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Spencer's POV.

I have so much to do I'm not sure if I can do it all by eight it's five 'o' clock now. I quickly iron my socks and underwear, put deodorant on my underarms and my palms encase I get nervous. I pluck my eyebrows and open my mouth to take out the teeth whitening strips smiling at the results, and then I scrape my tongue. I have a quick shower to wash my hair drying it into loose curls and get dressed. I decided on some skinny fit jeans and a light blue shirt with my trusty converse I thought it looked ok for night out.

Ashley's POV

Taylor and I are decorating the house for Spencer's birthday she's told me she didn't want to celebrate but I think she should. We weren't on the best terms at the moment but even if she couldn't say it deep down I knew how she felt. The argument was stupid if she wanted to wait I would but there just didn't seem to be reason to and every time I mentioned Spencer would get weird so I decided I would just leave it alone.

We put up a banner that reads 'HAPPY THIRTY FIRST BIRTHDAY SPENCER.' I start putting frosting on a cake "Come on Tay, hurry up. I want everything to be perfect when she gets here."

She looked up the finishing touches and made her way over to me to help with the cake "She is gonna be so surprised."

Everything was finally in place and I had finished the cake Taylor and I are sitting at the kitchen table waiting for Spencer, she was so late, she was never late. Taylor went off to her room and over two hours later I plonked down on her bed.

"This is so unlike him. She always comes straight over from work." We hear a noise at the door. "Shhhh. That's him. Come on!" I'm excited to see her reaction and forget all about her being late.

We walk to the door and I throw it open "Happy Birthday!" We yell.

Then I realise who is on the other side of the door a small Asian man who is putting a menu for a Chinese restaurant in our mail slot. "Thank you. You three weeks late" he replies and waddles over down the hall.

"That's it I'm going to find her, I'm worried now" I start putting on my jacket.

"Where do you think she is?"

"I don't know, but I'm getting nervous maybe someone hit her when she was riding her bicycle over. I'm gonna go drive the route from his house and see if I can find her. Let me just call Jay first though see if he has seen her."

I dial Jay's number on my cell phone when he answer I ask him if his seen Spencer.

"So you have no idea where he is?"

"No. I can't imagine where she would be" I could tell he was clearly lying

"Well, if you hear anything, please call me" He promised he would and I dash out to look for Spence.

Spencer's POV

We walk into Beth's apartment. "Thank you for dinner."

"It was my pleasure."

"Care for a drink?"

"Sure." She gets two glasses of wine and hands one to me I drink the entire glass down when she turns away, what I had to calm my nerves somehow.

"I have wanted you to ask me out for a long time."

"I've wanted to go out with you for a long time."

"You are so beautiful." She stares into my eyes clearly waiting for a kiss.

I lock up I'm just terrified and not sure what to do.

"You melt me." Apparently my terrified look is some sort of white hot sexual stare to her she's giving me on right back "I am gonna run a bath. Would you care to join me?"

"For a bath?" I relax I like baths.

She ran a finger down my chest "We can do more than bathe. We can get dirty."

"In the bath?" I thought you could only get clean in a bath I must not quite understand what she meant.

"I am gonna eat you up." She kisses me on the mouth, then walks to the bathroom smiling at me then she closes the door.

I sit waiting in the living room until I hear Beth from behind the bathroom door "Come on in."

I walk into the bathroom and Beth is completely naked, I take a breath.

"Do you like?" I nod and she walks over to me and takes off my shirt. "Let me help you with that."

When she takes off my pants I feel my face get pale then she leans down and takes off my underwear. "I could have gotten that but thank you."

She stares back at me I take a deep breath, then leans in to kiss her. This is it. I close my eyes and lean in.

When I do I'm met with her finger on my lips. "Before we start I want to show you what gives me pleasure." She gets in the tub. Her hand moves down her body.

My head goes through a kaleidoscope of emotions interested, happy, shocked, ashamed and frightened. I still couldn't quite get a handle on it and one main thought enters my mind.

Ashley... Her waving brunette locks and her beautiful chocolate brown eyes that I can just sink into.

I have to get way I run out the bathroom door in about two seconds I walk out the front door in under four.

I skip down the hallway knowing I'd made the right decision and am surprised to find Jay come around the corner.

"Don't do it."

"What?" In the background we hear the sounds of Beth moaning inside her apartment getting louder and louder.

"Have sex with Beth. If you love Ashley then it'll all work out. I'm sorry for giving you stupid advice." He sighed and looked down almost ashamed.

"Don't worry, I didn't but if you don't get out of my way, she might come out here and force me to do it." I say panicked

"Well, hurry. Ashley is looking for you. She's really worried."

"Okay. I'll get in touch with her right away." I grinned at the thought of speaking to my beautiful girlfriend.

We both hear the moaning coming from inside Beth's room still "What is going on in there? Is someone else in there?"

I laugh "No. just Beth."

"Maybe I should go in there." I shake my head and turn him around pushing him away from the room. "Yeah, you're right. That was stupid." We listen for another beat as Beth reaches her peak, then both run off Jay jumping into his car.

I ride my bicycle home anxious to call Ashley and tell her how much I care for her. I lock my bike and go inside. When I enter the living room I see Ashley looking very upset.

"Ashley. What's going on?"

"Maybe you should tell me."

"Okay, here's the thing. I realize I made a mistake. The reason I went out..."

"What's this?" She cut's me off holding up a stack on movies: 'The Blue Lagoon,' '9 1/2 Weeks,' several Michael Douglas films and several porn DVDs.

I realize this isn't about my date with Beth.

"Those are Dave's."

"And this?" She holds up my speed dating "rating card." On it in my handwriting is the names of women and my comments. I see everything I wrote like, "she seems nice," "very nice," "I like her, she was nice," "No! She scared me," "nice, smelled like my grandma."

"I did that before I met you. It was silly."

She points to the computer "Your picture is on and you have all these books about how to have sex. A lot of them have disturbing pictures in them."

"Well, when I bought those I didn't realize the pictures would be so..."

She cut me off yelling "Why do you have them? What kind of sick pervert are you? Are you some kind of sex maniac? Everything in your apartment is about sex. Is that all you think about? Is that all you care about?"

I frowned "No, of course not. I have never even tried to have sex with you."

"Well, then what the hell are you trying to do? What are you buttering me up for?" she take a breath and her eyebrows shoot up "You're not going to kill me are you?" she whispered.

"Don't be ridiculous. No, I, I, I... I love you." She just stares at me contemplating what I'd said then runs out the door I waste no time in running after her. "Ashley, wait!"

Ashley makes it to her car and drives off, jumping on my bike I follow after pedalling hard I reach her window and ride along next to her. "Ashley, stop!"

"Get away before you get hurt!"

"I love you. I swear. That is why I never tried to make love to you. I was scared."

She pulls up at a red light and opens her window turning to me "Why would you be scared?"

"Because... because, I've never done it before." I said all in one breath.

"You said you lost your virginity at fourteen."

I sighed "I lied. I am a virgin. I always have been."

"But, you're thirty one years old."

"You don't need to point that out. I am well aware of that fact." I said more harshly than I needed too.

"I don't know what to believe but I am pretty sure I don't believe you." She goes to drive off when the light turns green but I saw the amber while she was turned to me and before she can take off I drive my bike in front of her car side to side so she can't get past.

"Look at me. I collect Buffy figures and collectables, look how I walk. I ride a bicycle to work and I date the most wonderful, beautiful woman in the world and I don't just grab her and ravage her." I pause taking a breath "Because I'm a virgin."

"Why?"

"It almost happened for me a bunch of times when I was younger but it didn't work out then when I got older there were some close calls that went kind of bad. Then I got scared. Then I gave up. Then I got more scared. Then I met you." I said quickly.

Ashley stops the car but remains inside I continue to shout from my bike "I'm sorry I didn't tell you right away." She just continues to look at me "So?" still no reply I guess I've blown it she thinks I'm a freak. "Don't leave me hanging here. What do you think? Am I defective? Am I abnormal?"

Ashley rushes out of her car and kisses me hard on the lips very passionately I don't know how long it last but it feels like a long time, I feel the stupid grin return to my once sullen face.

"Spencer, the most important thing in my life is my family. I know that from the outside my situation may not seem like a bed of roses, but it is."

"I know and I just wanted to be a part of it." I looked down at my feet.

She lifted my face with two fingers under my chin and smiled at me "You already are, I love you, Spencer."

There's that stupid grin again I feel all wobbly inside "I love you too, Ashley."

"Now what do we do?"

I think for a little while about this, then wiggle my eyebrow at her "Well I know what I wanna do"

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