How much time has passed?

When I wake up, I'm laying on the couch Kanda was on earlier. He's on top of me leaning over me, pinning my arms above me. Why does this keep happening...

"A-ah! L-let go.." I try to pull away but the sleep wasn't enough to take away the complete effect of the medicine. I try to at least squirm or wriggle my way out of his grip. Kanda doesn't stop of course. He grabs my cock with his free hand, pressing his thumb down on the tip. He squeezes. My entire body shudders. He's taken my shirt off, so I'm completely naked under him. He runs his tongue down my neck, hitting just the right spot. He bites down. It hurts but from being bitten in the same spot a couple of times before, from him and Lavi, I think I'm starting to like it. I'm not sure how I'm so suddenly coherent after waking up, but once again I had no way to judge time, so there's a good chance I was out for a while.

"So...How did it feel?"

"W-Wha-"

"Oh. That's right. You were asleep the whole time. You were still pretty good, despite that. Heh. "

"You..."

He kisses my face. I think I know what he's getting at; but I can't feel all of my body yet. I'm still numb.

"W-what..."

He lets go of my arms, and I find myself relaxing beneath him. He leans down closer to me, kissing my again, I move my face away from his.

"stop..."

"You didn't say that earlier."

"W-what did you do? "

My words aren't coming out completely normal. It's hard to hear him, and hard to speak.

He pulls my head up, and makes me watch as he pushes two fingers inside of my hole. He pushes deep inside, and rubs them a little. He pulls them out, recovering white, sticky ooze. I feel sick suddenly.

"N-no.."

"It's far too late for that now. It's already been done. I bet you can't wait until he finds out."

"W-why?"

"Why? Why not? You stole the one thing that's ever been truly mine."

Revenge. The faltered side of rage that misleads intentions. I feel so guilty. Lavi told me they were never together. That didn't mean Kanda never had feelings towards him.

"LOOK AT ME!" Kanda take a tight grip on my neck. He's really angry.

"He got what he wanted from you. Then I had my turn. That's all the happened here, understand?"

"K-kanda..."

"I TOLD YOU TO STAY AWAY FROM HIM!"

I finally get my arms to move, and grab his wrists to try to pull him away from me. I'm still feeling groggy, and it's getting harder to breathe. Struggling to get him off of me, I try to think of ways to loosen his grip; I won't be awake much longer otherwise. This is getting dangerous. My luck is coming back. Kanda is still drunk, and as he pushes down to strangle me, he loses his balance, and we roll off the couch. He didn't let go but, he loosens his grip just enough for me to pull him off of me, and then push him away. I'm free. I get off the floor and stumble. I can't move very quickly and it's too hard to walk. My vision is blurry and the loss of air is causing me to caught and hold my chest. I crawl away from Kanda, I move past the back of the couch, as just as I try to head towards the hallway I stop, seeing two feet in front of me. I look up. Lavi...

He looks down at me, and then over to Kanda. He moves right past me, and straight to Kanda. He grabs Kanda and helps him sit up. I feel guilty again. But I..I didn't do anything wrong, did I?

It all fits so well together. The bottle of vodka. I smell like alcohol. Kanda is still drunk. The pills... I'm having trouble moving on my own...Kanda and I are both naked. I was crawling away from him...

"Dammit. " Lavi grabs me from behind, pulling me up so I'm standing. I lean against him, because there's no way I can walk right now.

"It's not...not what you think. I just took medi-"

"Save it. I don't care what you did. Especially with that-"

He looks over at Kanda.

"I don't believe this. I thought we were perfect. It doesn't matter now. Just get out."

"Please! Please don't do this! It's not at all what it looks like!"

I shudder, feeling cold all around me. I try to hold onto him, but he lets go of me, and I fall back to the floor. Tears. Millions of them. I can't stop them.

"Please..."

"I loved you. I loved you so much. I don't...understand.."

He sits down next to me, and pulls me against him.

"I want to tell you that I can forgive you. But the truth is that I can't. Not after this. If it was anyone else, maybe, somehow I could find a way around it, and I could forgive you. I could let it go. But it was him..."

"You...you don't understand. He tricked me..."

"I'm sure he did. I'm positive he planned it all from the beginning, in fact. But the problem is, you fell for it. I can't forgive that."

"But, I love you..."

"I know."

Lavi helps me into the bedroom, and lays me down on the bed. He pulls the sheets over me.

"When you can move, get dressed. We'll talk...No. You know what, when you can move, get dressed and get out."

He leaves the room and closes the door behind him.

I choke on tears. An overwhelming ache hits me hard. My chest hurts, burns. I feel it in the pit of my stomach, such an evil ache. I can't stop crying. I try not to gasp too loudly. I wish I could be quieter. I cry myself to sleep.

I wake up to see Lavi lying in front of me. This is just like before...

He's holding me tightly against him. I don't want to move and leave him, but I have an immense headache, and I need relief from the pain. I move his arms off of me and slide out of bed. I find it hard to walk, and that there are other places than just my neck that are very, very sore. I find the long over sized t-shirt from earlier and slip it on . I manage to walk to the door, trying to walk as quietly as possible. I close the door gently behind me and walk down a long narrow hallway. This all seems so very familiar.

I start to walk faster, towards the bathroom. Wasn't Kanda here...

Wait. It was all a dream?

That can't be...

The headache is still bothering me, so I get into the bathroom quickly and take two pills from the bottle this time. I come out from the bathroom, and rush out towards the living room. Kanda isn't sitting where he was before...Was he even there before? The dream seemed so real. This can't be right.

I walk to the kitchen. No vodka bottle. I reach around and find a glass and get some water. I only take one of the pills, and throw the other one down the sink. I walk slowly through the kitchen and back to the living room, and finally to the bedroom. Lavi's just lying there, still asleep. I get back into bed with him. He facing away from me, and as I pull the covers back over me, he rolls over and turns towards me.

"I love you." He kisses me and pulls me towards him again. I fall asleep again.

THE END.