I thought being in a group would make me happy and make is so I have people who look out for each other, but it's not like that. I look out for them and am always there for them, but they're not there for me. Just like before, I'm alone.

I got a new friend that I haven't gotten to know yet. A lighter. I want to, though, so I guess I should.

I walk over to my dresser where my other friends live. I get the one I don't know very well out and her partner. I named them too. The lighter is named after me and the stick is named Wendy 'cause the only one out of the two that will be causing harm is the stick. The lighter just is the reason it can do the harm.

I light the stick on fire, showing when I showed my real feelings, but it get disregarded and the light is blown out. I push the red-hot coal to my wrist, feeling the pain I did when I was rejected.

I start to light it again, but my phone starts to ring. It's Craig.

"Hey, what's up," I ask trying to be cool so he'll like me, but just like everything else I fail.

"I wanted to know if you want to stay over my house."

"Uh... I don't know…."

"Okay…, but if you do come you know where I live. Oh, and Kyle's would also be staying over."

"Okay, bye."

Oh. My. Fucking. God. Why do I have to be so god damn awkward? Like it was a simple question and I have to make it weird. It would be so weird if I go now, but I don't want them to think that I don't want to hang out.

Fuck it, I'm going. I get up, throw some clothes in a bag, and start to walk to Craig's.

~In Craig's room~

It wasn't as awkward as I thought it would be when I got here. They were playing video games, but when I walked in Kyle got up and hugged me.

"I'm happy that you decided to actually come," Kyle said, while Craig just sat there and said, "Hey."

Now, Craig's still playing some game, and me and Kyle are just talking.

"Did you hear that Stan and Wendy broke up again?"

"Yeah, why," I lie, so it seems that I actually know gossip.

"'Cause now I might be able to get Stan back and maybe you can, finally, get Wendy!"

"She won't date me I already know i-"

I'm interrupted by the sound of Craig's door bashing off of the wall.

"Craig I need your help with something downstairs," Craig's dad says to him. Me and Kyle look over at him and he's the same as always, monotone, but if you look in his eyes you tell that he's completely horrified. "Now," he says through a clenched jaw and a look in his eyes that makes him look like when they get downstairs he might accidentally beat Craig to death for not coming when told.

When Craig gets up and goes downstairs, me and Kyle look at each other silently asking what we should do, when I remember what he said about his mom and sister. I run over to his window and notice that his mom's car isn't here. Shit!

"We should go see if his sister's here," I tell Kyle and he just nods in agreement. We walk over to the door we're guessing is hers, trying to be as quiet as possible. When I open the door just enough to see if she's in there. There's a girl with strawberry-blond hair that's in pigtails and wearing a teal shirt crying on her bed.

"Ruby," I whisper just loud enough to get her attention.

Her head instantly looks over to the door, "who are you?"

"I'm Bebe; I'm a friend of your brother well...at least I think I am," I say as I start to walk in Kyle following me. "And this is one of his others, Kyle," pause, " are you okay?"

"Did Craig tell you?" I think she's talking about the abuse, so I nod. "Well...my dad found out that he's dating Tweek, and it made him, really, mad...he got it bad before because he's gay, but a boyfriend…" she trails off and I look at Kyle and he's just like me. Worried.

"But they're not together anymore," Kyle says and she looks at us.

"That doesn't matter. It's the fact that he was dating a boy," she says as she starts to cry more.

"Do you wanna come back to his room with us?" She nods, so we cautiously walk back to his room.

When we get there I ask her, "is there anything we could do?"

"No, if you try to help he'll just get it worse when you two leave," she says starting to cry heavily again. I hug her and rub circles on her back while she cries on my shoulder. When we hear something that sounds like someone crawling up the stairs we all look at the door. We all gasp when Craig walks in covered in blood and limping. He falls to his knees, Ruby running over to him.

Btw I will most likely make the next chapter about Stan and Kyles relationship and how Stan is trying to win Kyle back.