"cheers" she said softly taking the can of coke I bought for her.

"it's ok" I sat opposite her on the picnic bench "so um, I know you probably wont believe me after last time I tried but im really sorry about what I said I just, I know it upsets you and I was wrong to use that to hurt you"

She looked down "i guess I shouldn't of called you a walking gonorrhoea awareness campaign in a year"

"aah … you were probably right" we both chuckled softly as i placed my can back down "so um, how's it going with, Trent?" did I mention I hate him?

"ok I guess" she looked at me "can we not talk about this?"

"come on tell me, I promise I wont make fun of you or use it against you in the future" I leaned forward onto the table

She shrugged "he's a nice guy, he treats me right, he's doing everything right I just, don't, feel anything"

"maybe it's the age gap"

she looked at me "dont you start that"

"what?" I chuckled

"ive got eve referring to him as my toy boy whenever she can, I have my mother saying oh mickie, I know younger men may seem the better sexual option but think about your kids mickie, think about the kids they'll be ever so confused why mummy is older than daddy"

I broke a small smile as I tried not to laugh "your mum sounds... interesting"

"that's one way to put it" she chuckled "i just, don't feel anything and it's not even like I can be with him for the sex"

"aahh he's know good huh?"

"no, he wont put out"

"what?" I raised my voice

Mickie shrugged "dunno, must be me because what I ever do he doesn't seem to take the bait"

I now feel bad after what ive been saying to her, I felt bad before but now it's gotten worse "trust me, it's not you"

"you seemed to think so"

"i was being a jack ass, just trust me, he's probably gay or something"

She chuckled as she nodded "well the stack of porn he carries around, I don't think he's gay"

"ahh so there's a doubt there" I pointed at her smiling she smiled as she chuckled softly "your pretty when you smile" I smiled when she blushed "cute when you blush to"

"shut up" she whispered looking away, she was adorable shy but, didnt want to say that and make her uncomfortable or anything.

"Don't get told that a lot do you" I asked she then looked at me, almost asking how did I know that "i can tell by the way you reacted"

We were walking, I looked out at the scenery, John did bring me to a gorgeous beach, I loved nature and landscapes, there so beautiful.

"i love all this kind of stuff" I looked at him as she stopped at the end of the pier, he had the mountains behind him and the sun beating down on the both of us as it set.

He looked me in the eyes, his eyes flickered between my eyes and my lips and I knew what he was thinking and what he wanted to do. I guess I understand what zack was explaining to me now, eve must have been the same, it was a weird feeling. You felt like that he had trapped you yet you could move away at will, it was the eyes, those blue eyes that gave away so little about what he was thinking normally, now, they were alive with emotion and feeling.

His hand went softly to my jaw line as he leaned in, I don't know what was happening, one day we cant stand each other, the next we're stood on a pier with a romantic setting about to kiss, I closed my eyes when his lips softly met mine.

She put her arms around my neck as we kissed, ive never gotten this feeling from kissing a girl before, all these butterflies going around in my stomach, the feeling of never wanting to let her go. Was I being to forward in thinking I wanted to settle down with this women? After all it is just a kiss and she is dating someone else.

Who

I hate by the way.

And did I feel guilty about Kim, hell no! If she's coming to stay I need to get me a lot of sex with a lot of women and fast.