Alex was away. Alex was away on a mission and Kara didn't like it one little bit. It was bad enough when her sister was somewhere on business that didn't necessarily involve guns and aliens. But this? This was way worse. Alex couldn't even use her phone to call her sister and tell her how she was getting on. Kara sighed with frustration as she slammed her head on the table. She was tired. She really was. But she couldn't possibly go to sleep. As if on demand, Kara's phone vibrated. It caused her to lift her head slowly and check who the message was from. She was expecting it to be from Mon-El. Kara had been low-key avoiding him and didn't even know why. Thing were just weird.
What Kara didn't expect was her sister's gilfriend's name to pop up on the screen. She was asking her to come over, not forgetting to include the fact that she had ice cream in the freezer. Kara smiled. Not waiting another minute, she took her phone and keys and left her apartment. She flew to Alex's flat in her regular clothes. She decided it would be best to enter the apartment the way normal prople do (through the door), because last time she knocked on the window she almost gave Maggie a heartat attack. In Kara's defence, she did think Maggie would be used to those kinds of things by now. Thinking about it now, Kara realized that knocking on a window of a fourth floor apartment in the middle of a night during a big storm probably wasn't the best decision she had ever made.
She knocked on the door. It opens within seconds, as if Maggie had been waiting by it. She looked a little flushed, as if she had been crying. Kara eyed her suspiciously but didn't comment.
"Hey!" she said, coming inside and closing the door behind her.
"Hey. Thanks for coming, Kara," Maggie said. Kara looked at her. Something was definitely wrong. Maggie's lips were smiling but her eyes weren't. They looked sad. Kara struggled with pretending not to notice it. Her instinct told her to try and take care of Maggie, like she takes care of everyone. Eliza always said that it was her caring instincts that got her into trouble sometimes, but Kara couldn't help it. Maggie sat down at the table and Kara followed her.
"I half expected you to come the traditional way, you know, through the window. As you do," Maggie laughed. Kara smiled and shook her head.
"I can't say it didn't cross my mind." The girls were silent for a while before Maggie spoke.
"I miss Alex," she said. Kara looked up, not really knowing what to do.
"She'll be back soon," Kara replied, hiding the fact that she missed her sister more than anything. Maggie nodded but didn't look any better. "What is it?" Kara pushed her, slowly taking her had into her own. She noted how Maggie's bottom lip trembled.
"I'm afraid," she said quietly. "It scares me that I miss her. It scares me that I need her. I've never needed anyone like that before." Kara nodded, discovering she knew exactly how she felt.
"If it makes you feel better, she feels exactly the same," Kara said, immediately hating herself because how could that possibly make anyone feel better? Maggie nodded her head but her eyes filled with tears. Kara panicked a little, not knowing what to do. She had never seen Maggie cry before. She was a badass detective who carried a gun with her and arrested people twice her size on a daily basis. Kara decided to act the way se would if it was Alex.
"Can I hug you?" Kara asked tentatively, hopping of the chair. Maggie's eyes widened for a moment but then she nodded, accepting Kara's embrace.
"It's okay to let yourself be loved and cared for," Kara said. While she was comforting Maggie, she realized that things would be so much better for her if she just followed her own advice once in a while. But she didn't have much time to think about those things. Because Maggie grabbed onto her shirt and started sobbing. Kara's eyes widened as her heart started pumping. As of now, she had absolutely no idea how to console her.
"It's okay," she soothed, biting back her own tears. She wished her sister was here. "Come on," she said, pulling Maggie up and guiding her towards the couch. They sat down and Kara covered Maggie with a blanket.
"I'm so sorry," Maggie said once she calmed down a little.
"There's nothing be sorry about," Kara reassured her, her heart breaking for her a little.
"I'm so messed up," Maggie sighed.
"It doesn't matter. We'll fix you," Kara promised. After that, silence fell upon them.
"I sometimes feel like I'm really hard love. Like everything's too complicated," Kara confessed after a while, letting Maggie know she wasn't the only one that was a little troubled. She suddenly felt vulnerable because she had told Maggie something that not even Alex knew about her.
"Nobody should make you feel that way, Little Danvers," Maggie replied, sniffing and leaning her head on Kara's shoulder.
"I know that. Deep down, I know," she said.
"You're messed up too," Maggie sighed, a light laugh escaping her lips.
"Yeah. So we can be messed up together," Kara said.
"I'm glad to have you in my life, Little Danvers," Maggie said, leaning her head on a pillow and closing her eyes.
"Back at you, Sawyer," Kara said, lying down next to her.
Kara stayed the night. They both needed company.