Chapter 9 "Ayano's Tears, Lapis Fear"

I am really happy that there are atleast some people who enjoy this story! It would be so much better if more people liked this story, or if those who were interested in this story would still be reading it..But still I am quite happy the way it is. I like this story a lot since Lapis is my favorite and I think there need to be some stories of her. I know not many like Lapis...I also know that my writing style isn't perfect and that I often make spelling mistakes. But I'm really trying my best. And I would appreciate reviews, even if you don't like this story, reviews can always help me to improve!

Thanks a lot for reading so far chocopipe, crazywolf1991, kasumiichan and Lapis!

Ayano's POV

When I went home I ran through the meeting room and covered my face so that no one could see I was crying. I rushed into my room and slammed the door slightly. I sat down on a chair and buried my head on the desk. Tears starting to fall again. Idiot. Idiot. Idiot.

I even don't understand why I am getting so angry...after all he is just some guy...just a relative...just a friend...just a partner...just a...Did I feel something for him after all? Yes I did. I had to admit it. I loved him all this time. But I would never tell this anyone...It would be too embarrassing! And now that I am so down...god what if anyone sees me like that? Calm down Ayano. You can't just sit here in your room forever and cry. Calm down and stop thinking about this bastard. He is a playboy anyway...how many women did he screw so far? Actually I don't want to know... Seriously...this guy...But why did Lapis allow him to kiss her? Or maybe she wanted him to? No..I just can't imagine..but after all...she already experied the feeling of being happy. It wouldn't be a surprise if she also learnt about the feeling love now. Why did she kiss him? She must have known that I liked him! What a twisted person I thought she loved me as much as I loved her! But after all...Kazuma...I never told him how I feel...

Lapis POV

"So, I will be going to do some work then." Kazuma said with a gentle smile while we stood infront of the Kannagi mansion gates.

"When will you be back?"

"As soon as I can. Will you miss me?" I blushed at his question. Of course I would...

"I will..." I said quietly.

"Okay I will be going then, get in, Ayano should be home by now."

"Okay, see you later Kazuma."

He kissed my cheeck softly and flew away. I was in love. I really was. I never imagined that something like that could happen to me- a person who once had no emotions at all could feel love. I went into the Kannagi mansion with a smile on my face, greeting all the servants who looked at me confused. Probably, because they rarely saw me, someone who once was emotionless, like that. Kazuma changed me. Kazuma and his surroundings changed me. And I was very thankful to them. I remembered that Kazuma said that Ayano was probably home now, I decided to go and check it. But first I went to the meeting room to greet Jugo-sama.

"Good evening Jugo-sama." I said as I bowed.

"Good evening Lapis-san. Ren and Ayumi sent you warm regards, the two are already in bed."

"Ah, I will walk them to school tommorow morning together with Ayano-chan and Kazuma."

"Sounds good."

"Good night Jugo-sama."

"Good night."

I left the room and went over to Ayano's room. As I was about to knock at the door I heard a sniffing. Ayano-chan? Was she crying? Why? She couldn't have seen us..no way. It must be something else. I think as her friend I should comfort her. Maybe I should just walk in and ask her whats wrong. Or should I knock? This is difficult...I've actually never seen her cry before. To me she always seemed like such a strang young woman. What the hell am I waiting for now? Ayano protected me I should go in now and comfort her. With that thought I slowly opened the door to her room. I saw her cuddled on her bed, hugging a pillow. Her face was half buried into it while tears were streaming down her face. She looked so...I just felt so sorry for her. And something inside me told me that I had to destroy the person who made my Ayano so sad. I went over to her bed and sat down. As I wanted to put my right hand on her shoulder she pushed it away roughly.

"Don't touch me." I was shocked by that. What happened? Why was she mad at me? It couldn't be that she has seen us...or could it?

"Ayano-chan, what happened, why are you crying?" I asked concerned.

"Why? How dare you ask such a thing? You know best why!" She suddenly sat up and shouted, throwing the pillow to the door.

It has to be that...there is nothing else which could have made her that angry...

I didn't know what to say, I just starred at her.

"Listen. Do not come to our house anymore. And tell him the same. I don't want to see you two ever again. Just go away and never come back. I hate you two. I really do." Ayano said in a more calm but still angry voice.

My heart hurted so much. It made me sad to hear this words from her. After all she was one of the few friends I had.

"Didn't you hear me!" Ayano shouted while standing up.

"I am sorry Ayano-chan." I said as I bowed.

"What? Do you honestly expect me to forgive you? You know I loved him, Catherine told you. Even though you knew it you made out with him. How cruel can you be? I thought you were my friend!"

"Ayano-chan...I am sorry. I will stop the relationship. I am really sorry, I don't know what was wrong with me at that time. Please forgive me. You are really very special to me and I don't want to loose you as a friend."

"Shut up. I won't believe all this crap. "

"Ayano-chan! You can really be with Kazuma, you two match much better than me and him anyway. So please forgive me."

Ayano's POV

Be with him, huh? He wouldn't want me anyway. It was actually obvious that he would come to love Lapis. Everything in her is so perfect, and the biggest aspect of course was that she had the body of Tsui-Ling. A part of Tsui-Ling was still alive inside of her. Just screw them. I don't want to see him or her anymore, if they stay here they will just cause pain. So all I want is them to just disappear. I love Kazuma...I really do...I love him so much.

"Lapis. Go. It's for the best. "

"I think you are right Ayano-chan." Lapis said as she turned around and ran away.

This is for the best. Kazuma can be happy together with Lapis, but while they're at it I don't want to see any of them. It would cause too much pain.

Lapis POV

I am so dumb. I should have known it would come to this. After all I've done, I have again done something horrible. I have made a person sad...I have caused grief. I didn't want to hurt anyone anymore. That was what I promised myself. But why won't it stop? Why am I always hurting someone? I am horrible. I should just die. That's what I deserve and that is the only thing that would make others happy. I don't want to do things the Armagest way anymore...even though I decided that, why is all this still happening? Luckily everyone in the mansion was already asleep, so no one would ask questions were I am going at this hour. I will leave and never come back. Never come back to this house which taught me what emotions feel like...Something wet was rolling down my cheecks. This was the second time I cried. I felt so bad. I continued to run until I was totally out of breath. I looked around. People were still standing outside, having drinks and rich looking men were talking to vulgar dressed woman. I wondered what this place was. But right now I was just too exhausted to think about anything.

When I caught my breath I looked around again and suddenly saw a toys store. In the shop window I saw a box with instructions of how to make a softdoll. I remembered Ayumi-chan and the doll she made for me by herself. I looked at the price. 500 yen..I checked my pocket and found that I only had 500 yen left. I will buy this, for Ayumi-chan. I will make a doll for her. I went into the store with a smile and bought the product. My cheecks felt hot when I looked at the product. Ayumi will be so happy. I looked around and thought about a place where I could stay for the night. I didn't had anymore money, so I would just be fine sleeping somewhere around here. The main street was too noisy, so I turned into a corner. There were two bins standing there, I sat down on the cold floor. But right now I didn't care. I opened the box and started to read the instructions of how to make the softdoll I started to make it and cut myself several times. I can do this. And one day I will give it to Ayumi-chan. I smiled at this thought, I tried everything to just forget about what happened today. I wanted to forget about my love for Kazuma.

Kazuma's POV

Job done for today. Man I was exhausted. But my mood changed when I thought of her. I would spend the night with her today. For the first time since that day...The thought made my stomach turn and I quickly pushed the thought out of my mind. I reached the Kannagi mansion and used the key Jugo gave me to open the gates. When I went to Lapis room I knocked a few times, but she didn't answer. Maybe she was asleep? If she was I should definetely play some prank... I opened the door quietly. The moonlight was shining into her room. I looked at her bed, but it was empty. Strange. Maybe she was still having conversations with Ayano in the red heads room. I went to Ayano's room and saw that the light was still on. But I didn't hear anyone talk. I knocked at the door.

"Ayano, it's me, can I come in?"

"Don't." She said calmly. I wondered what was wrong since she would usually yell like a gorilla if she was mad at me.

"Don't say that princess, I haven't come to bother you. Is Lapis with you?"

"She isn't." I heard her answer annoyed.

"She wasn't in her room either? Where is she?"

"How would I know?" She asked as she raised her voice. I was annoyed now and shouted back at her.

"Well you should since you were the person she told me she will be with."

"I don't know and I don't care about her whereabouts!"

What the hell was wrong with this girl? I couldn't stand it anymore and mercilessy opened the door.

"Ayano! What's wrong here? Where is Lapis? Was Bernhardt here?"

"He wasn't."

"Then what is it! Ayano! Talk!"

"I already told you I don't know so just piss off! I don't want to see you!"

What the hell was this about? Could she have thrown Lapis out because she was jealous? This thought made me damn angry.

"Ayano, I will ask you calmly one last time. Where is Lapis?"

"You bastard I don't know!"

"What did you do?" I yelled as I grabbed Ayano's tiny wrists and pushed her up against the wall.

"You fought her didn't you? Aren't you ashamed? Listen clearly, Lapis still has a part of Tsui-Ling inside of her and whoever hurts her, will be my enemy. I won't ever forgive you."

"Let go of me!" Ayano demanded as she struggled pointlessly. I wouldn't let go of her, not until she told me what happened to Lapis.

"I won't. Tell me where Lapis is first." I tightened the grip around her wrists, probably hurting her, but I didn't care now. I needed to find out where Lapis was, that was the most important thing to me right now.

"Ka-zu-maa..." She said in pain.

"Tell me, otherwise it's going to hurt more."

"I had a fight with her. It's true. And I told her that I don't want to see her anymore. She walked away and I thought she would be going to your apartment."

I let go of Ayano.

"You idiot! She doesn't even know how to get there by herself!"

"Kazuma. I know what is going on between you two and I don't want to be a bother. So please just leave. I wish you all the best in finding Lapis. But don't come here ever again. I hate you."

I turned away. I didn't had time to listen to her childish babbling. I didn't give two shits about her hating or liking me. I won't forgive her for making Lapis sad. I'd never. I flew out of the window without looking at her.

Ayano's POV

He is an idiot. He will always be. He didn't even care about me saying that. He never cared about me at all. He just protected me because he was paid for it. He just spent time with me because he was paid for it. Why did I think that maybe...just maybe he cared for me? I was so silly...and I fell for a guy like him.

Kazuma's POV

Shit. Where could she be? She don't knows this city at all. Tokyo is big. I'd need atleast a week to find her. Where could she most likely be? If I was her...Impossible. There is nowhere she would go since she doesn't know this city. She must just have run off until she couldn't run anymore. Shit. This is going to be tough but I needed to find her. Ayano...you are so dumb. Just now, I didn't feel any regret for handling Ayano the way I did, I thought she deserved it. But maybe I was a little too violent. Well, it's Ayano, she will be able to forget all this. She hates me anyway so why do I even care?

That's chap 9! Again a little shorter than the others :) Hope you liked it!