I rushed into her hospital room "oh my god Kim are you ok?" I asked leaning down and kissing her

she nodded weakly "i will be"

"ok, good what about the baby, that's ok to right?" I asked looking at my mother then back to Kim

she shook her head tearing up "no, John I lost the baby"

"oh Kim" I leaned down to hug her "what happened?"

"i ran into mickie in the stair well" she said as I sat down holding her hand as she teared up "she started shouting these things at me, and, and, she pushed me"

"she what?" I asked shocked

"she pushed me down the stairs and killed our baby" she sobbed

I let go of her hand leaning on the bed running a hand down my face, I couldn't believe mickie would do that. "are you sure?" I asked

she looked at me "you don't believe me? It's because it's her isn't it"

"no, Kim, I didnt mean" I put my head in my hands giving up on attempting to explain myself "my heads mashed, I cant believe we've lost the baby"

"it'll be ok john" Kim took my hand "we can have another"

"it's not the point" I looked at her "just because we can have another doesn't make what she did right"

Kim sighed "baby, relax, and go"

"why?" I asked

"Your going to be late for your show, ill be fine I have your mother with me"

My plan officially worked, make John hate mickie, I looked at his mother I sighed "oh don't look at me like that" I said

"she didnt even push you did she" she asked

I sighed "what do you think?" I snapped at her "of course she did, look this way, I know John is mine know, she doesn't have the chance to take him from me any more because he hates her" I looked at her "who would you rather your son be with me, or, that thing that would sleep with a man knowing his had a pregnant fiancée"

She nodded looking away "i suppose your right"

"i am, trust me, this way it's for the best" I lay back and looked up at the ceiling, I felt her looking at me but I know her, she wont say anything, after I told her what he and mickie did, she hates mickie. John's sister was quite a feisty girl and when she finds out mickie will be lucky to walk if she ever gets her hands on her. Lily never sees the wrong in me, so she will also be on my side, and John adores his sister so he would be always back her, and he always backs me, so mickie doesn't stand a chance of convincing him that im lying.

"im going for a coffee" John's mother stood up and left.

I was sat in the coffee shop in the hospital debating whether to tell John what I am thinking or not, I know the real Kim, she's not the nicest of people and there relationship is a joke with the constant cheating on each other.

"mum" I looked up when lily sat down "what did the doctor say?"

"she lost the baby" I said softly

I could see lily didnt know what she say, she was only 24, even I don't know what to say to that and im much older.

"Apparently, john's cheated on her with a diva, recently, when he knew she was pregnant" I looked up "that same diva was meant to of pushed her down the stairs causing the miscarriage"

"you don't believe her do you?"

I nodded then shrugged "i dunno what to think" I hate pretending that I don't know Kim had already lost the baby but, my head was every where I don't know what to do for the best.

"what diva is it?" lily asked

"mickie james?"

lily looked at me "i was talking to her yesterday" she said "she seemed genuinely happy for John"

"according to Kim, she's very bitter"