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How much do you care?
When did I lose your friendship?
Demyx always had busy days even when he didn't have a mission to fulfill. He helped everyone in the Organization. Most of the help was just talking but there were few things he did do too. For Saïx it was in full moon nights. The berserk turned into a werewolf, which really few of the other members knew about. Demyx had noticed it off and had decided to help him out in those nights. That night consisted of taking a controlled transformation and being a while in the form of a werewolf. Demyx called Saïx a 'Puppy' at those times.
Then there was Xaldin who sometimes needed help with the food. Especially when he left for a mission did Demyx take over the cooking. With Xigbar it consisted of shooting moving targets which wasn't Demyx himself but the water clones he created. Zexion needed once in a while help on translating different languages.
Demyx always had good notice when people weren't themselves anymore. He searched for little things to notice if someone was little off. He nearly always found the problem easily and got them helped. But there was one thing that did bother him… No-one seemed to notice if he wasn't feeling too well.
Demyx sighed and leaned against the wall next to the front door. He had come out for a short break and to get some fresh air. Demyx closed his eyes and tried to relax. He didn't want people to notice that he wasn't the happy-go-lucky guy anymore. The reason why he felt so lonely wasn't fully his. And Demyx just couldn't bring himself to blame anyone else for it either. The truth was that ever since Roxas came in into the Organization Demyx had been left for smaller notice. Especially by Axel…
Demyx didn't mind about that since he had made quite good friends with Roxas but something just wasn't same anymore. He kept doing things same way as always but some things seemed to have changed and Demyx just couldn't tell out what it was. Yet when someone asked if everything was all right, Demyx noticed himself lying, but he just didn't want others to worry about him.
Eventually at one evening, things started to change. Axel and Roxas got a good idea and they decided to scare Demyx… But things didn't go as planned. They waited at one of the closets on the third floor, which was where Demyx and Axel's rooms were at. It didn't take long before Demyx did come close by but he didn't pass the closet. Axel and Roxas waited mischievously but were quite soon shocked.
Demyx leaned against the railing and sighed. The day had gone really well but the feeling of loneliness started to be too much. Before he even noticed, Demyx started to cry. Both Axel and Roxas were shocked. "Oh gosh… Is he—?" Roxas started before Axel managed to shut him up. Demyx was startled and he looked around while drying his tears.
"Is there someone?" He called out but got no answer. Demyx sighed and started to continue his way back to his room. Axel and Roxas came out of the closet once the musician had gone back to his room.
"Something's not OK…" Axel whispered before he left after Demyx. Roxas followed quietly. They came to the Nocturne's door and Axel knocked on it. Demyx was a little startled but he did call them in. "Hey, Dem… What's up?" Axel tried to be casual while walking in into the blue colored room.
Demyx was sitting on his bed and shrugged. "Not much. What brings you two to my room?" Demyx asked happily. Axel and Roxas sat down on the nearby chairs. Eventually Axel sighed.
"Is something wrong, Dem? I mean that…. Well, the two of us were up for scaring you but we… Well, we saw you crying…" Axel explained a little hesitantly. Demyx blinked few times but chuckled then.
"Crying? Yeah, right… I think you saw things…" Demyx said with a grin. "Besides, why would I be crying? There's no reason for it." Demyx continued and smiled a little. Axel shook his head and sighed.
"I did see you cry. C'mon, Dem… You would tell me if something wasn't OK, right?" Axel said. He wasn't fully sure what he had seen but he wasn't going to back off now.
"I wasn't crying, Ax. I just got something in my eye and you know… Water elemetarist and all…" Demyx tried to explain. Axel sighed. He knew he wasn't going to get anything out this time.
"Okay… I believe you… Just… You do know that you can come to me whenever you feel like it, right?" Axel told out and Demyx nodded eagerly. "Okay… Well, goodnight, Dem. See you in the morning." Axel said and he and Roxas left the room. Once Demyx was alone in his room, he lay down on the bed and sighed.
Sure, Demyx knew that Axel meant well but… He just didn't want to worry anyone and… Well, Axel seemed to be more with Roxas than anything. And the young Keyblader came to Demyx once in a while, especially after a nightmare for help.
Few days later Demyx was sitting on the roof and watching the stars. He didn't feel for going to sleep and watching the stars seemed to help him a little. Suddenly someone came up to the roof too. "Oh… Sorry, Dem… Didn't know you were here…" Roxas said little surprised. Demyx looked at Roxas and smiled at him.
"Nah, it's OK. What brings you up here?" Demyx answered and patted the place next to him. Roxas smiled and walked next to him.
"Oh, you know… Had a nightmare and thought I could calm down here a little." Roxas answered sheepishly. Demyx chuckled a little and hugged the youngster.
"It's OK. I kinda come here too when I need to relax a little." Demyx answered happily. "You know… Unless you're willing to talk about the nightmare I could tell a little secret." Demyx whispered.
"What kind of secret?" Roxas asked curiously. "Oh, and about the nightmare… It's not that bad. Just need to calm down…" Roxas continued and blushed a little. Demyx chuckled and lay down on the roof.
"Whenever Axel couldn't sleep I suggested something to him… A slight race at the city." Demyx said with a smile. Roxas nodded. "So, you up for it?" Demyx asked while sitting up.
"Why not. Sounds quite good." Roxas said with a nod. They stood up and Demyx created a dark portal down to the city. "What's the track?" Roxas asked excited.
"Just one thing first… Don't tell Axel that I told that out." Demyx said sheepishly.
"Don't worry. I won't tell a thing 'bout this." Roxas reassured him with a smile. Demyx nodded and thought for a while.
"How about to the end of the fourth building on the right and back?" Demyx asked and Roxas nodded his agreement. "Okay… Ready… Set… Go!" Demyx counted before the two of them ran to the track.
Demyx let Roxas take the lead but didn't fall too far behind. Once Roxas was coming back towards the start Demyx sped up. When he reached the end of the fourth building he heard something strange. Demyx stopped for a while and looked around but didn't see a thing. He shrugged it off and was just going to continue the race when something tripped him.
Demyx fell to the ground with a surprised yelp. While he pushed himself up he heard something behind him. "This is not good." Demyx thought when he realized to hear a coming of a Heartless. Gulping, Demyx looked behind and stared in shock.
There was a huge Heartless with sharp claws. It was forming from lots of smaller and weaker Heartless. Demyx gulped once before trying carefully to get up and run… But he didn't get further than to sit up to his knees.
Roxas had come back to the castle door and was just going to turn triumphantly around when he heard a scream. Roxas stared shocked how a huge Heartless struck Demyx against the closest house. Without waiting Roxas called out his Keyblades and ran to help the Nocturne.
The Heartless readied for next strike, which would have been striking the four claws through Demyx's back. But Demyx was slightly faster and managed to call out a watery shield around him. The shield wouldn't have managed to stop the next strike but it never needed to do that. Roxas came just in time to block the next hit and strike the Heartless off.
"Demyx! Are you OK?" Roxas asked worriedly. Demyx looked behind himself to see Roxas fight against the oversized Heartless. Carefully Demyx stood up and called out his Sitar to help in the fight.
"I'm OK…" Demyx answered quietly. Once the Heartless was gone he leaned against the wall and closed his eyes. Roxas got a little worried.
"You sure you're all right?" Roxas asked. Demyx sighed, nodded and smiled at Roxas. "We'd better get out of here before more comes…" Roxas stated and created a dark portal. Demyx only nodded and followed him through the portal.
They came out in the living room. Roxas still looked quite concerned about his friend. Demyx chuckled a little. "I'm fine. Just little shaken but alright." Demyx tried to reassure him. Roxas nodded but still wasn't sure about the answer. Suddenly Axel ran to the living room.
"There you are! Are you two all right?" He asked once he got there. Both Demyx and Roxas nodded. "You sure? I heard a freaking scream and couldn't find you two from your rooms." Axel explained. Suddenly he noticed something. "Oh hell… What the fuck happened!"
Axel ran straight to Demyx and nearly dragged him along. "You're hurt. C'mon." Demyx blinked few times in which Axel took to his chance and dragged Demyx through a dark portal. Roxas followed quite worried. Axel put Demyx down to a chair and took the cloak off from the musician. Demyx tried to protest but Axel was faster.
"You're bleeding, Dem. What the fuck happened and where were you?" Axel nearly shouted while starting to heal the four wounds on Demyx's side. Demyx blinked and hissed at touch on his wounds.
"We... Ouch! Could you be a little easier on those?" Demyx started and half-heartedly glared at Axel. Axel muttered a short apology and told him to continue. Demyx sighed and winced at the next wound. "We were out on taking a short race. The darn Heartless wasn't on the plan…" Demyx explained. Axel nodded.
"Why didn't we go to Vexen?" Roxas asked carefully. Axel sighed and stood up once he was ready with the healing.
"The mad scientist is on a mission." Axel explained shortly. "And even if he wasn't on a freaking mission you wouldn't have gone to him, would you Dem?" Axel continued. Demyx blinked but answered to the challenge.
"Yeah, I would have…" He stated as firmly as he could. Axel snorted.
"Yeah, right. I really don't believe on that one." He stated and crossed his arms. "You would've just claimed that everything's OK and tried to heal those on your own." He said slightly angrily.
"No… I would've gone to him. I just didn't know it had struck those wounds!" Demyx tried to explain. Axel shook his head. "Why don't you believe me, huh? I'm not that stupid that I wouldn't go for help!" Demyx shouted back.
"Demyx, please… Let's not take this into a fight. It's just that…. Well, you know…" Axel said trying to save the situation. Demyx sighed and stood up. "Dem, come on…" Axel tried but Demyx shook his head.
"I'm not taking this into a fight… Goodnight and sorry, Rox…" Demyx said and walked out. Axel sighed and slumped down to his own bed. Roxas blinked few times. This didn't go too well.
"So… Did you two end up in a fight?" He finally asked as carefully as he could. Axel sighed and shook his head.
"I wish I knew. Lately it's been quite hard to get a normal conversation with Dem…" Axel answered sadly. Roxas nodded quietly. "Anyway, you can stay over the night if you want. I would've suggested it to Dem too but he already left…" Axel continued.
"Thanks. I think I take up on that offer." Roxas answered smiling. Axel nodded and the two of them shared the bed.
Demyx didn't go to his room. Lately it had been feeling a little chilly and Axel's room didn't provide much of warmth through the wall like before. Demyx wandered at the corridors for some time before he came to the living room. The Nocturne plopped down to the couch and sighed. He really hated it when he and Axel got into a fight… Or at least close to a fight.
Demyx knew that Axel was right about it. He rarely went to Vexen's room even with few wounds. Demyx sighed once again and lay down. It didn't take long before he fell asleep.
"Hey, what are you doing here?" Someone asked. Demyx yawned and looked up. Xigbar was looking at him from the ceiling. Demyx blinked few times before he smiled a little.
"Hi, Xiggy…" Demyx said while sitting up and stretching a little. "What time is it?" He asked while yawning. Xigbar shook his head.
"It's around four in the morning. What are you doing here?" Xigbar answered and sat down next to Demyx.
"Oh… I must've fallen asleep…" Demyx answered sheepishly. "Anyway, what are you doing up this early?" Demyx continued happily. Xigbar shook his head with a small smile.
"Got a mission to handle." He answered. "Anyway, you probably should head back to your own room to sleep for a while." He continued and Demyx nodded.
"Yeah, you're probably right. Good luck on your mission, Xiggy." Demyx answered and stood up from the couch. Xigbar followed his example and returned to walk on the ceiling to the kitchen, which he was heading to in the first place.
But Demyx didn't go back to his room. Instead he headed out through the front door. Sighing Demyx walked to the side railing of the stairs and sat on it. He leaned against the wall and closed his eyes. The Heartless wouldn't come close to the castle so he would be safe on there. The air was chilly and Demyx shivered a little.
Axel woke up during the night. He wasn't sure how many times he had already woken up during the darn night. "Axel?" Roxas asked a little sleepily. Axel sighed and sat up on the bed. "Ax, what's wrong?" Roxas asked again while he too sat up.
"I just can't sleep." Axel replied with a sigh. "Hell, I gotta go and say sorry to Dem…" He said and stood up.
"I'm coming with you, if that's OK." Roxas answered and followed Axel out of the room. Demyx's room was empty which got Axel slightly worried. "I'm sure he's OK…" Roxas tried to calm his friend a little. Axel nodded and they continued in search of Demyx. The two of them met Xigbar in the living room. "Hey, Xigbar, do you know where Demyx is?" Roxas asked.
"I saw him a while ago and told him to go to bed. He had been sleeping on the couch." Xigbar answered. "And guessing from the fact that you're looking for him, I doubt he got back to his room." Xigbar stated. "I'd love to help on the search but knowing Demyx, he's not in any kind of danger and… Well, I have a mission to do…" He continued and vanished through a dark portal before Axel or Roxas could say a word.
"Well, that was helpful." Axel muttered and shook his head. "Any ideas where he could be?" He asked from Roxas who shook his head. "Okay… Where to now, huh?" They decided to check the kitchen just in case and happened to walk from close by to the front door.
"Hey, Axel… Is that Demyx?" Roxas asked and pointed out to the railing. Axel blinked before he smiled and nodded. Roxas smiled too and the two of them headed towards the Nocturne.
"Hey, Dem!" Axel said quite happily when he came out. Demyx hadn't heard them come and was quiet surprised when he heard Axel's voice that he fell over the railing. "Oh, shit! Sorry! Didn't mean to scare ya!" Axel shouted and ran to the railing. Demyx blinked at him from the ground before he pulled himself up. "You OK?" Axel asked a little worriedly and jumped over the railing to come next to his friend.
"Yeah… I'm OK…" Demyx said while dusting himself off. "So… Um… What are you two doing here?" Demyx asked sheepishly.
"I could ask you the same question but the two of us were looking for you." Axel answered. Demyx nodded and smiled a little. "And… Well, I came to say I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make it into a fight, Dem." Axel continued.
"I think I'll leave you two alone. See you two in the morning!" Roxas shouted and was gone before either one of the two could say a word.
"Okay… So, what about you? Why are you here?" Axel asked. Demyx shrugged and started to walk around the castle. Axel followed him. "Dem, are you OK?" Axel asked carefully. He was getting a little worried.
"Yeah, why you ask?" Demyx answered and glanced once at Axel. Axel sighed and came next to Demyx.
"I just mean that… Well, you haven't been yourself for a while and… I'm just worried, OK." Axel tried to explain and Demyx nodded.
"Yeah…" He whispered and rounded a corner. Axel still followed getting more worried whole time.
"Dem, come on. Something's bothering you." Axel stated and came to stand right in front of Demyx. Demyx blinked few times and shook his head.
"Nothing's wrong, Ax. I just…" Demyx started but trailed off quite soon. He lowered his gaze to ground, side stepped Axel and continued to walk. Axel sighed and followed him.
"Just what, Dem? Come on, talk to me!" Axel nearly shouted and tried to stop Demyx.
"Shush it, Axel! You're waking everyone up." Demyx hissed. Axel sighed and took a grip on Demyx's right arm.
"Come on, talk to me, Dem." He pleaded but Demyx refused to meet his gaze. "Demyx, please…"
"You're just worried 'cause you saw me cry, right?" Demyx asked slightly angrily. Axel blinked few times before he grinned.
"So, you did cry, huh? I knew I saw it." He said triumphantly. Demyx sighed and rolled his eyes. "Come on, Dem, what's going on?" Axel asked getting even more worried.
"You wanna know why I cried, huh?" Demyx asked and turned to look at Axel. The red head nodded eagerly. "Fine…" Demyx said, sighed and continued: "I was lonely…"
Axel blinked and let go of Demyx. "Lonely? You? Why?" Axel asked not fully understanding it. Demyx sighed. "Come on, Dem. Explain it." Axel pleaded. Demyx shook his head.
"No… If you can't figure that out then forget it." He stated, created a dark portal and walked away. Axel sighed and shook his head. This wasn't going to be easy one to crack. Demyx created the portal straight to his own room and went to bed. The room was still quite chilly but it didn't bother him. Axel didn't take long before he too returned to his room.
Later at the morning, Demyx tried to calm himself and be happy-go-lucky again. He just wasn't sure how long he could play that anymore. Once he came out from the room, he got a surprise. "Morning, Dem." Axel said with a smile. Demyx blinked in surprise.
"Hi… What' up?" Demyx answered with a smile. He started to walk down the corridor and Axel followed close by.
Axel shrugged. "Not much. I just was wondering if you wanted to head out to Atlantica." He said nonchalantly. Demyx stopped walking and looked a little suspiciously at Axel.
"Atlantica? But… You hate that place… Okay… You got a mission on there or something?" Demyx asked raising an eyebrow at it. Axel chuckled.
"No, nothing like that. I just was wondering if you had spare time and all…" Axel explained. Demyx still didn't buy it.
"Yeah right. Is Roxas out on a mission?" Demyx tried to change the subject. Axel shook his head.
"Not that I'd know. Come on, why don't you want to head out to Atlantica? I thought you loved the place." Axel answered. Demyx sighed.
"I got things to do, Ax." Demyx said even thought that was more of a lie than anything. Axel sighed but followed Demyx none the less to the living room. Demyx sat to the couch and Axel sat next to him. "No offence but why are you following me?" Demyx asked a little suspiciously.
"Because I want to spent some time with you. Is that a crime?" Axel answered. They sat there in silence for a while. Demyx leaned against the sofa and closed his eyes to relax a little. "Dem?" Axel asked eventually.
"Yeah?" Demyx answered though he didn't open his eyes. Axel sighed sadly and looked away for a while.
"Can I ask something?" Axel asked finally little hesitantly.
"Sure, go ahead…" Demyx answered getting a little worried about what he was going to ask about. They were quiet for some time and Demyx started to wonder if Axel was going to ask anything at all. Eventually Axel did open his mouth.
"When did I lose you?" He finally asked quietly.
"Huh? What that's supposed to mean?" Demyx asked a little surprised and turned to look at his friend. Axel sighed sadly and looked Demyx straight at the eyes.
"When did I lose your friendship, Dem? How did we end up to this? …What I'm meaning is that… Well… We haven't done much together anymore and… I feel like I've lost you somewhere on the way…" Axel answered sadly.
"I don't understand what you're meaning." Demyx said and looked away. Axel sighed defeated.
"This is exactly what I'm meaning! We haven't talked. We haven't done anything together… Demyx, please, look at me!" Axel nearly pleaded. Demyx refused to look at him and Axel sighed. "Great… You're feeling uncomfortable around me, don't you? I've lost your trust and I don't know how I've done that… Whatever I've done to get this to happen, I'm sorry… Demyx, please, you gotta believe me…"
Demyx sighed and glanced once at Axel. What really had happened to get the situation into this? He really hated this. "Axel…" Demyx whispered quietly.
"Yeah, Dem?" Axel replied. He was slightly hopeful that things could still be cleared out. Demyx thought for a long while. Axel just waited and prayed he still could save the friendship between the two of them. Eventually Demyx sighed and stood up.
"Can we go up to the roof, please?" Demyx asked and glanced once sadly at Axel. Axel nodded and smiled a little.
"Sure." He said and let Demyx lead the way. They walked up to the roof instead of portaling to there. Axel stayed quiet and Demyx kept on thinking how he could handle the whole thing without creating a fight between the two of them.
Once up on the roof Demyx sat down and looked up to the starry night. Axel sat next to him. Demyx sighed and lay down on the roof and Axel mimicked him. "Do you remember the time when we used to come here nearly every night?" Demyx asked quietly.
"Yeah. I've been wondering why we don't do that anymore." Axel answered sadly. Demyx nodded and closed his eyes. "Dem? What did change between us?" Axel asked and looked at his friend. Demyx sighed and opened his eyes once again.
"I'm not quite sure, Axel…" Demyx replied quietly. Lot of reasons flew past him in his mind but nothing seemed to be the real reason for things to go haywire. Axel sighed. Maybe it wasn't as easy to clear out as he had wished for.
"Demyx…" Axel started but was cut off by Demyx.
"Don't… Just let me think for a while…" He whispered and closed his eyes again. Axel nodded though he wasn't too sure if this was going to get anywhere. Eventually Demyx sighed sadly and opened his eyes. "It's not your fault, Ax…" Demyx started quietly but trailed off.
Axel shook his head. "Then why do I feel guilty about this, Dem?" He asked quietly. "If it's not my fault, then why can't I shake off the feeling that I've done something wrong to cause this?" He continued and sat up to see Demyx better. Demyx sighed and sat up too. "How can I fix this, Dem?"
Demyx blinked in surprise and looked at Axel. The red head repeated his question and before he could say anything else or do something, Demyx leaned against him. "Hold me…" Demyx whispered really quietly and Axel wasn't sure if he heard right but did hug him. Before either one of them even noticed it, Demyx had started to cry and Axel did all he could to comfort the young musician.
"I… I've felt so lonely, Axel… No-one… No-one else than me notice when people are having hard time with one thing or another but… But no-one notices if something's wrong with me…" Demyx tried to explain through his crying.
"I understand, Dem. Everyone has so much of things to do that they don't see others. You're gifted with the fact that you can see such things and that makes you special… You just gotta remember that we're all here for you, OK?" Axel soothed him as well as he could. Demyx nodded and tried to calm down. "I'll never turn my back on you, Dem. Whenever you want to talk with someone you can always come to me. Got it memorized?" Axel continued.
"Thanks, Axel…" Demyx whispered and smiled then. "By the way… Is that suggestion of going to Atlantica still up for use?" He asked eagerly.
"Of course it is. You willing to go there with me?" Axel answered with a grin while drying Demyx's tears.
"You bet I do." Demyx replied with a smile. Axel pulled them both up and created a dark portal.
"Let's go then." He stated and they walked through the portal.
When they came back to home from the underwater world Demyx was lot happier than for some time. The two of them had talked a lot and eventually everything had been cleared out between them.
THE END
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