I hope you haven't forgotten me, I haven't forgotten you guys! (It looks as if I did, but I promise I didn't!)
It's been so long I don't even remember what this story is about.
Totally kidding, but seriously it has been a long time.
Uni just piled on work and everything became too much, and I am so so so so so so sorrryyyyy you guys! :'(
But hey, two exams left and at precisely, 4.30pm next Tuesday, it's summmmmmmmmaaaaaaahhhh!
Woooo!
I've been thinking, and since it's been so long, I think i'm gonna end this soon, I don't really know where it's going and i was thinking of starting something new.
Plus, I've dipped my pen back into the poetry world. (see what I did there?)
Anyway, this chapter is what you've been waiting for ;)
Sorry to keep you waiting for so long, it's been like 5 months, wooops, that's bad, I don't even keep real people waiting this long for se... aaaaaaand, i've shared too much... :P
Enjoy, and please please please with extra cheese (or topping of your choice) on top, review?
Part of the reason it took so long to update is because I was given no motivation to, so please review, your feedback is so important to me! :)
So, it's been two weeks since the whole Ryan thing, and Sian and I have never been stronger. She's been the best of girlfriends, attentive, caring and most importantly, on her best behaviour.
Since our New Year's Day showdown with Rosie, we've both been a bit on edge and not doing anything that would rouse Rosie's suspicions. And it's been so easy, not kissing her in front of Rosie, and not touching her, at all… not even a little bit… I don't even care that she is looking at me and smirking right now, she's biting her lip… oh who am I kidding I can't take this anymore!
"Sian…" I said, mock irritation in my voice.
"…What?" she said, biting her lip again.
I looked down and seen her hand creeping up my leg.
"I can't keep having to shoot you down, I'm losing my will power and I'm not gonna be able to take this for much longer." I said breathing heavy as her hand moved higher up my thigh. I closed my eyes. Oh god.
"Good…" she said as she began placing kisses down my neck, before she started speaking again. "But, I'm not losing mine" she slowly slid her hand up my light vest top.
"Sian…" I moaned. I was so done caring at this point; I was ready to let her have her wicked way with me, self-control be damned.
"So this is what you do as soon as I leave the room? God Sophie, I already told you I know Sian is hot but can't you control yourself for one day?" Rosie said as she stood in front of the TV in my living room, arms crossed staring at me.
"WHAT! Are you serious? Can you not see what is going on here?" I said frustrated, while pointing to Sian's hands, one up my top and the other resting dangerously high on my leg. I admit, it is hard to keep my hands off of her but I'm not the one trying to do it at 2 in the afternoon on their girlfriends couch.
Sian sat back, smirking at me and clearly trying not to laugh.
"Yes I can see that Sophie but the thing is babe, this is OUR house and Sian is a guest so unless you tell her what is appropriate behaviour, how is she supposed to know that trying to get in your pants on our living room couch is a no no?" She said seriously. My jaw dropped as I stared at her and Sian burst into laughter as she high-fived my sister.
"I give up." I said sternly, shaking my head as I got up and walked into the kitchen.
"God Sophie, talk about being dramatic. Anyway, I'm off out, I have this new job in town so I'll see you two lovebirds later."
I closed my eyes as I tried to calm myself and not turn around and punch my sister in the face.
"Ok, I'll try that." I heard Sian say, so I turned around to see my sister whispering in her and handing her a piece of paper. She saw me looking at her, and quickly said goodbye to Rosie, before she closed the door and left for the bus.
"What was that about? And what did she give you?" I asked as I sat down next to her.
"Oh nothing, just the address of where her job is, in case I need her or something." She said not looking at me.
"Oh… okay… So what do you wanna do today? I was thinking since we have the house to ourselves…" I trailed, trying to get her attention like I had it before, I was done playing hard to get and I needed her.
"Oh… actually, I have some errands to run so I can't hang out today." She said, as she got up abruptly and grabbed her leather jacket.
"Anything I can help you with? We could get them done twice as quick with both of us." I said, hopeful, although she was being really distant so I wasn't expecting much.
"Oh thanks, but I promised my mum I would meet her for lunch just the two of us."
"Oh… okay… I guess I'll see you later then…" defeated, I sat on the couch and waited for her to leave.
"I'm coming back, Soph… I just have… stuff, to care of. We'll do something tonight." She said as she placed a kiss on my cheek and left.
"Oh Sophie, I'll just spend 5 months trying to have sex with you and as soon as you put yourself on a plate for me, I can't take it because I have a 'lunch' to go to. Well that's just great." I said to myself.
I need to get out more.
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"Hi love." My mum said as she came through the door that evening.
"Hi, mum." I said, flicking through my tenth magazine of the day.
"Where's Sian? I thought you two would have been doing something, it's a Friday night after all."
"Oh she had things to do… she said she'd be back but, no sign of her so far. Hey mum, do you wanna have a movie night tonight? Maybe get a take away?" I said fishing for any sort of human contact; I hadn't spent this long away from Sian in… I can't even remember. It was already 8.50pm and I had a feeling I would be getting a text any minute saying she couldn't make it back over.
"Sorry love, I would have loved to but Rosie was working in town today and it went well so she said she wanted to take your father and I out on the town for dinner and a late movie."
"And she didn't ask me?" I asked, not that I wanted to spend an evening with Rosie but it's really bitchy of her not to invite me on a family night out, I mean I am only her sister after all, the only sibling she has but that's not big deal or anything. Bitch.
"Well Sophie, she probably thought you were spending the evening with Sian. Why don't you come along, there's plenty of time to get ready still."
"No, it's okay mum, you go and have a good night. It's fine." I don't wanna go where I'm not wanted.
"Okay, we'll be back late so I'll try to be as quiet as I can when I come in, I don't want to wake you."
"Thanks, I'll see you in the morning then. Have a nice time." I said, flicking a page, again, angrily this time.
"I will, goodnight love." And then she was gone. 9pm on a Friday night and i'm sitting here, by myself, with a bottle of wine and a magazine, waiting for a disappointing text from my girlfriend telling me she wasn't coming back.
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11.30pm
On the upside, I didn't get a disappointing text from Sian to tell me she wasn't coming back.
On the downside, I got NO text at all and I'm still sitting here waiting for her.
Right! That's it, go to bed, this is a joke.
I switched out the lights in the kitchen and headed upstairs. I got to my room and pulled off my tracksuit bottoms and hoodie and changed into pj bottoms and kept on the vest I was wearing under my hoodie. I walked to my desk to turn off my lamp when suddenly there was a loud knock on the door.
"Oh my god, are you serious people!" I yelled out, extremely frustrated with this entire day and just wanting it to be over as soon as possible. I turned around and walked out of my room, heading for the stairs and turning on the living room light so I didn't fall and kill myself. Another knock. "Hang on, I'm coming!" Jeesh, hold onto your pants.
I opened the door to see none other than Sian Powers standing in front of me.
"I think it's a little too late to do anything now Sian, don't you? I'll talk to you in the morning." I said and went to close the door.
"It's not that simple Soph…" she said as she put her hand on it to stop me, and pushed it open, but didn't attempt to come inside.
"What do you mean?" I asked, extremely confused, looking her up and down. "Sian, I know it's January and all, but why are you wearing that huge coat?" I said with a sideways smile, it wasn't like her to be unfashionable and this was definitely out of character for her.
She looked at me, and then down at the coat, and back to me. "You know what; I really have no idea… I'll just take it off." And with that she loosened the belt and undid the buttons, before shrugging it off her shoulders and dropping it on the ground.
"Oh my god." I stated plainly, as my mouth fell open and hit the ground. I looked her up and down as my breathing grew ragged, and she wasn't even touching me. She was dressed in a black silk corset which was tied at the front with dark red lace and black silk shorts. Her hair was messy and her eyes were dark, in more than ways than one, her make-up was a smoky black eye but her eyes themselves were gone all dark as she stared flirtatiously at me.
"I… you… I…" I struggled to get my words to come out in some sort of coherency, so instead I just grabbed her and kissed her with all the passion I could put into a single kiss. I pulled her over the threshold of the door, I closed it behind her and then pinned her against it.
"My god, where have you been." I said through forced breaths as we grabbed at each other, desperate for more contact. She ran her fingers through my hair as I grabbed her waist and pulled our hips closer together. Our lips parted for a split second and Sian groaned when I moved my knee between her thighs; she looked at me pleadingly before pressing her lips to mine again and started moving her hips against my leg, trying to relief some of the obvious arousal that was now clouding both of our judgements. "Sian… wait… I…" I started to say, before she grabbed me and pushed me against the wall opposite my front door. She held me there, but only stared at me for what seemed like forever.
"Sophie. I've been patient, we both have, and I'll wait for as long as you want me to, be it 2 months or 2 years, but I've seen the way you look at me, I've seen how I affect you and in those moments I know what you're feeling, and exactly what you're thinking, because it's what I'm feeling and thinking too. I love you no matter what, but when it comes to this, I don't know what to think. I know you want to be with me as much as I want to be with you, so I just don't understand what's stopping you." She said as she looked at me, worry covered her face.
"Sian…" I started, but when I looked into her eyes, I knew I had to come clean, it had to be now. "You're right when you say it's what I want, because this is what I want, you ARE what I want, I just…" I trailed, and I could feel myself growing red already.
"What is it Soph? You can tell me. We'll work through it together."
"I… I'm terrified that I'll do it wrong, and that I won't be any good at it and that you won't… And after everything we've been through together, and how much I love you, if I'm no good at this, and I don't satisfy you then… it will all have been for nothing."
"You think I'm not terrified too?" Sian said as she looked at me, and I felt all my embarrassment disappear, she wasn't laughing or mocking, she was genuinely concerned. And in that moment, I knew everything would be fine.
"You are?"
"Of course. Every time I touch you I'm scared I'm not doing it right, that's why when you start breathing really heavily, I just want to keep going, because I'm scared that if we stop, I'll never be able to do what I was doing again." I looked at her, and everything about her facial expression was so sincere.
And then I was gone. As soon as I saw that deep sincerity in her eyes, something took over me, it was like I was watching us from somewhere else, like I was in complete control of the situation but yet had no control over what I was doing. And I pressed my lips to hers. It was no less heated, but this time, it was heated with love instead of lust.
Woah woah woah Sophie, don't be silly, there's a whole lot of lust in that kiss.. and there's a whole lot of lust in your pants right now too…
"Shut up brain…" I mumbled as I kissed her again and moved my lips to her neck.
"What?" she said through a laboured breath.
"Nothing. I love you. Let's go." I said, my voice shaking slightly, and I took her hand.
"Where are we going?" she said, her voice shaking now too as she tentatively followed.
"Well, as much as I need you, I don't think I want our first time together to be against my front door." I chuckled, as I pulled her hand up the stairs but she stopped, I turned to look at her, angling my head down slightly as I was now raised on the first step of the stairs that would lead to the best night of my life.
"What's wrong sweetie?" I said, worried.
"Nothing, everything is just so perfect I wanted to take it all in and remember it." She said, smiling, though she was looking away. She turned her head to me and beamed the most beautiful smile I'd ever seen, even on her. I pulled her into a tight embrace, taking it all in, taking her in, and she was completely in control of my heart now.
I leaned down. I paused before we kissed. "I love you more than words can say." I whispered against her lips.
"I love you too, Sophie." We looked at each other for a minute before smiling nervously and heading up the stairs.
I opened the door and nodded for Sian to go through first. She hand her hands in the pockets of the huge trench coat she had put back on when we were downstairs. I walked in after her, turned and closed the door. I turned around slowly, and she was standing in front of me.
We looked at each other for a minute, before slowly edging closer and closer. I put my hands on her waist and pulled her closer and she draped her arms over my shoulders, running her fingers over the back of my neck. We were both breathing heavily. She bit her lip. And I was sent over the edge. I closed the gap between us and placed my lips on hers. She tasted better than I ever remembered her tasting. We let out sighs and gasps between kisses trying to catch some air so we wouldn't pass out because we refused to part.
The kiss got more aggressive and passionate with each passing second and with a slight nudge, Sian had pinned me against my bedroom door. She held me there for a moment while she tore the coat off of her body to once again reveal the black lingerie she had on. I let out a small laugh and was smirking widly.
"What's funny?" she asked breathlessly.
"I just forgot you were wearing that, is all… thank you so much or rejigging my memory" I said seductively as I pressed my lips to her collar bone and began placing kiss down her chest towards her full breasts, running my hands up her sides.
"Soph…" she moaned, and I think my heart skipped a beat. It was the first time I had ever made her lose control like this, like she had torturously done so many times to me, though I was pretty sure that was only because my mind and heart went fuzzy when it came to Sian, and if I had an ounce less of self-control I'm pretty sure I would constantly be moaning her name.
I continued with my attack on her chest and soon moved my lips back to base. Back home. Where they belonged. Her lips.
"You're wearing too many clothes" she muttered as she began tugging at… well, everything I had on.
"I'm wearing a vest top and shorts; I'd hardly call that too many clothes." I was surprised at how clear I was thinking, Sian can get my mind cloudy without even saying anything and here she was, in my room, wearing barely any clothes, moaning my name and tugging at my shorts, and my mind is as clear as that one day of summer Manchester gets.
"Whether you're wearing two items or twenty, if you're not naked, you have too many clothes on." She growled. God I was so horny. She just reminded me of that. Oh great, here comes those clouds. And then she did something I wasn't expecting. She grabbed me, and pushed me back onto my bed viciously, but in a sexy way. She yanked at my clothing for the third time, with every bit of strength in her, and it tore off my body.
"Woah…" I stated dumbly, looking down once more at what I had just witnessed, seeing if my eyes were lying to me.
"Stop talking." She said strongly, my god I really like a dominant Sian.
She leaned down fast and kissed me hard; she ran her tongue along my mouth and slipped it in, deep. I wrapped my arms around her neck and moaned, pulling her further into me, I couldn't kiss her hard enough, or fast enough, I needed her, I needed her so badly and I had to have her now I couldn't wait any longer.
Suddenly, she broke the kiss and started sucking on my neck. I was so wet I was pretty sure I would stay like that forever.
It's too late. Nope, it's true… she broke my body.
"Sian… please… I'm so… I need you, oh god…" I mumbled, or gasped, or moaned, I wasn't even making sense, but she seemed to understand, because she looked up at me, eyes dark and slid her hands up my thighs, she moved up my body and kissed me once again before she slid her hand under the waistband of the only remaining material covering my body, my underwear.
I gasped loudly as she moved her fingers over me, and through me, teasing me, but pleasuring me. "Sian… faster, please." My head was spinning, and her scent was driving me wild.
"Soph, you're so wet… is that all for me?" she whispered, as she slipped a finger inside me for the first time. Hmm she likes dirty talk… mental note to remember that later.
"Yes, it's all yours; I'm all yours, harder Sian!" I moaned, loudly, very loudly. I hoped no one heard that. No one was home, but I was pretty sure people in Newcastle could have heard me.
My vision was becoming blurry and all I could see were her blue eyes looking at me, admiring me, wanting me. She moved her fingers rhythmically now, every touch sending me closer and closer to where I wanted to be. She kissed me, lovingly, but I could feel her need and desperation in the kiss.
"Sian… I'm gonna…" I moaned again. Over and over and over again, I couldn't control what was coming out of my mouth, and with only finally press against that bundle of nerves, it happened. I was a wreck and I didn't care, all I cared about was her. She held me as I came crashing back down and fell down beside me, breathing heavily, as she moved her hand down and rested it on mine.
"That was… woah… I… you… bloody hell." I said between breaths as I re-caught them.
"Yeah, it was…" She said, turning to face me and lying on her side. I closed my eyes and lay there smiling.
"You are amazing." I said quietly, not moving, just resting. She moved closer and kissed my cheek.
"Sssh, sleep…" She whispered, and I felt myself drifting. I'm not sure what my thoughts were at that moment, but suddenly something came back to me and I shot up.
"Soph? Are you okay?" Sian said, sounding a little concerned. I turned to her slowly, and a smirk graced my lips. Quickly I put my hands on her shoulders and pushed her so she was lying flat on my bed again, and straddled her waist.
"I thought you were going to sl…" she started but I moved my finger to her lips to silence her.
"Now, you went to all this trouble…" I said, running my finger down from her lips along her chest and over the laced part of her corset "… and I'm not letting it go to waste." I said as I leaned in a kissed her lips, slowly, and slipped my tongue into her mouth. She moaned against my lips and I felt her hands in my hair, as she pulled me down on top of her, so I was lying in between her legs. We kissed more passionately and she began moving her hips against mine, trying to create a friction between our bodies as we embraced and kissed.
I pulled away first, and sat up on her once more, before I held onto the lace, tied on the front of her corset and with one pull, loosened it, before I unclipped it at the back and pulled it off her. I think my eyes glazed over as I saw her, I mean really saw her, for the first time. I slowly ran a hand down her chest, over her breast and down her abdomen as I took in this breath-taking sight. She giggled shyly, and moved her hand to my chin.
"You're drooling babe" she said, and it brought me back to reality, I looked her up and down again and licked my lips before leaning down and placing my lips on her neck. She leaned her head back to allow me easier access as I began my attack on her neck and chest. I moved down to her breasts and tentatively began kissing and sucking. I must have done something right because Sian moaned and started squirming underneath me. I took one of her buds in my mouth and swirled my tongue around it slowly, teasingly, drawing this moment out for as long as I possibly could.
"Soph… don't tease… I need you." I kissed back up her neck and stopped at her ear.
"What do you need me to do?" I whispered in her ear as I ran my tongue along her ear lobe, and started nipping at it.
"I need… I need you to make me come, Soph…"
With that, I moved my hands down her sides and legs, back up her inner thighs and put my hands on the waistband of her silk panties, and slowly pulled them down her legs, before throwing them to the other side of the room.
I moved to her neck for what felt like the hundredth time tonight, and kissed down her chest again. This time it was more urgent. This time, I wasn't stopping. I kissed down her abdomen and finally, I reached my destination. She looked down at me.
"Are… are you sure?" she said, though I don't think she would have accepted no as an answer to that question.
"I'm sure. Relax." I said, confidently, and kissed her inner thigh, running my tongue up along it then as I came to a stop before the glistening treasure that awaited me. I ran my tongue over her wetness for the first time. And then the second time, and the third, and the fourth. It was like magic. And the noise coming from Sian was nothing short of delicious. I'm not sure if you can claim sounds to be delicious, but I am. It was a delicious sound.
"Oh god, Sophie... faster, don't stop" She groaned.
I had no intention of stopping but her telling me not to was extremely sexy, and turning me on. I moved my tongue quicker now, circling over her swollen bud, and then I took it in my mouth and sucked on it lightly, she moved her fingers through my hair, pushing my head further into her. I slipped a finger inside her and continued working my tongue over her wet centre, she was moving her hips faster now and I knew it would happen soon, the moment I was waiting for, the moment I was craving.
"Sophie!" that was the last time she cried out, grabbing a fistful of my hair as her body was ravaged by pleasure. Pleasure I had brought her.
Teehee.
Like she had done previously, I moved beside her and wrapped her in my arms.
"I love you so much." she said, as she nuzzled into my neck.
"I love you too."
"Soph?"
"Hmmm?"
"It's gonna be even harder for me to keep my hands off you now, you know that right?"
"I know"
I felt her hand move down my stomach.
…
Oh god…