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Companion piece to What They'll Never Know. Part 3

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Lenalee's thoughts.

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So many people here come and go. Every day.

Those who enter the walls of the Black Order will eventually leave never to return, and then more will come to replace them.

That's how it is.

That's how it's always been.

That's how it always will be.

The Black Order dragged me here kicking and screaming and crying years ago, separating me from my brother. I hated them for that. Absolutely loathed them for ripping me away from Komui.

I had tried to escape for months. Tried to leave these stone walls and return to my family but the Crow always found me and brought me back whenever I did.

Again. And again. And again.

I made a sorta-friend with a Finder once while I was being confined to the Black Order. He was nice and snuck me candy when I was chained to the bed in the Hospital Wing after trying to escape once again after 'training'.

But one day he went on a mission... and never came back. A Level 2 doing him in was the story back then. His name was added to all the other names on this big memorial rock behind HQ to 'mourn and acknowledge his sacrifice for the war'.

I have no idea what his name is- was anymore.

I was upset he left, but I moved on. Brother came for me you see. He went and worked very hard to join the Black Order as a Scientist so he could be with me since I couldn't go and be with him.

I was really happy he became a Scientist instead of a Finder. Scientists don't go out of the building and never return. They stay in the labs and experiment and do paperwork.

A perfect place to keep my brother, even though he's really bad with time management and filing.

And so, I stayed there with my brother, in the building that used to separate me from him but now houses us both.

I still don't like the Order and Central though. Not the people specifically... well, most of them, but what they stand for if that makes any sense.

I play nice and friendly with everyone there now. Talk to the Finders, hang out with the other Exorcists, and hang around and bring coffee to Komui and the other Scientists.

Some leave, new ones appear, I spend some time mourning the lost ones, and then the cycle continues.

Kanda's been here almost as long as I have, maybe even longer since I'm pretty sure he was from the Asian Branch before he came here with General Teidoll. He doesn't like most -if not all- of the people at the Order... always scowling and glaring and swinging Mugen around.

It took me a long time to get him to stop swinging at me -though I think brother got to him at some point which might've helped (even if Kanda refused to even look in my direction for a few days...).

I had wanted to talk to someone my own age for once, but he doesn't want to be friends or anything, which is fine since I'm not going to get too emotionally attached anyway. He'll act civil and play nice with me now so that's good.

I'll miss him if he left and died, but I'd move on soon. I always have.

As long as Komui's here, I always will.

Lavi showed up with Bookman a few years later. He's nice and fun to be around... but I know he's not really that way. He's acting like that and I don't know how Lavi would really act if he stopped but I like to pretend he really is nice and friendly and excitable.

Even though in the back of my head I know that isn't true and that he's going to leave and not come back as well once he's done here.

I ignore it. He's here now so I'll enjoy his presence until he does leave.

Now Allen's really sweet, if a little... eccentric. Showed up one day and was almost cleaved in half by Kanda, the poor guy. He's always so optimistic and smiles all the time. He's like a breathe of fresh air when he helps the others of the Order. Though I can and will be one of the first ones to tell you he's, uh, not all there.

He's crazy, but like clown crazy. Unless he's mad then he's demon crazy who makes even Kanda wary.

I love hanging out with Allen, Lavi, and Kanda... but I know they'll all leave and never return like everyone else.

They're Exorcists as well after all. It's practically in our job description.

And when that happens it will be Time To Move On once again.