Author's note: Yay for chapter 36! This chapter contains a cup of angst, a pinch of foul words, two teaspoons of action, and whole cup of drama.

So yeah, it's so fun to write and hoping you'll enjoy it too.

Enjoy reading!

Chapter thirty-six:

A premonition to fulfill

It was a nice day for Hogwarts to have a Quidditch match that only a few people decided to stay inside the castle. OWLS and NEWTS were once forgotten that day, as the Gryffindor versus Slytherin match were holding now at the Quidditch field. Shouts and cheers were faintly heard through out the castle, indicating that the Quidditch game had already started.

Inside the Headmaster's office was full of tension though. Dumbledore was quietly observing the whole scene in front of him; Renee was staring madly at her mother while Isabel never felt so terrible in her life as her deepest secret were finally revealed to her daughter. There was also a faint song at the background, a song that Renee was sure the Slytherins were singing.

Weasley cannot save a thing,

He cannot block a single thing,

That's why Slytherins all sing:

Weasley is our king.

Renee continued to stare at her mother as she was taken by surprise. She didn't know what to react; is this supposes to be some bad dream?

Please tell me this is just a bad dream, a nightmare.

…Weasley was born in a bin,

He always lets the Quaffle in,

Weasley will make sure we win

Weasley is our king.

She slowly shook her head. The poor Gryffindor couldn't let the words sink within her, no…she just couldn't.

"You're joking; I know your just bluffing. This is just Malfoy's one darn joke" Renee shook her head again, "THIS IS SUPPOSE TO BE SOME JOKE!"

"Honey…please, listen to me" Isabel tried to reach her daughter, talk some sense to the frustrated girl.

"Don't touch me" she fidget at the gesture, and gave her a dark look. Renee was trembling that she had dropped the box into the floor and spilled the contents out of it.

Isabel and Dumbledore stared at the silver mask lying on the floor.

"Why…How…for fifteen years…you hide this from me, fifteen years…" Renee's voice was starting to tremble as she looked for answers at the two adults.

"It is for your own good Renee, I-" Her mother was starting to tremble too, "I just don't want you to get hurt"

"You don't want me to get hurt? What difference does it make for hiding it after fifteen years?" she huffed, "You just delayed the whole process!"

"This is my entire fault Miss Matte" Dumbledore suddenly spoke as he took the box from the floor, "It was almost twenty years ago when I asked your mother to be a spy for the light and when he asked for an heir from her…I allowed her to do so"

Renee looked at them with all hatred. For a mere second, her image for the headmaster shattered in pieces. He became a control freak into her eyes, a person who thinks people around him as a tool.

"YOU THINK THIS IS SOME PLAY YOU COULD CONTROL? YOU OLD-"she couldn't control her voice at him. She just couldn't.

"Renee Ann! Please calm down…" Isabel begged this time and holds her with both arms, but Renee just brushed it off.

"Calm down? You tell how to calm down when I thought all my life that I was just a normal witch. Then you just tell me out of the blue that I'm a daughter of most evil wizard of all time. TELL ME!" she shrieked, as a couple of tears fell out of her eyes.

"I'm so sorry…Renee please, let me at least explain things…"

"What are you going to explain? It's all look so plain to me, perfectly plain" Renee paced in front of the shaken woman, "You're a spy to them, Voldemort asked you for an heir. Of course you couldn't resist, that kind of opportunity only comes once in a lifetime. You know very well that it could get your rank higher among others…and then viola! You get birth to a daughter! Even an idiot can figure that out" tears keep flowing, but Renee keeps brushing them off.

"It's more than that…"

"Ah, of course it is…how I can forget about that" Renee smiled bitterly at the trembling woman in front of her, "You hide me for fifteen years to train me personally. And when you get to know he's back, you put me back in the wizarding world…to be a spy along with you…great, you really did a good job" she looked at her with all pure loatheness.

"Renee please, it's not just that…You're my daughter and I love you…"

"Love? Do you really know about that?" Renee laughed once again, "Are you in love with him while he's screwing your brains out? I could accept this father thing if I made me out of love…that it wasn't because of the war…but of course you didn't. You did it because of a plan; I was made just because of one hell of shit. All because of you're a spy"

"Renee…"

"You know what?" Renee brushed off her tears, "I'll rather have a troll as a mother, you disgust me Emily" her last words echoed through out the room as she flee, leaving the fragile woman sank into the floor and weep while Dumbledore tried to soothe her by rubbing her back.

…

Renee wanted to shout, to swear and to curse every little thing she could collide. She runs with no place in mind. Tears were milling into her face, making her vision blurred…but she didn't care. She didn't care when she fell down on the floor that made her knee scrapped. She didn't care if she looks like a crazy woman; she doesn't care if some students were looking at her in shock in her state as she collide them.

She wanted to get out of this place, the castle suddenly felt like hell to her. A place she had first thought of her second home, a place where she had her first friends, and a place where she had her first love.

It became a place full of lies; now she knew every bit of her life was a lie.

"Accio, Renee's firebolt!" she shouted as she reached the grounds. She could still hear the faint song from afar as she waits for her broom to reach her. And then like a runaway fugitive, she jumped on the broom, with her tears and robes joined together as they billowed behind her.

She didn't know where she was heading to. Her hair was a mess, and so was her mind. Renee was really frustrated to herself; she knew fairly well that something dark was hidden from her yet she was just denying it through out her life. Because she was blinded with her 'normal' thing wish, a kind of wish that will never come true in a million years. She began to enumerate those clues, clues that already laid out under her nose and just waiting for her to notice them.

"Oh, you don't know? Well its not that I expect that you know, it is just hidden within you. You just have to find it." Renee couldn't still vividly hear the sorting hat's words into her head.

The first day I met Harry, the first time he and I experienced the tingling sensation.

The way I understand Snake's language, how the snake bowed at me and called me her mistress.

"I'm talking about your own father. Doesn't he trust his own daughter that he can't even tell little details about his circle?" Malfoy's words echoed on my head.

She entered the forbidden forest, not even slowing down to her fast flying. She hit some small branches that leave her bruises, but she didn't care. That pain still made her think that she wasn't dreaming at all, that she was living on a living nightmare.

"It is true; you're Tom Riddle's daughter"

Renee hit a bigger branch that made her fall into the moist ground. Instead of getting up, she lay with her back and stared at the tress above. Her shoulders and knee ached like hell, she already had several bruises around her body and she could tell that her eyes were swollen from crying. But those can't be compared to the pain in her heart; a kind of pain she knew that will never be removed by anything.

"Liar…" she murmured under her breath.

Renee slowly stood up as she could hear some rustles at the bushes. She clutched her wand as she realized that she was in the middle of the forbidden forest, the last place she wanted to be.

The rustling became louder, making Renee feel so nervous. Great, here I am so problematic about this parental thing and now I need to face some creature…just great.

But a creature never came and Renee just wished it was instead from the new approached person. He was wearing battered wizard robes, and his face had this large scar that Renee couldn't help but stare on it.

"Ah, my lady…finally we meet" the man's voice was deep, a voice that Renee was sure she had heard before.

A voice that once haunted her dreams

She didn't spoke, yet she was clutching her wand like a lifeline. Esclair looked at the girl from head to toe and noticed her battered appearance.

"Went to a little excursion, my lady? I guess not all students couldn't resist the beauty of forbidden forest, it seems" he stepped forward, making Renee stepped backwards.

"What do you what from me?" she tried to spoke in a cold voice and wished the wizard couldn't smell how scared she was now.

"It is not I who needs something from you, but my superior. He had been looking for a long time my lady, and he was eager to meet you" he flashed his yellow teeth at the girl, making Renee shiver, "Yet I must admit, there was a lot changes that had happened"

"Tell your superior I do not want to see anyone nor having some business from him…nor caring about those changes you talking about. Now, Leave me alone" she stepped again backwards, making Esclair move forward towards her.

Esclair shook his head playfully, "I do not believe you do not care about it all, for all of these were centered to your well being" he began to play with his wand, "You see my lady, me and my partner had sacrificed too many things in this mission. She even had been…but then I know of course you knew what happened to her, don't you?"

"I do not know what you are talking about" she stepped backwards again, breaking some twigs at her feet.

"Nonsense, I knew you knew everything. I know your great mother told you everything" He stepped forward.

Renee didn't reply; instead she pointed her wand at the person.

"Aggressive are we, my lady? I won't hurt you…or at least I will make this fast and pain-free" his laughed echoed through out the forest and then stepped forward once again.

"Kill me; you're going to kill your daughter's superior. You'll betray him if you do so" Renee tried to play his game as she stepped backwards and surveyed the surroundings behind the man, looking for something that could help her to escape.

"I shouldn't do that actually, and who said the Dark lord ask me to this little mission?" he paced around his prey, "Lucius wouldn't like that, he just wanted to be your ally…to get higher from his ranks. The latter even resort in putting an imperious to a dementor to find you my lady"

"But then he dropped me when he found out that the dark lord had realized our little mission, and he even ordered someone to kill me to clean his dirty tracts"

"You might think how did the dark lord managed to know our little mission. Though I still have little knowledge about that, I have high speculation that Emily did the revelation to him. Telling him that he was angry by those was understatement, as I heard that the dark lord almost half-killed his inner circle because of it.

"I hide within Lucious' eyes as I still think of a revenge that could instantly kill him… And then I thought of you, my lady" He stepped closer, making Renee stepped back once again, "You see my lady, I already got some lead to you before he back out in the middle of the act. And I was thinking…I would gain many benefits if I kill you and blame it to my latter superior…revenge to Lucious, a revenge for Kaydeem, a revenge to Emily. An eye for an eye…a tooth for a tooth. Such a clever idea, isn't it?

Renee finally realized that this person was already insane…literally.

"Now that you've already know the truth, are you ready to leave this world, my lady?" he grinned widely at her.

"I am…but absolutely not in your hands!" she shrieked and shot an exploding spell at the large branch above him, making the man got buried into heavy woods.

She ran as fast as she could, clutching her wand like a lifeline. Renee silently cursed herself for not remembering her broom, but it was too late to get it back. Esclair regained himself from the branches and started to run after her.

"My Lady! Come here my lady!" he maniacally called the witch and insanely laughed while shooting different kinds of curses at her direction.

"Expelliarmus!" she shouted, forgetting her non-verbal spells in panic.

She avoided the red lights towards her, making it launched at the nearest tree that the poor tree fell on the ground.

"Crusio!" the invincible man shouted and she was already in the ground crying in pain. Her wand flew away from her as she started to seizure.

It was a pain she didn't imagine so much in her entire life, albeit it was much worse than she experience in her dreams. It was as if every fiber of her being was being burned, or chopped…she couldn't really describe it fully. Her eyes narrowed, her fists clutched the soil for support, or at least lessen the pain…but it was no use.

"You can't always run for your destiny" he laughed heartedly as he looked down at her. He put his wand on the air and shouted a spell that makes the clouds gathered to make a shape, a shape that the people dreaded to see.

The shape of a snake

"Now…" Esclair pointed his wand at her neck, "I've already told you this would be fast, aren't I?"

She was beginning to be unconscious because of the pain and accepted that she will die this very moment.

I couldn't move my body; my wand was too far away…and I couldn't even reach my extra wand…and I…

Is this really my end?

Esclair seemed to be pleased as the girl closed her eyes, indicating that she had accepted her fate. He laughed maniacally again.

"That's it, you cannot do anything anymore…do not worry, I'll do this very quick that you won't feel a thing"

"No…" she trailed; her lips were quivering though her eyes were still shut.

"There's no use of your plea, my lady…save your breath for it. Wait, you can no longer breathe after a few seconds"

"Please…"

"AVADA KADABRA!"

…

"I've never seen behavior like it- back up to the castle, both of you, and straight to you Head of House's office! Go! Now!" Madam Hooch voice was so loud that everyone could hear her ordered Harry and George towards the castle.

Hermione watched the two boys disappeared towards the castle while trying to nurse her upcoming headache. After of those Slytherins' singing and Malfoy's insults, everyone could guess this would happen anytime soon. She watched the whimpering Malfoy being assisted to stand up by his teammates, and she was so sure she had seen some smirk gracing his lips.

"That Malfoy, he planned this all along!" she exclaimed at her seatmate.

Neville nodded in agreement, though he has something else in his mind.

"Renee didn't watch the match. I wonder what happen…" he unconsciously said as he glanced at the empty seat they just reserved for the Gryffindor. Students were starting to get into the castle, still talking at the latest quarrel and game they had seen.

"I don't know, Renee just said that she still have things to do before the match" she replied, though she knew that the Gryffindor had met with the potion's master earlier. She glanced where the professor was sitting and noticed a small smirk on his face. Hermione wondered where her friend was gone to, as she knew the young witch was sp eager to see Ron play for the first time; the professor had reached the field a few minutes before the match…but Renee never did.

It's not that I could directly ask him about it, she thought as she remembered the last time she faced the potion's master regarding her friend. And as far of her state of mind right now, she doesn't want to repeat it…ever.

Her trail of thoughts was cut of by a sudden shriek. A Ravenclaw was very terrified as she pointed the forbidden forest not far from their seat. She glanced where the girl was pointing and wide eye she stared at the snake figure smoke at the sky.

Everyone panic that Hermione thought a stampede would happen. A loud voice of their charms professor echoed the field, telling them to go straight to the great hall with their prefects to guide them. Hermione acted fast, gathering all Gryffindor she could find among the chaotic atmosphere (especially the first years) and guided them towards the castle.

"Do not panic! First years gather around! Seventh years, go and protect the first and second years towards the castle! Do not run, everyone could get enter the castle!"

Hermione took another glance at the snake sign. There are now different lights were coloring above the forbidden forest. And a chill rang into her spine as she saw a green light, the very light that indicates of the killing curse.

This couldn't be good.

…

"Ban us?" Harry said, and his voice sounded strangely distant. "From playing…ever again?"

"Yes, Mister Potter, I think a lifelong ban ought to do the trick," said Umbridge, her smile widening still further as she watched him struggling to comprehend what she had said.

"You and Mister Weasley here. And I think, to be safe, this young man's twin ought to be stopped too- if his teammates had not restrained him. I feel sure he would attacked young Mister Malfoy as well. I will want their broomsticks confiscated, of course; I shall keep them safely in my office, to make sure there is no infringement of my ban. But I am not unreasonable, professor McGonagall," she continued, turning her back to professor McGonagall who was now standing as still as though carved from ice, staring at her.

"The rest of the team can continue playing, I saw no signs of violence from any of them. Well…good afternoon to you" and with a look of the utmost satisfaction Umbridge left the room, leaving a horrified silence in her wake.

Harry and George were startled at the sudden breaking of the nearest vase next to the transfiguration professor. They had seen her angry before, but never in their life they thought that they would have a chance to see her like she was going to kill someone…in her own hands.

"You two," the two boys jumped at the cold voice the professor was sporting. "Go back to your dormitory, a week detention for both of you" the boys nodded and headed to the door, they never wanted to cross the professor in her state of mind.

They opened the door and found all students all hurriedly walking towards the same direction. It was quite a chaos, as Harry and George could see the horrified faces of the students. An unfamiliar patronus suddenly entered the office, making the two boys stared at it while it spoke to the professor.

"A death eater's sign appeared above the forbidden forest! Dumbledore ordered us to check the forest, now. We'll wait for you at the entrance" Harry and George looked at each other with stricken faces.

Professor McGonagall moved so fast that Harry didn't saw the professor reached their backs and pushing them towards the crowd.

"Go follow them at the great hall, and don't go anywhere…Especially you Mister Potter!" McGonagall lastly said before leaving the two boys blending through the crowd.

The two reached the great hall in no time, though Harry and George had a hard time in locating their house mates. Everyone seems to be panicking; some were crying and being hysterical that you might think that it was already the end of the world.

"Harry! George!" Ginny greeted the two boys as they reached them.

"What's happening?" Harry looked around the great hall.

"Some death eater got into the forbidden forest and the teachers were already going to the forest to figure that out" Ginny told them with a worried face.

Harry was about to asked another thing when Hermione and Ron reached them. He could see Ron was sickly worried and Hermione looks like was about to burst any minute now.

"Harry! George! It's good now that you're already here" Ron spoke, still wearing his Quidditch uniform and obviously trying to collect himself though all he wanted to do was to panic like the rest of the student body.

"Did Renee already arrive?" Hermione looked around. Ginny shook her head worriedly and Neville looks like he was about to cry any minute.

"What happened to Ren? Isn't she with you at the match earlier?" Harry suddenly asked as he could feel his heartbeat started to beat fast.

Hermione shook her head, "She doesn't show up at the match, Harry. And nobody has seen her since then, we've already asked around. What if they already caught her? What if…"

Harry took both of her shoulders to calm her down, "Calm down Hermione, she won't be easily caught…she's stronger than that. We will find her…she might be just hiding somewhere" he calms Hermione.

Hermione meekly nodded at him.

"Have you already checked the common room? No? You and Ron stay here; the others needed prefects to follow on. I'll go check—"

"We're coming with you-"

"We can't just sit here and-"

"Let you wander alone" the twins suddenly interjected; Harry nodded and darted towards the door with the twins following him.

The trio jogged towards the tower, with their wands out for any enemy they could encounter along the way. The corridors were so eerie that it didn't help them to calm their nerves. They were half way towards the tower when they collided with the professors.

"Potter, Weasley! What in earth are you doing here?" professor Sprout asked them.

"We were just going to check the tower, there is sti—"

"Coming through, out of the way!" the twins and Harry turned around at the voice.

Madam Poppy was practically running towards the professors that Harry finally registered what was really happening. Hagrid was carrying Isabel's limp body in his arms while Snape carried Renee's. The other professors were following them and were spotted the headmaster among them. Chill rang into his spine as they got a look of Renee's limp body. Her body was full of bruises, her robes were almost ripped of, and her face was almost drained out of blood.

Harry and the twins followed them to the infirmary without saying anything. No one really bothered to chase them away either, all of them were focused at the two females.

Hagrid gently laid Isabel on the bed and Snape followed suit that he placed Renee next to Isabel's bed. Madam Poppy started to work on both of them, with Snape and Sprout to assist her.

"Give this to her fast, before the side effect shows off" Madam Poppy ordered Sprout as she gave a purple vial for Isabel to drink.

Sprout followed without any saying. Harry and the twins watched the whole scene with stricken faces. Harry glanced at McGonagall; she was trembling so hard that Harry thought the professor would faint any minute. The professor noticed them standing beside her and watching the whole scene of curing the both women.

"What are you three doing here?" she exclaimed at the Gryffindors that Dumbledore and Hagrid glanced at them.

"We were…erm trying to look for Renee earlier. She wasn't at the great hall so we began to worry about her…" Harry told her the truth as he knew there was no use in lying.

McGonagall just gave them a sigh before watching the three professors do their work. After an hour of waiting and painfully watching, Madam Poppy finally approached them.

"How are they Poppy?" Dumbledore asked.

Poppy just gave him a look then sighed, "Isabel is fine now. I expect her to be awake after a couple of hours…though I still have to check for the side effects of Crusio on her"

"And Miss Matte?" the headmaster inquired for the condition of the student.

"We've already healed the bruises and her broken bone. But…"

"But?" he asked as he could tell the hesitancy of the mediwizard.

"I couldn't estimate the damage on her mind. Her mind was blocking any spell and potion we give to her. I could say the girl was unconsciously protecting her mind from external factors Albus. The only thing we could do was to wait and pray for her to wake up soon"

Harry and the twins were all stunned from what they had heard as well as the other professors. From how Harry was transcribing in a muggle way what the mediwizard had told them, Renee was comatose.

"All teachers besides professor Snape and professor Sprout will stay for helping Madam Poppy here. The others will help me to guard the castle while dementors and Aurors checks the forest once again, you three will follow us back in the great hall" Dumbledore spoke and the others followed fast.

The door burst open and professor Umbridge entered the infirmary. McGonagall looks like she was about to hex the woman any moment now from Harry and the twins' observation.

"Dumbledore, I didn't know you're already here. What happened?"

"Dolores" Dumbledore greeted the new entered professor. "The convicted man from Azkaban had slipped into the forest and got to attack one student and a parent. The Aurors were already on the search for any death eaters that might be hiding" he explained in his mellow voice.

"Death eaters!" the short woman looks like going to faint at the word, "There is no way a death eater—"

"I am certain it is a death eater Dolores" a weak voice suddenly said. Isabel was already awake to everyone's surprise.

"And who you might be?" she asked in irritated tone.

"I'm hurt that you won't recognize an old friend, Dolores" she tried to sat, but then stopped by the mediwizard.

Umbridge seemed to be finally recognized her that she began to pale. She turned her face to the headmaster and tried to calm herself down.

"And what happened to the convicted man?" she asked.

"I managed to kill him" Isabel spoke once again, making all the people stared at her. It was an awkward silence before the mediwizard decided to break it.

"My patients need some rest now. Please all people get out of the infirmary. And you!" Poppy pointed Isabel, "You still needed some rest…I do not want any complains about it or do you still want me to resort in tie you up?" she spoke as if she knew the woman very well.

The teachers except Snape and Sprout were chased out of the infirmary, leaving the patients on their hands. Harry took one last glance inside and saw Snape at the side of his friend's bed. He wasn't sure about it, but at one moment Harry thought he just saw Snape's lips trembling before the door finally closed behind them.

A/N: can I have a little favor? Is it too selfish of me to wait for five reviews (or more! hehe) before I post the next chapter? In this way I could know you guys more… (Don't worry, chapter 37 was already finished) and to know if this story got readers like my story status is telling me. I don't care if it's negative or positive, or an advice…or just bashing…any comments and suggestions could make the story improve, so why not?

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