the title was supossed to be: You can't hear any of this, right?just for your information
Nell POV
I walked to my car, stepped in and began riding to the hospital. I was thinking how I could say it to Eric. How do you said someone you was in love with him? I didn't know. I literally didn't know. When I was at the hospital I parked my car and stepped out. I sight and walked into the hospital. Getting flashbacks of the time I was here while I walked to his room. Lisa walked to me and gave me a high five. I laughed and walked further. Lisa was one of the nurses who get me trough my rough time. I can hear you thinking. Rough time? Yes, rough time.I jumped of an building and was in a coma. I know how it feels, being in a coma.But I jumped because I found life not worth it anymore. Nobody knows that except Dennis. He is gay and my best friend. He is like a brother to me, probably because I grew up with him. They took care of me when I was here.
I opened the door and stared at the bed. A tear was falling down on my cheek. I walked to the bed and looked at him. Eric's eyes were closed like he was sleeping. But he was sleeping Nell. His arms were lying straight to his body. The only thing that looked normal was his chest. Still going up and down, he was breathing. "I'm so sorry" I said and began to cry. I rested my head on his chest and cried. He was warm. Like he always was. His normal warmth. "There is something I need to tell you that I could said many times before" I said and began my story. I already knew that I would ruin our friendship. But maybe there was a change that he liked me too. It was a small one, but still a change. "Eric, I don't know if you feel the same but when you touch me even if it's just my shoulder I'm freak out on the inside, and I love it how we work together and your eyes are so, oh my god that I'm really saying this, but your eyes are so beautiful and I'm in love with you" I said in one breath. Oh my god, I can't believe I just said that. If he doesn't like you back, you're dumed. Keep reminding me. Yeah that can too. I gave him a kiss on his cheek and wanted to sit down. So I walked over to the chair on the other side of his bed.
Before I was there Lisa walked in. "Hey Nell, what are you doing here?" she asked carefully. "Hey Lisa, nothing I'm just-" I started but began to cry again. Wow, I looked like such a weak girl. Those who in the series cried when her relationship was over. Then I was always like 'Bitch it's just a boy'. And now here I am, crying because of a boy. But not because of a relationship that was over. Because my best friend, partner and also crush was in a coma. "It's okay" she tried to comfort me. "It's not okay. Eric is in a fucking coma and I want him to wake up, sitting next to me in OPS typing the crimes away. I just said that I love him because I'm to weak to do it when he stands in front of me. And I just want him to be my boyfriend" that last one I whispered but it was true. I wanted him to be my boyfriend. I wanted him at my side. Maybe as still my best friend, maybe as my boyfriend or maybe just as my partner. Lisa let me go and looked at Eric. Her face was suprisely, like she just saw a miracle. "He moved" was the only thing she said. I looked at Eric and saw him moving his hand. Just his hand. Nothing more. There was a change he could wake up. And I hoped with all my heart that he choose for that change.