Hey all! I'm REALLY sorry that you had to wait for this chapter, I totally blame Bioware and the release of Mass Effect 3! I've been busy saving the galaxy lately, and probably will so there will only be about one update a week until I'm feed up with the game. Sorry, I just can't help myself.

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Chapter 9: I Let Love In

A couple of hours after Alice had left, Happy was starting to get worried that something had happened, he was calling her but the phone was turned off. And then it hit him like a fucking battering ram. She had done this once before. She caught her ex husband in bed with another women, walked out, got into the car and drove to Charming.

Seconds after he realized something else, he had made her cry, he hadn't even thought it was possible. She had never cried, not when she caught Mark in bed with someone else, at least not according to Tara. Not when he came with the divorce papers, even Gemma had been worried that time. Not after the massive fight with her brother and not after one of the fights they've had. He sat down and added that together, he had flat out told her that he was having sex with crow eaters, she cried and now he couldn't get a hold of her.

All of a sudden he couldn't fucking breath, thats how bad it was hurting. She couldn't have left, he fucking loved her.

The thought hit him again. He did, he loved her, his butt crazy, sexy, fucking redhead. He needed to find her. He pulled out his phone and called Jax.

"Hap." Jax answered the phone.

"Hey, is Al at your house?"

"Nah, she's not, what's wrong?"

"Eh, I can't get a hold of her, her phone isn't on."

"Shit, did she say were she was going? Wait Hap." He heard Jax talking to someone in the background. "Tara want's to talk to you."

"Ok." He wasn't sure that was a good idea. He didn't need another woman yelling at him.

"Hi Happy, did you two have a fight?" Shit, what was it with chicks? It's like they had a sixth sense about this shit.

"Yeah." Hap didn't see any point in denying it, Al would probably told her anyway if she talked to her.

"She sometimes just need a while, she just drives around. She's done it when we've been fighting as well." That didn't really calm him down, he knew that, but this time it was different.

"I... Shit..." How the fuck was he going to say this. "I'm think... she might have left." He could feel himself choking when he said it. When the hell did he become such a fucking pussy?

"Wait, Happy." She was quiet for a while, mumbled something to Jax and then he heard a door close. "Happy, what happened?"

He didn't want to talk to her about this, he knew women, if he told her what happened, she'd be a bitch too him for years.

"Happy, I'm not taking sides, but I need to know if you did something."

"Shit! It was about Crow Eaters." Doc's a smart chick, she could probably figure out the rest. It was dead quite in the phone. Tara didn't say anything so obviously she understood what he was saying. "Doc, you still there?"

"Yes."

"It's bad, isn't it?"

"I'm not going to lie to you Happy..." Shit fuck shit, was all he could think. "I'll make some calls Happy. I'm sure she just need some time..."

"..but there's a chance she could have taken off."

"I really don't think so Happy. When she left Mark... It was different, their marriage was pretty bad even before that."

That made him slightly calmer, but he was still freaking out. He kept trying her phone, he even walked over to his mom, but she hadn't heard from her either and when she started yelling at him for being mean to Al he left. He couldn't handle it at the moment and his mom could yell, sick and all.

Alice hung up the phone, it was Tara who had called, telling her that Hap had called and asked if she was there. He had also told her what the fight was about, apparently he was scared that she had taken off. She got back to the table and sat down again, Gemma had re-filled her glass was she was away.

"Sorry. It was Tara, Hap had called."

"He thought you were running?"

"Something like that."

"Thinking about doing that?"

Alice didn't know what to answer. The thought had crossed her mind, but Hap wasn't Mark, he would come after her. Finally she just shrugged.

"Ok, let's continue with the questions." Gemma said and emptied her glass. "You knew about this thing with sweetbutts when you hooked up with him, didn't you?"

"Yes." She did, the 'arrangement' that most bikers had with their women.

"Then why does it bother you all of a sudden?"

"It has been bothering me the entire time, it was just that he said it out loud, and the way he said it."

"Would you be bother if he jerked off."

"No, of course not, it not the same thing!"

"To these guys it's pretty fucking close to the same thing."

"Sure, it's the same thing until they start fucking the same girl over and over and then..."

"Hey!" Gemma interrupted her, with a hand in the air. "If a guy takes a Crow Eater for an Old Lady, it's someone they know, I've never heard of a guy who's hooked up with a Crow Eater from another charter. With one exception and he was young stupid and full of thoughts of puppy love, that's not Hap."

"Still."

"You worried he's going to leave you for someone else?"

"I don't know. I'm worried about shitloads of things, first and foremost to get and STD."

"They wrap up, always."

"Till they get piss drunk and forget."

"Honey, they don't. Listen. I'm not saying that I like it. I fucking hate to be honest." Gemma said before emptying another one of the glasses. "I once slammed a skateboard in the face of one of them. But you need to learn the difference between cheating and fucking."

"I kind of thought the definition of cheating was fucking."

"No, honey, it isn't." She said it with a calm, soft voice, it was very un-Gemma. But it didn't change how Al viewed it. If another woman was involved, it wasn't masturbating.

"I'm not sure I agree with you on that one."

"As long as there's no feelings involved you don't need to worry."

"I'm not good with shit like that. Feelings and emotions." Also, she didn't agree, and it wasn't just that she was worried. She didn't like that he was with other women, it was that simple. Just as he would fucking hate if she did it.

"Well, neither is Happy and as far as I know he hasn't been involved in anything like what you have before."

"Maybe he just needed to mature." She emptied the glass and Gemma immediately filled it.

"Don't be silly and don't fucking sell yourself short."

"Sorry. I just feel like shit."

"Could you leave him even if you wanted to?" That was the question she didn't want to hear. She just looked down at the table. "Didn't think so. Do you want to?"

Yet another question she didn't want to answer, because she should want to, but she fucking didn't.

"I don't know, Gem."

"If you don't know then you don't want to. Have you ever fought for a man or do you always run away when you feel hurt?"

Geez, what was it with this woman and finding every fucking sore spot and every weak point?

"You're right."

"Have you ever had a man you think is worth fighting for, before now I mean?"

"You're fucking scary!"

"Honey, you can't let a bunch of whores take your man from you, especially not if he doesn't even know their name."

"I'm just not sure I can deal with this."

"Sure you can! You're a strong bitch, besides, I don't think you could leave him even if you tried." She looked extremely smug when she said the last part. But Alice had a feeling she was right. At the moment he was to tired and drunk to even think about it.

"I need to sleep."

Gemma got up and showed her the guestroom and Alice practically fell into the bed.

Happy finally just got on his bike and started to drive towards Charming. He walked into the clubhouse and found Tig, Chibs and Bobby in the bar.

"Hey, Killer!"

"Hey."

"What's up?" Bobby asked.

"I'm looking for Al." He might as well just tell them. It wasn't a big secret that they fought a lot, they've even been at it work once.

"What happened?"

"We had a fight, she took off." He admitted. Bobby handed him a beer.

"She'll be back." He said.

"Have you tried Tara?" Tig asked.

"She's not there."

"Gemma then?" Chibs continued. Happy snapped his head up and looked at him.

"Think she'd go there?" He hadn't even considered that. Probably because Gemma was one scarey woman when she was pissed and he didn't want to talk to her at the moment.

"Yeah, she might."

Happy walked off to his room. Considered it for a while and then and then picked up the phone and called Clay's house. Gemma picked up the phone.

"Gemma." That was all she said.

"Hi Gem, it's Hap."

"Hi Hap."

"Is Al at you house?"

"No, she's not."

That was all she said, and if it was one thing Happy knew it was that Gemma usually wanted to know everything. She should be shooting questions at him like a machine gun if things was as usual. That's how he knew that she knew where Al was. He also knew that Gemma wanted him to know, otherwise she would have made more of an effort to trick him. She was the sneakiest bitch alive.

"Gem, I don't need to talk to her, I just need to know that she's ok."

She was quiet for a while. He heard steps from bitch heels and finally Gemmas low voice.

"She's pissed, and upset, she's sleeping now, but she's ok."

"Thank you, Gemma. I'm sleeping at the club house tonight."

"Yeah, yeah," She said and then she hung up the phone. He looked at the bed and got out of his clothes and into it. As long as Al was ok and still in Charming he knew she might come back.

Alice woke up in the middle of the night, her head was pounding so she realized that she had been drinking and it took her few seconds to remember why. When she did she felt a familiar pressure in her chest. She turned around but couldn't fall asleep again. She laid awake for a while and then got up and walked outside, it was dark and she assumed that everyone was asleep, she sneaked towards the door and jumped when the light was turned on.

"Going somewhere?" She heard Clay's voice.

"Hrm, yes."

Clay walked out in the hallway and pulled on a hoodie and his cut. "He's at the club house, I'll take you."

"It's ok, you don't need to."

"I can smell your breath from here, you shouldn't drive." He said when he walked passed her to the door. "Come on."

She stood still for a second and then realized he was right. She shouldn't drive and she wasn't supposed to be alone either. So she just followed him outside and got into Gemma's car.

He dropped her off outside the club house and then leaned the passenger seat, "Hey, Al!"

"Yeah?"

"Go easy on him."

She slammed the door shut and walked inside. Chibs and Bobby were at the bar.

"Hey lass!"

"Hey." She sat down next to him. "Is there any coffee?" She needed to sober up before going to see Hap.

"I'm awake, there's always coffee when I'm up." Bobby said and went to get her a cup.

"You ok?"

"I'll be fine Chibs."

"Heard you had a fight."

"We did."

"Don't be to hard on him, the poor bastard looked miserable." Bobby said. "Come to think of it, you look pretty miserable yourself."

"Geez, thanks."

"Just sayin', if you're both miserable it's probably best to just make up and be friends."

"Is that your experience? Coming from... how many marriages?" Alice said and finished the coffee.

"Trust me, if you're not miserable after a huge fight, it's time to pack up and leave."

Alice just leaned over the bar and kissed his cheek and the did the same to Chibs.

When she got into Hap's room he was sleeping, she just took of her jeans and then got into bed next to him.

Happy woke up when Al got down under the cover.

"Al?"

"Please Hap, I don't want to do this now."

His arms were hurting, that was how bad he wanted to hold her.

"Al, just tell me what to do."

"It doesn't matter, I knew what I was getting into. I just don't ever want to hear about it again."

He had made her cry. She knew he had fucked Crow Eaters, but she was still here, in his bed. That's how he knew. She loved him too. They had never said it. But none of them was the type to say stuff like that.

"Al, please turn around." she didn't move. "Please." He hated that he was begging, but he needed to see her. She finally turned around. She wasn't looking at him but he was ok with that for now. He put his hand on her cheek.

"I'm not doing it anymore." he said, and he meant it.

"Don't, Hap."

"What?"

"I don't like it, but I don't want you to promise me something that you won't keep anyway. That's just going to make it hurt more when it happens again and I find out."

"Look at me." She finally looked at him. "I'm not going to fuck them or let them give me head. I'm reserving the fucking right to lapdances, that can't give anyone a STD, but I promise you, that's it." If anyone had asked him six months ago if he would promise that to any bitch, he wold have laughed them in the face.

She looked at him. "I don't want you to promise me more than I think you can keep."

"I'm not."

"Please, just... leave it."

"Alice, I'm serious."

"Don't promise me anything, if you're serious about it, just stop doing it, and then tell me."

If he was already on the 'love' shit he might as well admit what he loved about her. And he loved that she didn't take anyones word for anything, you had to always show her that you were serious. And he knew that he wouldn't be able to lie to her. She would never fall for it, she had a bullshit radar the size of Gemma's.

"Ok."

"Go and do a full STD exam and show me the results, then we can talk about condoms." She said and turned around. He carefully snuck his arm around her, she didn't protest and he let out a sigh, pulling her closer to him. "I change my mind, could you promise me one thing?"

"Anything." He meant it, he would have promised the the fucking moon right now.

"Please don't kiss them." He was relieved, this was easy.

"I've never done that since you."

She turned around, still in his arms, and looked straight at him.

"Promise."

"I promise, Katze." She eyed him carefully.

"Why?"

"I have a girl with perfect lips. And you love my kisses."

She leaned towards him and kissed him carefully, he let out a sigh of relief.

"You know, that was another one of my 'never's'."

"What?"

"Never stay with a guy who cheats."

"It's not really cheating." He tried to defend himself.

"If you put your dick in another woman's pussy or mouth, it's cheating Hap. Even if you seems to view it as and advance form of masturbation."

She turned away from him again, but laid close to him, almost curled into a ball.

He pulled her closer and whispered in her ear. "Forty two." She just squeezed his hand.

Alice woke up early, she turned around and looked at Hap, sleeping next to her and let out a sigh. She didn't want to wake him since she didn't want to talk to him at the moment. She had no fucking idea why she went to the club house last night. She got out of bed and took her clothes an a hoodie she found on the floor to the bathroom, she washed off as silently as possible and got out to the bar.

"Hey, lass." Chibs said and she sat down next to him, "You ok?"

"I'm fine." She said and took the coffee cup he was handing her.

"Are you two ok?."

She didn't even know what to say, she just took a sip from the cup, she fucking felt like crying again. She never used to cry, this asshole had her all twisted and she didn't know what to do about it. Chibs just kept looking at her and finally put an arm around her.

"Seriously lass, how are you?"

She leaned her head against his shoulder. "I'll be fine, don't worry."

She didn't want to talk to Chibs, no matter how close he used to be, he was Haps brother. They were still friends, but it wasn't the same thing and this was definitely not one of the things she could talk to him about. She didn't think he would see the problem either. She remembered the ladder Opie had showed her when she was talking to her brother.

"I need to make a call." She said and got up.

"Ok." Chibs said, he was still eyeing her suspiciously, but he didn't say anything else.

She got up on the roof and called Alex.

"Yeah." He was sleeping, not that she cared.

"Alex?" She didn't even know how to continue.

"Hey, Angelface, what's wrong?"

She didn't know what to say, she just leaned her face in her free hand, she felt so fucking stupid.

"I didn't really handle it well, when the shit hit the fan." It was all she could think of saying, but he knew her and he knew what it meant.

"Hang on."He said and he heard him get out of bed, he was probably not alone. "Sorry, night guest."

"I figured."

"What happened?"

She explained the basics, their fight, what he said and what had happened. He interrupted her with a couple of questions but mostly just listened.

"I'm sorry sis, really, but it's not like you didn't know."

"I know, it's just worse when you actually find out."

"I know." He was quiet for a while. "Think he'll keep his promise?"

"To begin with at least, but I don't know, maybe."

"It's a huge promise from a guy like him, you do realize that?"

"Yeah, I do." she did, "It's just, It shouldn't be."

"Hon', you knew this, I'm not defending him, but you knew this would happened, that it would be like this and just the fact that he said what he did speaks volumes you know. Not even mentioning the fact that you went back to him."

"I know, still feel like an idiot."

"Hey, that's my twin sister you're talking about. And you're not an idiot. You love him."

"That doesn't really make me feel any better right now."

"I know, but you do. I know you."

"Yeah."

"You'll be fine, just give it some time, and listen to him, don't shut him out like you usually do when you get like this."

"Ok." She knew he was right. "I'll be nice."

"You're never 'nice' and that's not what I mean. I mean that you need to hear him out and keep in mind; he probably never thought he would make that promise to anyone. It's a huge thing for most of those guys."

"Ok, hey, keep your phone on, I'll probably need to talk to you again."

"I will Angelface."

"And don't tell mom and dad."

"You don't even have to say that. Love you."

"Love you too." She said and hung up the phone.

She found a pack of smokes in the pocked of the hoodie, so she decided to stay there for a while.

Not long after Hap came up the ladder. He didn't say anything and just sat down next to her, she handed him the cigarettes and he lit one. He put his arm around her and she leaned her head against him.

"Do you remember on my birthday, when you found me and Alex in the stairs?"

"Yeah."

"And that I didn't tell you what we were talking about, and that I would tell you someday."

"I remember." He said and kissed the top of her head, she still wasn't sure if she should tell him.

"Alex knows me, better than anyone, probably better than I do myself."

"I know that."

"He said that if I could deal with all this shit, you would be my perfect fit."

Happy just hugged her harder. "For what it's worth, I am sorry."

"I know." She knew it wasn't easy for him to say it, so it was worth quite a lot. She looked up at him and he kissed her forehead.

"What did Alex say?" He said with a smile.

"That you probably never thought you would make that promise to anyone, and some other stuff."

"He's right, well, I don't know about the other stuff, but about that."

"He was right about the other stuff as well." She said and laid her head down on his shoulder again. She did love him, she kind of hated that she did at the moment. But still, she did and she had a feeling that he loved her too.

"So, are you staying with me?"

"Would you let me go?"

"No, but I think this will be nicer if you volunteer." He said and when she looked up at him he was smiling and a laughed slipped out from her chest. "It would be such a mess if I had to keep you in chains all the time, the customers would start to wonder."

She got up in his lap and put her arms around him. "You could just say I'm butt fucking crazy and that it's for my own good."

Happy sighed and looked up at her, she was smiling, he put his arms around her and let the hand slid up underneath her sweaters. He almost panicked earlier when he woke up and she wasn't there. Chibs had told him that she was making a call and he figured she would be on the roof. He was very relieved when she was. He was sorry, really fucking sorry.

"I think even your parents would agree with me on that." He put his nose to her throat and just inhaled her smell.

"He told me to not shut you out. Like I usually do."

"Alex?"

"Yeah."

He looked at her carefully. He didn't know what the fuck to do in a situation like this. "Then don't"

"I'm not."

"Ok." He wanted to kiss her, but he didn't want to make the first move. He moved his hand to her front, carefully stroking her just underneath her tits. She smiled.

"They're higher up." That's when he kissed her. He moved his hands to her back again, holding her closer.

He was going to keep that fucking promise, it seemed stupid to fuck B-class pussy when you had the A-class waiting for you at home.

"I'm going to need some time Hap."

"I know." He kissed her again.

Ok, I'm really unsure about Happy's age, but I do know that David Labrava is closing in on fifty, the man has some serious amount of grey hair and he uses reading glasses, so he's defenently closer to fifty than forty. But even so, 42 was the age I landed upon. But... feel free to change it in your head as you see fit. PLEASE REVIEW