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Warning: this Chapter contains a lot of heavy talk about depressions, suicied and other themes that is why I rated this Fiction up to M you had be warned.
"bla" normal talking
´bla´OC thinking
´bla´OC inner
Chapter 7: Found out
Saturday after our first day in the academy we all were playing in the park.
I was talking with Kiba about Niken and asked to pet Akamaru.
"Sure he like it when you scratch him behind the ears" I followed his tip and Akamaru seems to really like it and rolls over on his back.
"You really like it nee"
"Wau"
"Hahahaha here" I scratched his stomach too and his tail goes wild.
´I SO LOVE ANIMALS petting, stroking, scratching aww look he is so cut´
´Girl get it together´
"Wow I never saw him get so good along with others"
"I just a special case right? I have just some magic hands" I winked at Akamaru and he only bark in agreement.
´Hmm...Just an idea but learning to do a real massage...think of the possibilities´
´Wow hold it we are not yet sixteen and you produce pervert thoughts´
´You were the only one going there I thought of giving the likes Shikamaru, Sasuke or Itachi a massage to relax a bit more and/or be coaxed into more sleep in Itachi case´
´Oh´
´But you are right the possibilities in the other branch are also not to forgotten´
Some images with Shikamaru in the fields or Itachi and Sasuke at their home went through my head provided by my Inner.
I may have gotten a light blush on my cheeks and missed what Shika just asked me.
"Yuu, did you listen?"
"No, I am sorry what did you say Shika?"
"...nothing important" he looks away from me frowning.
"He asked if you would play shogi with him" Kiba chirped up.
"Shika you know that I would like to play with you and I swear this time I win!"
Determined I set my shogi board up and we began to play.
"Say Shika, why did you not asked me again when I didn´t heard you the first time?"
"….don´t know"
"Hmm"
´Strange´
´We should be more aware of our surroundings´
´Hey it was you who distracted me´
´And you let yourself be distracted´
´Who wouldn´t by these images´
´Hehehe true´
As always I lost terrible but having my friends there laughing with me over my 489 lost since he and I began to count.
"Ne Shika when I reach the 500 mark do I get something from you?"
"Only when you win, why should I give you something for accomplish your 500 lost?"
"Meanie" I pouted at him.
"Won´t work and you know that" He said without looking at me.
´Heh he thinks it won´t work when he doesn´t look´
´Then we should change that ne?´
´Yup´
"Sure~?"
"Yeah" I got a glint in my eyes that he saw too late when I tackled him down just to hold my face nose to nose to his own and asked again.
"Sure?"
"Y-Y-Yes" he was fighting a blush.
´His face says it all´
"Oh that a pity" I stand up and saw Kakashi out of the corner of my eyes watching us out of an alley.
´What is he doing here?´
´Should we ask?´
´I don´t have a good feeling with that´
´Me too'
"I need to look for something for my mother so I will see you Monday?" I gave this excuse to go and see what Kakashi is doing here.
"See you" I took my leave in Kakashi´s direction not seeing Shika who throws me a strange look, he stood in an alley and I went to him, he didn´t go away just watched me walking to him.
"Can I help you?"
"You can come with me"
´Kakashi did you even register what you just said?´
´I think not he looks really serious here´
"Mother said I shouldn't go with strangers"
´...could they have found you out?´
´I hope not, but it looks like it´
"That is right but I´m a loyal Ninja of this village so you can trust me that nothing will happen to you, so will you come?" He gave me that eye cringle and held his hand to me.
"Ok" I hang my head.
´Girl this is totally bad´
´I know´
3rd POV
Hiruzen, Shikaku and Inoichi were in the Hokage office.
"Inoichi that what we will tell you now is confidential and doesn´t leave this room"
"Hai"
"Shikaku" with that Hirzuen gave the permission to give the information's out.
"Hatake reported to me that at the day of the entrance ceremony he found the person who wrote this scroll."
"Really?" Inoichi didn´t believe his ears.
"But how? we all believed that she was dead"
"The dog was my hint, to say short he never left the village so it would have been impossible for the scroll to be attached to it. I asked Kakashi to help me so I let him in on this. Pakkun was the one whose help I needed he talked to the dog and got a description, that first didn´t help much, because it described a pretty normal person who could be everyone. So Kakashi took him to some long walks through the village and finally found the person."
"Who?"
"A child, he said. He came to me asking what to do now with the person begin a mere child"
"A child?"
"Yes he will bring her here today"
So they waited for Kakashi here and there discussing a bit how to proceed with the child.
A knock on the door and Kakashis Voice to be let in get everyone on edge.
"Come In" allowed Hiruzen.
The door opened.
3rd POV End
The door opened I was on edge the whole trip to here.
First I saw Hiruzen and then-
´Oh shit!´
´That is an understatement´
´OMG´
´Don´t freak out´
´How shouldn´t I the parents of my best friends are her, they know...what to do what to do´
´How about keeping your cool first?´
´Sounds good but..´
´No but just stop freaking out´
I froze and watched how Shikaku and Inoichi completely lost their compose.
The shock was clear in their eyes, yawns almost hitting the floor.
"I can´t believe this" Inoichi wisped and took some unsteady steps back paling.
Even for Shikaku it was hard to get his emotions into check.
"Yuuki Hanaka" a slight waver was heard in his voice.
I straightened up ready to answer everything they want to know.
"Hai" I gave them a sad smile and a nod.
´What will they think of me after this?´
"It seems you know each other" Hiruzen remarked looking from the distraught Inoichi to Shikaku whose eyes showed how he was running through different theories of Why? And how?.
"She is befriended with our children...we saw her often...growing up with them..." Inoichi seems to really take this blow hard he was still being pretty pale and hanging his head not looking up to me, maybe in hope that all of this isn´t real I wasn´t here.
"So Yuuki right?" Hiruzen asked me.
"Yes"
´They don´t take this good especial Inoich...the one we need the most for this´
"Care to explain this scroll" he hold it up.
"I think there is no need to try to deny it" Shikaku said.
"You forgot one witness to this" he added.
´A witness!? Who? Where did I made the mistake?´
Shikaku saw my though on my face.
"The dog, teamed with Pakkun they found you"
´Darn...totally forgot that Pakkun can speak with dogs´
"How did you know to ask the dog?"
"He was known by the Inuzukas, he never left this village and also came not from outside, born and living here"
"Expected nothing less from you. You Naras are too clever for me, I didn´t think of the possibility that Pakkun could speak with the dog...you got me there" I said with a slight bitter tone averting my eyes.
"So you were really the one writing this all here" Hiruzen questioned again.
"...Yes I did" the confirmation hit them again hard Inoichi this time sat down in a chair putting his head in his hands..
"Why?" This came as a whisper from Inoich, so a wasn´t sure what "Why?" he asked but I answered nonetheless.
"For a better future of the village"
"How did you get this Information's?" Shikaku stepped in throwing his friend a worried glance..
"Straight to the difficult questions and answers." I smirked a bit at him.
"You know that I´m clever enough to understand"
"Clever you may be but also open minded?"
Hiruzen perked up on this.
"What entails your answer?" The Hokage asked quickly catching on.
"I will put it as simple as I can. I lived before once, in a world that knew the story of Naruto, quite popular. I read that story, but I got into an accident and died. From the live after death I can´t tell nothing because nothing was there. When I opened my eyes I was in the arms of Morion and Saeki Hanaka born as their daughter Yuuki. I don´t know the Why? And How? Only that I was living again and this time here...It took some time to find out on which point in the story I was born into...I had plans for different occasions but I won´t explain them...Just that I always thought of the best for this village where I would live, not wanting it to be destroyed or this great people dying...a most peaceful live for myself and the other people as possible."
They listened carefully.
"This sounds unbelievable" Kakashi remarked.
"I know, for that why not let Inoichi have a look in my memories?"
At that the named one paled more than he already was. She was the friend of his daughter for god sake.
"Hmmm...Inoichi you think you can do that?" Hiruzen asked a bit worried about the man, Inoichi gulped and cleared his throat.
"Is it really necessary?"
"It would be best to confirm this" I replied.
Inoichi motioned weakly for Shikaku to put the other chair right before him.
"Please sit down Yuuki"
I take my seat and closed my eyes waiting for him to begin, I felt his hand on my head and the feeling of cool chakra flowing in.
3rd POV
Inoichi stood first in a dark room but slowly it took the shape of an endless library and Yuuki stood there...but not the little girl he knows but as a woman beside her was a little light flowing.
"Welcome to my mind" she greeted him.
"You mean our mind" a voice similar to her own called up.
Inoichi looked around searching for the source.
"A split personality?"
"Not truly" the voice said again.
"Here I am, here open your eyes damm it"
The light flowed nearly into his face jumping up and down a bit.
"This would be too difficult to explain" Yuuki sweat dropped
"Just see that as my back up or support not as an entirely second person because we are more that often on the same page she helps me and point out thing that I tend to overlook"
"Added with a bit supressed emotions and I was born heheh."
Inoichi just blinked at them.
"A sorry you wanted to look at my memories. I trust you fully Inoichi they are in this books beginning there with my memories when I was 6...they have different titles choose some and just open them they will play my memories...just...try to refrain to read the black ones...you shouldn´t read them when you can´t stomach heavy psychotic damage"
Whispers were heard and a cold wind blew.
"See what you did with trusting?" The light fluttered wildly.
"For what do I have you?" A clear sarcastic meant question.
"I will leave you to yourself...I trust you Inioich"
"Yuuki what do you hide" he asked looking worried in the direction were the voices comes from.
"Everyone has a inner demon and mine needs to be put back in its cell" She turned and went the corridor down and disappeared.
He looked at the shelves finding even they were dubbed with titles.
There were ´Family´, ´Childhood´, ´School´, ´The way to my Job´ and ´Knowledge´ He choose that shelve first reading some of the books like ´Common knowledge´ and ´Politic´ or ´My Opinions' to some theme like traditions and modernisation´ so he could get some base knowledge about the society where she lived from there he went to the family department.
"She said I shouldn´t read the black ones...counts dark grey?" He mumbled and decided on the book called ´my father´ which was dark grey.
The first scene was one where she sat in a living room over a puzzle her dad beside her helping her with it. He continued and heard a little voice telling beside some scenes more information's like that her father was a workaholic she only saw him on weekends or holidays and even then he often buried himself in his study.
Then the scenes got darker the girl was now a teenager having arguments with him...and later as a woman seeing him seldom but knowing how to handle him on the end the voice summarised. "I don´t see him as the leading person of my family. I really hate it because of him, not because of mother, to be yelled at"
He began to understand what she meant he shouldn´t read the black books they contain each mental scar she got the darker the book the deeper the scar. He looked around there were a lots of grey books, many blacks, and rarely seen some golden ones. One was under the family he got it down.
´Grandfather Taka (father side)´ He looked though it and saw how this old man really cared for his nice giving her attention and love. Show her how to swim, his own made bird food and how to mix it the voice sounded up again telling him how she cared for him, but he died as he saw. And the voice asked if it was strange not to cry when someone died when she know that they are now in a better place...She was 12 at that time.
"She reminds me of Itachi"
He went through some more books and got a good picture of how she originally grew up.
She was a middle child of three growing up with lesser attention trying with good grates and being a perfect nice girl but still got non, so she cut herself away from them. It got worse over the years until she moved out getting happier now away from them being "free" as she called it.
He was curious he got a hunch on what this big inner demon could be. He began reading the other books from some other department first avoiding the complete black books.
He got a better picture of her. She was a lone wolf happiest being alone or in the circle of a few selected friends and being on the more quiet side not talking much but always listening. Her devotion for her best friend who once helped her out big time was unmatched. She was a really loyal friend, friendly to others as long they don´t cross her wrong.
The first black book her read was a dubbed ´Past love´ he wondered why this book was so dark. He only took a glimpse of her three ex-boyfriends she had. They threatened her rally bad either as a sex-object or the worst was the one who gained her trust her devotion so that she played for him housewife and as a bitch to have sex whenever he wanted they used her. He quickly closed the book not looking into that more just got a little confirmation.
He got the corridor down a bit and stood then before a shelve with the title ´Storys´ this one was totally full with ´Twilight´, ´One Piece´, ´Fullmetal Alchemist´, ´Vampire Diary´ and then he found it ´Naruto´ He opened it and could read there the full story of Naruto from Chapter one up to seven hundred and some extra chapters with more details that that what she wrote...even the ending of the war that she let out. He read this some more times to remember some more information that could be useful.
"Now there should also be a book of her...but where to search?...could the darkest on be the right one?" The library was gigantic and it could take time to find what he looked for. Beside being part of I&T he also was a psychologist and what he sees here was something that he knows was difficult to fight maybe...to repay her trust he could try to help her with that. While thinking of that he stumbled over a single book on a crossroad laying on a podium darker than the night giving out a chilling feeling.
"That must it be" It had no title and when he touched it a cold feeling swept up his arm.
He read it completely knowing now that she once was called Hariko she didn´t get older then 21, died in a car accident, reborn in the world of Naruto and didn´t know why or even how that happened. The book ended there and he saw that under that dark book laid a new one silver in its cover with her new name Yuuki engraved in a beautiful handwriting he only read the beginning until they meet the first time and stopped there.
She was beyond his help with her inferiority complex running so deep. He was astonished of her fighting spirit, she may not be strong in her body but in her mind or else she would have already died with 16 and not through a car accident with 21...she could even kick him anytime out of here without breaking a sweat.
"I could but I won´t" She said from behind him.
He swirled around she looked a bit worn out but had a slight winning smile.
"So who are you now? Hariko or Yuuki?"
"Hariko died she just is now some bits of the person called Yuuki" She smiled.
"I got a new live, I want to leave my past being left behind and not to influence me too much...I know I took my complex with me but as Yuuki with friends and family I´m stronger...so better you forget some of the things you learned about me like my family and experience in love" She smiled but gave a dangerous wipe of herself.
"Then I will leave now...Yuuki" He managed a smile.
"Thank you" both voiced whispers.
3rd POV End
I opened my eyes I knew I had some tears trailing down my cheek. Inoichi sat across from me wipped away a tingle of nosebleed that made a crass contrast to his ghostly white skin.
"What she said is true" silence sank down and I looked out the window.
"What now?" Kakashi questioned.
"I want you all to forget it that I was the one writing that scroll...I gave you all the information I had the rest lies by you...I´m just Yuuki a 5 year old girl" I told them with firm tone in my voice.
"Did you have specific plans for the future?"
"I´m in a child body I can´t do much and when I get older Naruto will get strong enough to handle most of it and when not him all of you could when holding together, you don´t need me for that"
"She is right, there will be a strong group in the next generation and they will overcome everything when we all help them and hold together" Inoichi said
"So I can go now? The sun is setting and I should be home by now" I just want to rest it wasn´t easy to let Inoichi in my demon thought that the right time to remind me what happened when I trusted someone.
"Sure, Kakashi escort her" Hiruzen said.
Before I left the room I turned around looking all of them firmly in the eyes.
"I´m Yuuki no one else so please don´t treat me different from before, and please also destroy every lead to me"
"We will do now go child it is late" The Hokage ushered me out of his office Kakashi right behind me.
We walked in silence Kakashi reading his Icha Icha Paradise.
´I really want to know if this book is really 99% porn or if it has a story´
´Wait till you are 18 then buy one and read it´
´Note it then please´
´I never wanted to go fight it so soon again´
´We must or else I will go back to that time...but I think we can now begin sealing it a bit after bit...getting over this part of my personality...now with my friend and family I think I can do.´
´I hope...we once had hope and you were betrayed and made everything worse´
´...´
´Don´t think too much over it...or it will overwhelm us again...it gets hardener every time to fight it down when it rears his ugly head.´
´I will try´
Kakashi left me a street away from my home and went straight back to the Hokage tower.
´We should sleep it will help a bit´
´Mhm´
This day really put a mental strain on me so I never felt my head hitting my pillow.
On Sunday I went visiting Shikamaru as always.
´How will Shikaku react?´
´Don´t worry´
´...´
With my luck it was even Shikaku opening the door.
"Shikaku-san good morning is Shikamaru here?"
"He waits for you on your usual place Yuuki-chan" I grinned registering his emphasise on my name and went on my way to Shika´s hill.
"And Yuuki, that yesterday never happened and there is no trail to that person who wrote the scroll"
I turned around and gave him a relived smile.
"Thank you" I gave him a full bow and continued my way to my and Shikas hill.
Arriving there Shika laid as usual in the grass sleeping.
´Teasing him?´
´No not today I not in the mood´
I only nudged him slightly to wake him up
"Wake up sleepy head"
He slowly wakes up stretched first like a cat, yawned and then blinked his eyes open only to look wary at me.
"Everything ok?" He asked concern shimmering in his eyes and even posture, he sat closer to me.
"Yes why?"
"You don´t act like usually"
I looked away.
"Say, would you even be my friend even when I would hide something that I NEVER could tell you?"
"Why asking? Sure I would still be your friend, everyone has secrets that he can´t tell no reasons not to be friends." He looked sceptical at me but then sat down right beside me and hugged me while mumbling something that sounded like "Emotional woman what a drag that is so troublesome"
"We will be always friend or?"
"You asking troublesome question, yes we will for as long as we live" to underline his statement he hugged me tighter.
"Thank you Shika" I fully sunk in his hug relishing his warmth and friendship closing my eyes to take it all in.
"Want to play now?"
I chuckled.
"Sure Shika-kun"
´Here comes the blush again´
´Leave it to him to cheer me up again´
"This time I will win and you have to hold you promise to tell me that you like me and my hugs"
"I´m pretty sure I only promised it to say I like you"
I gave him a smirk.
"You did but the other part is for the many loses it took before beating you"
"Tch"
"Hehehe"
He set up the board and we began or game...ah and yes I lost again.
I know this Chapter was a bit dry but hope you liked nonetheless. :)
I think this one will be the only dry one but it is to get the inner working of my OC to know.
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