Hey guys, I am so so sorry but I had an extreme case of writers block. But chapter 21 is finally here. More at bottom.

Finally they were able to leave the Weasley's house. It had been quite hard seeing as that everyone wanted to say goodbye over and over again and constantly ask harry why he had run off. However after a little ( ok a lot) of pushing and shoving Sirius finally managed to grab a hold of his godson and apparate out.

They landed in the living room and as soon as they had remus went into the kitchen declaring that he would be back in a moment, he just wanted to grab something for all of them. Harry had a strong guess that it had something to do with chocolate, seeing as remus was very obsessed with it.

Sure enough right as Sirius and him had started a fire and got comfortable in their armchairs remus joined them this time levitating three warm mugs of hot coco.

" Here you go cub, this ought to warm you up." He said as he handed harry his cup.

Harry drank silently while absent mindedly staring at the red and orange dancing flames in their fireplace. He was trying very hard to ignore the stares he was receiving from his godfathers. He hoped that they would just ended up forgetting what he had said earlier about dying. It wasn't a subject he wanted to talk about now or even in the near future. Right in this moment all he wanted to do was be with his family and be a regular teenager till the time came that he would have to kill Voldemort.

The Golden boy then began to look around where he was sitting. He did this without even noticing that it was happening. The only thought that was going through his mind was how weird it was that the last time he had been in this room no one had known about the abuse and now… well now it was all out in the open.

He knew that eventually he would have to explain and talk about everything with remus and Sirius but he decided to not even worry about that tonight. That would indeed come later much much later if he had his way.

" Are you doing alright harry?" Sirius asked a little nervously. The truth was that he had planned most of what he would say in his head while they were at the Weasley's but now that he was at home it had all left his mind.

Harry heard the timidness in his voice and felt his heart contract with emotion. The one thing he didn't want above all else was for Sirius and remus to believe that they had to walk on egg shells around him. He wanted no.. needed them to still see him as harry. Their last connection to James and Lily potter and their always in trouble godson. He knew that he wouldn't be able to handle it if one of them treated him differently because of what had gone on at the Dursley's.

" I'm fine siri, don't worry just looking around." he reassured trying to put on his most happy smile. He even tried out the new nickname he had thought of for Sirius.

Remus noticed this but decided against saying anything at the moment. He knew that in time everything would come out and they would know all that had gone on in harry's life. Though for now things would be as they were before and maybe tomorrow they could sit down for a long chat and cover not only the abuse but also what had happened in harry's first and second years.

Truth be told remus was a little jealous that Sirius had broken into harry's pensive and looked through what he wanted. He was mentally cursing himself for being such a do gooder and refusing to invade harry's privacy. Yes, he understood that it wasn't the right thing to do and that when harry again remembered that Sirius had done it that harry would be very upset. But what harm was only thinking about maybe doing it in the near future. They were only thoughts after all.

" So Ron," Sirius paused in seeing his godson flinch. He knew that harry was remembering that it was ron who had confirmed their idea of the abuse, " brought up some of the most interesting things."

He left it off there hoping that harry would get curious enough to engage him in conversation and ask what those things were. Sirius pretended to not see remus eyeing the room with harry's thoughts and pensive and started a conversation so that he could pretend that he didn't feel so guilty in doing something that had been wrong but seemed like such a good idea at the time.

It didn't take long at all for harry's head to perk up and for him to say, " Really, what were they?"

"Nothing really just some hints at all the cool accidental magic you did before Hogwarts."

" But I do remember you mentioning turning you aunt into a balloon and I'm sure that was in your third year." remus chimed in.

" So it happened a lot then?" Sirius asked excitedly. There was nothing he like more than hearing about a prank and hearing about ones that harry had done was even better. He hoped that harry would bring up something that he hadn't looked at while in his pensive.

" Are you kidding me! All the time, that's why everyone at school thought I was a freak. Every where I went strange things seemed to just happen."

Sirius saw remus open his mouth, probably to explain why that happened in accidental magic and how it was all caused but he quickly shot him a look to silence him. He wanted to hear harry talk about something happily and not have him think on this whole abuse thing any longer tonight.

It wasn't long before harry started telling the story of how he had turned his teachers hair a bright shade of blue. Both remus and Sirius listened intently and nodded every now and then. Each of them wondering with anxiety in the back of their minds what tomorrow would bring and if harry would finally be up to opening up.

And if he didn't…..well then I guess they would just have to go to the Dursley's and find out themselves in a marauder type of way.

I am so so sorry for the long time it took to update! ok i know that it's short but i couldn't think of anything else to write. But rest assured that even with all the wtiters block and distractions in my life i will have another one out soon. Right now i'm trying to decided on where to take this story, i have several ideas that many people are helping me chose from.

Well then all thats left is a quick thank you to all that read this story and review. i am really sorry it took so long.