I woke up feeling confused as to why I'm in the guest room. Then last night event flooded my mind. I can't believe I left jane for an asshole like Ian. I don't live life with regrets but I can honestly say I regret the day I broke jane's heart. I almost lost her, I almost lost my happiness. And I have no one else to blame for that but myself.

I look down to see a sleeping jane on my chest. I move a piece of hair out of her face. She looks so peaceful when she's asleep. I'd watch her sleep all day if I could.

I carefully roll her over on her back and I slip out of bed. I pull the covers up on her. I grab my robe and exit the room.

I head into my bathroom and shower and take care of my morning routine. I put on my bra and panties and my robe. I go to jane's draw, I'm glad she never came for her clothes, and grab her something to wear so she can take a shower and I make my way back to the guest room. My detective was still sleeping. I put her clothes on the night stand then I crawled into bed and sat down Indian style.

"Babe" I shook her a little "babe"

"Mhmm," she said half sleep. She rolled over and put her arms around my waist. I laid down and move over as close as I could

"We have work" I sighed

"No we don't" she said after she kissed me, god I can't believe I almost lost the privilege to kiss her, cuddle with her, to make love to her."last night I told Korsak I would come in if we got a case" jane said pulling me out of my thoughts

"I have to go to work"

"Oh right, I didn't think about that. Why don't you call the chief medical examiner of the commonwealth of Massachusetts and call in sick? Oh, wait that's you" I rewarded her sarcastic remark with a slap on the arm "Ouch woman! no, but seriously I wanna go to sleep"

"Okay well you get some sleep and I'm gonna change my bedding and wash it, then I'll cook you some breakfast. Oh I put some clothes on the nightstand"

"You're the best" she mumbled trying hard not to fall asleep

"No, you are" I kissed her "I love you, get some sleep"

"You too" she mumbled and turned her back to me. I sat there for a moment, thinking about that "you too" that she said. It that hurt that she didn't say it back. I might be thinking way too much into this but I hope she isn't regretting her c I shake the thought out of my head and exit the room. I go to my room and put on a pair of jane's gym shorts and her bpd shirt and get to work.

By the time I'm finished with all my work I see that is mid afternoon so I ordered Chinese food for Jane and I. And by the time the food came Jane was showered and dressed and she came down stairs.

"Mmm something smells great," she said as I put our food on a plate she walked over and kissed my cheek and grabbed two bottles of water, she came back over and sat down next to me hands me a bottle of water and we began eating our food.

"So how did you sleep babe," I asked

"Great, I must have been really tired, I'm surprised Ma isn't over here being her usual overbearing self"

"She hardly ever comes over since we broke up. Actually, no one ever comes over anymore" I said sadly. I fully understand why, though. I hurt Jane badly and they don't like me anymore. I mean, after all, blood is thicker than water right? But for some reason

"I'm sorry Maur," she said

"It's fine, it's no one fault but my own" I said trying to keep the tears at bay "can we talk about something else please"

"No, we need to talk about this. Has anyone been rude to you"

"No, they just don't talk to me, and frost or Korsak only talk to me about work," I said finally releasing the tears I was holding

"Don't cry?" she said getting up and walking up to me and hugging me.

I've also notice that she hasn't called me by a pet name yet. I know it may seem small and ridiculous to you but it's not like Jane, she always calls me baby or babe or sweetie or something. That's just us that's what we do, and it's really weird that she hasn't called anything other than Maura or Maur. And then the whole "you too" thing this morning was really weird. oh my goodness, I honestly think she's regretting it.

I pulled back and looked in her eyes with tears swimming around in mine. "What's wrong Maur" see what I mean. It's not like Jane at all. I like it and I have to address it, right now.

"Do you regret it?" I asked in a whisper.

"Regret what? What are you talking about?"

"Do you regret wanting to try us again Jane. Just tell me the truth please I really need to know," She doesn't say anything, which is all the answer I need. "Oh my gosh you do," I let the tears fall "Okay" I whispered"

"Maura-" she began but I cut her off

"No Jane, it's fine. Just move please, I need to be by myself" I pushed her and ran to my room. I can hear her calling my name but I just keep on running. When I get inside my room I try to slam the door as hard as I can.

"DAMN!" I heard jane scream. I run out my room and I see Jane holding her wrist.

"Jane" I walk up to her " let me see it," she moves her hand. And I gasp "oh Jane I'm so sorry, it's starting to bruise and swell" I look up and see tears in her eyes, I feel so bad right now.

"No it's my fault, I shouldn't have stuck my hand in the damn door." She whimpered

"let's get you to the hospital" I know she's in a lot of pain because she doesn't fight with me.