AN: in personal fanon, Lily Luna potter takes her own life at age 18. Al mourns for her. (to learn more about their relationship, read chapters 28, 30 and 32 of Moments.)
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Sometimes being a brother is even better than being a superhero. –Marc Brown.
Instead of bending over a sharp needle filled with black tar, you hunch over her weary old copy of Jane Eyre. You feel your sister in these tired old pages. You finger a letter; one of four.
I'm sorry. I had to. Don't cry for me. Live for me.
You sigh, rushing noise. The image leaps into your head fully formed, uninvited. Her little ballerina body poised in a kneeling position, the knees of her golden skirt steeped in her own blood.
Your pulse quickens. Deep breath, deep breath. God, grant me the serenity…you grip the book tighter, your fingers smoothing over the lines of her miniscule handwriting.
I'm sorry.
To accept the things I cannot change. Breathe, breathe.
I had to.
Courage to change the things I can. Getting high as outer space won't bring her back.
Don't cry for me.
Tears slide down your face as you mumble to yourself; and the wisdom to know the difference.
Live for me.