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CONTAINS M/M SLASH. THERE'S EVENTUAL MPREG.

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Full Summary:

when Dean dies he find himself only wanting his brother to return to him but he's stuck working with two angels to help find a way to bring him back whilst dodging the angels of heaven. There was supposed to be an apocalypse but the two claim the issue has divided the angels and that they are at war with each other because of it. So now instead of giving up hunting like the grieving hunter wants to, he is driven across the country, with more or less little sleep trying to prevent an all out war in heaven. If that wasn't complicated enough Sam feels himself falling for the one fallen angel called Castiel. Alternate timeline. SASTIEL

*CHAPTER SEVEN*

Sam saw that Gabriel was off in his own little world after the talk they had and glanced over to the door to see if there was a chance of getting away without the angel realizing it. He took a couple of steps just to test if he would be able to when he was stopped short by a tap on the shoulder.

"Where do you think you're going?"

Sam gulped and tried to think of something that could help him but ended up blank. He fought the wave of emotions bouncing off him all at once and backed up to sit back on the edge of the bed. Gabriel looked smug after that and Sam looked angrily over to him. Was that what it was going to be, he thought. First he was told he shouldn't get too close to Cas and now he was being watched like a hawk. If there was some way-There was. He knew that Bobby was taught this ancient way of repelling them and that Cas only did it because he wasn't around twenty four seven. It just involved blood. How he was going to do it though was going to be the hard part though.

Or maybe not, he thought once Gabriel picked up his cell phone with an annoyed look on his face. It was Cas, he was pretty sure and knowing that his back was turned now, he grabbed the blade and winced as he brought it across his open palm. He didn't hesitate though and worked on getting the symbol on the wall before Gabriel found out.

"Hold on bro your boy is acting up again. I think I'll put him in a cage-" Once Gabriel looked over, Sam slapped his hand on the symbol and watched with satisfaction at the surprised look on his face before he disappeared in a hue of blue light. He quickly made it for the door right after that.

Reaching outside, he didn't hesitate in hailing a taxi with the determination of getting away. He was better before the angels got involved, he told himself. If he hadn't met them he would still have a world without his brother and he'd still be drowning in his sorrows but at least he wouldn't feel the tear in his heart at having to do this.

He had to get away though and Gabriel would understand.

Even if Cas didn't at first.

"I'm starting to think you liked that though Gabe baby. I mean it's not every day you have somebody get the smarts on you-"

"He didn't get the smarts on me Balthazar, he waited until I was on the phone and then he left," Gabriel quickly corrected him and Balthazar shrugged. It wasn't like he was trying to cause a fight but the fact that some arrogant archangel was bested by a human was funny.

"I think you both are missing the big picture," Cas quickly told them. He looked between them before starting to pace again much to their dull amusement. "Why did he leave in the first place? Why would he want to? I know that it's not easy having to be here with us and all but he was happy right? I would like to think he would want to stick around-"

"It had nothing to do with you little bro," Gabriel finally said with a sigh. At Cas's look of disbelief Gabriel continued. "I told him that he was stupid if he could believe in some things and he took off to make things easier. He didn't leave because of anything you did though. No, he left to sort out what his issues are-"

"Which is?" Cas demanded.

Gabriel tried not to think of how angry his brother was and instead looked away as though there were things more interesting than the conversation he was now having. Balthazar had different ideas and it was no wonder how he could guess what was being said since he wasn't naïve like Castiel was on even the more brighter days.

"He loves you Castiel. He may not know or even how much yet but just think about it. You and him are close and are becoming more than close at times. Feelings like that do come and then there's the fact that you promised Bobby that you'd make him forget but you won't forget this, ever. It kind of makes it unfair that you won't ever get to forget what he would want to remember as well. Even if you aren't with him you would want to-"

"Love?" Cas tipped his head to the side before jumping over to the phone. "Bobby yeah, we're looking for him but so far there's a dead end. Yeah, I'm working on it and I'll come over there as soon as I get the idea but it wasn't my fault. I will keep you informed. Absolutely and I'm not a feather brained idjit. Okay, I apologize and understand. I know, I won't do anything that he thinks is forced. I promise Bobby and you have my utmost word."

Gabriel snickered until Cas ended the phone call and then everything was back down to business. Oh how he hated the word but there was nothing stopping his little bro when it got like this. He would just have to hope that everything played out fine.

"So love?" Cas asked like the question alone was causing him a headache. Balthazar quickly gulped down the rest of his drink and poured some more. He was too sober for this conversation as it was. "I'm not talking to a wall am I? I want to know how this could be so simple since the I haven't really gotten the concept in the past-"

"You have been told Cas, you just forever won't get it," Balthazar interrupted.

"We gave up telling you in fact because you ask questions that aren't relevant. And think of it this way, you are going to take his memory away anyways so what does it matter if you do or don't in fact love him? Knowing the end game, you shouldn't really be too close to him-"

"There's a way though," Cas told him slowly. "I always keep my promises but that doesn't have to mean the end. I could always give it back or he could be the few that would remember me-"

"Not gonna happen. You are an angel and he is a human. We are most likely going to die in the name of love without all these complications and you should know that. Whatever you have with the Winchester boy better be nothing but brotherly love or else I will hide him so far in one hemisphere that you would never find him," Balthazar warned. "You got me?"

"Uh," Cas hesitated but seeing that they both were serious he finally nodded. "Capish."

Gabriel nodded.

"Good boy now we need to find Winchester and beat the resistance out of him before he ends up getting hurt. You with us buddy?"

Cas nodded after a moment's hesitation and it was enough. It had to be.

"I think this is crazy." Sam thought to himself. He found himself in Michigan and it was the opposite of what he really wanted to do. He sighed before picking up the wads of cash from his pocket to count and see if he had enough for a night stay in the motel nearby. Instead what he got was the ring of his cell phone and he saw that it was Bobby. "Yeah."

"Boy you need to get back to those angels! I know that you don't like it and you would much rather be with your brother but don't do anything stupid. I know you and you need to be around to be protected-"

"Bobby it has nothing to do with anything like that." Sam paid for his food and headed away from the street cart with the motel in mind. "I can't stop thinking about Dean yeah but this goes way beyond that Bobby-"

"Oh yeah?" Bobby challenged. "Well it just so happens that Cas is worried about whether you got into some sort of accident and he's pacing around waiting by cell phone to see if I heard anything. How much does that tell you? He cares Sam even though he can't recognize it. He probably likes you more than he even knows and I know how much it takes for him to be lost, hell I shot him the first time I met him because I thought he was just a stupid demon."

Sam couldn't help it, he laughed. The thought of Cas getting shot and looking more upset by the fact that he chose to shot him rather than killing him was sort of funny. Then again Cas did a million in one things that made him laugh and did a couple that made his heart pick up. He refused to do that to Cas though and Gabriel and those other angels would just have to get it. He was just about to cross the street when he noticed the car accident in front of him. He didn't see that a second ago and was surprised to see a young female in the center, lifeless.

"Bobby I hafta go," he ignored Bobby's heated voice and hung up, going to go as close as he could to see what was going on. She looked very pretty with a long white dress and long blonde wavy hair but the thing that didn't add up was the blood on her chest. It looked like it hadn't been caused by a car accident.

"What is going on mister, can't you see we're closing this area off. This is a murder investigation."

Sam looked over in awe though when he realized that this was no ordinary girl. There was an outline on the pavement of what looked like wings. He became shocked at that and couldn't help but gasp when he felt something on his arm.

"You know her?" Sam had to blink for a second before shaking his head.

"I know her brothers," he admitted which wasn't actually that far off if she was what he thought she was. How could anyone stand to kill her though was beyond him. He went to dig out his cell phone with the thought of calling Cas when he was shoved back back two burly men. He found that oddly enough he was far away from being able to scream for help too. This was just great.

"We need to take to down to the station and ask you some questions. We aren't getting any and this isn't the first so far that leads us to believe that the brothers could be behind this-"

"But Castiel isn't even in this state," Sam quickly interrupted.

They raised an eyebrow at the name and Sam continued despite how weird it is.

"All I know is that they belong to a clan that is feuding with one another. She didn't look to be on the other clans' side so the brothers didn't kill her. She had to have had another of her brothers just off her-"

He paused when one of them shoved a wash cloth over his nose and mouth. Sam held his breath and saw one of them smile broadly despite what he was doing and Sam found too late that he should be fighting this. He kicked and thrashed but it was hopeless. Instead he told himself that Cas would come if he prayed. Cas I'm here and I think I'm in trouble, he thought with all his mind as though it depended on this one thought. Please help me.

He was jerked and gasped, looking down to notice blood seeping down from where the knife had entered in his stomach. He then gazed at them in horror for whatever they did and found one of them laughing whilst the other looked smug. Apparently he couldn't laugh.

"Names Uriel. I can't say I know why they would protect a punk like you but we do need your blood and then your worthless to us. We could leave you in hell for a little while until we get our king out from hell and then he could bring you back since you are the only vessel for him. What do you say?" Sam couldn't focus anymore and slid down the wall. He fought to keep his eyes opened and found it very difficult to even stay conscious. He had to keep the knife in him though so he didn't bleed to death and as long as he didn't hit an organ, Sam was going to be fine. He'd need surgery but he could live past this.

He jumped when a hand reached over to the hilt of the knife and yanked it out, making him scream before he could stop himself.

"You ought to realize we don't do well with-" He frowned seeing something akin to grace that seemed to be leaking out. This wasn't what was supposed to happen and he pulled him back up against the wall in a demanding tone saying, "You better tell me how you got this big boy or else I'm gonna put you in hell far more sooner than you could want."

Sam could feel the life seeping out of him and couldn't even lift his head anymore. He felt fuzzy and warm but he couldn't decipher anything beyond that and he found it weird because it had hurt so much. Still the one thing that came to his mind was that it wouldn't end here, because he wouldn't let it. He weakly called out to the one angel that has always listened and cared despite how much Sam hurt him.

He called out to Cas with every faith in his being that he would answer.

He would definitely not disappoint.

Cas sighed when Bobby called back and said that Sam had hung up. It was worrying especially that Sam would hang up in the middle of a conversation with Bobby and was about to say so when he paused, holding a hand to his abdomen. Balthazar and Gabriel quickly jumped to action and saw blood spurting from the spot and to their surprise, found that his grace was either leaking out or coming back in as well. It actually was surprising when Cas wasn't even stabbed.

"What the hell-"

"Gabe you said that the idiot put some grace in Sam?"

Gabriel nodded in worry and Balthazar swore. They always said that when somebody bonded with something like this they both felt pain but in this instance, the grace he gave to Sam was most likely coming back in a torrent of pain and if they didn't find the little brat, he would die.

"Where did Bobby say he was?"

Cas blinked before zapping himself away in a flurry of feathers and the other angels didn't hesitate to follow. Uriel was there much to their dismay and Sam was looking really pale and his lips were turning blue due to the blood loss alone. Damn it the grace leaking out would kill him faster than anything else though. And if the angel was smart enough to use an angel sword, he would kill the brat and leave a part of Cas empty for the rest of his eternity.

"Step away from our boy Uriel, he's ours and we don't share."

"Of course you don't but that doesn't mean anything. You reversed the demon blood and now another plan shot to hell when it comes to Lucifer but don't worry we'll get him eventually."

Gabriel just sighed.

"Of course you would and that is why you need to kill a pathetic human to get it-"

"Right and that is so not it. You could have him, he's just about going out now anyways. It's easier to get access to the stomach by the way if they think you're trying to chloroform them. Easy as pie. Got to go though and tell the boss that we got two for the price of one, you know how that is."

"Uriel when I see you next, I won't hesitate to kill you," Cas told him bluntly. Uriel laughed but threw that off. He didn't need the threat since Cas couldn't ever be taken seriously. Cas let him go before going over and holding two fingers to Sam's forehead.

It was worrisome when he healed better but the wound wasn't closing. Balthazar helped him make a makeshift bandage over the injury and decided that it would take some time to heal. They took him to Bobby's.

Bobby took one look and swore before bringing the first aid kit.

"I would use pain meds but his breathing has already gone to shit and these could cause him to stop breathing altogether. I want you to hold him for me and to hold him tight so he can't move okay. It's gonna hurt but maybe you idjits will all stay on the same path and don't try anything stupid in the future alright."

Cas nodded and placed Sam's head gently in his lap, locking his arms above his head and watched as Sam blinked into alertness. He still wasn't aware of things as much as he should be but he was also too conscious. But Bobby was right too, they had to watch his breathing. He saw Gabriel take the legs and Balthazar was helping to keep the torso still so Bobby didn't make a mistake. It was going to hurt and Cas wanted to make it as less as possible.

"Okay I'm going to begin. He's going to need seven stitches just to close this up," Bobby told them to give them the heads up and Sam looked at him in confusion before he felt more pain than he ever wanted to in a lifetime. He tried to edge away from it and he screamed so very loud that even Gabriel was having trouble concentrating on the task at hand. Here was this human that got the upper hand on him and yet he was sympathizing for him because he was screaming bloody murder as the needle again pulled the skin taut together so that it could mend better. Sam ran out of breath to scream and began to breathe deeply to try to get enough air. It was forgotten as he felt it again and let another scream tear from his lips. "Damn it Cas, distract him okay? Do what you do best, tell him anything you want as long as you don't lie."

Cas nodded and tapped his cheek so that he was looking up when the needle again breached the broken skin. Sam wanted something to numb it, even alcohol would be good right about now. He moaned in pain, biting his lip as he looked over him and saw that Cas was suffering from this as much as Sam was. He fought to keep himself from screaming and it only came out as a half scream this time around.

"It's going to be okay Sam," Cas tried to reassure him.

Sam only whimpered.

"It hurts," he told him truthfully.

Cas nodded in understanding.

"I know, okay maybe I don't but it'll be okay. Just don't think about it. Think about what I'm saying okay? I know you really like me, maybe even love me." Sam looked up in shock that he almost forgot about the piercing needle. Cas hated the blood still seeping from the wound and couldn't wait for this to be done. He was obviously hurting and he had dried blood caked around his chin as well. Cas still had some on his hands and couldn't wait to wash it off. It scared him. "Tell me why so I could know. Please?"

Sam breathed in deeply and began despite his better judgment. "Your eyes. Your personality. Hell the way you stand up for me. You make my heart beat faster and you being hurt makes my chest hurt like it's on fire. I know love…Cas."

He whimpered again and Cas quickly got him to look back up at him. He couldn't understand love before and couldn't believe how much of a fool he had been. He ignored the dissatisfaction from the others and instead concentrated on him and only him.

"I love you too Sam. I love you." He leaned in and kissed him softly on the lips muffling the cries of pain. "I don't like you getting hurt either, this is killing me. Why'd you leave? Why would you put me through that? You almost died and I don't want to think about what that would do to me Sam. Don't ever do that again, you have to promise not to. Okay? Don't leave me alone like that okay?"

Sam nodded, tears overflowing from his eyes and cascading down his cheeks. Cas knew those weren't from the needle constantly going through layers of skin just to close the wound. He let himself smile, rubbing a hand through his hair reassuringly whilst keeping his hands restrained so Bobby wouldn't lose his concentration. He was going to be okay and if he kept telling himself that, then he would believe it. Sam needed him and he was going to be there for him.

"Bobby are….you almost….done," Sam sounded so broken and Bobby didn't have the heart to tell him that he had five more stitches to go. He knew that Sam shouldn't have hung up with him and was grateful that Cas got to him fast enough. He didn't want him to die like Dean had then he would be nowhere. Speaking of which he wondered what was going on.

"Why did that angel think that by taking Sam's blood he'd set Lucifer free?"

"Blood of a future vessel I believe but it won't work. I gave him some of my grace and it's rendered it useless," Cas was still watching Sam and how he winced and cried and even sometimes whimpered at the pain but there was nothing that could be done. If he fell asleep chances were that he'd never wake up was still too high. Those angels were cruel and they were nothing but the best at the torture they delivered.

"Why the hell would they need Sam though unless," Bobby paused, mentally counting down until the pain for Sam would be over. He got in two already so there was just three more to go. He saw that Cas seemed worried about how he was doing it though and kept himself from telling him to shove it. Sam was this way because some angels couldn't watch him right and Sam had the sudden idea to go away to keep it safe for all of them. Now it was Sam's blood on his carpet and Sam underneath him quivering in pain. He didn't like it one bit.

"I'm okay Bobby," Sam managed. Bobby softened and nodded, hoping that he could finish and started on the last one knowing this one was going to be the hardest.

"I'm sorry Sam but the edges are torn. I'm going to have to clean it-" He knew it would hurt and on contact with the liquid solution to prevent infection, Sam screamed once again. Gabriel tightened his hold on his legs and Balthazar did the same with his torso. Cas just hugged Sam closer to him and kissed him on the face, trying to make him feel better. Sam was crying and it was all Cas's fault for not thinking at all.

"It's almost over Sam and then you could lay back," Cas told him reassuringly kissing his eyebrows, then his nose, and then finally his soft lips. Sam moaned in pain allowing Cas to kiss him and more happier than he was.

"It hurt," he mumbled and Cas nodded smoothing back his bangs.

Bobby was finished with the last one when he noticed that Sam had fallen asleep grabbing onto Cas's sleeves. He sighed and stood up feeling like he lost a few years just by putting the younger Winchester through this. Still it had to be done and if someone had to do it, he was happy it was him and not someone who had no idea what they were doing.

"We'll leave him asleep and check on him every hour. It's gonna be a long night-"

"I'll do it Bobby," Cas told him. "I was not kidding when I said I loved him and I will do whatever it takes to make him feel better. I'll watch over him."

Bobby didn't like the sound of that but sighed realizing that it would help him get the rest he needed as well. He finally nodded.

"Look out for the thing becoming red and inflamed. If he gets a fever and I don't mean a simple one hundred fever but one hundred and two then come get me. I need to know when and if he gets an infection."

Cas nodded.

It really wasn't a good idea but who was Bobby to tell him so. He could tell that they had developed such a complex bond already.

And he wasn't going to take that away.