Kurt rolled over again for what must have been the hundredth time that night, his hand tapping against the mattress as he moved to his back again. He sighed and turned his head to look at his alarm clock, it was five thirty in the morning and he still had hardly slept at all. He ran his fingers through his hair and rolled onto his side trying to find a comfortable position and closed his eyes, but every time he did he saw the look on Blaine's face when he told him to leave flash across his eye lids. Well he'd managed to stay away from Blaine for the hold day right? But there was a big difference for not talking to him and not ever seeing him again.
Well, maybe that was exaggerating a bit? They were bound to see each other sometime in the future…maybe. Maybe it was a good thing! Now he can finally get over Blaine properly without him because there every day with his charming grin and beautiful captivating butter brown eyes…urgh. He knew that he was way too harsh on Blaine at lunch before, and he didn't see him for the remainder of the day and he hadn't so much as looked at him for the rest of the week. He was just finding it too hard to stay away from Blaine; he meant so much to him even if he did hate him at the same time. He'd been the only one who really understood about how he felt about his Dad dating again.
He's only been gone for a week and it was already driving him completely crazy that he didn't see Blaine's brown eyes and stupid cheesy grin every day, not that he had seen that grin the week before he left. He hadn't had any contact from him at all, not a phone call or text. Well why should he anyway? Kurt asked him to leave him alone and that's what he was doing. He was probably over Kurt by now anyway; moving on with his new life with is Mom and leaving all his troubles behind him.
How could he have been so stupid? Telling him to leave in the first place, he knew as soon as he said that he wanted Blaine to stay. It was just the shock of it all, and the fact that Blaine wanted an answer right there and then and Kurt was meant to be acting like he wanted nothing to do with him and it had just burst out of him. 'Go.' But he definitely didn't want Blaine to go.
But then again he could really ask Blaine to stay could he? What would he have said? 'I'm never getting back together with you but I might need to moan to you about my life every now and then so stay.'
Kurt didn't know what was wrong with him anyway, why couldn't he move on? It just didn't make sense, Blaine cheated on you. He slept with…wait…Kurt didn't know if that was one hundred percent true! Maybe that was why! But why hadn't he asked.
Kurt sighed and rolled over again. Tomorrow, he and Sebastian were going to talk.
"Sleep any better last night?" Mercedes asked softly as Kurt walked past her.
"No not really," Kurt muttered heading straight to where Sebastian was standing with a group of jocks.
"Sebastian can I talk to you for a second?" Kurt asked firmly standing with his left hand on his hip.
Sebastian raised an eyebrow at him, "Um…Sure."
Kurt nodded and walked away around the corner, looking back over his shoulder to see that Sebastian was following him slowly with a stupid smirk on his face, Kurt spun around once they were out of sight and leant his foot against the wall.
Sebastian stopped a few feet away from him, "What do you want Hummel?"
Kurt looked down at his nail before back up and Sebastian, "Just to ask you a question."
Sebastian smirked at Kurt with a glint in his eyes, "Not a blow job now your little Blainey-waney as gone then?"
Kurt snorted, "In your dreams."
"Well ask away then," Sebastian said with a wave of his hand.
"Did you sleep with my boyfriend….ex, my ex-boyfriend?" Kurt asked narrowing his eyes at Sebastian slightly.
"When was this?" Sebastian asked not giving anything away in his voice or expression.
"When he was drinking with you…" Kurt hinted his eyes narrowing even more.
"No." Sebastian said shaking his head, "He was pissed and I didn't want him to damage his pretty little head on the way home so he crash at mine."
Kurt blinked and nodded, "Did you try anything with him?"
"No, he was passed out so I couldn't really do a lot now could I? And all night all he was slurring on about was how amazing you are and how much he was in love with you anyway, it kinda put a damper on things," Sebastian said darkly.
"Oh." Kurt said looking at the floor as he tried to make sense of his emotions.
"Can I go now?" Sebastian asked sounding bored.
Kurt nodded and leant heavily against the wall closing his eyes; he took a deep breath and pushed away from the wall.
"Mercy I need to talk to you," Kurt said grabbing her hand and pulling her away from the group of girls.
"Kurt are you okay?" Mercy asked frowning as Kurt started pacing back and forth in front of her.
"No, no I've fucked up big time," Kurt moaned still pacing with his hands behind his back.
"Kurt what's going on?" Mercy said putting her hands on his shoulders.
Kurt moaned again "Blaine didn't cheat on me."
"Huh?" Mercy asked her face creasing in confusion.
"We didn't know if he'd actually thought he had or not, and I didn't ask Sebastian because I was terrified of the answer and I'm pretty sure Blaine was too so he didn't ask either, and I thought it wouldn't matter anyway because he still went out and got drunk with Sebastian when I asked him not too so he was still betraying my trust and so it wouldn't have made a difference that I broke up with him," Kurt blurted out in a rush.
"Kurt that's crazy, you can't control who he hangs out with!" Mercy exclaimed, "You know he loves you, he's not going to cheat on you is he?"
"No but he still thought he did!" Kurt said looking at the floor, "Why wouldn't he next time?"
"Kurt he still told you, even though he knew you'd brake up with him because he knew you deserved to know the truth," Mercy said firmly, "Don't think that I'm on his side with this, he knew he shouldn't have said yes to Sebastian because he knew that he was trouble. But I just want you to be happy Kurt, and I haven't seen you happier apart from when you were with Blaine."
Kurt nodded in agreement, "I know."
"And I know he's miserable too, so Kurt I know he hurt you, but it could have been a lot worse, and what's the point of making you both depressed when you could just fix it and both be happy?" Mercy asked biting her lip.
"I can't," Kurt said shaking his head, "Not after I told him to leave like that."
"Kurt I'm sure he'd forgive you," Mercy told him gently.
"I was just so confused; I knew I was meant to be angry at him but…" Kurt sighed and shook his head again, "It just ended up coming out like that. I didn't mean it, I didn't want him to go but…what else could I have said?"
"Kurt stop dwelling in the past and focus on the future," Mercy said firmly, "You can fix this."
Kurt shook his head again, "I was horrible to him. He isn't going to what anything to do with me. And besides I don't even know where he lives."
"I'm pretty sure you could find out somehow hon, you have is email don't you?"
"What do I say? I don't really want to talk to him over this over an email," Kurt said biting his lip.
Kurt collapsed on his bed with a sigh, picking up his laptop and quickly logging onto Facebook and finding Blaine's profile page. He smiled at the profile picture of himself and Blaine at the park laughing madly. He traced his finger over the image of Blaine gently with a small smile still upon his face before he clicked on the button so he could privately message him. He tapped his finger against the side of his laptop and bit his lip as he tried to think of something to say.
Hey Blaine
I thought you might want to know that I talked to Sebastian and
He couldn't put it like that…
Hey Blaine,
I just want you to know that
What did he want Blaine to know anyway?
Hey Blaine,
I just want you to know that I don't hate you at all and I'm missing you a lot right now, I hope your liking your new life. I talked to Sebastian and I thought you should know that you didn't cheat on me, in fact you annoyed him quiet a lot by telling him how in love with me you were for the whole night. He didn't look very please ha-ha ;)
Lots of love
Kurt x
Kurt bit his lip staring at the message re-reading it in his head a few times before shrugging and pressing send knowing he would probably regret it later no matter what he said, but also that he would regret it even more if he didn't send anything.
He sighed and logged off putting his laptop away and grabbing his algebra homework bringing back fond memories when he and Blaine had a half an hour long argument that algebra wasn't math with Blaine just saying 'It has letters! Letters are English not Math!' to about everything Kurt said back to him.
He'd just gotten ready to start the fifth formula when he heard a knock at the door followed by his Dad answering it. There was a lot of muffled talked that Kurt couldn't make out before his Dad yelled up the stairs.
"Kurt, someone at the door for you!"
Kurt frowned a bit trying to work out who it could be that his Dad wouldn't just send up to his room as he hopped of his bed and walked slowly down the stairs that came out into the hallway. Standing just outside the door was a woman who must have been in her late thirties to early forties and slightly on the shorter side, she had long wavy, midnight black hair that came down to just past her shoulders warm brown eyes and a gentle smile that instantly made Kurt think of Blaine's.
"Kurt?" She asked scanning Kurt slowly with a small smile still playing around her pink rosy lips.
"Yeah," Kurt nodded walking up to the door and smiling back at the women.
"I'm Kate," She said holding out her hand, "Kate Anderson? Blaine's mother."
Kurt blinked a few times before he nodded slightly and grasped her hand, "Oh, it's nice to meet you."
Kate smiled at Kurt again, "You're all Blaine talks about."
Kurt blushed and looked at the floor before looking up suddenly, "Wait? Why are you here? Is he hurt? Oh my God is he going to be okay?" He panicked in a rush looking at her with wide eyes.
Kate laughing lightly, "No sweet heart he's fine."
Kurt let out a sigh of relief, "Thank God."
Kate smiled broadly at him, "But I am here to talk to you about him," she said her smile lessening slightly.
Kurt nodded biting his lip in worry, "Do you want to come in?" He asked gesturing towards the house.
"No thanks honey, I won't take up too much of your time," Kate continued to smile at him.
Kurt nodded and stepped out of the house closing the door softly behind him, "What's going on?"
"I just want to talk to you, I know he hurt you and everything but he just seems so…low you know? Until I mention you and he springs back to the old Blaine for a bit." Kate said pausing as she thought, "I'm not expecting you too get back together with him or anything but, he misses you."
Kurt gulped and nodded, "I miss him too."
Kate smiled again and fished around in the small brown leather bag she had over her shoulder and pulled out a small piece of folded paper, "Here's our address and number," She explained handing the paper to Kurt who took it with a nod, "Just in case you decided to get in touch with him."
Kurt opened the paper read the information before he nodded and slipped it into his pocket, "Thank you."
"Just promise me you'll think about it?" Kate asked tilting her head to the side.
Kurt nodded "Of course."
"Thank you Kurt," Kate smiled once again, "And if you're half as amazing as what Blaine tells me, I'm sure we're going to be good friends."
Kurt smiled back finding the Kate's own smile contagious, "I hope so."
"Just take care for me," Kate smiled, "Oh one more thing; I heard Blaine's farther gave you a bit of grief?"
Kurt shrugged, "Nothing I'm not used too."
Kate frowned at the information, "Well I'm sorry about that anyway."
Kurt nodded, "It's not your fault…Can I ask you a question?"
"Of course sweetie."
"Why did you leave Blaine? It's obviously not because you had a problem with his sexuality." Kurt asked curiously.
Kate sighed, "I needed to get away from his farther he's started too…well to beat me."
Kurt gasped, "Oh Miss Anderson I am so sorry."
"Call me Kate sweetie and it's okay, I got out fine," Kate smiled at him.
"But why didn't you take Blaine with you if you knew Blaine's farther could be violent?" Asked Kurt biting his lip.
"I had nowhere to live, no money, no job," Kate sighed, "I needed to find somewhere stable for him before I took him from his Dad, and I knew that he would never lay a finger on Blaine even if he did disagree with his sexuality. Believe me if there was even the slightly chance I thought he would hurt Blaine then I would have taken him with me straight away. But at that time, Blaine was safer there, where he had money and he was already settled at school and had friends."
Kurt nodded, "I understand."
"Good well, I hope to see you soon." Kate nodded back gesturing to the pocket on Kurt's jacket that contained the paper she had given him, "Come by anytime."
"Bye." Kurt waved as she walked back down to her car. She waved back with yet another cheerful smile and climbed into her car before driving away.
He watched her disappear down the road before he took the piece of paper back out of his pocket and traced the address slowly with his index finger.
A/n: Hey guys, I hope you liked the chapter. Sorry I haven't updated in a while. Thanks for reading and to my beta (:
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