Nell Jones POV
I stept out of my bed and yawned. How late is it? I turned my head to my alarm and saw that it was 4:30 hour. I need to be at work at 6:00 hour. Hurried up Nell! Get out of bed! I literally dragged myself out of my bed. Once out I walked to my closet. Put a jean out of it and a random shirt. I chanced my clothes and was about to eating breakfast when Hetty called. "Hetty" I said and put the phone on speaker. "Miss Jones, you need to come to OPS" she said and hung up. I called Eric and ate my breakfast. His phone went straight to voicemail. That's weird. His phone is always with him. It's like he is married with it. I called him again and was trying to get my shoes on. I jumped and finally I had them on. After calling Eric three times, and three times hearing his voicemail she stopped. Maybe he was already in OPS and walked out for a second. Yeah, that had to be it. I grapped my bag from the couch and closed the door. Now I realized that I had no make up on. I looked in the mirror in the hall and saw my face. I look like a dead body. All the color of my face is gone. I stepped back and looked at the whole picture. Literally a walking dead body. I could do audition for the walking dead. I sight and walked of the stairs. Once in the parking garage of my apartment building, I stepped into my car.
Finally arrived at work I walked into the bullpen. Kensi, Deeks, Sam and Callen were already there. I walked on the stairs to OPS and when I walked into the room nobody was there. No Eric. No others. Only Hetty standing in the middle and she stared at the big screen. "I've got bad news for you, Miss Jones" she said. Oh god. I hate it when people begin their sentence with: ' I've bad news'. "What is it Hetty?" I asked not knowing what she meant. Not knowing what it was. Not knowing that it was about Eric. "Mister Beale was in a car accident this morning" she said. I'm was in shock. I just stared at her. I couldn't believe what she just said. "You're serious?" I asked. Of course she is serious Nell. You saw her face. She is serious. "Yes Miss Jones, I was serious" she said. Tears were swelling up in my eyes. "How is he?" I asked with tears in my eyes. "He just got out of surgery and he lies in a coma" she said and I couldn't help it anymore.
I ran out of OPS and went straight to the ladies bathroom. I did't want that Hetty saw me crying. I didn't want that anybody saw me crying. So I ran to the bathroom and closed the door behind me. I leaned against the door and lowered myself down. I hide my head in my knees and cried. The tears flowed over my cheeks. I can't believe it. Eric in a coma. Maybe he's never coming back. Maybe he is going to die. I ruined it. Everything. Again. I ruined my change to say Eric that I'm in love with him. I kissed him once under the mistletoe. Just once. But I wished that I could have kissed him more. That he was my boyfriend. And still my partner and best friend. I stood up and looked in the mirror. This morning I looked like a walking dead body. Now I'm looking like a dead body that get back to life and cried.
I sight heavily and walked out of the bathroom. Kensi and Deeks were talking about something else. I didn't care and walked to OPS to get my bag. I want to go home. Now. "Hey Nell!" Kensi yelled at me. "Hey Kens" I said with a broken voice. "What's wrong?" she asked. "What's wrong, Nellosaurus?" now Deeks asked too. Callen and Sam were walking into the bullpen. "WHAT'S WRONG?! EVERYTHING IS WRONG!!" I screamed at them. "What do you mean everything is wrong'?" Sam asked carefully. "LIKE I SAID EVERYTHING!"I screamed and began to cry again. Kensi walked over to me and pulled me into an hug. That's what I needed. Only not of Kensi. Of Eric. I cried harder and the boys were just standing there. Looking at us. Kensi who tried to comfort me and I crying like my life was over. Actually it was. Because Eric was maybe going to die. I was a loser for not saying how I feel about him. That when i see his name on my phone when he's calling me, that my heart skipped beats. That when he touched me I was flipping on the inside. I thought that I stopped with crying. What was true. I finally stopped crying. "Where is Eric?"Callen asked and I cried again. Okay, this is not gonna work. You can't cry the whole time Nell. "Eric is in a coma" I sobbed. Deeks was in shock, Callen said nothing and I didn't know what Sam was doing. Kensi pulled me deeper in a hug and kissed me on my head. Just as a friend. "Are you going to visit him? Sam asked once he was out of his trance. "No absoluty not, I'm scared as hell of hospitals" I said and pushed me kindly out of Kensi her hug. 'Why not, I mean it's Eric. Your partner. Your best friend. Your crush" Deeks said.
How did he knows it? That I'm in love with Eric? Oh wait, probably because they see me looking at him. Looking in his eyes. God, his eyes are gorgeous. Sea blue. Because of his glasses you don't see them so fast. But they made him Eric. Thinking about him made me almost cry. Again. I didn't want that, not again. "I guess I'll go home" I said and walked away.