thing I feel right now is the pain.
"I want him gone! Please make him leave, please Jane" I sobbed harder. Before she got up to kick his ass out, he came down the Stairs with his bags.
"I think it's best for everyone If this is the last time we see each other Maura. Have a nice life, bye detective" and with that, he left and I cried some more.
"Shh, it's okay. You're going to be fine. You're so much better than him, you're so beautiful, and you have such a beautiful heart. You will find someone who will treat you like the queen you are. You'll find someone that will put you first. I promise you'll find that person" I had someone like that, I had Jane. And I gave all that up for an asshole like Ian. I'm so stupid, how could I leave Jane for him? And even after I did what I did she's still here helping me and comforting me.
After I calmed myself down I whispered "Thank you" she kissed the top of my head.
"No need to thank me, Maur. You're my best friend, I'll do anything for you" that makes me want to cry even more. I had it all, I was happy with Jane. She loved me unconditionally. And I broke her heart.
"I want to go to sleep" I whispered. I'm to overwhelm to deal with this right now.
"Okay, I'll tell everyone to go home and clean up down here. I'll come check on you before I go home" she said getting up and helping me get up. The thought of her leaving me here alone is unbearable. I need her here, and I need her to hold me.
"Can you stay? Please, I don't want to be alone right now" I asked.
"I don't thank so, Maura. We both know that won't be a good idea," She chuckled softly
"Please, Jane I really don't need to be alone." she hesitated before she said"Sure"
"Okay, thank you. I'll be in the guest room" she nods her head slowly.
I walk upstairs and go into my room and take a hot shower to wash off the smell of Ian. I spend about 30 minutes scrubbing my skin. But no matter how hard I scrubbed I just couldn't seem to get clean. After another 30 minutes, I get out. I decided to sleep in my bra and panties. I put on my robe and exit my room. By the time I get in the guest room I see Jane sitting in the bed with her shoes off. Without saying a word I walk over to the bed, turn the light out before I take off my robe off.
"Maura! What the hell are you doing!? Where are your clothes!?" Jane yelled
"Jane, relax it's not like you haven't seen my body before. And besides you know I normally sleep in the nude but I thought this would be better." I say as I climb into bed and get under the covers. After a few seconds, I feel Jane get under the covers as well. And not too long after that, I feel her wrap her arms around me and pull me closer. God, I miss the feel of her arms wrapped around me.
"It's gonna be okay Maur I promise" she kissed my shoulder.
"I should have known something was off about his visits. He would never leave his number, he'd never give me his address, and he would always leave the room to answer his phone. God, how could I be this stupid? I feel so used and dirty. I'm so stupid, I ruined a good relationship with you, for him. We were so happy, I'm so sorry Jane" I said starting to tear up.
"Shhh it's okay" she whispered
"No, it's not, It will never be okay" I whispered letting a few tears fall.
"It will, I promise it will," she kissed my shoulder and the back of my head. We sit in silence for a while until I break it."Jane"
"Yeah Maur" I turn around to face her so I can look her in the eyes.
"Make me forget" I whispered and kissed her softly."Please, make me forget" I moved as close as I could and kiss her neck then her lips.
"Maura" she whispered. I ignored her, rolled her over and got on top of her. I slowly started grinding on her knowing that that's one of her weakness. Her hands immediately go to my hips and help me grind harder. That pressure on my clit feels wonderful.
"Fuck that feels so good, make me forget " I whispered
"I can't, JJ, I can't Maura, don't," she said weakly. I can tell she's about cave in. "Maura please don't don't do this, I can't do this to JJ. She doesn't deserve this. Please just-just get up"
"She doesn't have to know" I unhook my bra and grab her hand and bring it to my breast. "Please Jane" I whimpered as she squeezed my breast.
"Take your underwear off and come sit on my face" she finally caved and believe me she doesn't have to tell me twice.