Chapter seventeen: an outburst

Renee glanced at the flirting couple at her side and signed. After that sudden realization she had yesterday, Renee couldn't have the heart to get irritated with Lavender Brown, a fellow Gryffindor who looks like she had consumed a lot of love potion that she would follow Ron 'ALL' day. Ron seemed to be flattered to this, since it was the first time that some girl was wooing for him. On the other hand, she couldn't help but notice that Hermione was pissed all day, snapping her bad temper whoever cross on her today. Even Neville didn't get away from her temper, and Renee gave greatest sympathy to her friend. Harry was still…Harry. He was muttering about his dreams over and over again, Renee was the only one who has the capacity to listen to his rambling today, since their two friends were very…occupied from what they were doing.

If I hear another thing about dreams again, I'm gonna blow up.

Renee gazed on the teacher's table and spotted him. Snape was wearing his everyday scowl on his plate, meaning he was having a fine day. She began trying to decipher his every expression and move Renee could see on him, for her to understand a few things about him. For instance, when Snape was having a wicked smirk on Harry means he was planning something to humiliate him; or deducting points in every student he could see means he's having a bad day.

Renee found myself flushed at her own thoughts and ducked her head on her plate before he would notice Renee drooling over him. Ugh, so much for having this silly crush. I shouldn't have acknowledged this if I knew I would be like I consumed five bottles of love potion.

I should divert my eyes to somewhere else before I could go insane, or worse having him known about this.

She rested her chin on her palm as they wait for Professor Trelawney to arrive. Renee had followed Snape's advice about wait for her Mother before she could owl the woman or something to contact her.

"You always disappeared after dinner" Ron commented on her side.

"I've got detention with McGonagall" Renee instantly lied. Isabel had told her about that made up excuse that whoever will asked where she would be; the girl would always say about detention with the said professor.

And besides we train on the transfiguration classroom, no one could know.

He just nodded; seem to accept the girl's answer. I was glad that it was Ron who asked. If that was Harry or Hermione they would really pry more.

The divination professor entered the room rather clumsily, as she would always been. Renee suddenly remembered Isabel questioning about hiring the mad woman.

I would really agree on that matter, mother has her inner eye open but still moving normally. Why can't she just do that?

"Today…we will discuss about the homework I've assigned to about the tea leaves. Anyone would like us to share their works?" Trelawney tried to deliver her speech on a mysterious voice but no one seems to care at all.

Renee urged herself not to roll her eyes as Pavarti shared her work to the class, saying her prediction on tea leaves. Professor Trelawney seems to be captivated with her student's work, if only she knew that they just made those up.

"Thank you Miss Pavarti" her fellow Gryffindor sat with a grin on her face. Trelawney continue to babble up, even though half of the class was already bored. Renee looked at Hermione; I think she and Pavarti were the only ones who are listening attentively.

"Now for today, we will be reading your fate on the crystal balls" the divination professor pointed on the crystal balls in front of them. Renee gulped and become tense as she remembered the little incident on Trelawney's office.

"Look onto the crystal…yes, focus and think about your future…" her voice was trailing on the four corners of the room. Most of them looked on the crystal curiously, but not expecting to see anything from it.

Renee gazed lazily on the crystal ball in front of her, thinking this was still a stupid subject. Her reflection stared back at her lazily too. She scanned around the classroom; her classmates were staring on their crystals too waiting for something to appear on it. Trelawney were pestering Harry again with her 'vision' of the day for him.

As Renee doesn't see anyone amusing, she gazed my crystal again. Black fog was starting to form on it. She took a closer look and saw many visions of people smiling, laughing on the same time. Renee blinked several times to check if she was just hallucinating, Renee saw her reflection again this time and inhaled sharply on the vision.

I had my silver eyes again.

She looked closer on it, it was really me. But what happened to my eyes? Then Renee realized something, silver eyes could mean about my 'unique ability'. She tried to relax herself from her eye changing reflection, best not to attract attention from the class, especially the divination professor.

But today seems to be not her lucky day. Trelawney looked up to her direction as if she smelled something bad.

"You my dear, I could sense an inner power swelling onto you!" Trelawney shouted and pointed the surprise student. Everyone's staring right now, just great.

Renee don't know what reaction she would give to them, she just smiled shyly at the divination professor hoping she would get the idea that she don't want any attention at all, but she too thick to figure that out.

"Tell me what you see on your crystal?" everyone was now staring and waiting for her answer. Even Harry and Hermione were staring now too.

"I um…" Please let me melt now.

"Go on dear don't be shy" her eyes were twinkling reminding her of Dumbledore.

"I see some…fog" Renee said awkwardly, praying she won't brag anymore.

"Yes…fog means blocking something…go on" oh dear…

"That's all I've seen professor" just go and brag Harry instead of me! She wanted to scream those to her face.

Trelawney scrambled her way to her side to her distress; the divination professor's giddiness was still on her eyes. She bended and looked at the crystal in front of her, Renee made her way to the other side, making sure she won't be seeing her silver eye reflection on it. She looked onto Renee and the crystal back and forth.

"There's nothing on it professor, I swear" Renee holds the crystal to make her a better look.

Suddenly a stream of memories swamped on her head. Renee could feel her eyes became narrowed and her body became tense.

It was so fast that it was like cutting my head on halves.

"Are you okay dear?" she clasps her shoulders to get her student's attention. She looked up to her, but instead Renee saw Trelawney's image on the grounds with her belongings on her side, she was crying onto someone, pleading to make her stay.

"Miss Matte?" she stood up weakly, making the whole room focused on her.

Something on the back of my head was telling me to get out of this place, fast.

"I'm not feeling well professor, I'll go to the infirmary" she closed my eyes but the images were still lingering. Another image came to her mind, this time it was Harry; his head was buried on his arms, sleeping on this very classroom, suddenly he was jerking and shouting. Trelawney was panicked seeing his student, but her giddy eyes were still on her…

Renee reached her way outside, not even waiting for Trelawney's approval. Her head was really going to blew up with these images flowing fast on her mind. She straggled her way down on the stairs, each clung on the railing were new images flowing. Students laughing on going up, students snogging on the stairs, pushing students…each step was hell.

Now I know why mother told me about people go insane on the second stage.

Renee somehow made my way to the corridors, still nowhere to go. She could every vision on every thing she could touch to prevent myself stumble. Renee's vision began to be blurred; her head was spinning and aching on the same time. She could feel her whole energy was sucked down. She loosens her grip on the wall, waiting herself to fall in the hard stone…

But she didn't. A pair of arms caught her before she could hit the floor.

"Renee! Get a grip!" Renee could hear professor McGonagall's voice on her head. That made her saw her image on my mind. She was sitting on her office scribbling something on some parchment when the doors yanked open…she stood up in horror, blood dripped on her floor…

"Don't touch me please…" she choked; clutching her head, desperate to remove those images off her mind. Renee clumsily removed the arms supporting her to stand up, but her grip was so strong for her weak estate.

"We need to get you out of here" McGonagall's voice was becoming distant now. Renee shut her eyes tightly as the professor dragged her somewhere on the castle. The images stop and made her relaxed a little but left her a wrecked brain as Renee felt herself lying down on a soft bed that it was so comfortable that she fell asleep as she hit the pillow.

Renee doesn't know how many hours had past since she'd slept. She tried to feel her body, my whole body ached like I run a mile and my head was throbbing hard. She opened her eyes and stared at the ceiling.

When Hogwarts did have a light bulb?

Renee felt her eyes wide open as she looked at the surroundings. This was only the first time she had noticed that the linens were flower printed. The walls were mint green, not the usual white wall of the infirmary or deep red color of the dormitory. A study table was on her right side with some books that she missed too much to read, with some cute frog ornaments lying on it. Posters of different bands were on the left side of the wall and a small book shelf was placed under the built in cabinet hanging on the wall.

I was on my room. It was exactly the same look I left before I go to Hogwarts.

Renee struggled up to sat on the edge of the bed and looked around. It was no mistake it was my room. The last thing I remember was I was on the corridor with McGonagall. So how did I end up here?

The door yanked open and revealed her transfiguration professor. She had a tray of food and vials on her hand.

"Glad you're awake" she placed the tray on her table and sat on the chair.

"Are we still on Hogwarts?" Renee asked, ignoring the throbbing pain on her head.

Instead of answering, she gave the student a vial of anti-pain potion.

"You need to drink those first, I know you don't feel well after that episode" she drank the contents of the vial, twitching slightly on the bitter taste but still not leaving her eyes off her.

"We are still on Hogwarts. This is the room of requirements" she took a copy of Wuthering heights laying on the table; which was the last book she had read before she departed for Hogwarts.

"But how…" Renee looked around and still don't believe she was still on the school grounds.

"This room gives us what we have on mind. I tried to think of a place that will make you comfortable and the room ended up to be your bedroom" that explains everything but still can't deny the fact of the room being magical.

"You have to eat, I know you lost all of your energy a while ago" she pushed the tray towards her. Renee started to eat as she felt that she was really hungry, I wonder how I long was asleep…

Renee glanced at the professor while she read the book on her hands. I wonder if she knew about those visions I'm having, after all she was my mother's friend. She finished the food in no time and drank the pumpkin juice.

"Professor?" calling the professor's attention, McGonagall raised her head from the book.

"How come you didn't put me on the infirmary? I looked so sick…"

"Are you surely wanted to be there? That place would be draining you more" she said simply behind those half moon spectacles. Renee find herself shook my head in disagreement.

Going there in my estate will be disastrous.

"I knew you would be wondering. I was on your mother's side when she had those episodes like that when we were on 6th year" she said as if she read Renee's mind.

"It was much worse, much worse" the older woman shook her head, as if trying to shove off those memories.

"That's when we discovered this room, when she was having the peak of her visions" Renee looked at her in disbelief thinking that was as worse as Isabel had before?

I thought I could go insane any minute there.

Silence filled the room, only the wall clock tickling can be heard. Renee glanced on it and saw it was already past six. She frowned at the time; I missed all of my subjects, great. The professor gazed on her direction and saw Renee frowning on the time.

"I've sent notes on your professors saying you can't go to their classes today, don't worry" she signed in relief but still can't hide her disappointed on not getting the potion's class today.

She chuckled at her student as she saw her expression.

"Don't mind me; your frown reminds me of Isabel so much. She doesn't like to miss her classes when she's having visions like you before" she said amusedly.

"What does my mother look like before?" she asked as the headache began to disappear due to the anti-pain potion she drank.

For hours, McGonagall talked about their Hogwarts life, telling their tales of competition and Isabel's mischievous days. Renee could see on the professor's eyes how happy and innocent they were on those days. Sleep was taking over her again as she feel her eyes began to drop. She stood up and with the tray on her hands.

"You could stay here for the night. I assume you will be fine tomorrow" Renee nodded and smile at the professor.

"Thank you professor, goodnight" she called before the professor closed the door. She looked around the room once again, how I missed my private quarters. Renee stood up and glanced around, can't believe she would be still on Hogwarts.

Now how could I make my bathroom appear?

Renee adjusted her eyes on the sunlight, still happy she was still on her bedroom even if the room of requirements just duplicated it. After figuring out last night how to make the bathroom, she took a shower and changed her uniform to her favorite sleepwear; a white loose gown and dozed off instantly.

She gazed on the fresh uniform hanging on the cabinet and her bag lying on the table; professor McGonagall must be here while I'm asleep.

Renee feels her body again, she could still feel the lightheadedness but the body ache was almost gone to her relief. Still happy and light because of the peaceful slumber, she slid off her sleepwear, headed to the bathroom and took a long and nice bath and wore her uniform.

Renee went out of the room of the requirements with a heavy heart still doesn't want to leave her little heaven. She signed as she looked at the room the last time.

She got to the great hall on time. The breakfast was already there and the hall was almost filled by the students. Renee sat next to Neville and tried to fill myself from what she had missed yesterday.

"Are you sure you're okay now? You looked pale" Renee merely nodded and tried to present herself alright. Her lightheadedness was beginning to overtake her that she didn't dare to eat more. Renee stood up, I should ask for a potion to madam Poppy before the class starts. She was about to fall but Neville supported her.

"You shouldn't get up so early. I'll go with you in the infirmary" Renee smiled timidly at his concern. The two started their way to the infirmary when Malfoy blocked the way.

"Well what do we have here…Cuddling so early in the morning? You guys make me want me puke" Malfoy sniffed like he smelled something bad from them.

"Back off Malfoy" Neville said before Renee could utter a word to Malfoy.

"Getting possessive to your little girlfriend?" she tried her best to glare at him or at least scared him off, but it just gave her a throbbing headache at the end.

Renee gathered all of her strength to speak, but a tall dark figure behind Malfoy made her stop.

"Is there something wrong here?" his icily voice made Renee blushed even her state right now.

"Nothing professor" Malfoy glared at the two before entering the great hall. The three eyed him before Snape raised an eyebrow as he saw Neville's arms around her shoulders.

"He was assisting me to the infirmary, I still don't feel better" Renee stammered, hoping he doesn't get to any conclusions.

"Very well" That's all he said after a few seconds of silence, he didn't even looked concern to her well being.

He made his way to the great hall, his robes billowing behind him. Renee glanced one last time at the back of the potion's master before the two continue their way to the infirmary, keeping her disappointment to herself.

"Go to class Neville, I can take care of myself" Renee rolled my eyes to my friend sitting on the stool next to my bed. Madam Poppy made her sure she just need some rest for the day.

"But…" Renee couldn't feel anything but to be irritated with her friend. I've been chasing him out of the infirmary for almost tem minutes now, but he still won't budge.

"It's not that I'll escape from here you know. Just go or else I'll hex you" pointing her wand at him on warning, he stood up with a protest look on his face.

"I'll visit you on lunch" he called before he could close the door.

At last I was alone. Renee closed her eyes and made a little whimper. I couldn't make him see how sick I was today; though I was sure how fine I was when I wake up earlier. Renee felt that she was going to throw up any minute.

She made herself to have a nap, thinking that will make the nauseating feeling gone. After an hour of slumber, she was hearing people talking rather quietly trying not wake her up. Managing to force Renee's eyes half open, she managed to see black billowing robes through the door.

Was I just making visions again? I wasn't so sure.

Renee woke up again to the noise around her.

"Don't be so loud Ron! Or Madam Poppy will throw us out again!" Hermione hissed on the boy next to her.

She flung her eyes open and smile as she saw Hermione, Harry, Ron and Neville around her bed.

"Hey guys" the four looked at her and smiled shyly for their ruckus.

"How are you feeling?" Hermione sat on the side of the bed.

"Much better, what time is it?" the nauseating feeling was already gone.

"Three thirty" that made her frown. Dang, I missed potions again.

Shortly after their visit or actually being thrown out by the school healer, Madam Poppy made her drink a potion for the headache. It was different than the other potion she gave her earlier, taste more like peppermint. The potion made the headache disappear in no time. Renee was thinking she could be out of the bed before supper but the matron insists that she should be on bed all day.

Renee signed, too bored lying on the bed all day. She snatched the potions book on my bag and began to read and smiled timidly on the commentaries of the half blood prince; it was like the writer was actually on my side and telling his notes on me.

After reading a few pages from the book the writer still amaze her. Whoever this person is, it must be very intellectual person. He would revise some passages on the book which is amazingly correct.

Having a mental note that she should ask Snape for this mysterious person, sleep overtakes her again with a book still on her hands.

Renee stirred up to the noise again around her. She flung her eyes open and saw the familiar figure beside the bed.

"Mum" she mumbled and sat up on the bed. Isabel looked back at her daughter and smiled warmly. Her face was not as pale as I last saw her…

"Hey Renee glad you wake up. You sleep like a hog" Renee rolled my eyes at her. That's the only time she realize that professor McGonagall was with them.

"Headache" she muttered under my breath as she had realized that she skipped lunch and dinner.

"I better get going to the hall, Isabel. I'll see you in class tomorrow" Professor McGonagall turned to her and left.

Isabel sat on the edge of the bed and took the book and lazily flips the pages. Renee could see a faint smile on her face as she looked at the notes.

"Where have you been?" Renee asked her, trying to hide her flushed cheeks as she read the book. Somehow I felt to shy about her reading it.

"I got an errand to do for Dumbledore" she said as she flipped the book to the first page. Her eyes narrowed for a moment as she saw the name of the previous owner of the book.

"What kind of errand?" Renee asked, trying to distract Isabel to the book.

She raised her head onto her and raised her eyebrow.

"You're that interested?"

"Well, you disappeared for a week. You never do that except it was that important"

Isabel dropped the book on her side and looked at her. Renee couldn't help but notice those dark circles on her eyes that can't conceal by any make up.

"It's an errand for the order of the phoenix" she finally admitted

"Order of what?" asked Renee.

"It's a secret organization against the dark lord. Albus founded it before." Isabel explained.

"You're not doing something dangerous, aren't you?" Renee asked and looked at her eyes.

The two felt silent for a moment; she must be doing something very dangerous. Renee knew they were hiding for that dark lord on the muggle world. She was still confused because the newspapers were still telling that the return wasn't true at all.

I never knew she would be fighting against him since we were hiding from him for a long time.

"You believe he's back?" Renee asked quietly.

"I never believe he died at the first place" Isabel said simply.

"But why?" she felt silent again to her daughter's question. After thinking about the pros and cons if she would tell Renee about it, she spoke.

"I predicted his return before. Though the only one who believed on it was Dumbledore" Isabel signed once again.

"Oh" the two got their eyes fixed on the book lying on the bed and said nothing.

Another thing about having this ability, not everyone will believe everything you said.

"I'm glad Minerva helped you yesterday" Isabel's voice cracks up the silence again.

"She was nice" Renee commented, thinking how the professor helped her time yesterday.

Isabel nodded and smiled sadly at her daughter, somehow she felt guilty for now being there for her. Renee noticed that she was still hiding something from her, but she didn't press the issue again.

There would me another time where she will tell me everything.

And I believe it was just a matter of time.