Chapter 7

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Casey and Dawson have seen each other for one month. They have been keeping it a secret among them and Severide and Shay. They were their best friends and they needed someone had their back. It was a hard week for Casey keeping their relationship under a cover they were only friends. The fact that he couldn't show his feelings toward her was killing him inside. But differently of him Gabby was pretty cool with their agreement, she wasn't prepared to have a couple of eyes on her and Casey if they announced that they were dating. It wasn't the right time. She needed to know they were in a good place before tell anyone. Casey tried to sneak around the firehouse with her, though she didn't buy it, she was afraid they were going be caught, if he couldn't be rational, she would be for both of them.

"What are you doing?" she asked feeling bothered.

"Me? Nothing..." he answered before drink a sip of his coffee.

"Yes, you are..." Gabby said more serious. "Your hand is resting on my thigh, Mr. Casey..." she crossed her arms.

"Really? I didn't realized that..." he looked at her, then looked around, they were almost alone, Mouch was watching TV in the common room where they were.

"We have to be professional and keep our jobs... you know?" she stared at him for a few seconds. She felt his hand sliding up on her thigh. "You don't mind, do you?"

"The truth?" he asked her. She nodded at him.

"I don't... because I'm good at sneaking around, we won't be caught..." he smiled. She observed him and didn't match his smile. She stayed quiet for long seconds, making Casey's smile dropped. "What?" he questioned her.

"I imagine that you and Hallie sneaked a lot at 51, hun?" he felt discomfortable under her gaze. He gave her a nervous smile until the smile left his lips, then he shook his head positively at her question. That was true, unfortunately. He couldn't deny. She pushed his hand of her thigh.

"Gabby..." his heart ached because her attitude and the look she was giving at him. She was hurt and jealous.

"Where?" she asked.

"Where, what?" he rested his arms on the table.

"Where did you two make out?" she was on a mission.

"Why are you asking that? I'm not with Hallie, but you..." she cut him off.

"Turn coat room? Bathroom?..." Matt was in shock... "... your office?"

"I can't believe... are you serious?" He thought for one moment. "Is it because I tried to kiss or hug you like you saw me doing these things here with Hallie in the past?" she refused to look at him. She didn't say anything.

"I think that is a yes..." he leaned his back against the chair and sighed. He stayed quiet for a few seconds. "I can't change the past, Gabby, if I could, I would it, believe in me..." this time she looked at him. "If you don't want me kissing you here, at our job, it's okay... not putting my hand on you, it's okay... We won't fight for that, I'll be happy to have you in my arms at my house or yours... And if my house is a problem for you because Hallie also lived that, I'll buy another house, where you feel comfortable and happy..."

"I feel an idiot... really..." she said drying a tear on her face. "I was totally indiscreet, I shouldn't have said those things to you..." when he was touching her arm to comfort her he reminded that he couldn't do that, she didn't want it. "I'm sorry..." she said and stood up.

"Gabby..." he called her as he got up. He felt a punch on his stomach seeing her like that and not being able to do anything. He ran a hand through his hair. He was frustrated. He found Shay at squad table.

"Shay, can I talk to you?" she was playing cards with the boys.

"Of course..." and left her cards.

"What did you do this time?" she asked as they were getting close to ambo.

"Why? She said something to you?" he told worried.

"No, I'm just kidding with you..." she laughed.

"Shay... don't do that... I..."

"What's happening?" she spoke standing before him.

"I need you to check on Gabby... I need to know how she is..."

"Did you two fight?" she got protective over Gabby.

"No, of course not... It's a long story, just check if she is fine, please..."

"Okay... but later we are having a conversation, Mr. Casey..." she pointed a finger at him.

"It's okay for me..." before Shay could give two steps, Casey grabbed her arm. "I love her, please say it to her..." Shay nodded. Shay found Gabby in one of the showers, she was sitting on the floor.

"Hey..." first Shay sat by her side and waited to her to talk.

"I don't know what happened to me... I blew everything, Shay..." Gabby started. "... you know... one time I caught him and Hallie making out on the apparatus floor, they didn't see me, I had no right to be jealous... but it was how I realized that I was falling in love with him... And today I got angry because it seemed he was trying to do with me the same things he had done with her and somehow I disrespected him... Now I feel terrible..." she was looking at her hands all the time.

"Look, you loved Casey in secret for a long time, you had time to observe him with Hallie, but Gabby you can't change the recipe of love... Kiss, hug, touch, all of this is common in the relationships, the point is how you feel when he kisses, hugs and touches you... Do you feel love?"

"I feel that I am in heaven, I feel goosebumps and a fire inside of me, I feel love, Shay... " she told smiling.

"I bet he feels the same way... And I know that because he sent here to know how you were and asked me to say that he loves you..."

"I don't deserve him..." Gabby said covering her face with her hands.

"Don't say that... He's not perfect too..." Shay told.

"Thanks, Shay for being a great friend..." Gabby hugged her.

"We are sisters, girl. Count on me! Now go seeing your boy!" Shay said patting Gabby's butt.

"Okay, okay... I get it..." She knocked at his office door. He signaled to her comes in.

"Could you forgive me?" she asked.

"Forgive what? I don't remember anything..." he smiled at her.

"I love you too, Matt..."

"You're too important to me, Gabby. And I'll do everything in my power to make you happy..." he stepped forward and kissed her on the cheek. When he was moving away, she grabbed on his shoulders and pulled him back to hug him. He was surprised and at same time happy by her affection.

"Hmmm it feels so good..." he said.

"Yeah?" she laughed. He pulled away.

"You, Gabriela Dawson, are my favorite person and my better half... And I could you kiss right now..." Gabby opened her mouth to say something. "... but I won't... don't worry..."

"... You will be award for that... later..." she said seductively.

"I can't wait..." he told her with husky voice. They barely made their way to Casey's house and Gabby and him were kissing each other, touching each other. He pressed her back against the wall in the living room. He slided his hands over her shoulders... sides... waist... hips... and grabbed her butt squeezing it while he kissed her neck.

"Oh... Take me... to your... bedroom..." she asked him. She was breathless. He returned kissing her lips. Their tongues touched each other and the sounds of their moans took the place. They stayed like that for a few minutes. They stopped kissing trying to catch their breath. He leaned his forehead against hers, then he gave a light kiss on her lips holding her face.

"How about I make our breakfast, hun?" he suggested smiling.

"I think I still have a lot of energy, so we could skip breakfast..." she slided her arms over his shoulders. "... because what I really need now is doing some exercises and your bed is the right place for that..."

"I... I don't know what to say..." he knew what to say, he just didn't want to say it.

"What?" she thought his attitude awkward.

"Gabby... baby..." he was trying to think in his words to not hurt her.

"What is it?" she pulled her arms from his shoulders.

"We don't have to do it now... we have time..." They hadn't had sex yet and they hadn't discussed it also. They make out a lot, however Casey, she didn't know why, always stop it when the things are heating up.

"You don't want to?" he pushed herself from the wall and she stood a few inches far from him.

"Yes, of course... I just think we don't have to rush..." he said.

"I feel that I am the one rushing things here... I am always trying to... do you know... have sex with you..." she gave him a half smile, "... and you are the one slowing down all..." she was nervous, she wasn't expecting having this kind of conversation with him. She feels a little pressure, but no one could blame her, she had the man of her life and always imagined doing things with him.

"Gabby, I feel you get tense every time we are getting intimate... look there is no pressure here...," he walked forward in her direction.

"Casey, stop..." she told him. He did what she asked. "I have to go..." she grabbed her bag and walked to the front door.

"You don't... Gabby..." he tried again getting close to her.

"Please..." he stopped his moves. "I'm okay, I just wanna go home... I am really tired and I'm not hungry... I'm not hungry at all..." she laughed at him trying lighting the mood. "... but you can have your breakfast..."

"But we planned to stay together all day... Listen... Forget everything I said... I never was good saying anything..." he smiled.

"We have tomorrow... it's decided tomorrow we stay together all day... now I really have to go..." she left before he could say one more word.

"Well done, Casey, you know how ruin everything..." he said punching the wall. Some hours later he received a message from Shay.

"Never again count on me to fix things for you!" she texted him.

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