I was walking down the corridor slightly drunk, I was still aware of my surroundings and could walk in a straight line so I was ok.

I stopped outside zacks room to take my shoes off that were killing me when a loud thud came against the door.

"sweet Jesus" I backed away "eves getting some hot lovin' to-night" I chuckled to myself

I was getting back to my hotel room with my sister when mickie stumbled around the corner, I chuckled "you ok there?" I asked

"fine" she said flopping her hand at me and kept walking

"um, aren't you best making sure she gets back to her room ok" my sister said to me

"ooh Kim would, hate! That idea" mickie then sniggered pointing towards us leaning against the wall opposite us.

I looked at lily "Kim sort of hates mickie"

"i hate her to" mickie snapped towards me

"it's a mutual thing" I nodded at lily

"why?" lily asked

John sighed "it's a long story"

"not that long" mickie mumbled

"will you shut up" I snapped at her

"ooh, touch a nerve" she asked slurring her words at me "god forbid your family find out golden boy isn't so golden"

"what's she talking about?" lily asked

"she's drunk, ignore her" John said staring towards mickie

"look I don't care what the problem with you her and Kim is, just make sure she gets back ok" lily opened the door "those men down there look suspicious"

I looked over my shoulder as she closed the door, she was right, I also didn't like the way they were looking towards mickie. "come on" I said softly coaxing mickie with me.

I was sat on my couch looking at him, he looked at me with sympathy written on his face, did I look as sad as I felt.

"why are you here?" I asked softly

"making sure your ok" he spoke back softly

"like you care" I looked away, looking towards the kitchenette

"I've always cared" I looked down "you were drunk, I didn't want anything happening to you"

"no im just not allowed to be with anyone else am I john" I looked up at him, and he averted his eyes from mine "why are you allowed someone and im not, why don't you want me to be happy?"

"i do" he shifted his feet nervously as he looked everywhere bar at me "i just, I wanted to be the one making you happy, it kills me seeing another man making you smile"

"and you think it's easy for me seeing you with Kim"

"that's different"

"how?" I asked standing up and going onto the balcony and sitting on a chair.

After a while I heard the door slide open "surprised you've not left" I said looking over my shoulder slightly.

He sat down "it's different because when your seen to be with a guy, everyone talks about it, it's all I ever hear about, no one talks about me and Kim"

"oh so I can never be with anyone because it pisses you off that people talk about it"

"no it pisses me off the fact someone is making you feel things I want to make you feel"

"oh so it's all about sex then"

John sighed "no, I meant, forget it" he looked down then away

"feelings?" I questioned he looked up at me "you never had feelings"

"that's not true"

"whatever John, just leave, this is pointless" I sighed when he didn't move