TITLE: A Green sealed "Missing you" letter.
PAIRING: Hephaestion and Alexander.
RATING: R
CATEGORY: AU.
DISCLAMER: I don't know the people involved, no harm intended, everything is product of my imagination, but I wouldn't mind sharing my life with the blue eyed god.
NO BETA so all mistakes are mine.
FEEDBACK: comments are love! Yes, please any kind of them will help me to improve my writing or leave it forever.
The brunette was feeling restless, his blond and handsome king had been gone for a month now, doing some kingly things, and he missed him dearly, it was a bit curious because, after all, they had been apart before and frequently and sometimes their separation had been much longer than this time. And Hephaestion, who was not a needy man even though he was a very passionate person, felt like his king had been ages ago. He thought that he might be getting old, he had recently celebrated his thirtieth birthday, or maybe he was afraid … weird things happened without a logical explanation and he could be swept off this world without having the chance to say his lover a simple "goodbye" and "I love you".
To put the matter worse, he had been wearing himself tired because he hadn't been able to sleep well since Alexander was gone; he missed fighting for the blankets because nobody knew that the king was a hog blanket and it was more often than not that he was left uncovered in the middle of the night while Alexander was hugging the bundle of linen; or warming his ever-cold feet against Alexander's ever- hot calves in spite of the royal protest; he missed their pillow talk, one of the most intimate moments when they were just Alex and Phai, and not King and Chiliarch.
He missed sharing those little aspects of their relationship, things that made their love unique.
Even the food tasted different and it was not because Lena, the most talented cook they had ever met, was cooking badly now; the same treats had been eaten before many times but there was not a blond feeding them to him, with his own fingers and between stolen kisses, arising all that sexual tension that only that kind of intimate feeding generated in both of them. Luckily that kind of tender feeding always ended with a marvelous, long and sensual all-night-long lovemaking.
The brunette sighed deeply after remembering all those tender moments and he thought that even the sun did not warm him up as usual or that the moon was bright less than ever as if it were pointless to shine when the king of the known world and of his heart was not there to give and receive Hephaestion's kisses under the stars.
Hephaestion tossed and turned once again on the big empty bed and hit the pillow roughly as if his blows could lessen the pain mixed with anger that he was feeling in his heavy heart.
He decided to get up even though it was still too early but he already knew that he would not be able to go back to sleep again; he would use that time to catch up and finish that paperwork he had not been able to read as he had been daydreaming about his lover.
When Eos announced the new day, Hephaestion felt a bit better thinking that he had been able to survive another day without his beloved by his side and that it was a day closer to his return.
But even though he was constantly busy, his days went by so slowly that they seemed to have stopped at a point.
His itchy behaviour had been spotted by his companions; the always present detractors were amused with this; his friends, however, were worried, it was quite unusual to see him snap at a simple and innocent comment. While the former teased him and spoke behind his back; the latter offered him their silent comfort, a warm hand on the shoulder or a knowing look letting him know that they understood what was going on.
A messenger arrived during the middle of their morning meal and the young page went directly towards Hephaestion with two letters that he handed out immediately.
Hephaestion took both scrolls and opened the one with the royal seal, he read it in silence and when he finished , he told the rest of the companions what the latest news were about. He also gave the letter to Eumenes so the royal secretary could file it with the rest of the official correspondence.
Craterous asked what the content of the second letter was, with a smirk in his face. Hephaestion lifted his gaze, arched an eyebrow and he simply replied that that letter was for his eyes only. The tall warrior looked at the General with jealousy in his dark eyes because he would never be what Hephaestion had always been to Alexander. A pregnant moment of silence followed that simple but short answer, no one daring to question him further.
Hephaestion put the letter inside a hidden pocket in his cyan cloak and continued eating, as if the indiscrete question had never been asked.
When the breakfast was over, the blue eyed-man went back to his chamber, announcing that he would be busy dealing with some paperwork and the new supplies list but that he would be available to see to any problem that could possibly arise while he was busy.
He entered the room and walked towards the balcony; from that spot he had a full view of the beautiful city beneath him. He sat on their loveseat and took the letter from the inside pocket. He looked at the green seal and he could guess the content of the letter before opening it, and he smiled widely remembering how all those codes had started.
They had come with that colour seal code many years ago, especially because Alexander was always too impatient and the colour of the seal could anticipate and give him a hint of the content. So there were five colours: red seal for love letters, blue seals for sad letters, green seals for needy letters, black seals for problematic letters and violet seals for hopeful letters.
Hephaestion opened the letter carefully, trying not to break the shield-shaped seal and started to read.
My dear lover,
I am writing to tell you how much I miss you. You may think that I am like a teen with his first crush but some days I miss you so much that it hurts a lot. My hearty is heavy and lonely.
Some of our friends are praying to the gods for our quick return, not only because they want to be back with their families and rest after this exhausting trip but also because they want to get rid of me. Perdicas has already lost his patience with my bad moods and he says that if I continue pouting, my lower lip will reach my chin.
Hephaestion smiled at the cute image, he had seen his lover pout for many years and the king had perfectioned that technique so it was impossible not to fall for that gesture.
Nothing is the same without you, I feel as if half of my body doesn't work properly, my heart is heavy and I cannot sleep well, my camp bed is too big and empty without you, I miss your strong body spooning mine and keeping me warm, I miss your arms around my waist letting me know you are still there by my side, I miss our hands entwined over my heart or your head resting over my chest … I even miss your cold feet!
I miss your morning kisses that wake me up in the most wonderful way and keep me happy all day long; I miss your hands caressing my skin and arousing me, taking me up to the heaven and back, I miss your soft and demanding lips on mine. I miss making love to you and feeling our bodies twist together in the throes of passion …
I miss your witty remarks, your clever pieces of advice, your sarcasm, your jokes … and especially your words of love that let me know how much you love me.
Unfortunately, things got a bit more complicated than what we had previously thought so I am sorry to inform you that I cannot tell you for sure when I will be back; the only thing I promise is that I will be by your side as soon as possible.
Missing you like crazy,
Forever yours,
Alexander.
Hephaestion folded the letter and let it rest onto his chest as if, in that way, the words written in it could enter and nestle into his heart.
Some minutes later, he stood up and looking with dreamy eyes towards Alexander's possible location, he whispered softly:
"Come back soon because I miss you too, my Sun"