I (john's mother) opened the hotel room door and me and Kim walked in to the room, and Kim broke into tears when she sore the baby grows sat on the coffee table.

"oh im so sorry I forgot they were there"

"I've lost it, I've lost my baby" she sobbed and I pulled her in and held her as she cried, i wondered where my son was, his fiancée needed him, he didnt even know she had lost the baby. He'd be crushed when he found out, it's all he spoke about to me, how he would need me around the first few days to teach him how to look after his baby. His baby would only get the best, nothing less.

Eve sighed as she sat down across from me in the coffee shop we had met up in "he's not the man who you think he is mickie" she said to me "you've got to get over him"

"I've tried" I said softly, I nodded "believe me I have, you know I've tried everything, but, it's like he has dug this little whole in my brain and I cant get him out of there" I looked down at my coffee "I don't want to feel like this, I hate myself for letting him in and making me feel this way but I cant just change how I feel about him"

"well your going to have to mickie, he's set a date mickie, she is pregnant, it's never going to happen for you to" eve said softly I looked up at her "and whether he likes you dating or not your going to have to, you cant just sit around for the rest of your life because he doesn't want you dating"

"i know that"

"babe, I don't think you do, I think your sat waiting for him to come back again, don't let him use you, have some self pride mickie"

I sighed, I knew she was right "come on, we should go meet the guys" I stood up, I then looked at her "no"

"oh come on he's a great guy"

"no"

I walked onto john's bus to find him sleeping on it "um dude?" I asked

he stirred "go away zack"

"what are you doing here?"

"this is my bus I should be asking you" he asked his eyes still firmly shut

"i cant find my back up boots anywhere, im thinking I may have left them here" I said walking around his bus trying to see if I could see them. "so, trouble in paradise"

"no, I got in late last night and didn't want to disturb Kim so I slept here" He sat up as he yawned.

"wow" I said l looked at him "runs a tight ship huh"

"dont zack" he stood up

"what?" I said "all im saying is she must be strict if you cant even go into your own hotel room"

He looked at me "here" he held my boots to me

"thanks" I took them, we still weren't as close as we once were there was this wedge we couldn't seem to get rid of. "ill be going then" I said before leaving the bus with a sigh.