I do not own the poem 'Autumn Rain' or the song 'There you'll be' but I chose them as they fitted into my story.

No copyright intended! Enjoy! :)

By the time Smithy, Gina and Cameron arrived in the front yard, the memorial service had already started. Superintendent O'Karo was standing by the front doors opening the memorial service so Gina stood at the side with Jack Meadows. Cameron spotted Rebecca on the opposite side standing with Yvonne, Honey, Robbie, Gary, Nick and Steve so walked over joined them, followed by Smithy.

Cameron stood at the side of Rebecca and whispered in her ear

"Smithy and Gina know. Everything"

Rebecca looked at Cameron angrily, shocked that he'd gone behind her back and told people about the whole situation, but before she could say anything, the Superintendant introduced someone.

"Okay now, PC Gabriel Kent is going to read a poem"

Everyone watched as the PC made his way towards the front.

"Hi everyone. Before I read the poem, I would like to thank you all for coming to this memorial for my...our dearest Kerry, who left us all a year today. Not a day goes by when I don't miss her..."

Smithy turned to look at Rebecca, who was standing at the side of him. He noticed the look of hatred on her face but couldn't miss the fact that her eyes were filled with tears and looked as though she was fighting to hold them back. As he continued listening to Gabriel, Smithy felt the anger build up inside of him too.

"I miss Kerry everyday and I wish things were different. If she was still here today, I'd be the happiest man alive because I wouldn't only have a beautiful girlfriend, but a handsome little baby son too.

I'm going to read the same poem I read at my Kerry's funeral but this time, I would like to dedicate it...to Kerry and our son.

Do not stand at my grave and weep,

I am not there; I do not sleep.

I am a thousand winds that blow,

I am the diamond glints on snow,

I am the sun on ripened grain,

I am the gentle autumn rain.

Gabriel burst into tears, much to the anger of Rebecca, Cameron, Smithy, Gina, O'Karo and George Young; the only ones who knew the whole truth.

When you awaken in the morning's hush

I am the swift uplifting rush

Of quiet birds in circling flight.

I am the soft starlight at night.

Do not stand at my grave and cry,

I am not there... I did not...die"

Gabriel pulled a tissue from his pocket to wipe the tears that were rolling down his face while everyone clapped gently, even though most of them didn't want to as they knew there was something weird about the whole thing. Cameron leaned into Rebecca.

"You okay?"

Rebecca wiped a tear from her eye and slowly looked up at Cameron.

"I feel...sick" she exclaimed.

"Bec..."

Rebecca turned her head to find Smithy gazing at her with his big green, tear filled eyes. Before anything else could be said between them, the Super spoke from the front once again.

"Thank you for that, PC Kent. Now, we have a song being sung by PC Rebecca Jones, who was...a dear friend of Kerry's, thank you Rebecca"

Rebecca made her way to the front. There was no music, no microphone, just her and the song words in her head. As Rebecca stood at the front, she looked at Cameron, who nodded his head at her and smiled before quickly glancing over at the crowd. At the very back, she noticed her Uncle, the Chief Superintendant of New Scotland Yard standing there, alongside news reporters.

"Hey, thank you for coming to this memorial service. I'm sure it means a lot to everyone especially...especially Mr. Young"

Rebecca turned her head slightly and smiled at Mr. Young who, to everyone was Kerry's dad but Rebecca and the four certain officers knew that it was also her Father too. Turning her attention back to everyone else, Rebecca added

"This song, is for Kerry"

Just as she was about to sing, Rebecca's eyes caught Smithy's and for a slight second, they gazed at each other before she started singing.

"When I think back on these times, and the dreams we left behind
I'll be glad 'cause I was blessed to get to have you in my life...

When I look back on these days, I'll look and see your face
you were right there for me..."

Rebecca took a deep breath and lifted her head up to face the crowd but closed her eyes tightly.

"In my dreams I'll always see you soar above the sky,
In my heart there will always be a place for you, for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me,

And everywhere I am there you'll be..."

Rebecca opened her eyes and looked deep into Smithy's

"And everywhere I am there you'll be"

Rebecca looked away from Smithy and as she sung, glanced around at everyone listening to her singing. She noticed that some people were smiling before they knew Kerry was in a better place up in Heaven, while others were streaming tears. Rebecca fought to hold back her tears and tried concentrating on getting through the rest of the song she'd chosen to sing for her big sister.

"Well you showed me how it feels,
To feel the sky within my reach,
And I always will remember all the strength you gave to me.
Your love made me make it through,
Oh, I owe so much to you,
You were right there for me...

In my dreams I'll always see you soar above the sky,
In my heart there will always be a place for you, for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me,

And everywhere I am there you'll be

'Cause I always saw in you my light, my strength,
And I want to thank you now for all the ways,
You were right there for me
You were right there for me
For always..."

Rebecca was coming to the end of the song but she lost the fight to hold back the tears as they started streaming down her cheeks. She looked over at Smithy and noticed that he too was crying his eyes out. For some reason, she found comfort by looking into his warm eyes.

"In my dreams I'll always see you soar above the sky
in my heart there will always be a place for you for all my life..."

Rebecca took a deep breath to get her through the last bit of the emotional song.

"I'll keep a part of you with me,
and everywhere I am, there you'll be..."

Rebecca caught glimpse of Gabriel Kent, who was standing in the middle of the crowd and looking at Rebecca with a smug grin on his face.

"And everywhere I am, there you'll be
There you'll be..."

Everyone clapped as Rebecca finished her song and walked back through the crowd towards Cameron, Smithy and her friends she'd been standing with. Once she'd stood in between Cameron and Smithy, Cameron once again whispered in her ear.

"You did great, Kerry would be proud of you"

Rebecca looked up at Cameron and smiled sweetly, before turning her attention back to the Superintendant, who was now standing back at the front. What Rebecca didn't know was that, when Cameron admitted everything to Smithy and Gina, Smithy approached the Super and announced he wanted to give a few words in the memorial.

"Now, Sergeant Dale Smith is going to say a few words, followed by Kerry's dear Dad, George Young"

Rebecca watched as Smithy made his way to the front where he stood, turned to face the crowd and took a very deep breath.

"Erm, I'm gonna keep this short. It's been great that we could all get together today and remember Kerry. She was a dear friend, daughter..."

Smithy paused and glanced at Rebecca who stared back at him with blue, tear filled eyes.

"Loved one. It's been a year since she left us and not one moment has gone by when we haven't missed her. She was a brilliant police officer and an amazing person. We will continue to miss her"

Smithy took a step backwards and signalled for George Young to take over.

"Hello there. If you don't know me, I am George Young, Kerry's Dad. Like Smithy said, it's been a year since the day Kerry left us and every day since then, I've longed for her to be back here with me. My daughter was only 26, she had a whole life in front of her, but it pleases me knowing she was popular in the station and had many friends. Kerry loved being a police officer and, I know she made mistakes, everyone does, but she tried her best in both her work and personal lives..."
George turned his head to look at Smithy before adding

"Even if she did overlap them a little"

Smithy smiled knowing that George was talking about Kerry's love for him.

"Kerry Young, my beautiful and wonderful daughter, will never be forgotten and will live on forever in all our hearts!"

Everyone clapped as George finished speaking and as the Superintendant informed everyone that it was time for REFS, the crowd made their way through the station corridors towards the canteen. Before the memorial started, some people had laid flowers down for Kerry just outside the front doors so while everyone headed towards the canteen, Rebecca headed over to read some of the messages left.

'To my beautiful daughter Kerry,

I miss you lots and wish you were here with me.

See you soon darling,

Love Dad xx'

Kez,

You were such an amazing friend!

We know you're looking down on us,

Keeping us safe! We love you forever,

Love your girls, Yvonne & Honey

XxX

Kerry,

Always in my mind, forever in my heart,

Smithy

xx

The flowers and messages were so beautiful that Rebecca could feel herself filling up. She was about to go inside for REFS when a large bunch of flowers at the very front caught her eye and as she read the little card, her sadness turned to anger.

To my sweetheart Kerry and our beloved son,

Who I never had the chance to meet.

I can't believe you've both been gone a year.

My heart breaks all over again, every time I think of you.

Wish things could have turned out differently,

But even so, I will never forget you both.

All my love, always

Gabriel

Xxxxxx

Rebecca was so angry, that she burst into tears and didn't even bother trying to wipe them from her cheeks. Just then, someone took her hand gently and held it in theirs. As she turned her head, Rebecca noticed Smithy standing next to her with his green, tear filled eyes fixated on the flowers.

Slowly, he turned his head to face Rebecca, gave a slight smile and whispered

"I'm not gonna let anything happen to you babe, I promise"

Rebecca felt so emotional that all she could muster up was a little nod. As Cameron and Gina joined them by the front doors, the four officers all walked to the canteen together. It had been an emotional morning and a hard one. But, little did the four officers know...

It was about to much much worse!