Rachel's point of view
Once again I found a flower and a note in my locker. I didn't know any of the flowers Quinn had given me so far. She totally did her research.
This is the Lily of the valley and it stands for 'returning happiness', just like you did yesterday when you accepted to be my girlfriend. If I could go back in time l would try to get your attention differently. I am regretting treating you that way every day. The blame isn't fully on me though but all l am asking is more time to prepare myself before talking to you.
Officially yours,
Quinn
The flower smelt really nice. Quinn was vanishing my doubts with every single flower as she promised. I took my books and went to Quinn's locker only to find Santana and Brittany already there. "Hey hobit, are you looking for Quinn?", Santana asked me. "Hello Rachel", Brittany said excited and hugged me briefly. "Hello girls. Actually, yeah, I am looking for Quinn. Have you seen her?", l asked them. "Well, as you can see Quinn Fabgay isn't here", Santana said rolling her eyes. "Have you seen her today at all?", Brittany asked me worried. "No, l haven't. I actually hoped to see her at her locker and thank her for-, um, never mind, l just want to see her", l said. "Come on Berry, you think that we don't know about the flowers?", Santana asked. "How do you-", l said almost socked. "Quinn is our friend, duh, we also know that you are officially dating now", Santana said. "Does that mean we can go on double dates now?", Brittany asked. "No", Santana and I said at the same time and Brittany looked kind of sad. "Have Quinn told you all that?", l asked. "Well, she told us about the flowers and l also heard her when she asked you to be her hobitfriend-", she said and l cut her off. "Is that even a word?", l asked crossing my arms in front of my chest. "Well, it is now", Santana said smiling. "Wait you were spying on us? You are unbelievable", l said almost angry. "Look manhands, Quinn is my best friend, so of course l spied on you. Let me give you a piece of advice. Do not ever make her unhappy, ever. If l ever see her crying because of you and l don't mean happy tears, then you should know that I will go all Lima Heights on your ass", Santana said pointing aggressively my face. "Sanny that's enough sweetheart, I am sure she loves Quinn", Brittany said and the bell rang.
I went to my classes alone and after each and every one of them l went to Quinn's locker hoping to see her. She wasn't at her class or the common classes we had together. Was she sick? I will text her, l told myself and I texted her before going to my next class.
Hey, where have you been today? I missed you in class - Rachel
A couple of seconds later my cellphone buzzed.
I missed you too. I am fine, l just didn't hear the alarm clock this morning - Quinn
Something was off, Quinn never gets late. She is always on time for everything.
Will l see you at my place tonight at seven sharp? - Rachel
Of course - Quinn
Bring a couple of stuff too, it's going to be a sleepover - Rachel
I put my phone in my bag and continued my school day a little more relieved after reassuring Santana and Brittany that Quinn was okay, at least that was what she said.
Faberry
Quinn's point of view
It was seven in the morning when my dad came into my bedroom and woke me up. I had half an hour to sleep before I had to wake up by myself to get ready for school but of course that wasn't an option anymore. "Wake up useless child", he screamed pulling me up aggressively. "What is going on?", l asked. I haven't woke up fully yet and all I saw was my dad holding my arm. "I will tell you what's going on. Where is my breakfast?", he asked pushing me towards the stairs. "l set my alarm at seven thirty. You smell like alcohol", l said. "I will smell however I like. I want my breakfast and l want it now", he told me and continued to push me. "What are you doing? I am going to fall", l said. "If that makes you go to the kitchen faster to make my breakfast so be it", he said and pushed me again.
Before I knew it, l was downstairs. What the fuck? Everything was blurry. What happened? I couldn't move, it hurt so much. Every move I did, hurt like hell. I saw my dad descending the stairs, he passed near me, leaving me on the floor. "Come on, get up. I want my breakfast useless child", he said groaning and lied on the couch. I couldn't stand up, everything hurt and my mom wasn't home, which was strange. A couple of minutes later, I heard my dad snoring. I got up really slow and went to the bathroom to check me out. Bruises started to form at my ribs, both sides, my left wrist was purple as well and my head hurt badly. Going to school wasn't even an option right now, so I had to think something to tell Rachel. I had to lie again to her, l don't like it but l have to. I am so messed up, l told myself looking my reflection in the mirror. I know l am useless but every time I hear my dad saying that, it hurts even more. I started crying and I opened the cabinet. I took a razor blade and I was staring at it. Then, l did a small cut on my arm, followed by another one, which was deeper and bigger. I let a moan escape my mouth and did a third small cut.
Just then my phone buzzed, it was Rachel asking me if l was okay. Three hours passed since I fell off the stairs. It only seemed like half an hour or so, I must have passed out. I lied to her and texted her that l was okay while my blood was streaming down my arm. Then, she asked me if I would go to her house and l reassured her that l would. I had to find a way to cover my pain again. I went to bed and tried to sleep. Although I changed like a dozen of possessions I finally found a comfortable one that didn't hurt as much as the others did and l draft to sleep.
Faberry
Rachel's point of view
It was almost seven when the door bell rang and l rushed to open the door. "Hi Quinn, come on in", l said pecking her lips. Once again Quinn was on time. I need to know why she didn't came to school today, l don't have a good feeling since when I got up today. "Hey gorgeous", she said and pecked my lips back. "Class wasn't the same without you today", l said and tried to hug her. "l am sorry. I missed you too", she said and avoided my hug. "Please don't do that", she whispered. "Are you sure you are okay?", l asked her. "I am fine just a little tired", she said. "Wanna take a nap? And then we can make dinner together", l told her. I could see exhaustion in her hazel eyes. "Yes, thank you. That sounds good", she said and we went to my room. "Why don't you take a nap, l have some homework to do before dinner", l told her. "Um, sure. Wake me up when it's time to prepare dinner", she said and lied on my bed. "I will", l reassured her and placed a kiss on her temple.
It was almost time to wake her up when l saw something that l didn't like at all. Quinn was wearing a blue v t-shirt and a jean pants. I think I saw a blood stain on her sleeve. I went closer to her and observed more her sleeve. After l made sure that it was a blood stain, l woke her up. "Quinn wake up", l said and she opened her eyes. "Is it time for dinner?", she asked me. "We need to talk", l said worried. "What's wrong?", she asked as she pulled her up slowly. "There is a blood stain on your sleeve Quinn and you ask me what's wrong? Get your t-shirt off l need to see that", I told her. "lt's nothing, l just need to use the bathroom", she said trying to get out of the bed. "You are not going anywhere until you get your t-shirt off", l said pushing her down. Quinn was stronger than me but she fell on the bed very easily and she stiffened. Something is totally wrong. "No, l am not getting my t-shirt off", she said crossing her arms. "Quinn please, pull up your sleeves at least. I need to see your arm", I said and a couple of tears escaped my eyes. Quinn started crying and wasn't looking at me. She moaned when her sleeve touched the spot that the stain was.
I swear my heart dropped when she fully pulled up her sleeve. I saw three scars and they were fresh. There was a small scratch on top of her arm and then another one deeper and bigger and another small one covering her upper arm. I was in shock... It couldn't be... No, Quinn wouldn't do that to herself, right? Blood started to stream from her arm, l went to the cabinet and grabbed a bandage. I came back to the bed and Quinn was still avoiding my gaze. "Quinn please, talk to me. Tell me that it's not what l am thinking it is", l asked her, looking for her eyes. "l-I did this to myself", she admitted. "Quinn, why?", l asked and she finally looked at me. Her once beautiful hazel eyes, were bloodshot and full of pain and sadness now. "l feel better after this, Rach. You don't get it but the pain l cause myself is making me feel more relaxed", she said. "Quinn this is serious. You can't do that to yourself. Is that why Finn said you don't love yourself? Does he know?", l asked her. "No, he doesn't know. No one knows and you shouldn't know either. Believe it or not these cuts you see on my arm is the way I am asking for redemption for everything I have done to you and the other kids l also bullied", she told me. "Quinn this is not good. You shouldn't punish yourself like that", l said taking away some of her tears with my thumb. "l didn't want you to see me as a messed up person. That's why I haven't told you anything", she said. "l will never see you as a messed up person, Quinn. You need to understand that this is not healthy. I can help you by arranging an appointment with a specialist", l told her. "l know it's not healthy but l can't see a specialist", she said and started to sob. I immediately hugged her while being careful not to hurt her again. "Everything is gonna be fine. We will get through this together, okay? I want to help you because I can't stand seeing you this way", l whispered to her ear while stroking her back, of course I was waiting for an answer.
When she pulled back l placed the bandage on her arm. She immediately grimaced and closed her eyes. "l am sorry", l said. "lt's fine. Please don't tell anyone about this, not even Santana and Brittany", she pleaded me. "It's not my secret to tell Quinn. I won't say a thing but you need to talk to them eventually", l told her, pulling her sleeve down slowly. "I know and l will, one day", Quinn said. "Whenever you feel ready", l told her, stroking her cheek. "I love you", Quinn suddenly said. A huge smile appeared on my face. "I love you, too", l said back. She leaned in and captured my bottom lip. She poured all of her emotions into that kiss. I could feel sadness but l could feel love, too. I cupped gently her face and she put her hands on my waist pulling me closer to her. I sat on her lap and continued kissing her, showing her that I would be there for her. "Hello girls-", my dad said. My dads were at work and l wouldn't expect them to be back for an hour or so. We both jumped up. "Dad what are you doing here?", I asked in shock. "Is that your way to say 'hello dad' now?", he asked me crossing his hands in front of his chest. "It's just-, l wasn't expecting you to be home early", l told him and both Quinn and I blushed. "We talked about the open door policy but that's not what I was expecting", he said. I felt so embarrassed that I didn't say a thing. "It's my fault mister Berry. I am so sorry. It won't happen again", Quinn said. "Don't listen to him. Darling don't you remember how we were when we were dating? We couldn't take our hands off of each other. Let's go prepare the dinner", my daddy said.
Faberry
Quinn's point of view
Everyone was silent at dinner. When we finished l got up and started to clean up the table. "l want you to go to bed. I'll clean up the table", Rachel told me and l walked out of the kitchen. It took me a lot of time to get to the guest room because every step l did, it hurt but of course I couldn't let Rachel know about it. I wore my pj's and lied on the bed. A couple of minutes later Rachel came in kissed me goodnight and left. I found a comfortable position and I slept right away.
It was only three in the morning when I heard Rachel's voice. She was almost shouting, so l got up and went to her side as fast as l could. "Rach, wake up", l said stroking her arm to wake her up gently. "No, leave her alone. Please don't hurt her", she shouted. "Rachel, honey, wake up", l said again and Rachel got up. She was sweaty and her breathing was very fast. I could tell she was upset. "It was just a nightmare, you are in your room and everything is fine", I reassured her and she hugged me. It hurt so much but l didn't say anything, she needed a hug and that's exactly what she would get. "Quinn, it-it was terrible", she said shaking in my arms. "What's going on?", Hiram asked as he entered the room with his husband. "She saw a nightmare. Can you please get her some water? She is shaking", l asked them without leaving Rachel. They both rushed to the kitchen and got back to the room with a bottle and a glass of water. Rachel didn't leave me to drink her water. "Dad, daddy can Quinn sleep with me please?", she said while tears were escaping her eyes. "Of course honey but just for today", Leroy said. I mouthed a 'thank you' to them and they both left.
"Rachel talk to me. What did you saw that upset you so much?", I asked, stroking her back. "It was so real and so terrible Quinn", she said still crying and shaking. "Try to calm down and drink some water", l said pulling back and handing her a glass of water. She drunk it and swooped her tears with her hands. "l am seeing the same dream every night since our first date. I am at my room and hear you crying. Then, you call me and tell me not to come over because you had a fight with your dad and he stormed out the door. You sounded so scared when you said that you haven't seen him act this way before. So, l get in my car and come to your house as fast as I could. You run to me crying and-and you have bruises on your face-", she said sobbing. "Hey, it's okay, l am here", l told her and kissed her. She relaxed a bit and then continued her dream. "Your dad sneaked up behind me and you yelled that he has a gun and you stepped in front of me. And-and he presses the trigger and shoots you. You were bleeding and I was holding you. My hands were red from your blood but l couldn't leave you. You said that you were going to be fine to calm me down and then you woke me up. I-l don't know what happened next", she said trying to relax. "Why didn't you tell me about this? You said that you were seeing that dream since our first date", l told her. "I didn't want to upset you", she said. "It was just a dream, let's go back to sleep", l told her. Although 'it was just a dream' as l told Rachel, it couldn't be far from reality. Of course I wouldn't let that happen. I lied down and Rachel lied on my chest, her hand on my stomach and I was holding her tight while stroking her hair to calm her down so she could sleep. Half an hour later or so l felt Rachel's breath getting slower. "l won't let anything happen to you", l whispered and kissed her forehead. She smiled a bit and relaxed further into my arms, l closed my eyes to get some rest as well and finally got to sleep.
Faberry
Author's note: Faberry deserves all the cheesiness in the world because we never got it on screen.