2 weeks later

Eric POV

I walked away from Hetty's desk after having the 'It's good to have you back, but don't work too much' talk. She also said that the team was in a briefing, so it would be a surprise that I was back. That was exactly what I wanted to be. A surprise. When I walked into OPS Nell stopped talking and everybody looked at me.

"It's good to have you back buddy" Deeks said and punched me lightly on my chest.

"You scared me" Kensi said as she gave me a hug.

"Not only you" I said.

"Let me correct Kensi, you scared us" Sam said as he totally ruined my hair by stroking it with one hand. Callen just smiled at me and looked at me with a look like 'you know the drill'.

"I'm glad to be back" I said and Nell handed over my tablet.

"So we were just talking about your brother" Deeks said.

"Not much to talk about" I said jokingly. "More then you" Kensi argued with us.

"Hell no" I said and pulled up my file on the screen.

"I shot my dad 'cause he asked for it and he is a asshole, my mom is a selfish bitch that drinks a lot of alcohol, weird that she isn't already dead. My brother Thomas is also a asshole and wants me dead. Oh don't forget my sister Grace died on an overdose drugs. Katherin the other sister and Jay the other brother are just normal as me. Any questions?" I explained and everybody except Deeks and Nell looked at me like I was the criminal in this story.

"I have an address were Thomas probably will be" I said trying to break the looks.

"Deeks and Kensi go catch him. Me and Sam are going to your moms house" Callen said and almost walked away but I managed to say "Hope she is not too high. Oh and look out for trowing bottles".

They walked out of OPS and when the doors closed Nell crashed into me. "I'm so glad you're okay" she said as she hugged me tight.

"Yeah. Me too, Nell. Me too".

We slowly let go although I didn't want it. Before one of us could say anything Sam walked back in OPS. "Can you go with us? We have no idea were your mom lives. And besides it's your mother" he asked.

"Okay I go with you but don't call her my mom she is a alcoholic, stupid, selfish bitch" I said and followed him.

When we arrived at the house you could hear glass shatters falling on the floor. "You know what, wait here until I say you can come" I said and ringed the doorbell.Nobody opened at the third time so I took the reverse keys under the doormat. I opened the door and heard glass shatter. I sighed aand I started walking to the living room. I found there what I was looking for. My mom. At the kitchen. With another bottle of vodka. "For gods sake you never learn it, do you?" I said irritated as I took the bottle from her.

"Who are you? And what the hell are you doing at her house?" a men asked as he walked of the stairs. I didn't know him, and he probably was another men she had picked out of the club.

"I am her son and now I suggest you grab your thing and walk out of this house" I said without turning around to face him.

"He's staying" my mom finnaly said.

"No he is not staying here" I fired back. Turn off any emotions. Turn off your humanity. You can do that. You did it several times. Now do that. And with that the switch turned to off. Great, now get this men out of the house.

"You have one minute or you can't walk any more" I said coldly to him.

"See ya" he said to mom and ran out of the house.

"What the fuck did you think?!" I said.

"He was nice to me".

"Yeah and you're drunk".

"I am not drunk".

"Hell yeah you are. You always are".

"I AM NOT DRUNK" she screamed at my face and I could smell only drank.

"YES YOU ARE".

"I AM NOT DRUNK".

"THEN TELL THE LAST TIME YOU SAW ME".

"I CAN'T REMEMBER".

"SEE YOU'RE DRUNK, BECAUSE IF YOU WEREN'T YOU WOULD ASK WHAT I'M DOING HERE 'CAUSE YOU DON'T WANT TO SEE ME ANY MORE".

"YOU ARE SO FUCKING MEAN".

"OH HA NOW I AM MEAN" I screamed with a made chuckle. That was probably her cue because that made her trow a bottle at me. And another one. And another one. "ERIC WE'RE COMING IN" Sam yelled and opened the door. "YOU BROUGHT THE COPS?!" Mom screamed. "THEY AREN'T COPS. THEY ARE FEDERAL AGENTS AND MY FRIENDS" I screamed.

"COPS AREN'T YOUR FRIENDS"

"AND YOU ARE NOT MY MOTHER. MAYBE BY DNA BUT I NEVER FELT LIKE YOU ARE MY MOTHER. YOU WERE NEVER THERE FOR ME. NOR KATHERIN. NOR GRACE"

"IT ISN'T MY FAULT GRACE IS DEAD"

"IT IS YOUR FUCKING FAULT, YOU BITCH"

"YOU'RE A FUCKING ASSHOLE. I DIDN'T RAISE YOU LIKE THAT. NOR DID YOUR FATHER"

"YOU DIDN'T RAISE ME AT ALL. AND CAN I CALL AN ASSHOLE WHO ASKS YOU TO SHOT HIM A FATHER?!".

"Eric, slow down" Sam said.

"HE WAS A GOOD MAN"

"WHERE THE HELL IS YOUR FUCKING MIND?! HE WASN'T A GOOD MAN. YOU TWO WANTED 3 KIDS AND ENDED WITH 4. I WAS AN ACCIDENT. I'M SORRY YOUR CONDOM TORE. MAYBE NEXT TIME YOU SHOULD TAKE THE PILL".

"YOU ALWAYS WERE A HORRIBLE KID"

"I'M SORRY THAT I WAS DEAF. I'M SORRY YOU DIDN'T HAD THE MONEY FOR AN OPERATION. OH WAIT OF COURSE YOU HADN'T. YOU ALREADY BOUGHT DRANK OF IT. WELL AT LEAST NOW I CAN HEAR. YOU NEVER FEEL SHAMED BECAUSE THE PARENTS OF MY BEST FRIEND HAD TO PAY THE OPERATION?!".

"NO I DON'T. YOU BETTER DIE"

"OH LOOK NOW YOU WANT ME DEAD TOO. YOU KNOW THOMAS ALMOST GOT ME DEAD"

"IT'S POOR THAT YOU'RE NOT DEAD"

"YOU KNOW WHAT'S POOR?! THAT YOU NEVER BEEN A MOTHER TO US. THAT'S POOR"

"NOW WHO IS US?!"

"KATHERIN, ME AND GRACE. SHE DIED BECAUSE OF YOU"

"BUT IT HAPPENED IN YOUR BATHROOM"

"YEAH IT DID BUT YOU'RE THE BIGGEST REASON"

"ERIC, SLOW DOWN!!" Sam yelled but I didn't care. I didn't care at all. Turn it on, Eric. Turn it back on. No need. Let it off. Stop mind. Please stop.

"Take a walk" Callen said and I did what he said. Once the door closed behind me I looked around.

"Turn it back on" Katherin said in my earpiece.

"Wow didn't know you were there too" I said.

"Before we're gonna talk you need turn it on" she said.

"Turn what on?" Nell asked.

"He turned his humanity off" Katherin explained.

"You can do that?" Nell asked.

"Of course" I said.

"Now you turn it back on" Katherin said.

"Already happened" I said with a chuckle.

"You did great with mom" she said.

"She needs to know where she stands" I said.

"Exactly that".

"Mothers don't know where they stand" Nell said. "And they don't care"

"What happened to make YOU think that?" I asked.

"Nobody cares until something dramatic happens" she said.

"Good quote" Katherin said.

"It's not exactly true. 'Cause they didn't care at all when it happened" Nell started.

"What happened?" I asked.

"Bitch, you're not gonna tell it without me" a boy said to Nell.

"That wasn't my plan" she said laughing.

"You know he just called you bitch, right?" I said.

"I know".

"Oh by the way I'm gay, so don't worry Nell is yours" he said and I was blushing.

"You're cute when you blush" the boy said to Nell.

"You better shut up" Nell said.

"I'm Dennis Bolson" he said.

"Dennis?" I said remembering my dream before I woke up for real.

"Yes that's me".

"Nell did you jump of a building?" I asked.

"Yes I did" she said slowly.

"Fuck" I said running my hands trough my hair.

"I know that it is weird. You all think I got the nest past but I didn't".

"No that's not it. I mean it is terrible but that's not it. You remember the day I woke up for real?" I said.

"Of course. Wait for real? What do you mean?".

"I dreamed about that I woke up and Dennis was talking to a nurse saying that he needed me for a few minutes because you were about to jump. We drove to some old burned house and there you were. Standing on the rooftop. I screamed your name you screamed mine and we ended up on the ground, don't ask me way but we were kissing. And then you let go and said you hated me and stabbed me with a knife in my stomach and poof there was the real world" I all said in one or maybe two breaths.

Katherin started laughing and I couldn't quite follow her.

"Why the fuck are you laughing?" I asked.

"And poof there was the real world" she quoted my line. I laughing too when I got her.

"Wow. You literally dreamed about this?" Nell asked.

"Yep" I said.

"One question: how did you two need up kissing" Dennis asked.

"I don't know" I said but I did. I told her that I heard her. That's how we ended up kissing.

"It's true" Nell said. "It's all true".

"Only you forgot the part of her coma and the mistake that I filmed it. Fuck didn't mean to say that" Dennis said.

"YOU FILMED IT?!" Nell yelled.

"Sorry I didn't know the camera was still on".

"Why would you film it?" I asked.

"It all started with a school project. We would film a week of our lives. But Dennis and I really liked it so we filmed our whole lives but I didn't know that he filmed this. I know he filmed my release, I know he filmed me in coma" she said and I heard someone walking away.

"Nell wait" Dennis said and walked after her. That's when I cut the connection because I arrived at the Mission and saw someone who I really not wanted to see standing there with something in his hands.