Disclaimer:

I don't own this anime just the idea, blah blah blah all that good stuff. On to my weird little story~!

Companion piece to What They'll Never Know. Part 2

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Deak!Lavi's inner monologue.

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I can't believe these fools actually fall for this.

They know I'm a Bookman in training.

They know I'm not supposed to have emotions.

And yet they still willingly fall for my act?

Why?

How for that matter?

I'm not really 'Lavi.' Lavi never existed.

Neither did Deak, for that matter, but he at least had the closest personality to what a true Bookman is supposed to act like.

Distant.

Emotionless.

A bystander to watch the happenings around him like a proper Bookman should.

Deak was always one of my easiest aliases to make.

I've gotten off topic, that's not good I've got to stay focused.

I can't get distracted when I'm recording the events around me because that just creates incorrect or missing information and then I'd have to ask around and gather biased information and sort through that to find out what actually happened to fill in the gaps.

Ugh, extra work. No thanks.

Sadly, only a handful of the inhabitants of the Black Order actually know I'm faking my personality.

Allen and Kanda know for sure, because it's hard to wear a mask and fool another who wears a mask as well as Allen does -though I have no idea what's actually going on in his head, and Kanda is very aware of anyone trying to pull the wool over his eyes and actively works against them because of it -which is really annoying when I'm trying to fish for information. But I'm not entirely sure if Lenalee knows and is just ignoring it, or genuinely believes me to be a hyperactive 'rabbit'.

The higher ups know as well but of course they know; they're the ones who issued an order for me to create an alias in the first place. Get in close with the other Exorcists and Finders and all that.

Actually, I'm pretty sure they're hoping I do somehow get attached so they can keep Bookman and me here until we die or outlive any usefulness.

Which is completely ridiculous because I don't care for these people and will leave when Bookman and I have gotten what we wanted.

And why should I care anyway? They're Just Ink On Paper.