Rachel's point of view
I felt a hand stroking my head when l opened my eyes. "Hello my bright star", l heard Quinn's voice and I could sense her heartbeats. My head was on her chest and my right hand on her stomach. So, it happened, I wasn't dreaming. We were there, naked and we were cuddling. "Hello back", l said. "Did you sleep well?", Quinn asked me. "Yeah, l did. Did you sleep at all?", l asked her. "I did but only a little. I was busy looking at you while you were sleeping", she said and l felt my cheeks burning. "You know that's creepy, right?", l asked her and titled my head so l could see her hazel eyes. "No, it supposed to be romantic like when they do it in the movies and stuff", she said giggling. "Your cheeseness is so cute", l said smiling. "lt felt so amazing and-and you were so gentle and caring. I couldn't imagine my first time better", Quinn said suddenly. "I know l am way to young to say this, but l feel complete", l said and she leaned down for a brief kiss. "I love it when you say about my cheeseness and then your next sentence is absolutely cheesy", she said giggling. "Yeah, well, you have this so called 'cheesy impact' on me", l said back. "Oh, is that so?", she said ironically. "Well, yeah", l said back as if it was the most obvious thing in the world. "Yeah, said Rachel drama queen Berry", she told me. I wanted to laugh but I supposed to be offended, so l played along. "I am not a drama queen Quinn Fabgay. I seriously feel offended", l told her, but l am pretty sure she didn't believe that. "Fabgay? I am so gonna kill Santana for that nickname", she said.
"Seriously though, I felt like there were bombs exploding inside my whole body", l said. "I will never get bored to say this to you, l love you", she told me and kissed my head. "I love you too and l am sorry for this but we need to talk. I-l am sure I fulfilled my promise", I said and got off of her. "I knew it was inevitable the moment you saw my body, so go on", Quinn said rolling her eyes. I got away from her enough to see her body. I scanned her body, looking up and down and l felt like l was losing myself. "Having fun there?", Quinn asked. "Actually, no l don't. Quinn look at your body. I mean, yeah, it's so good shaped but-but Iook how it looks now. All I can see is an exhausted body. There are bruises on your ribs and l sensed something when l touched your back. I want to have a look at your back and l want you to tell me what happened because I am worried sick right now", l explained to her. She widened her eyes and then nodded and turned around. "Oh my God, Quinn what are those? What happened to you and why didn't you tell me anything?", l said and touched the sore scratches on her back.
"Don't-don't touch them. It fucking hurts", she said and got away from my fingers. "I-l am sorry. I just want you to be okay and I can see you are not. Look, l get it, you don't want to tell me about this but I am not stupid, l can understand what's going on. I want you to stay here for some days and it's out of question. Also, tomorrow you are going to see a doctor and I will come with you this time to make sure that you are actually going to see him", l said and kissed her shoulder. "I don't want your pity, okay? Everything is fine and you know nothing. You know nothing because I fell in the shower the other day, that's-that's why my body is like this", she snapped at me. "Hey, there is no need to snap at me. And I am not pitying you. I want to take care of you because I love you and because you are not doing it for yourself", l explained to her. "I-I am sorry", she said, turning to face me and she kissed me. "Now, let's dress up before my dads come. I will give you some pj's and tomorrow morning we are going to the doctor, first thing", l said and went to my wardrobe.
Faberry
Quinn's point of view
I woke up next morning with Rachel in my arms again. I could totally do that for the rest of my life. She was awake, stroking gently the bruises on my left ribs. "Hey, what are you doing?", I whispered to her. "Quinn, do you-do you love me?", she asked me. "What?", l asked her confused. "Just answer me, please", she said. "Of course I love you", l answered. Rachel was trying to make a point but I totally couldn't understand what she wanted to say. "So, what would you do if Karofsky was picking on me?", she asked me. "Well, is he?", l asked angrily. "Calm down, please. Just answer my question", she said calmly and stroke my ribs. "I would go to him and give him a lesson", l said proudly. "Okay, so, what if I came to your house one day beaten by him? What would you do then?", she asked me. Just then l understood where the conversation was heading but l decided to go on. "What would l do? I would take care of you and I would deal with him the next day, first thing", l admitted. "Okay, now, tell me. You said you would take care of me-", she told me and I cut her off. "Always, my bright star", l stated and kissed her temple. "Yeah, always. You will always take care of me. Then, why don't you let me do just the same thing?", she told me. Of course I knew the answer but l couldn't tell it out loud. I just opened and closed my mouth a couple of times before Rachel spoke again. "I love you and I want to take care of you if you just let me", she said stroking my ribs gently again. "You are such a smartass, aren't you?", l teased her. "Language miss Fabgay", she told me. "Gosh, enough with that nickname already", l said rolling my eyes. "Kiss me now and then we need to get up", she said. She lied next to me and I turned to her. I leaned closer to her and captured her bottom lip with my own. I stroke her left cheek with my right hand and deepened the kiss.
"Hey, girls are you-", Rachel's dad said when he suddenly came into Rachel's room and froze. Rachel and I were totally making out and we had just violated one of his policy things. "You just violated the 'parents at home' policy. Quinn let my daughter's mouth alone, right this instant", Rachel's dad said and crossed his arms in front of his chest. We pulled away immediately and blushed. "Good morning to you too dad", Rachel said rolling her eyes. "Get up the doctor's appointment is in an hour. Rachel get your clothes and go change in our bedroom and you, Quinn, can change here, alone, away from our daughter and her mouth that you apparently really like", he said looking at me like l have killed someone. "Okay dad", Rachel said, rolling her eyes. She came pecked my lips and left.
I didn't realize we were at the doctor's office before the car stopped and Leroy turned off the engine. I was lying on Rachel's lap the whole time. She was singing to me and I was whispering stuff to her. Don't worry the weren't inappropriate. "So, do you want us to come with you?", Leroy said and l shook my head to Rachel. "No dad. You can stay here or go somewhere until l call you. We will be fine", Rachel told them and we got out of the vehicle. "Okay honey, call us when you finish and we will come to pick you up", Hiram said from inside the car and we left. We got in the office and l felt extremely nervous. What was l going to say to the doctor? How did l got these injuries? I need to tell the same thing l told Rachel. "Excuse me miss, we are here to see Doctor Wayne", Rachel tell to a woman who was sitting behind a desk. "Of course. Do you have an appointment?", she asked looking at me and then back to Rachel. "Yes. The name is Quinn, um, Quinn Fabray", Rachel said and held my hand. "Sure miss. Go ahead, third door to your left", the secretary said. "Thank you", Rachel said smiling. We intertwined our fingers and walked down the hallway till we reached Doctor Wayne's office. "I know you are nervous about this, l can sense it. You don't have to be though, l will be by your side l will never leave. I love you", she said and kisses my cheek. "I love you too", l said and she knocked the door.
Faberry
Rachel's point of view
"Come on in", the doctor said and we entered his office. "Hello girls. So, who is my patient, who is Quinn Fabray?", he asked. "I am", Quinn admitted. "So, Quinn what's bringing you here today?", he asked her. "l-l, um, I fell at home and I wanted you to take a look", she said. "You are doing great, love", l whispered to her and squeezed her hand. "Take your t-shirt off and tell me where did you fall from", the doctor said and took some of his stuff from the desk behind him. "I-I fell from the stairs", Quinn said quickly. Stairs? Wait, what? But, she told me that she fell in the shower, not that I believed her but now I am more sure than ever about what's happening with Quinn. Oh, we are so going to talk about it later. "Okay, let's see. Does it hurt if I do this?", the doctor said pushing her a little on the spot where the bruise on her left ribs was. "It does, but only a little", she told him. "You are lucky Quinn, they're not broken but not good either. Turn around now so l can see your back", the doctor said and Quinn did so. "Does it hurt if l do this?", he said pushing her sore scratches on her back softly. "It hurts, don't do this again", she said almost snapping at him. "Hey, love, it's okay he is just trying to help you", l told her. "l changed my mind l don't need a doctor, l am fine and I want to get out of here", she shouted and stormed out. "I am so sorry about this", l said embarrassed. "Don't be. We both know she didn't fall from the stairs. Apply this one on her back scratches and this one on her bruised ribs. Oh, and consider taking her to a therapist. Good luck", he said, giving me a prescription. "Thank you", l told him and got out of his office.
I ran and finally caught up with Quinn. "Hey, that was rude", l told her and grabbed her wrist to turn her so she could see me. "l am sorry I can't do it", she said turning to face me. I froze when l saw her eyes red and tears on her face. "Hey, it's okay. Everything is going to be okay", I said and hugged her carefully so I wouldn't hurt her. She continued crying on my shoulder. She pulled away from me and stared at my eyes. "I will never let anything happen to you, you know", she told me suddenly and totally caught me off guard. "I-l know. Do you want to go for a walk before l call my dads?", I asked her. "Sure", she said, we intertwined our fingers and continued to walk. "You are totally going to stay at my place", l said suddenly after five minutes or so, walking. "There is no need. I don't want to put your parents into trouble for me", she said without making eye contact with me. "No wait, you see, there wasn't a question. I said that you are going to stay with us for some days or as much as you like and it's not debatable. There is a need to stay with us when you tell me that you fell in the shower and then you say to the doctor that you fell from the stairs", l told her sternly. "Shit. I can only stay with you for a couple of days l guess. I just-l didn't-l don't know", she said still avoiding eye contact with me. "Quinn, what should I believe? If you were me what would you do?", l asked her. "l am sorry", she told me. "I didn't say that to hear you apologizing to me. I just don't know what to do to help you, l feel helpless and-and useless. I know it's hard but you need to talk to me eventually", l told her.
When she heard the word useless she froze, l saw her. I held her hand tighter and kissed her cheek so she would relax. "You are not useless, do you hear me? Never say that again, ever again", she said pointing my face. "Okay, okay relax", l told her defensively. "Fuck, l am so sorry, l didn't mean to snap at you. I love you, thanks for being here for me", she said and kissed me passionately. "We should go back and call my dads to come pick us up. What do you want for lunch?", l asked her after l licked my lips to taste Quinn's flavor one more time. "I don't know. Something non-vegan that actually has taste", she said and giggled. "Vegan foods have taste you just want to eat bacon again, admit it", l said rolling my eyes. "Okay fine, l want some bacon. Are you happy now?", she asked me ironically. "No, l am not. Poor piggies", l said frowning. "Oh, come on, give me a break. Or should I say give me a bacon?", she said chuckling. "You are unbelievable", l said rolling my eyes again. "You love me", she said and pecked my lips. "Yes, l do and you know what? You are taking advantage of it", l said kissing her back.
Faberry
Quinn's point of view
After lunch Rachel and l took a nap at her bed. When we got up we went downstairs to join her fathers who were watching a movie on TV. "Well, look who are awake Hiram", Leroy said ironically. "Hello sleeping beauties", Hiram said and giggling with his husband. "So funny", Rachel said narrowing. "Do you mind if we join you?", l asked them. "No, of course not, go ahead", Hiram said. "So, how did the doctor went? You didn't tell us, Rachel just gave me prescription and we went to buy the meds", Leroy said, looking at both of us, first me and then Rachel. "It went well", Rachel said looking at me. "Okay, now sit down you are distracting us from the movie", Leroy said. "Dad this movie is awful, can we see a musical?", Rachel said pouting as we sat at her loveseat. "No, we are watching this one now honey", Hiram said. "Fine. Oh, wait, do you see her?", she asked. "Yes honey we do", Hiram answered. "Well, she dies in the end", Rachel said serious. "Oh, come on baby girl that's not nice", Hiram said. "Fine, we can see a musical now", Leroy said rolling his eyes.
We were cuddling at Rachel's loveseat, watching one of Rachel's favorite musicals when my cellphone, which was on the table, rang. I was staring at the screen, it was my dad's number. I wasn't moving to answer the call, all l could think was that l was in so much trouble. "Quinn, will you stop staring at your cellphone and actually answer it?", Leroy said. "Oh, um, yeah, l will", l said hesitantly. I took the phone and declined the phone call quickly. "Oh, he must turned it off. Let me call him back", I said and left the living room. "Did she declined the call? The phone stopped ringing suddenly", l heard Hiram asking before I left. I went to the guest room where I was staying for now, Rachel lent me some of her baggy clothes because mine was back home and l wasn't going back soon. I sat on the bed staring at my phone. It rang again because I had just received a text message.
Quinnie, honey, I left our home and l see you did that too, although you didn't take anything with you. Please, stay at Rachel's for your own safety. I will talk to you as soon as I find a way to fix things. I love you and I am sorry - Judy Fabray
Just then my phone started ringing again. "No, I don't want to talk to you", l yelled to the phone when I saw my dad's name on the screen. "I fucking hate you", l yelled again and tossed the phone on the wall. It fell down broken and I started crying. I put my head in my hands and started taking deep gasping breaths. "Quinn is everything-", Rachel said as she entered the room. "Oh, my god. Come here", she said, sat next to me and hugged me. As soon as I felt her little hands around me I let it all go. I was crying and sobbing so hard that I stopped breathing. I was gasping for air. "I-l can't breathe", l said pulling away and widened my eyes. "Quinn, oh my God. Look at me, just look at me", she was saying but l couldn't concentrate. I was trying to catch my breath and I continued gasping for some air. "Dad, Daddy come here, please. Hurry", Rachel screamed. She cupped my face with her hands and forced me to look at her. "You are having a panic attack. Listen to my voice. Concentrate Quinn, please", she was telling me but I could sense she was scared too. Just then her dads came in. "What's going on sweetheart?", Hiram said. "She is having a panic attack, please do something, l am so scared", Rachel said. Leroy came and sat next to me quickly. "Listen to my breathing Quinn. In and out, in and out", he was repeating and l was doing as he was saying. "Go get her some water sweetie", Hiram said to Rachel when l started breathing again. "Thank you so much", I said and hugged Leroy. "You are okay, thank God", Leroy said, hugging me back tightly. "Thank Leroy", l said.
"I am sure you have things to talk about. We will leave you two alone. Be nice to each other and l am not talking about attitude", Hiram said and left with Leroy. "Here. I brought the meds too", Rachel said giving me a small smile. "Thank you for all of this my bright star", I said honestly. "You don't have to thank me. I'm doing this because I love you", Rachel said and pecked my lips. I drank the glass of water she brought me and lied on the bed. "Why did you throw your phone away?", she asked me and got up and grabbed it from the floor. "I got angry and upset", I admitted. "Quinn, talk to me. All I am doing is pleading you to talk to me. This doesn't feel as a relationship to me anymore", she said frowning and held my hands with hers. "Please don't leave me. I can't do it without you", l told her, meaning every word. "What are you talking about? I am not breaking up with you, l just want you to talk to me", she said, squeezing my hands. "My-my mum left. She took her stuff and left and she just texted me to tell me that. She-she didn't even call me to say it, she just texted", l said crying again. "Oh my Gosh, Quinn", she said. "Try to call down. Let's cuddle a little", she said and l nodded. We lied and l put my head on her chest and my right hand to her waist. "I feel so exhausted", l said closing my eyes. "I know love. Rest and let me take care of you", she said and kissed my temple.
I was living with the Berry's for a couple of weeks now. I was going to school and Cheerio practice and sometimes Santana and Brittany came over at Rachel's for sleepovers. Rachel was taking such a good care of me, not that I thought she wouldn't but I needed to say it. My dad haven't called since that night and I was getting better because of Rachel. Things were going well. I kept putting flowers and notes to Rachel's locker to show her how thankful I am. I put one in her locker again today.
This is the Agrimony and it stands for 'thankfulness'. I will never thank you enough for taking care of me in a way that I never did. So, this is probably the smallest note you have received from me. Consider it as a small reminder that I feel thankful for you and for what we have.
Only yours,
Quinn
"That note was indeed the smallest of them all. I expect the next to be a bigger one", Rachel said when we were walking down the hallway at second period's break. "My eyes are up here Jewfro. Now, I need to be somewhere else, looking at faces that I actually like", Santana said to Jacob Ben Israel that was interviewing her and ran towards us. She was looking at me and opened her arms. I assumed that she was going to hug me so l let Rachel's hand and opened my arms too. "Move away Fabgay, l need to hug my girlfriend", she said and passed near me. "What the fuck? She was looking at me", l said to Rachel and turned the other way. "No love, l think she was looking at Brittany who was behind you", Rachel said laughing. "Okay, then, why are you looking at me? Come oooon, hug me already", I said and Rachel pulled me in for a hug. Just then Santana came again, this time with Brittany. "Fabgay you are so pathetic", Santana said laughing. "Hey, Q. Did the troll get you fired?", Brittany asked me seriously. "Wait, Rachel did you get Quinn fired?", Santana asked Rachel. "What?", Rachel said confused. "No, not Rachel. Wait, is Rachel a troll? That would explain why she is so short-", she said and l cut her off. "Stop, all of you, just stop talking. First of all Rachel isn't a troll, Santana is just messing with her. You are perfect my bright star", I said and pecked Rachel's lips. Santana rolled her eyes. "Brittany what do you mean?", I said. "I see that you are not wearing your bandage any more. So, l was wondering if the troll at your backyard got you fired from co-captain's position", she asked me. Santana and Rachel were looking at Brittany completely confused. "Oh, yeah, he did. He said that he doesn't need me for now", l said, remembering what l have told to Brittany about my bandage.
When the school day was done Rachel and l drove back home. We were sitting in Rachel's room, doing our homework. "Will you go on a date with me?", l said suddenly. "What?", Rachel said surprised and let her pen fall from her hand. "It's been a while since we went on a date and you are taking such a good care of me. I want to repay you and relax you a bit from all the stress l am putting you in", l said. "A date sounds perfect to me. When?", she asked me. "Hmmm, what about, l don't know, now?", l said. "Now? How? What did you do?", She said and sat on my lap. "Let's just say that I knew you would say yes. It's nothing fancy though. We are not even going to left the house", l explained to her. She wasn't saying anything. She usually speaks, like a lot but she didn't say a word. "Are you-are you disappointed?", l asked her hesitantly. "Are you kidding me? Of course not", she said, giving me a brief kiss. "Then why don't you say anything?", l asked. "Because I am trying to think when did you prepare the date. How did you do it? You were with me all the time", she said and kissed me again. "Well, I had some help", l told her. "My dads", she said right away. "Don't ruin the surprise. Go wear something nice and meet me on the rooftop in an hour", I said and left her room.
I was ready within thirty minutes, so l went up to the rooftop to make sure everything was okay. I put down a blanket and spread it, then set the picnic basket right near the blanket. Then, l got up and made a path with some candles that I had bought. It started from the door and ended a couple of steps before the blanket. I lit them and went to set the projector. Santana gave me the projector and a big screen, so we could see a movie. I don't know where she found it, but l hope she didn't steal it from anywhere. I took the flower that I had bought for Rachel and I was waiting for her to come. I was wearing jeans and a navy blue shirt with a black loosen tie around my neck, matching with my black converse shoes. I heard a knock on the door and ran to open it. When I did, I was surprised. Rachel was wearing a navy blue dress which ended at her knees and a navy blue hairband, matching with the same color flat ballerinas. "You are wearing the same color as me", we said at the same time. "I planned to wear this color today. What's your excuse?", I said giggling. "Well, maybe I heard you murmuring that specific color at your sleep", she said. "You look perfect my bright star", I said and blushed instantly. "You are so gorgeous with that tie, you should wear it more often", she said and pecked my lips. "This is for you. So, um, this is the Arbutus and it stands for 'you are the only one l love'. I was your nemesis for years. I have insulted you and-and slushied you and bullied you in the worst way possible, but you never stopped helping me. You are literally the only one I love. You stole my heart and you keep it right her", l said taking one of her hands. She took the flower and cleaned up a tear with the back of her palm.
"You are so adorkable", she said and kissed me. "Anything for my bright star", l said back. "And apparently so cheesy as well, not that I wasn't aware of that", she said giggling after she saw the candles. "Let me be romantic here, woman", l said laughing. "Okay, okay, go ahead", she said. "Well, thank you. Now, may l?", I said and extended my hand. She took it and we walked down the candle path. We sat on the blanket and Rachel put the flower aside. "This is so beautiful Quinn. Thank you", she said kissing me again. "We can watch a musical. Here, take a look and choose one", l said and kissed her cheek. Rachel was looking at the musicals and l opened the picnic basket to make snacks for the movie. "Where is Funny Girl?", she asked me. "We've seen it like a dozen times so I didn't add it to the list. You need to choose another one", l told her. "That's not fair. Okay fine, then we will watch 'Les Misérables'. Is it in the list?", she said. "Sure", l said and started the movie. We can either cuddle or eat the snacks l just made for us", l told her. "Are you serious? Of course we will eat the snacks", she said. "What? Are you kidding? I-l thought you would say that we would cuddle. In that case, I say that you are not allowed to eat any of these", l said cocking an eyebrow. "Who says so?", she asked ironically. "The one who made them in the first place", l said rolling my eyes.
Rachel got on top of me and pushed me to lie down gently. "What-what are you doing?", I said widening my eyes. "I want to show you that I always get what I want", she whispered. She grabbed my tie and pulled me towards her. She kissed me deeply, pouring all the love she could into that kiss. Her tongue slipped into my mouth, exploring every inch. She put her other hand under my shirt, running her fingertips up and down my abs. Was she building me up? Was it happening again? I run my hands up and down her thighs. She broke the kiss and instantly attached her lips on my neck. A moan escaped my mouth and my neck fell back. She suddenly let my tie and l fell down again. "What now?", l asked her cocking an eyebrow. She got off of me and took a sandwich that l had made. "What are you doing?", l asked her again. "I told you, I always get what I want and l wanted a snack", she said, giving me a tricky smile. "What? No, you can't leave me like this. I-l can be your snack", l said. "Sorry love but l am gonna go with the sandwich and the movie. Now, let's cuddle", she said and pecked my lips. I groaned and let her climb on my lap. "You are pure evil Rachel Berry. Sometimes I can't stand you", l said rolling my eyes. "Aw, poor Quinn. Now hush l want to see the movie", she said. "I love you", l told her. Times like this l couldn't help it, she was so cute. "I love you more", she told me.
By the end of the movie Rachel was asleep. I kissed her temple and got off the blanket. I closed the projector and blew out all the candles. I opened the door and returned to the blanket where Rachel was sleeping. I lifted her and held her bribal style to take her to her bed. "Mmmm, what's going on?", she asked sleepily. "I am taking you to your bed. Go back to sleep my bright star", I told her as I pushed the door of her room to open. "I love you. Thank you for taking care of me too. The date was perfect", she pecked my lips, closed her eyes and lie against my chest. "Let's get you in your pj's", l told her and helped her change, gulping when she was only in her underwears. "l love you too", I told her as l lied her on her bed after l helped her change. I kissed her temple once again and left the room. I went to the guest room, put on the pj's Rachel had given me and drifted to sleep as soon as I lied down.
"Quinn, Quinn, wake up. Come on, wake up", Rachel said pushing me as gently as she could. "What's-what's going on?", I said and got up quickly. "Your father is on the phone and he wants to talk to you", she said. "I-l don't want to talk to him", l said crossing my arms in front of my chest. "He said that you might say that, so he told me that he wants to apologize to you", she explained to me. "Fine. I will talk to him then, l want to hear what he has to say", l said and went downstairs with Rachel. Her dads were in the kitchen, they probably were drinking their coffee. "Yes? Dad is that you?", I said without emotion. "Quinnie, yes, it's me, Russell. Sorry it took me so long to find Rachel's phone number. Quinnie please, come back home. I've missed you", he said. "Are you-are you crying?", I said widening my eyes. Rachel was holding my hand and was squeezing it every now and then. "I am so sorry for what I have done. Please come back home. Will you?", he said sniffling. "I-l don't know dad", l said hesitantly. Have he actually changed? I don't feel like he did, but he is my father and since my mum isn't home anymore, I guess her changed because he had to? I don't know. "Quinnie, please, can l-can l come get you?", he asked me hesitantly. "Sure-sure dad", l said and he terminated the call. "What's going on?", Rachel said. "It-it was my das. He said that he missed me and that he is sorry and he wants me to return home. He is coming to get me actually", l said. "Well, don't you want to go?", she asked me. "Noooo, l do but I really loved staying with you. I could do that forever", l said frowning. "It's not that you won't see me again. My dads really love you now and you are more than welcomed to come any time you want", she explained amd kissed me.
Twenty minutes later l heard a horn noice from outside. "Are you sure you want to leave?", Rachel asked me like she knew what's happening. "I will be okay, l promise", I told her and kissed her. Rachel isn't stupid she must know what's happening. "If you need anything and l mean it, you can call me whenever you want", she said as we got outside, her dads came too. My dad got out of the car and waved to us. "Quinnie darling are you ready?", he said giving me a smile. "Hello mister Fabray", Rachel said. "Hey Rachel, how are you?", he said. "l am good thank you", she told him. "Shall we?", he said and l nodded. Rachel was about to kiss me on my lips but l turned and she kissed my cheek. She gave me a confused look and hugged me briefly. "Thank you for everything", I told them and hugged Rachel's dads. I got in the car and we left. The drive was silent, none of us said anything until we got home.
The moment I stepped inside the house my dad's smile disappeared. He turned and locked up the door, l gulped. Honestly, I don't know what l was expecting. I am so stupid, l shouldn't believe that he was sorry because clearly he is not. "Now, tell me Quinn, why the fuck were you at the fags house for so long? It's been like three weeks", he yelled. "I wasn't at Rachel's house, l-l was at Santana's and I just went to Rachel's today for an assignment", l said. Of course I lied to him, l couldn't tell him that Rachel was my girlfriend and that I had the best two weeks of my life while I was there. I already miss her, her smile, her touch, her smell, everything about her. "Lies, all you say are fucking lies", he snapped at me and grabbed me by my arm. "l am not in the mood today of you. I should add liar next to useless when I am talking to you", he shouted. He pushed me up to my room and locked me in there. "You will only get fucking water. You left my house for two fucking weeks. You humiliated me as a father. You will only leave your room to go to school. No Cheerio practice, no Glee club, no life for you", he yelled again and then he left. I lied on my bed. I just wish that apology was real. All l want is a family who will love me, like Rachel's. I started crying. "You are so fucking useless and stupid", l screamed and l opened my drawer and got a razor blade that I hid in there before I left. Images started flowing my mind. My dad saying that I am useless and a liar and then Rachel saying that she loves me and our dates. "I am so sorry", l said as l put the razor blade on the previous mark l had. I took a deep breath and made new wounds on the same spots. I felt so relieved as I was doing them. I lied and fell asleep eventually, blood streaming down my arm.