A/N: Also redid this chapter. TISSUE ALERT! Lol was told off for not adding one before.

Song:

American Mall – Sorry's not enough.

Chapter 2

I was dreading going to work. I have been avoiding Edward but I know that I can't keep ignoring him; after all I am having his child. I drove into the parking lot, immediately noticing Edward's car as I park a few down from him. I grabbed my bag, hurrying through reception, towards my class room, hoping to avoid Edward.

As I turned around to see if he was behind me I collided with a hard body, causing me to stumble backward and loose my footing. A strong warm arm wrapped around my waist, stopping me from falling before they pulled me up, crushing me to their chest.

"Oh, I'm so sorry, I was distracted." I said pulling my eyes away from the chest and up to meet Edward. I immediately and reluctantly stepped out of his hold, bending to grab my bag and attempted to scurry around him.

"Bella!" he said as he grabbed my arm, which I immediately, with a slight moment of hesitation, pulled out of his grasp. I didn't turn back; I didn't want to see his gorgeous face again.

"Edward, I'm going to be late." And with that I left him in the corridor, watching after me as I quickly rounded the corner to my class room.

By the time break arrived I wanted to go home, thankfully I had no yet been sick, then again I haven't eaten anything either. But the constant thought of Edward being around the corner or knowing where I would be, kept me on constant guard. I couldn't stand to talk about what happened that night; I couldn't stand to think what he thought of it. I was probably the only person he could think to go to, who wasn't his sister, to get an easy bunk up when he wasn't happy.

I sighed as my last student left for the lunch break. I decided to avoid going to the cafeteria, not wanting to add fuel to the morning sickness and hid out in my classroom. Taking off my heels and folding my feet on the chair underneath me, I began to munch on a sandwich as I caught up on my neglected work.

The door opened quietly but I didn't bother to acknowledge it, keeping my head hovering over my work.

"Bella, I want to say I'm sorry, about the other night, I was just shocked but I think we need to talk about this." I froze as soon as I heard Edwards voice, but I couldn't lift my head to see his face.

"Edward, there is nothing to talk about." I said pushing my papers into a pile but his hand flung down and stopped me. He knew I was going to make a run for it.

"Bella please, hear me out." I sighed and lifted my head, a silent tear running down my cheek. I knew it was his baby and I wanted this baby, but I knew he would beg me to abort it. What if he told me that he no longer wanted to speak to me, or no longer wants me in his life. That he is disgusted with me for getting pregnant or that he doesn't want anything to do with my poor child. I sucked in a breath and finally my eyes met his.

"Just say it Edward." He too sucked in a breath and walked around the desk to crouch in front of me, taking my hand in his.

"Bella, I know that night I was anything less than a friend and I took advantage of you, and for that I am sorry. I was down about Tanya and I needed comfort. Truth is, you were there and you've always been there for me. It was wrong of me and when Alice told me that you were a virgin I felt even worse because I took that away from you. Now that I found out that you're pregnant, linked with the fact you've been ignoring me, I assumed that it's mine. Bella I want...no I need to know if it's mine. I promise I wouldn't kick off or anything, I would do all I could to help, I would be there for you. You're my best friend Bella and I don't want to ruin that." I could see tears glistening his eyes and it was as his words began to register I broke down in tears, sobbing as he pulled his around me.

"I'm so sorry Edward. I didn't mean for anything like this to happen. I can't say I regret it but I can't get rid of our baby, I thought about it but I couldn't. I'm so sorry." His hands were rubbing my back as he shushed me calmly.

"Bella, it's ok, I would never ask you to get rid of it. I promise I would help with anything, even if it's a ride to the hospital, I will be there for you." I wanted so much to forgive him but after everything, he did this to me and didn't even think of the consequences. After all, it's not going to have an impact on his life like it will mine.

"Thanks Edward but I can do this on my own; I don't need your help." I reluctantly pulled out of his arms and stood, turned and walked away. Again.

I didn't need his help; I was more than capable of doing this on my own. I knew what it would be like anyway; he would be interested for a year, find a new girlfriend and start missing visits, then he will get married and have more kids and mine, ours, would get forgotten. I didn't want that for my kid and I couldn't let it happen. I would rather cut the cord now and save my kid for hurt and devastation, rather than let it continue and see the hurt on my poor baby's face when I have to break the news to it.

I continued to walk down the corridor, just kept walking, not really taking in the students around me. Once I made it out into the cold air, I sat on the wall outside reception, taking deep breaths to calm myself. The cool air helped clear my head until the bell rang. I sighed and stood, making my way towards my classroom to find my student seated. Two more hours until I could leave.

Edward POV

Bella's pregnant, with my baby! How could I do that to her? As soon as she confirmed it was mine I felt angered at myself. Bella had only just come out of university and just found a job, and then me, her best friend, came along and took it away from her.

I was so upset when Tanya dumped me, I loved her more than she knew and when she came home and exploded, I was so hurt. I didn't know where to go. Alice and Emmett would just say they told me so and express how much they hated Tanya. Mom and Dad would just pity me. I had Bella; she is (WAS) my best friend and the only person I could go too who would be ok with me talking about Tanya and wouldn't say anything; just letting me get it all out. I have always loved Bella; ever since we were younger I have loved her. I had even, when we were six, told her and then gave her half of my cookie and as we grew older we became closer until I met Tanya.

Tanya was one of the popular cheerleaders, her strawberry blond curls were beautiful, she was the girl that every guy in my year wanted and I was flattered when she approached me.

At the time I was very much in love with Bella; she and I had grown close and when I found out she was dating Mike Newton, it broke my heart. I had never plucked up the courage to tell her how much I felt for her; I didn't want to spoil our friendship but when I found out I was beyond upset. It was worse when he started bragging about sleeping with her, I think I might have given him a black eye and of course that only angered Bella more. She started shouting about me being jealous which unbeknown to her I was.

I was so devastated I accepted Tanya's offer and grew to love my newly found popularity. The more time I spent at prep rally's, the less time I had with Bella and we began to drift apart. Tanya was never as close to me as Bella was; Bella understood me and would always be there for me where as Tanya would never ditch her friends to spend an hour chatting with her boyfriend.

Once we left for university Tanya and I began to drift apart, she was doing a law degree and I was becoming a teacher. She would split her time with working at a law company and studying with her friends; that was when I started to crave Bella's company. She had gone to the University of Seattle and I went to Dartford, sure we wrote to each other but once Tanya began getting jealous, she made me stop.

When Bella turned up at the school I was working in, in Seattle, I was more than surprised. We had always spoken about our future; she was going to become a writer and I was going to be the world's best composer, I knew I wouldn't achieve mine but I had hoped Bella would.

I knew that now I had her back I had to be her friend again, I wanted to regain that closeness we always had. It was a relief to have someone who understood me back in my life, who knew me all my life and wasn't family. Tanya didn't understand the connection I had with Bella and I didn't expect her too. She would accuse me of having an affair with Bella because we would spend time together due to Tanya's constant absence, and I would tell her the truth. When she told me she had cheated, I had never expected it.

As soon as I saw Bella, the love for her inside of me rekindled. She has always been beautiful, more beautiful then Tanya by a long shot. Her beautiful chocolate curls were always so soft, her pale skin was so flawless and she always smelled amazing. More than anything I really loved Bella; it wasn't until Tanya left that my eyes truly opened to see the beautiful woman that had always been in my life.

And when I made love to her, it was without a doubt the most amazing night of my life; to have her in my arms, to be so close to her, to run my hands through her silky hair and hear her call my name between ragged breaths, made my heart flutter. To wake up and find her missing was heart breaking; the thoughts that ran through my head made me panic. She regretted it.

A few weeks pasted and I hardly saw her; she skipped all the family nights and every time I tried to speak to her at school, she screamed at me to leave her alone. I pestered Alice to talk to her for me but she told me she was avoiding her too. I would ring Bella everyday and get no answer; I would even knock on her apartment door and got no answer. I was so desperate to know that she was alright that I became so desperate; I knocked on her neighbour's door, asking if she still lived there and sure enough she did.

I began to back off, giving her time to think but without her company I began to wallow, not going to family nights then not going out at all, sitting by the phone, hoping she would ring. And then Alice dropped the pregnant bombshell. I couldn't believe it, my heart had stopped beating because I was one hundred percent sure it was mine. And then she told me Bella had been a virgin I wanted to shove a knife through my heart. No wonder she ran and never spoke to me, I had destroyed her.

And when Alice went ape shit on me I knew she had figured it out. I had moaned to her that Bella had been avoiding me although try as she might I didn't tell her why; I knew she would kill me. I had to see Bella that night and when I saw the tears in her eyes, it caused me pain; I wanted to wrap my arms around her and tell her how much I loved her but she didn't want me too. She didn't want me anywhere near her and I didn't blame her but it hurt me like a venomous bite.

Once Bella confirmed she was carrying my child I couldn't help but hug her, comforting her while she cried. She told me she didn't want anything from me but I couldn't help but want to help, after all this is my fault and my baby. I knew I could never make her get rid of it; it was something that connected me and Bella, and it was ours. I couldn't get rid of anything that was hers; I still had the small gold bracelet with her name engraved on it, she had given me before she went to visit her mother for a month when we were ten.

I had tried to run after her but she had disappeared. I had a free period so I just sat in my classroom, not doing anything but thinking of a way to get Bella to understand that I want to help. Of course I came up this nothing; when I was younger I would run to Alice and beg her to talk to Bella but even Alice isn't speaking to me. Emmett speaks to me but the anger at me was evident when he spoke; I know he treats Bella like a sister and to find out what I had done, he wasn't happy with me. Hell even my parents aren't happy with me. I needed to make this better.

After my last class I made my way home, my apartment was nothing special; it had been enough for both Tanya and I. Since I pay for it, I got to keep it. It felt empty without another person here, it felt spacious.

I dumped my bags on the kitchen table and was suddenly stuck with an idea. Dinner. I could take Bella to dinner, but getting her to accept was the real problem. I grabbed my Volvo keys as I ran out the door; I decided face to face would be better than over the phone.

I stood at the door; hand poised to knock but suddenly didn't have the same motivation as I had seconds before. I sucked in a breath and knocked on the door, I heard her call from inside the apartment and waited patiently until she opened the door. My jaw dropped when she answered the door, clad only in a towel that barely hung over the knee. I gulped at the sight of her breath taking sight before answering, hoping I could still make a coherent sentence.

"Edward? What are you doing here?" she asked her voice surprised and slightly angered, she crossed her arms over her chest in an attempt to hide herself.

"I wanted to ask you to dinner. So we could talk." She looked at me sceptically before sighing, opening the door for me to step in and closed the door behind me.

"I guess we could. Let me get changed." She said, walking off towards her bedroom, I couldn't help but stare as I watched her leave, her hair in a mass of curls.

I sat on the couch, the telly wasn't on but her iPod was playing music through the docking station below it. I sat back on the sofa where things had once gone pear shape and waited patiently. Fifteen minutes later she appeared, her hair dry and in perfect curls, she wore light make up and best of all, she wore a light purple dress that made my eyes pop at how amazing she looked.

"Where are we going?" she asked as she pulled on her coat. I stood and headed to the door, opening it for her to go first.

"The Chinese place on the high street, I've heard its good and I know you like Chinese." I could see the sceptical look in her eyes but she just shrugged, walking out the door with me following behind. She locked the door before we made our way towards the elevator.

To say I was nervous was an understatement. Bella looked as beautiful as ever and I knew this was far from a date, but I could help but like the idea of Bella and I going out for dinner. Once we had ordered, we sat in a moment of awkward silence. Thankfully Bella broke it.

"What is all this about then Edward?" she didn't seem angry but she seemed tired, just like I was of her being away from me over something that can easily be resolved. But how do I tell her that.

"I wanted us to talk, about everything. I still want to be friends with you Bella and I want to be there for you...both. I want to be involved in this child's life and I want to do everything I can to help you." Although I wanted to tell Bella how much I loved her I knew I couldn't, I had to rekindle our friendship before even thinking of telling her my feelings.

"Edward I have told you I don't need your help. I can do this on my own." She has always been stubborn but I was determined and I wouldn't let her do this on her own.

"I know Bella but I want to do this. I want to help support this baby and I wish for one moment that you won't be so stubborn and let me do this." I could see the persistence in her eyes as she struggled to see reason in my words.

"I don't want you to be in this baby's life if you are going to be interested for about a year and then fuck off with your new girlfriend to start a family. I can't let you do that!" I would stick by my decision, no matter what, I have to see her.

"Bella, I wouldn't do that! You're my friend and I will be there for you and this baby!" I had to convince her, I want to show her how much I cared for her, how much I was willing to do for her. She sighed and bowed her head, looking at her lap.

"I know how these things work and I don't want that for my child. I would rather cut the strings now before my baby gets too attached to you." I could see where she was coming from; she wanted to protect it, but I knew I couldn't leave her. I reached across the table, my hand softly gripping hers, my thumb rubbing soft circles over the back. She slowly lifted her head, a soft smile on her lips disappeared as she met my eyes.

"I am not leaving you; I'll be there when ever you need me. Whether it's to bring you a burger because you have a craving or to hold your hair while you're sick, I'll be there." Her lips pulled into a slight smile then it dropped suddenly as she pulled her hand away from mine.

"You won't have to. I'm leaving." She didn't look into my eyes but at her hands, a single tear ran down her cheek. Why was she doing this to me? I wanted to pull her into my arms, kiss her beautiful lips and beg her to stay.

"Why? Where? What?" was all I could manage, I was too shocked. She just sighed and finally looked up at me.

"I need to leave this place; I need to get away for a while. I need some space from here, work and..." she cut off as she bit her lip; I didn't need to ask to know what she would say next.

"Me." it was barely a whisper and I was surprised she heard me.

"I'm sorry Edward." She stood, pulled her bag over her shoulder and turned, leaving me sitting on my own watching after her. I rubbed my hands over my face hard, hoping it would rub away my stupidity.

Why did I have to think with my dick instead of my head or even my heart for that matter? I wanted to tell her I loved her, I wanted to bring her into a hug and kiss every inch of her face, to feel her warm body next to mine every morning and to be the first to see her smile. I wanted her to be mine but I knew I had already lost her.

I pulled myself together and left a fifty dollar bill on the table as I stood and walked out, not knowing what to do next. I slowly walked to my car, my brain barely functioning as I turned it on and drove towards my apartment. I needed to think of what to do next.

BPOV

It was a split decision, I hadn't really decided but I needed to escape from all this mess and where better than my mother's in Florida. I knew my mother wouldn't mind, especially when she finds out why I am moving back home. I was only planning on a month, maybe two but I would return to Seattle, eventually.

I loved Edward and I wanted nothing more than to take him up on his offer, to have him wait on me night and day; which would be something I would take advantage of. But I didn't want that, I wanted him to do it because he loves me, not because he fucked up and needs to put it right. I need to hear the words.

So here I am, in my apartment with my iPod in its docking station blasting out Gaga as I shook my hips around my room, pulling my clothes out of my closet and placing them into my suitcase situated on my bed. If I am going to be honest, I didn't want to go but I needed to be away from Edward to decide what I want and the same for him.

I hear a quiet giggle from behind me and turned to find Alice smiling widely at me before it quickly faded. She ran at me, wrapping her arms around me tightly.

"Please, you can't leave. I've only just got you back; don't let Edward being a royal pain in the ass send you away. I want to be here for you and so does Edward; he cares deeply for you." I could feel her tears start to soak my t-shirt as I too began to shed tears.

"I love him Alice, which is why I have to leave. I can't stay and raise his child, knowing he doesn't return my feelings and then watch him get married to some other bitch like Tanya, have a family of his own while he forgets about me and his child. I can't do that to both of us." I said through my tears; I have never told Alice how I felt towards her brother before and to see she wasn't surprised made me feel better.

"This is killing him, he wants this child and he wants to help you. Don't push that away." Alice said as she pulled back and looked me deeply in the eyes.

"I have to let him go." I turned as I pulled myself out of his grip and wondered towards my wardrobe, pulling out more items.

"Bella, Please don't leave, for Edwards sake." I sighed and shook my head; she knew it was a lost cause so she came over to me, brings me into a tight hug. "Anything you need, a girly night, shopping trip, hell even ice cream; call me and I'll be there in a flash." More tears were flowing down both of our cheeks as she broke away from my hold, flashing me a smile before leaving.

As soon as I heard the door close, I sunk to the floor as let the tears take over. I knew I had to leave but I just wished I wasn't leaving so many people I love behind. I know Emmett and Alice would never forgive me easily, but I knew they understood why.

Eventually I had everything packed, my suitcases zipped up and waiting by my door. I tugged on my coat and took a final look at my apartment before leaving, locking the door behind me and heading towards my car. I lifted my cases into my Audi and hop into the driver's side.

A figure on the other side of the road caught my eye. There, in his grey coat with a glum look over his face was Edward. I looked at him and I could tell he had been crying by the redness of his eyes. I wanted nothing more than to run to him but that wouldn't help at all. I continue to looking at him for a couple of minutes as he did me before pulling myself together.

Once again more tears were shed; I couldn't stand to look at his saddened face. I took in a deep breath before finally turning on my car and driving off, watching him in the mirror the whole way. 'I Love you' he mouths to me as I continue down the road, causing me to break down completely in tears.

"I Love you always and forever my Edward." I whispered softly as he eventually disappeared into the distance.