I walked down the steps of the bus and pushed the door open and stopped surprised by a blonde women stood there. My heart dropped.
"hi you must be mickie" the women smiled "im Kim, john's fiancée"
"fiancée?" I questioned my voice shaking from the fact I was trying so hard not to cry over this, this jerk.
She grinned "he asked me last night, im not surprised he never told you he's not the type to flaunt things"
I put my bag on my shoulder and swallowed the lump in my throat "well um, I have to go, I have a live show, john's not here, he just went to the store to get milk, he should be back soon" I nodded squeezing past her, I briefly closed my eyes seeing her bags, I must have been the last meaningless sex before his … fiancée came to stay on the road with him.
"oh and by the way" she called I turned to her "i know you fucked him last night im not stupid" she sneered at me
"what are you talking about?" I tried to laugh it off
"yanno you were just someone he wanted but couldn't have, honey he told you what you wanted to hear so he could get in your pants, you mean nothing to him, what we have is special" she came closer to me "you were just a stop gap whilst we were taking a break, turns out he picked me, can't be that good in the sack babe" she winked at me "hey john" she smiled putting her arm around his waist as he came to her side "i think she's jealous that I have you and she doesn't"
"jealous of you please" I rolled my eyes looking away
"it's not my fault John picked me over you" I turned my head as I did I caught john's eye and he looked down "he just needs a real women in his life, not some butch wrestler, John likes to spoil his girlfriends, he can hardly take you to an upper class restaurant" I looked down, fighting my tears again, I don't know why I was letting this bother me "naww look johnny she's going to cry"
I nodded as I looked up "spoil or buy?" I said where was this voice coming from
"excuse me?" Kim said
"yeah honey" I said mocking her "im not so sure this" I motioned to them "is legit, I mean, how long have you been together"
"nearly 5 years why?"
"funny how he's never mentioned you before, ask anyone in that locker room they wont have a clue who you are, you appear from no where, he takes you to fancy restaurant's, your just a prostitute with commitment" Kim scowled at me "naww johnny I think she's mad" i mocked her, I picked my bag up "don't worry, he got paid this week you can charge him for sex now" I nodded fake excited before walking away. I heard her scream her frustrations and as I looked over my shoulder John was holding her watching me.
"drop dead" I mouthed pulling the door open violently, I was so angry right now. At him, at her, at myself mainly for believing the crap he told me, for believing the man he was around me was the real him, again. Why do I fall for his crap over and over.