Chapter Title: Revelations
Rating: PG-13/R
Chapter: 14/~20-something-ish?
Warnings: mentions of male-pregnancy, language-ish, ish, drama, cuddling, …,
Disclaimer: Gackt owns Moon Child. (Doesn't that mean he owns Kei too?)
Pairings: SLIGHT Sho/Yi-Che, mentions of Luka/Kei
Jaded's fore-words: So I feel this chapter is pretty lame. But I'm always up to be proven wrong *eh eh? nudge* kidding! I'm not fishing for compliments, no~! Satchi, sadly there is little Lindsay to hate in this chapter. (Thought there will be plenty to hate on next chapter.) But I'm pretty sure you can have fun with his brief attitude. :) And we'll finally get the full David-Picture puzzled together with crazy glue. Soubi, you keep promising molestication and fanbearing, still I have yet to see large fanbears and displays of molestcation. I understand if life is roller-coastering its way around you and the bitches of life keep your attention. I'm just going to hold you to your word. ¬_¬ And possibly hold back on the mansmex when its time rolls around in this fic. D
To you Both, have fun with this weird chapter where Kei is weirdly affectionate and emotional and David is dramanized and Sho is about done with it all. (I'm almost sure he's plotting to kidnap Kei and take him to MT Everest where no one will find them or he's going to run off with Yi-Che in spite and have many babies with her in Canada. Why Canada, I don't know. MT Everest I get because it's big and intimidating and all tall and impossible and stuff. Canada... just confuses me.)
ONWARD WITH THE STOREH!
The tiny little body of a tiny little boy swaddled in a sinfully-soft dark blue blanket cradled in Kei's arms, his lips pressed to the tiny little forehead. Another's hand cradling the top of the babe's fuzzy head while a hand rested on Kei's back.
"Our beautiful Kiyoshi," Luka's voice breathed in his ear and Kei never before felt more joy or more love than in that moment holding his son.
…
Wonderfully-warm brown eyes, japanese eyes, streaked with shards of green, staring up at him. They were eyes he'd seen in mirrors only and now under a fringe of black and above chubby cheeks and a tiny nose, they never looked more beautiful. Kiyoshi giggled happily from where he was laying in Kei's lap waving his arms about, all gums in his smile. Kei smiled down at him and he popped his thumb into his mouth, going back to staring at Kei in wonder.
…
Luka sleeping on his back on the mattress of their rundown, illegal loft, and Kiyoshi laying on his back on the vampire's chest. One of Luka's hands placed over the infant's stomach for assurance and protection.
…
Kiyoshi as a toddler, held in his arms and zipped in his jacket with him, asleep with his head on Kei's shoulder as he walked around Mallepa at night with Luka, a tiny little black hat keeping the child's head warm in the cool air.
"…!"
Kei laying on his side curled as close to Luka as possible with Kiyoshi already sleeping between them, their fingers interlocked over their son's side.
"…ei!"
Small toddler hands curled in Kei's shirt, his arms wrapped around Kiyoshi as the child whispered "I love you, Daddy" in that endearing, heartfelt way only a child can accomplish. Kei's heart wanted to explode in his chest and he hugged his son closer.
"KEI!"
"Where's Kiyoshi?" Kei questioned frantically, his voice bordering on panicked as he was not seeing his baby anywhere. "Where's Kiyoshi?"
Next to him Luka was just as crazed, having been on the other side of the small playground, watching their son play when he'd taken off with a laugh in Kei's direction. Kei hadn't been able to see him. Luka was supposed to be watching him. He felt horrible.
"Kiyoshi?" Luka called, taking off around one side of the playground. Nowhere could he see his son. Kei was panicking now, jogging in the other direction, looking around the playground and scanning the surrounding few families with their children playing, calling his son's name.
Nothing.
"Kei," Luka called apprehensively from nearby and the blonde vampire ran to him. In his shaking hands was a white cloth that was rank with the sweet stench of chloroform. Kei's insides boiled and burned, countered only by frigid fear.
"Oh jeezus, Kei, you're really fucking scaring me! Respond! Please!" David cried, snapping his fingers desperately in front of Kei's face.
Kei gasped, realizing he was sitting on the floor in front of the couch, having slid to it when he was lost to the conscious world. David was kneeling in front of him, one hand on his shoulder and the other hovering in front of his face but not snapping anymore.
Without a word, Kei grabbed him and jerked him into his arms, crushing him in his embrace, never wanting to let go as too many years of suppressed pain rolled through every cell in his body, causing his nerves to quake viscously with the deep aches and stings of loss. Distantly he felt David's arms tentatively wrap around him, returning the hug as Kei practically pulled him into his lap. Not even knowing he was doing it, Kei brokenly sobbed into David's shoulder, shaking. He could feel the complete and utter confusion emitted from David as Kei clung onto him as though he were life itself.
David held him without a word uttered, one of his hands rubbing his neck soothingly. There was nothing more he knew he could do other than that. He had absolutely no clue as to why the blonde vampire was nearly dying in his arms, shuddering with his sobs and tightly holding onto him like the world's destruction was imminent.
And so they remained like that until Kei's tears were dry and his grip on David slackened. One of his hands slid up into the teen's hair and he straightened with a trembling sigh, pressing his tearstained face into David's black hair and emitting a hushed, dry sob.
"Kei," David whispered hesitantly. "Are you okay, Kei?"
Kei chuckled dryly and pulled back, scrutinizing David's eyes.
"Probably not," Kei said hoarsely, his voice thick from crying. He smiled and pressed his forehead to David's, closing his eyes.
"What… What's going on, Kei?" David questioned, concern seeping from his pores.
"I just realized," Kei breathed, still smiling. "That you're my son."
"…What?" David said and jerked back, looking at Kei like he suddenly had a third eye, an extra head, six arms, a siamese twin - who was evil, and a horn for a nose. "My parents are dead."
A note of anxiety had crept into his voice.
"Luka is dead," Kei said, gazing into eyes that resembled his own with sunlight-serious conviction. "Your father is dead."
His hand unconsciously tightened their grip on David as he feared the small teen would bolt.
"No," David asserted with utterly unshakeable bite to his tone. "Gabe told me they committed suicide-"
"He did," Kei interrupted, silently begging for David to believe him, to not push him away and flee like he could feel the teen tensed and wanting to.
"Gabe doesn't lie to me!" David cried, thoroughly panicked, his eyes flickering up to reveal crestfallen depths. Kei's immediate reaction was to pull David to his chest and hold him comfortingly in his arms, and David let him for the length of a faint cry. Then he was roughly wrenching himself free from Kei's arms, scooting back like a cornered animal would.
"She wouldn't- You're not-" He started to say, silent tears slipping down his face. "You can't- You can't be-!"
He choked, not able to say the words. And Kei wanted nothing more than to hold David again and take away his fear and his doubt and his sadness and his pain. In the back of his mind he wondered almost accusingly why Gabe hadn't told David.
"David-" Kei tried but his son - yes David was his son, he knew without a doubt - scrambled to his feet and flew to the door, yanking it open, nearly breaking the handle in the process. He pushed past Lindsay, who jumped back completely startled, and took off down the street barefoot, ignoring his boyfriend's bewildered call of his name.
Kei made to follow him but was stopped by Lindsay grabbing his shirt, nearly tearing it.
"What did you do?" He growled at Kei menacingly. Kei glared at him and twisted his hand free from his shirt.
But the vampire wasn't able to say anything, too guilty for forgetting and too pained to snap at the younger blonde and too worried-sick-tired to explain.
He just covered his eyes with one of his hands and leaned against the doorframe, letting gravity take over and slide him down the wall.
"Why?" He demanded upon the door opening to reveal it was indeed her on the other side.
"I didn't want to hurt-"
"Bullshit!" He spat, shoving his way past her.
"Alright," she sighed. "I was being purely selfish. I didn't want to give you a reason to leave. You're my closest friend and I didn't want you to run off looking for him when you had me and Max and Lindsay."
"And after he found me? What then? I had already found him, what-"
"I didn't want you to stay with them. I didn't want you to forget about me because you had them." She pressed, gesturing toward where the topic of conversation's apartment resided.
"And how the hell could I ever forget about you?" He whispered furiously, hurt that his friend would think his so disregarding. "Who the fuck stayed up with me when I was broken and exhausted, feeding me so I could heal, humming the song from the past I couldn't remember? Not them. Not him. You know better than I do that you could never be replaced in my life."
"I'm still human, you ass!"
"Well, mostly… And I know. I wouldn't have let you so close without what makes you so humanly-you."
"I know," she said quietly in the aftermath of their outbursts.
"I don't know how you couldn't. You're absolutely omniscient."
"Doesn't mean I always use my omniscience."
"I know. You feel it makes you less of a person and takes the mystery from life. You've mentioned this before."
"Can it."
"I love you buddeh."
"I love you too frend."
"Good. So… we're good and… uh… So like… Kei? Really?"
"Yeah."
"Wow."
"Mhm."
Sho climbed the stairs to the flat he shared with three other males currently, his step a kind of bouncy after a nice dinner out with Yi-Che and Son, as just friends. Personally he'd rather it'd just been him and Yi-Che, but he could tell Son was a protective older brother and his recent encounters with David and his boyfriend made him more sympathetic toward Son's position. So he'd show Son he wasn't going to break her heart or hurt her.
Yi-Che was pretty and Sho could admit that he liked her, a lot. She was wonderfully pretty and her eyes were simply amazing, always full of emotion. He tried to woo her the other day with a bouquet of flowers but he had to discard them since Toshi was an unexpected appearance and Sho didn't wish to be teased about his …crush-devolping-into-more for the rest of his life.
He opened the door and his smile fell to the floor and landed with a soundless schlop. Kei was sitting on his daybed with an ashtray overflowing with cigarette butts near his foot as he smoked through another pack and the floor received his full, brooding attention. Lindsay sat on the couch, arms crossed over his chest as he reclined and maliciously stared Kei's oblivious form down. Suspicion was sharp in his bright green eyes.
David was nowhere and tension was thick in the air.
"Where's David?" He asked and both blonde's gazes snapped to him, Lindsay seeming a bit surprised and disappointed while it took Kei several long moments filled with blinking to banish the gloss to his eyes.
"He ran off," Kei said barely audibly in a hoarse voice. He heaved in a breath as though air were molasses. "…A while ago…"
"Why?" Sho asked, remembering to close the door.
"Because apparently your lover over there is his dad and David obviously didn't take the news well," Lindsay spat, disgruntled.
"He's your son!" Sho cried, his eyes nearly popping out of his head. He totally missed the reference to Kei being his lover in favor of the more pressing news.
Kei nodded and Sho felt the desperate need to sit down before he passed out cold, his stomach filling with ice.
"Oh god," he groaned, dropping into the chair where David's guitar was laying forgotten near it. His head fell backward onto the back of the armchair. "This is all too-fucking-much. Maybe a month ago we found him and then he's living with us and his friend shows up and then his boyfriend is molesting him on the couch and then he tells us he was forced to be a child prostitute and now THIS! It's just too much in too little time! You're sure he's your son, Kei?"
"Positive," Kei murmured with a grimace at Sho's reaction to the news. "He- He knew the song Luka used to sing."
"The one from... your dreams?"
"Yeah," Kei breathed and lowered his gaze back to the floor.
"Well, fuck," Sho muttered and sighed out all the air in his entire body, deflating into the chair.
Upon entering, the first thing David heard was his name, right before his sight was obscured. Arms wrapped around him tightly and crushed his face into a soft, black t-shirt covering a well muscled chest. Dazedly he raised his arms and hesitantly returned the hug.
"Hey, Sho," David muttered quietly, his voice a bit scratchy from disuse. The arms around him tightened for a moment.
"Don't scare us like that," Sho said with his head bowed. "Why didn't you come home?"
David frowned confusedly. Sho's fingers slipped into his hair and David let his head be tilted back so his forehead could receive a relieved kiss.
"You had Kei in a panic with worry."
David blinked a couple times in confusion again. He hadn't been gone that long had he? Well, maybe he had but it hadn't seemed like long. The sun rising as he trudged toward the apartment had come as a surprise and he'd wondered when dawn had snuck up on him again. But that wasn't too long, was it? It'd been dark when he'd left, when he'd been with Gabe. It was only a couple hours, right?
"David?" Kei said as he stepped out of the teen's room, pulling the door closed behind him. David randomly noticed that Kei was wearing different, more comfortable clothing. Sho was too.
"You were in my room?" David blurted out without a thought. And he wondered if he really cared at all.
"Yeah I- …It was…" Kei fumbled about with a blush, embarrassed. "I felt like if you were gone, that you might not come back. Uh, the stuff in there… reminded me that you had a reason- …That you would come back."
David stepped back from Sho and the man's arms slid from him as he let his own fall to his sides. The teen walked over to Kei and hugged him, pressing close to him like a child seeking comfort. Kei returned the embrace enthusiastically in relief, pressing his face into David's hair and practically crushing the teen to him.
"I'm sorry for running and scaring you," David said into Kei's shirt, his voice timid and muffled. "I just needed to talk to Gabe. I needed to get away and think."
"I get it," Kei whispered, his breath ruffling David's hair. Sho cleared his throat and Kei raised his head to look at him.
"I'm going to sleep now, since he's back," Sho said and Kei nodded understandingly. Sho smiled before heading down the hall to his room, his door closing a moment later.
"Kei," David uttered quietly into the vampire's shirt.
"Mmh?"
"What was Luka like?"
Kei smiled into David's hair before standing up straight and turning David around, ushering him to his bed. He motioned for David to sit and make himself comfortable while he did for himself.
"If we're going to have a conversation like this, we might as well be sitting," Kei said with a goofy grin as he arranged himself so he was sitting cross-legged near the pillow on the bed. David nodded and sat close to him, also cross-legged.
"Well," Kei began. "Luka brooded a lot, especially about being a vampire. He didn't enjoy it. But then again he didn't not enjoy it either. He was my mentor when I was first turned and later my lover."
"Do you have a vampire-bite?"
"No, we weren't mates through that. We created the bond by exchanging blood. That was how it was to be with us. …We lived in Japan until the economy collapsed, also around the time I became pregnant. …With you. We got out of there fast, since by then, people were catching on to what we were. Luka wanted to find somewhere calm with a lot of people. He wanted us all safe. And when you were born, Luka became extremely protective. We were living here so it was completely understandable."
"So I was born in Mallepa?" David asked quietly, scooting closer.
"Yes. We were aiming for inland China, since we heard there were stable cities near the border because there was a lot of trade there, but I started to get sick during the pregnancy and we had to stop here. Luka wanted to leave as soon as you were born but you were so small I feared traveling far for long hours would harm you and possibly kill you if something happened. We had to alternate between bottles of formula and blood every day to keep you healthy. I was so afraid something might happen and you'd starve. He did too, but he feared Mallepa hurting you more than that. He wanted to risk it if it meant we'd be safe and out of Mallepa."
Kei sighed and smiled melancholically as he seemed to remember something deeply saddening.
"Maybe I should have listened to him and taken the risk. Maybe then you wouldn't have been taken from us. …Maybe then you wouldn't have had to-"
"Don't," David interrupted him and laid down with his head in Kei's lap. "Just- Keep talking about Luka and you and… me."
"Okay," Kei whispered and ran his fingers through David's pink hair as he continued. "We decided that we'd leave when you were five, so we found some illegal loft housing and claimed a loft as ours. It was just concrete and dust with showers and a toilet and a sink in the corner. We didn't have much in it, our only furniture was a mattress and a table with some chairs and a shelf for your baby things. It didn't matter too much since we spent our nights outside and slept most of the day."
"What was my name?"
"Kiyoshi."
"…pure…." David murmured and turned his face into Kei's leg. After a deep sigh he rolled over so he was on his other side.
"And how were we… separated?"
"We were at a park one evening and Luka was on one side of the playground with you and I was on the other. You ran off and Luka lost sight of you for a couple seconds before going after you. That was all it took. We found a cloth that smelled of chloroform. You'd been taken from us. We searched for so long for you. Luka hated himself so much for losing you. Everyday he'd tell me we'd find you, and he was determined to. Right up until he just pulled away from me and gave up a week before he died."
Kei sighed heavily, his hand stopping its repetitive motions in David's hair. David took a deep breath and sat up, rearranging himself so he was laying next to Kei, facing the vampire's leg.
"That song I was playing… The one I remember… What was it?" David tentatively asked, index finger and thumb fidgeting with the material of Kei's pants.
"Luka's song. He used to sing it all the time. It sort of became a lullaby for you, since whenever he sang it you calmed right down and went to sleep," Kei said with a smile and reached out with his hand, trailing his fingers over David's back. David breathed in deeply, letting it out in a relaxed sigh as his eyes fluttered shut.
"Yuugure ni~," Kei sang softly, tickling David's back. "-kimi to mita~"
He paused in the song, shifting to lay down next to David before continuing the motion of his hand and the song.
"Orenji no taiyou~ nakisou na~"
David's breathing was even and his entire body was relaxed next to Kei. Kei chuckled to himself, wondering at how David had fallen asleep just like he would as a baby. Kei's baby Kiyoshi.
"Kao wo shite~"
Except now he wasn't a baby and he wasn't Kiyoshi. Now he'd lived for almost fourteen years without Kei. He'd grown up quickly. He'd developed a personality away from what he had as three-year-old Kiyoshi. He'd become David.
"Eien no~ Sayonara~ …"
He was still Kei's son though. Kei's baby.
Kei wrapped his arm around David and smiled, closing his eyes with a happy sigh.
Some of that lingering pain he'd never been able to explain, some of that unexplainably bitter self-loathing he'd clumped in with his vampirism, was gone, fading away as his consciousness did. David was here. Kiyoshi was David. Kiyoshi was safe as David here with Kei and Sho. Kei wouldn't lose him again.
He drifted in inky darkness as he slept that night, free of nightmares.
Jaded's after-words: The ending was laa~ame! After David ran I kind of suffered a minor writer's block. And now my mind is blank as to what should happen next. I have a point H but I'm stuck on point F. I need to get some G action going on here. Speaking of G, I'm learning to play guitar. This makes me happy en mis pantelones. I laughed when the teacher said G-string though. My mind is childish and in the gutter. In other guitar-related news, I'm getting a callus on the tip of my index finger. This makes me smile. Although my middle and ring finger have yet to develop any even though I use them just as much. :( The side of my thumb on my other hand is slowly getting one too. :) I feel special cuz I'm learnin' to play an instrument!
By the way, this is my official threat to Satchi. Satchi, if you don't update your fics for your friends and get motivated (damnit!) and type something then I shall not post another chapter till you do!. (This works well for me since I'm hitting the block. I need a soldering iron. :/ Hmm…)
So that is all. I guess. By the BYE.