Dear Readers,
I would like to apologize to you indefinitely for my lack of updates on An Empty Star. Normally, I would be updating everyday now that it's summertime, and believe me when I say that I've been trying my best. I kept telling all of you that I have been dealing with a lot of stress lately but I don't think I've been very specific.
Just as I was writing a new chapter of An Empty Star a friend texted me and told me that one of my close friends was in the hospital. At first I thought it was a car accident or something, I didn't expect to be told that she tried to commit suicide and that she was in critical condition.
A few days after she was admitted to the hospital I got another call from a friend's mom saying that she passed away. To be honest, I broke down. My friend's mom picked me up from my sisters place and let me stay for a few days before taking me to the wake. The next day was supposed to be the funeral but I threw up from nerves and didn't go.
For a week after that I could barely eat, it got so bad that my sister had to remind me to. Even after that I didn't do much besides clean, watch TV and do what I had to to stay alive.
I had no heart to write An Empty Star because to me An Empty Star is supposed to be a beautiful love story. The way I am emotionally right now isn't going to help the story. And honestly, your comments aren't helping. Shit happens in life. People break up, people move apart and people die. The worst part about this whole thing is that I've had no one to connect too. No one to talk to about this.
I know there are going to be some people out there saying that I made this up. They're going to think I did it for the comments to stop. Partly, yeah I did write this for the comments to stop, but I didn't make the story up. If you don't believe me, then I don't care. I thought that my readers deserved to know why I wasn't updating. My friend's name was Laura Miller if you don't believe me. She even had a scholarship fund named after her.
I'd like to thank those people who understand. My friends are like family to me and this was extremely unexpected. I don't think I'll be updating An Empty Star for a while. It's difficult for me to write in general. It took me days trying to write this letter. I'll try though, I'm still trying.
Sincerely,
RikuRoyalty