– AARON & JACKSON: MY WAY –

"LOST IN YOU"

~This fanfic follow on the following morning after Coming Out

- I do not own the characters, or Emmerdale – ITV do.

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It was five in the morning, it was still dark outside, Aaron had been asleep for a few hours but he'd woken up lying with his head on Jackson's chest. He was standing at the large window in his room looking out at the silent dark village. Several hours ago Aaron had sex and much more with Jackson; he didn't know how to do certain things at first but Jackson seemed to be enjoying it, then when Jackson began making love with Aaron, all he could remember now as he stood in the darkness was the pain but it was quickly followed by pleasure, he smiled to himself...Jackson was so gentle, considerate and caring, having Jackson's body over his was an immense feeling, his soft skin, his scent, the bulging of muscles and his soft lips on his as they made love, it was pleasure on a completely new and different level to that he'd experienced previously.

His first naive thought was that sex with a man would be rough, he couldn't have been proved more wrong, especially for a first time, but obviously he knew it could be depending on the mood and he would probably want that in time, maybe next time he'd be the one on top. He scrunched his face, he couldn't believe he thought that after everything, He'd changed in such a short space of time, he wouldn't have imagined that moment standing in his room with a man lying sound asleep in his bed.

But that man whose breathing he could hear in rhythm was amazing, Aaron realised he was beginning to have feelings for him, he wouldn't have allowed Jackson to stay never mind do what he'd done to him hours ago if it was just a simple matter of fancying him like he did a few days ago. The window began to be pelted with hard heavy rain and Aaron watched as the water flowed down it. The feeling wasn't fancying or lust, if it was love he didn't know what that was like, so it confused him somewhat, but he was happy, happier than he had been in a long time, life would now start to settle down and with Jackson in it, Aaron knew it would be better, although Aaron was still Aaron, but something inside him told him that Jackson knew that, and maybe he liked his feisty moody side sometimes. Aaron smiled to himself and he felt the need for a smoke, he quietly walked around the bed, and picked the pack and lighter up from the top of his of drawers and he opened the door slowly, grabbed his hoody and trackies from the floor before he left the room.

Once downstairs he slowly opened the front door to try and prevent the squeaking but that made it worse and with everything else silent the squeaks stuck out, and he hoped he hadn't woken anyone. He took out a cigarette and lit it in the doorway quickly then stepped outside into the rain; it was invigorating, the strong smell of fresh air felt good and the cold pellets of rain hitting his face was refreshing, he was dripping wet within a minute, he closed his eyes and listened to the wind and rain as he smoked his cigarette. He was drenched through but he didn't care. As he smoked half his mind went back to Jackson telling him about his father's reaction to him being gay and it got him thinking about what Gordon would think or how he'd react, he'd have probably done the same – smacked him one. But he didn't need him, he realised that a long time ago, sometimes it caught him off guard and it got him down but he just had to carry on with life, Aaron was headstrong he saw Gordon as his 'father', the adult, he should be the one to contact Aaron, to see him if he wanted not the other way around, but then it went back to Aaron knowing he didn't need him.

"Aaron?"Jackson's gritty sleepy voice made him turn around quickly, he'd startled him. "What you doing out here? You'll catch your death in this..." Jackson had thrown on his boxers and a t-shirt that was soaked now too, it clung to his skin and his toned body was defined and visible.

Aaron stopped staring and looked into his big brown eyes as he threw his cigarette away. "I know...I just..." he sighed. "I dunno...I woke up, stood thinking for a while, came down here...it's so refreshing, I know you think I'm mad but..." he sighed happily.

"I don't think you're mad" Jackson smiled and stepped over to him and put his hands on his waist. "Everything get too much?" he asked.

Aaron shook his head. "No, no...I've just been thinking about things, how everything's changed, you, what we did" he smiled. "And how I'd never have imagined doing that a few weeks ago"

Jackson looked worried. "I didn't hurt you did I? You are okay aren't ya Aaron?"

Aaron nodded. "I'm fine Jackson and no you didn't hurt me, well at first it did...it was a weird feeling but then it was good...you were amazing, perfect..."

Jackson smiled. "Let's get warmed up and dry...you've been out longer...really not good for ya mate...and the ciggy...big no no" he chuckled.

"I know...but I wanted one, and anyway it's not like I do it all the time" Aaron said as he began to wander back into the house.

"No I know you don't..." Jackson said as he closed and locked the front door behind him and then walked into the kitchen and Aaron was sat at the dining table. "What do you think Paddy will say if he realises I stayed tonight?" he asked in a hushed voice as he clicked the kettle on and took out two cups from the cupboard.

Aaron shrugged and shivered at the same time. "I think he'll be okay, he'll probably just say he'd liked to have been told"

Jackson chuckled. "Yeah well sorry Paddy we didn't exactly plan when we'd be having sex for the first time"

Aaron chuckled too as Jackson grabbed a towel from the clean pile of folded washing. "I know exactly!"

Jackson walked behind Aaron and leaned down and unzipped his hoody and pulled it from his body; Jackson kissed his neck as he did and Aaron rested his head back against Jackson, it felt good. Jackson pulled it off his arms and then put the hoody over the radiator then put the towel around him. "You didn't have to do that ya know...you were out in it too" Aaron told him.

"And like I said sexy...you were out way longer" he smirked. "You need to take them off too" he told him pointing to his trackie bottoms.

Aaron nodded and stood up and took them down knowing he had no underwear on whatsoever. Jackson smirked. "Such a tease" he chuckled and turned back to the bench and put a teabag in each mug and began making the tea.

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Aaron and Jackson were now sat up in bed with their tea, with the small lamp on for light as they talked more while they finished their hot drink, which they both needed. Jackson had his cup in one hand and the other was out of reach because it was around Aaron, because he loved being close to him and in hopes it helped warm him up, he kept having bursts of shivers, his fault really but he couldn't help thinking that he was adorable, going outside in the dark with the cold and rain battering him at five in the morning who did that? Only Aaron he decided with a smirk.

"What's amused you?" Aaron asked as he lifted his head to look at him.

"You have ya idiot" he smiled. "Going outside in the pouring rain" he said with a chuckle.

Aaron smiled and rested his head down on his chest again, then ran his finger up the centre in between his muscled stomach slowly, completely content.

Moments later Jackson spoke as he put his empty mug down. "You finished?" he asked.

Aaron nodded. "Yeah" he smiled as Jackson took it from him and placed it down beside his. Jackson slid down with Aaron on him, both were lying down properly now, Aaron reached for the duvet and pulled it up them both, he looked at Jackson and kissed his lips softly. "Thanks"

Jackson smiled. "It's what boyfriends do, don't worry about it, you feel warmer now?" he asked.

"Yeah, much warmer" he told Jackson and he closed his eyes.

Jackson turned the light off and then rested his eyes again too as Aaron slept on him, Jackson's arm remained around him.

TBC...