Hey there! It has been a really long time, hasn't it? I am really sorry about that but I was not really sure about how to continue this story. Now I came up with an idea you guys will hopefully like!

Enjoy reading and thanks for your support!

No one's POV

Kazuma and Lapis were now back home. They drove Ayano to the hospital and went home soon after. The whole way back Kazuma did not say a word. It worried Lapis and once he removed his clothes to have a shower she asked him what was wrong.

"Kazuma, what's wrong?" she asked with concern in her eyes.

"Nothing..." Kazuma answered somewhat coldly, avoiding eye contact.

"Are you worried about Ayano?"

She shouldn't have asked that question. In his mind he cursed over and over again. He did not answer and just passed by her. He closed the door to the bathroom and dissapeared.

Lapis just stood there and was confused.

At the Kannagi resisdence...

"This is Jugo Kannagi. Who is speaking?"

"Good evening Jugo-sama. This is Kirika. Something bad happened to your daughter..."

Jugo frowned.

"What happened?" He asked. You could clearly hear the fear in his voice.

As Kirika explained the whole story he instantly regretted that he made his daughter go to the beach.

There was silence for a while.

"It is my fault..." Jugo said.

"Don't say that...Ayano..is just...really reckless...but nonetheless is could have happened to anyone..."

"... Please just be sure to give her the best medical treatment there is. I will pay as much as it takes to make her feel better as quick as possible. Do you have her phone number? I want to talk to her. I will probably head out to the hospital after dinner."

This was a surprise. Jugo never went out after the car accident he was in a few years ago.

"Yeah. I am sure she will be happy. Her number is 728392."

"Thanks Kirika. And thanks for taking care of Ayano."

"You're welcome."

With that, the heart broken Jugo hung up.

Kazuma's POV

Shit. Why am I feeling like this? What was that just now? I can't seem to face Lapis anymore. The feelings I just had for Ayano...were they...genuine? No way...I have sworn to myself that I will only ever love one woman- Tsui-Ling. I won't betray her soul. So let's just push these stupid feelings off my head and return to normal. Ayano is nothing but a bussniss contact. A good friend. A cousin. A stupid little girl.

Kazuma went to get some fresh clothes from his closet. On the way he checked were Lapis was and found her sitting on the coach. Once he put on his clothes he went over to her.

"Guess we should visit her tommorow."

Lapis looked up to me and smiled.

She nodded happily.

"I will make some chocolate cake for her! It's her favorite."

"Yeah, I am sure she will be happy."

Would it really be a good idea to pay her a visit after what happened? But if I don't go she will only end up being hurt...wait..since when did I care about women expect Tsui-Ling being hurt? Forget it...forget her...

"Kazuma, I am sure she will be fine soon. We know how strong Ayano is." Lapis assured as I felt her hugging me from behind. I grabbed her fingers and played with them.

"Yeah...you're right. She will be fine and annoying soon enough." I smirked slightly, remembering all the good times I have spent with her.

Get it out of your head. You are with someone right now. The someone you love so much.

"Tsui-Ling, how about going out for dinner?"

Lapis eyes saddened. So she still did not realize...

"Kazuma...why...why do you keep calling me that?"

"Because you are her!" I shouted smashing my hand against the wall her head was leaning at. She stepped away a bit.

"I am Lapis! I know I carry some part of Tsui-Ling inside of me but I am a different individual! Please accept me for what I am!"

She only just hasn't realized it yet...It is just as Li Lonyue said...The kind of demon that was mixed with Tsui-Ling's soul doesn't have feelings or free will at all. The reasons she slowly developed feelings was because her soul is slowly awakening.

I lifted up her chin

"Tsui-Ling, don't worry. You will fully awaken soon." I said as I leaned in and kissed her, feeling drops of tears rolling down her cheecks.

She would eventually come to realize it...she would definitely...

At Bernhardt's residence...

Bernhardt's POV

"For heavens sake. Why did Mazlum have to show up? That freaking bastard, I wish there was a way to eliminate him." Bernhardt cursed as he recalled his last attempt to get Lapis back.

"Master-shall I dispose of him?" Nonoha, a 20-year old male with medium long black hair and blue eyes asked confident.

"Nonoha. Do you seriously believe you can do that?" I asked somewhat amused about the man's laughable self confidence.

"I will try my best. After all these hands have the ability to kill an individual a thousand of times." Nonoha replied, removing the bandage from his hands. Behind this bandage were ordinary looking hands who just seemed to have a much darker complexion than the rest of his body. But the truth behin these hands was that they had an amazing amount of power. And because of that power Bernhardt hired Nonoha-who was basically with another organisation-to keep Mazlum busy whenever the overly strong servant would interfere again.

"Very well. With your help, I will get Lapis back the next time. That bitch- she will surely pay for making me go through all this crap." I said as I took another sip of wine.

Back at Kazuma's apartment...

Lapis POV

He finally let go of me. I don't know why-but today I hated his affection. He was selfish and completely negcleted how I felt. Just what the hell was wrong with him? He has always been such a gentle guy...

"So? How about it? Shall we go out for dinner?" He asked again.

I didn't look at him. He noticed it and turned my face to look at him.

"What is your answer?"

"YOU SON OF A BITCH!" I yelled pushing him away. Because he was so surprised by my sudden action I managed to push him against the other side of the wall. His eyes widened.

"Tsui-Ling, what ha-..."

"QUIT CALLING ME THAT!" I yelled as I summoned my sword and smashed it into the floor, leaving a huge hole.

Kazuma looked even more shocked now. Why, why was he being like that, if he would have just stayed the way he was, if he would not have started calling me that...then I wouldn't be this mad right now!

"Can't you see that I just want to be accepted as Lapis by you? Can't you see that I love you as Lapis and not as Tsui-Ling? Can't you see that I have a heart of my own which has grown to love you? You really can't, am I right? If that is the case why are you even with me! If you are just with me because my body, face and voice is like Tsui-Ling and just because I carry a part of her inside me then I don't want to be with you!" I yelled, fighting hard to hold back my tears. I really did not want to say the last bit- I wanted to stay with him forever-but if I wouldn't threaten him somehow-he would probably never learn.

Kazuma came closer to me.

"Are Lapis and Tsui-Ling not one and the same?"

I couldn't answer him. Because I didn't even know. I always wondered if I really was an individual. If a girl with the name Lapis actually existed. I wanted her to exist. I did not want to live as the copy of somebody.

"Hahahahaha..." Overcome by pain, sadness, disappointment and not knowing who I really was, I started to laugh madly, holding my stomach.

I looked up at him when I was done laughing.

"Yeah, you are completely right there. And now you'd better listen to what I have to say." I said demanding.

He looked at me expectant.

Hey...stop it..don't say what you're about to say...it will just make things worse...you love him..stop trying to make him pay for how he made you feel...just don't get so angry...

"I hate you! All I want to do is kill you! What made you think that I would return to you after you left me to die? You lowlife son of a bitch even awoke to your power seconds after I died! Who the hell do you think you are kidding? Like you didn't have that powers back then! You just left me to die and then you even went around to fuck all these other bitches! Completely forgetting your pirde and the loyality you should have towards me! You are a disgusting weak bastard who is not even able to save people he loves! That is why I just want you to die! For leaving me alone back then! You -" I was suddenly cut off by his hand which he put over my mouth.

I had said too much...I know...why did all this come out? Was some of this really true? Some of these were definitely Tsui-Ling's thoughts... Otherwise I would not have felt so serious about them.

"Just stop. I don't want to hear anymore. You are exactly right. You can kill me whenever you feel like. I don't have anything to lose anymore-since I already lost the most important thing in my life- the love of my dearest one. I am useless, I could not save you back then- and that is a fact that will never change." I felt that tears streamed down his face and I once again regretted what I said.

"Good night." He turned away and went into the bedroom, closing the door behind him.

My lips tried to call his name, but they did not make a sound.

I lifted my arm to try to pull him back, but I just could not bring myself to do it.

Kazuma...Kazuma..Kazuma!

Why...why did I always have to say such harsh things whenever I was upset by his behavoir?

It were definitely not Tsui-Ling's real emotions-she was pure and kind-she would never think of Kazuma like that.

"Why though, why did he let me die?" A voice inside me seemed to scream.

Tsui-Ling.

"Shit!" I cursed as I threw a vase to the floor.

If only...if only this part of her wouldn't be inside me...I would be able to live as a normal individual!

"I am sorry Kazuma, I am sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry."

Was the text message I sent him right after my tears started to fall again.

...Please forgive me...

This chap was not as long as my usual chapters because I only wanted to focus on their fight and the change of emotions. The next chap will be much longer and include some action as well as some romance. I will update soon - I promise I won't make you wait that long this time!

I hope you liked this chap and please review me your thoughts!