He holds my face close to his, and kisses me softly. He's so soft, so gentle with me. I throw both arms over him, and hug his neck, pulling him into me. We stay locked like this so long, I'm beginning to think he's changed his mind. He nuzzles into my neck. I can feel his warm breath on my neck, behind my ear, and the limpness between my legs starts to harden again.
"Look, it's not like I don't want this, but if anyone found out..."
"I told you before I wouldn't say anything if you didn't."
"It's just that, I'm twenty-four, and you're not even-"
"Just say it. I'm fifteen. And you don't want to go to jail."
"My whole career would be at stake if anyone found out. I'm just, not sure."
"Not sure if I'm worth it, right? "
He doesn't say anything for a while. Just as I move to push him off of me and get out of bed, he pins me down.
"That's not what I meant. "
He kisses my forehead, and then my hair, and holds me tightly.
"This feels so right. I don't want to let you go. It just seems perfect."
I'm not sure what he means. Today has been far from perfect. I guess if he means the way he feels about me, spontaneous yet very close to being undevoted, and so passionate I can't describe, then I guess I feel that too. Why are we talking about this just now. Did I get carried away earlier? This wasn't how things were supposed to go...
I won't let these feelings be fleeting. I won't let him get away. Not at all.
I kiss him, hard, and in our hot exchange of breathe, neither of us can get any words out. I won't let him stop this time.
Naked. Exposed. Hot.
His touch is more than I can handle. I feel him bite into my neck. It hurts, but in a sickly good way. I dig my nails into his shoulders. He licks up my neck, leaving me hot and sticky. We kiss, on and off, leaving me in a mess and unable to breathe correctly. I close my eyes. I'm so hot, it's getting hard to move underneath him. I'm fading in and out; it kind of feels like I could fall asleep. He moves off of me for a second, and I hear him rustling in the bedside table. Finally. There is no turning back after this. He kisses my face, to warn me, then spreads my legs apart. I feel the cold, thick liquid touch my entrance, and let a haughty moan escape my throat. He grabs my legs and pulls me to him. I grab a hold of his arms, tightly. He leans down and kisses my face all over.
"I love you, Allen."
He licks my neck again, and I shiver. He snickers.
I want to tell him not to laugh, but I'm too preoccupied with the situation before me.
He thrusts into me, slowly, but hard enough to make sure he goes all the way in. I gasp sharply, wincing from pain, but hold back any sharp noises from escaping my throat. After what I had to go through to get him to go this far, I don't want him stopping for any reason.
I'm having my first time with someone I have strong feelings for. Isn't than all anyone could ask for? Even though we hardly know each other, I'm so happy right now.
He's waiting, to gauge my reaction.
"I-its OK. You can move..."
"Are you sure? It seems a little soon. I can let you adjust."
He moves a little further, and I know he's all the way in now.
He moves in and out, slowly at first. It hurts, but not a lot. I think the strangest part is just the foreignness of having a part of someone elses body inside you. It's so intimate, so wonderful. He kisses my face. I close my eyes and he starts to move a little faster. I feel like I can't let go of him; I'm not exactly scared, because I know it will feel good in a little while, but I'm so unsure of what to do. He starts to move faster, I can feel his cock slide in and out of my ass.
"h-ah! Lavi!" Cries of pain and please escape my throat. I can't stop them. With each thrust, he lays kisses down my neck, moving closer to me. He keeps pushing.
"u-Uah!" He's pumping in and out of me very quickly now. I don't want this to be over.
I feel him smile as he lays a kiss on my lips. He moves his hands from my legs to my hips, and then back again, like he's not sure where he should keep them. He pulls me up, onto his lap. I arch my back and let him slide in again. I move my hands to his shoulders and dig my nails into him. I move my hips up, right as he moves his.
"Just stay like that." He says, panting hard.
I stay still, and he slams his cock into my hole, over and over, quickening his pace.
"oh...f-fuck..h-hnn..." He slams into me over and over again. I quickly throw my arms around him, to hold onto him tightly, and he grabs my hips, pushing my down and grinding into me. I can feel the rising pleasure, sending shivers up my spine. My whole body feels light suddenly as he fucks my ass harder.
He licks up the side of my neck, getting me even closer. I won't be able to hold it much longer. It's so embarrassing. I'm sure he can go a lot longer. I cum so quickly, because I'm not used to doing this.
The pressure is building.
He's fucking me even faster now. I didn't think that was possible. I'm so close to cumming. I don't want a repeat of earlier, so I try to warn him ahead of time.
"L-lavi...I..I can't hold it in...I'm gonna..." He kisses my neck, and then bites down hard.
It hurts, and I lose control, cumming, spilling it all over his chest and mine, because we're so close.
He lets go, kissing the place he bit, and then kisses my lips. He pushes deep inside me and then lays me back down on the bed. Hot and sticky all over, and I love it.
He starts to move in and out again, slow at first. He moves his fingers over his chest, scooping off some of the mess I left, and licks it off his fingers. He leans down to kiss me, and starts pumping in and out faster again. I hold him tightly against me.
"A-Allen...I.."
He squeezes his eyes shut.
"I love you..."
He pushes in deep and I feel him cream my insides. It feels so wonderful.
"I-I love you, too, Lavi." I manage to get out, through gasps of air, and I struggle to breathe. He doesn't make it any easier, as he starts to kiss me, and pushes his tongue into my mouth. We kiss over and over.
He stares into my eyes and smiles at me.
"Delicious."
He closed the gap between us, and laid on top of me, moving the sweat off my hairline, kissing my face all over, before rolling over and laying beside me. He grabbed my hand and held it to his chest.
"I love you so much."
We lay there panting. I close my eyes, and just as think I should say it back, I feel so sleepy and start to call his name, but I fall asleep.