A/N Hey! It took me a while to write this chapter, I just finished it today... Thank you so much for the reviews in the previous chapter, I am very glad you like this story, I thought no one would read it.. Anyway here's the next chapter of this messy story, I added something Christmas related since it was Addison and Derek's season. Oh and I hope you all had a very nice Christmas... Okay, now enjoy the chapter

After the first day of the trial was done, everyone could say that both Addison and Derek were relive that it was started and now they would be happy because they'd know what they are gonna get very soon, but this wasn't the case for any of them, after he left the court house, Derek went straight to the hospital, he needed to work, to cut brains and to save inoperable tumors, so he could hide his own problems by dealing with their patient's. After he did every single surgery he had planned for that day and few cases in the ER, he went straight to the bar and spent there the rest of the night he didn't even remember Meredith, she was the last thing on his mind right now, he was too busy trying to figure an easy way out of all this and the only solution he knew was getting drunk so he would think clearly, or at least that was what he thought. He drank practically everything and still couldn't stop thinking about Addison and how messed up they are right now.

Meanwhile, after she left the municipal court of Seattle, she went to her hotel room feeling terrible, as soon as she was there she threw up everything she had eaten, the stress of this fight was killing her, after feeling literally empty she went to her bed and started to drink a glass of red wine like she always did when she's not feeling well, sadly for her, this kind of ache she was feeling wouldn't be fixed by a glass of wine, this was deeper than this, she hated how both lawyers attacked her and Derek, she had no idea this will be that hard, if she could take back the time she would just take Derek's friendly agreement and none of this would've happen but now it was too late, she was doing this and she was willing to win, she couldn't take back at this point.

After half bottle of wine she took her Blackberry and called Mark, she didn't want to sleep with him, she didn't want her mistress, she only needed a friend by her side who tells her that everything's gonna be okay and that what she's doing is fine. Mark went immediately there as he always does when she needs him, he knew Addison wasn't fine in the moment she opened the door, she was paler than the usual, she wasn't feeling well and he knew that whatever he could say wasn't gonna make her feel better.

"Hey red… You don't look good" He said very serious as he walked into the room

"If you came here to mock of my look, you can leave in this moment" She told his friend giving him a furious glance

"Okay, I'm sorry… I'm just saying… But that why I'm here, I'm gonna make you feel better" He smiled a little as he took off his shirt as Addison just shook her head

"I don't wanna have sex… I just need you, today was… hard… And I need someone by my side right now" Mark approached to her and held her in his arms as she allowed herself to cry "It was awful Mark, it was like something that you never thing it would happen to you… It was like this senseless guy took over the man who was once the love of my life" She said between sobs while Mark just listened to her, he knew that for Addison this was hard, he knew she came to Seattle hoping she would be back with her husband, he knew Addison Shepherd was a woman who always get what she wants, she was the best of the class back in med school, she was the best intern, the best resident and now she was the best on her field; she was used to get everything she planned and when it didn't happen, that feeling killed her. He also thought that probably Derek would be in the same situation as Addison because even when he claims to love another woman, even Mark knew they would always be Addison and Derek, and that would never change. But right now, Addison was the one who needed him the most.

Addison finished her bottle of wine and telling Mark everything what happened at the trial, she felt asleep on his arms, she was tired, she wasn't feeling well, as much as she didn't want it, she couldn't stop thinking about her husband, after falling asleep she wished it were Derek's arms holding her.

The next day, Mark and Addison went to the hospital together, but as soon as their shifts started they went apart, each one by their own side, just like her soon-to-be-ex-husband, she was filled with work, she had surgery after surgery that she barely had time to breathe, the only thing on her life that wasn't going downhill was her work and she wouldn't let that happen, if it wasn't for her job she'd probable have a breakdown by this moment.

She checked the OR board and she smiled seeing that she had a very long surgery, she went there and scrubbed in while the patient was getting ready, knowing that she wouldn't have to think about her divorce at least for the next five or six hours, she walked in to the OR and started an Intrauterine surgery to repair a congenital diaphragmatic hernia, she was very focus on her work that she didn't even notice the people who was watching her from the gallery.

Derek on his side woke up on his trailer with a terrible hangover, he felt like he wanted to die and still he couldn't stop thinking about his future ex wife, he couldn't stop asking how they got at that point. He went to the hospital not wanting to see anyone specially Meredith, since the hearing and the trial started they hadn't spoken, he didn't even feel like talking to her, maybe this thing was affecting him way too much, but since he decided to end things with Addison to finally be with Meredith, he realized things wasn't like he expected, now it should be something serious with his former mistress but now he avoided her every time he could.

He started his day just like the others, he hid in the OR performing every surgery he could, so he wouldn't have to see or talk to anyone, after few hours he needed a break, he went for coffee and saw the OR gallery, he read that Addison was doing a surgery at the moment. After a lot of thinking, he decided to go to the gallery to see Addison working, he knew she used to love that, it was one of the many thing they loved about each other, he saw her from the gallery and she did the same thing.

Without even notice, Derek was staring at Addison like he used to do in their good old days, she didn't even notice that because she was very focus on her work but Derek was looking at her, detailing every thing she was doing in the procedure while he was drinking of his coffee.

Flashback, New York, Addison and Derek's residency

They were good residents, no, they were the best residents of the program, they were working in one of the best hospitals in the State of New York and being the best wasn't easy, there was a lot of competition especially when there are a lot of residents wanting to be the best to impress their attendings but Addison and Derek managed to be the best.

A lot of people, even their families thought they wouldn't make it, they thought one of them would end up dropping the program, not only because it was very hard and they wouldn't stand it but working together, being newlyweds wasn't a very good thing, they thought it would tear them apart. Luckily they were all wrong, for the Shepherd marriage, working together was something they loved to do since they met in med school, they helped each other with their patients, they could complain about their resident and the most important for them, they knew how to deal after a rough day spending some time in the on-call rooms. They loved all of this.

This particular day wasn't like the others. It was Christmas Eve, the month when the whole hospital collapses for the amount of accidents because of the holidays, the doctors weren't enough to deal with all of the patients in the ER and the OR was busy all day. Besides of what happens at the hospital, it was an especial day for Addison and Derek, it was Christmas, they loved the holiday, it was their season. They didn't want to spend it trapped in the hospital but being residents didn't give them a lot of a choice, they needed to be there if they wanted to be the best.

After a lot of working in the ER with persons who felt off the roof because of the Christmas lights, car accidents and any other accident because of the holiday, Addison was resting in an on-call room, laying in the bed for five minutes before her pager started to sound again. She heard someone opened the door but she didn't even look at it.

"Addie?" She heard the only person she would get up of that bed for, she immediately recognized that soft voice and smiled "Honey, I was looking for you" Her husband sat next to her and held her hand "Were you sleeping?"

"No, no… It's okay, I was just resting before Dr. Webber decides to page me again"

"Oh, that's okay… I shouldn't bother you then… I just wanted you to know that I'm doing my first solo surgery today, apparently Dr. Mulligan is trapped in the OR with another kind of surgery and he asked me to do a craniotomy… I thought you should know" He smiled very dreamy looking at his wife

"Are you serious! Derek, that's awesome! You are so not bothering me! It's your first solo surgery on Neuro! And it's Christmas! How awesome is that? After we leave this place we are celebrating this!" She also smiled and hugged her husband very happy for him, she knew how much he loved Neuro and now he had the chance to be the best at it.

"Thank you, Addie… If you're not busy, I would like you to be there, in the gallery, just to know everything would be fine"

"I am gonna be there, you don't even have to ask me that! I don't care if Richard gets mad and I have to do enemas for the entire next year, this worths it!" She kissed him softly in his lips and got up the bed, so they could leave for the OR and Derek would start to get ready for the procedure, she knew he was nervous even though he wasn't showing it. They went walking through the halls of the hospital, holding hands as Derek explained the whole procedure to his wife, telling her every detail of it.

They came to the scrub room, Addison was still there with him who wouldn't stop talking about the procedure while he washed his hand, he didn't notice that Addison had on her hands a scrub-cap with little ferryboats on it.

"You know that you're gonna do this better than Dr. Mulligan, don't you?"

"I don't know Addie, what if I screw up this? You know, this is Neuro, is what I love… I don't want to screw up this chance" He admitted looking at Addison straight to her eyes.

"Don't… Don't say that! You are the best in here, after me of course…" She laughed, making a joke so he wouldn't be so nervous "But seriously, you won't screw this up, you are gonna be a great neurosurgeon, you are over prepared to do this, if Mulligan chose you is because you're the best" She went behind him and put Derek the scrub cap "I got this for you few days ago, it has ferry boats on it, since I know you have a thing for it I knew you were gonna love it" She smiled "You would do this and you would do this better than anyone of this hospital, and even if you don't, you get to take home the hot girl.. So either way, you would have a Merry Christmas, okay? I promise" She kissed her husband softly on his lips and smiled at him looking his perfect blue-bright-eyes, wanting him to feel better

He couldn't help but smile with Addison's words, he nodded and kissed her back, convinced now that everything turn out fine, he loved how his wife always made him feel a lot better just with staring at him and he was so glad she was gonna be there

"Thank you Addie… I'll do my best here" He dried his hands and kissed his wife on her right cheek "After I finish we'd leave this place and do something nice, I promise… Oh and Addie… Merry Christmas, I love you" He smiled as he walked to the OR to start his fist neuro surgery

"Merry Christmas honey, I love you too" She waited until he was in front of his patient to leave to the gallery, she sat there for hours watching her husband doing the surgery successfully just like she told him

End of Flashback

After Addison finished her surgery, she didn't notice Derek was there watching her, he knew she didn't see him, he couldn't help but remember that Christmas when they made it their thing, right now he had the need of talking to her, he didn't know exactly why but he needed to talk to her.

He left the gallery and went to the scrub room, where Addison was washing her hands, getting ready to leave the place, it was the first time he saw her in days without her lawyer. "Addie… C-can we… talk?"

She was surprised to see him there, she thought she was the last person he would want to have some words with, she did want to talk to him but she wouldn't, she needed to be rough, remembering her lawyer's words, if she wanted a chance to win the fight.

"If it's something work-related you'd have my full attention, Dr. Shepherd" She answered without looking at him in the eyes and careless

"Addie, please…" Before he could say something else, she interrupted

"Don't 'Addie' me, you know that I can't talk to you without a lawyer, I don't wanna talk to you, I don't wanna see you and I don't even wanna be in the same room as you, so you can leave me the hell alone!" She cleared raising her voice so Derek would know she was serious.

"How did we get here, Addie? We were best friends, then we thought we were the loves of our lives… Now we can't even talk?" He said looking down, with his soft voice

"What do you want? I don't have all day for you, I have a life that it doesn't includes you anymore, so I don't have to be here"

"The divorce is not finished yet, so it still includes me!" He raised his voice just a little so she could let him talk "I'm sorry… Just answer me and I'll leave and won't talk to you again if it's necessary"

"What do you want me to say? That I miss you? Because I don't… Believe or not I want to move on with my life just like you are doing it with your 12-years-old intern… You were right, we were best friend, I thought you were the love of my life, it's true… But just like you once said, things change" He nodded and lifted his sight staring at her right in her eyes, with a little sad smile

"You know, if there was a way, I wouldn't do this to you, I just want us to be okay and move on… I don't want this anymore, it's killing us, I know that is affecting you as much as it affects me… I hate that I did this to you, I don't care if you stayed and aborted Mark Sloan's baby, I was also cheating on you, I was mad as you are at me right now… I know you better than anyone and I know you don't want this…" He went closer to Addison, very close to her lips, looking at her wanting to prove Addison's lips just one more time "I know you don't wanna be surrounded by lawyers for the next days, maybe months… Let's put an end to this… Even if we're not together, I don't want us to act like we've been doing lately"

Before he could do anything else, Addison could turn back and move away "I'll see you tomorrow at court, we can talk there" She left with tears on her eyes and left Derek there who really meant everything he said.

The next day, they went to the Municipal Court of Seattle very early as the judge schedule, before seeing the judge both Addison and Derek were talking with their respective lawyers whore were explaining what they were gonna do today, after half hour of formal talking they went to meet the judge once more. The judge said the formal words before starting the trial and asked each lawyer if they had something to add to the facts.

Ms. Rickford, Derek's lawyer stood up and after clearing her throat answered "Nothing to add, your honor"

The judge immediately looked at Mr. Foster, who also stood up "I do, you honor" He cleared as Addison was just looking down so she won't see Derek's reaction after the lawyer spoke "My client, Dr. Addison Shepherd, informed me that her husband, Dr. Derek Shepherd, tried to persuade her so she would abandon the process of the division of the assets, yesterday in the afternoon, also he tried to have physical contact to her by trying to kiss her"

Derek couldn't believe that Addison told that to her lawyer, he was very surprised and couldn't believe she would do something as low as this.

"Is that true, Mrs. Shepherd?" The judge asked looking at Addison, so he could add this fact to their records and proceed with the trial

"Yes, all true your honor"

A/N Sorry for ending there, I'm already working in the next one, I'll try to update this week if you review telling me what you think about this :) Do you think Addison is over reacting? Do you think she should win after this? Maybe she has a reason to act like this, who knows.. Anyway, review please :)