I am constantly worried. It's been two months now since it happened, and I fear that I am losing her. She rests about sixty % of the time now, and when she isn't resting I can see that she's in constant pain. All the paracetamol in the world can't help. She's fighting, I know she's fighting, but I can also see that she is losing, she needs help fast. I have been scouring the internet, hacking in to the old Torchwood database from home, even devising a programme to search all data available for the vital keywords: 'cybertechnics'. But still no joy. I'm running out of options fast and sitting here at a desk with all the research tools one could wish for, a position in which I used to find so much comfort, so much enjoyment, I feel utterly powerless. If Torchwood hadn't collapsed after that day, if we had carried on somehow, maybe things could have worked out. My colleagues were bound to have useful connections, and the medics would have been able to take much better care of her than I am doing so, provide her with full strength pain killers and a proper life support. But since that day, no one has returned to the Torchwood Tower. No one has contacted one another, nobody can bear it. I feel my only hope now is to wait. To wait for them to be ready, for Torchwood to come together once more, and for it to all happen in time for someone to save Lisa. Deep down I know that I am hoping in vain, I'm sure that Torchwood one is gone for good, but what else can I do other than wait and pray?

Oh I am stupid, so very stupid. I can't believe I didn't think of this earlier. I am so cross with myself for not thinking of this earlier, all the time I have wasted, and further damaged I have caused Lisa by not realising sooner. Torchwood three is still active.

I've heard it's very different to Torchwood one, in fact I have heard that they never much liked being connected with us, they didn't agree with the way we handled things. The Sycorax for example, they were leaving Earth but Torchwood was scared so we opened fire. They didn't need to die. Perhaps Torchwood one wouldn't have been as helpful as I thought if they knew about Lisa, perhaps they would have killed her too, because she was different and unknown to them. However Torchwood three with their brilliantly ethical and intelligent ways may just be able to help. The only trouble is how do I get in? It's run completely differently to Torchwood one, no advertising for vacancies, no interviews as such and no CVs required. The small team were just sort of selected, from various academic fields, none of them the best in their relative area but all four the absolute best for Torchwood. A couple of months ago I would have said I didn't stand a cat in hells chance, and quite rightly so. But seeing Lisa in pain like this every day, her never ending suffering, it has given me determination. I will do absolutely everything that it takes, but God knows what that will be.

We're here in Cardiff now, and despite myself I am pleased to be back in my home City. I enjoyed living in London but there's nothing like walking down the road and hearing the friendly welsh dialect surround you, I've even missed the rain. Not that it didn't rain in London; there's just something about Welsh rain, it feels cleaner. Moving here was more than a little difficult. Finding the apartment itself was simple enough, hiring the moving van for my belongings was easy, but moving Lisa was a challenge. I do hope the driver didn't take too much offense when I insisted that I pack all my belongings into the van myself, he assured me that he wasn't about to take off with my coffee table. All I could do was laugh, make a joke and say it was the arm chair I was worried about, and still insist that I would like to pack everything. He just shrugged and sat and waited in the driver's seat. I snuck Lisa in whilst she was sleeping, I only hope that she managed to sleep for the duration of the journey, I hate to think of her alone in the dark in a moving van for almost three hours. The driver, having learned from the earlier loading experience, left me to my own devices to unpack the van. I took Lisa out first, she was still asleep much to my relief. I was so glad to have thought to find an apartment on the ground floor as I hurriedly rushed her inside. I went back and forth from the van to the flat, retrieving the rest of my items as quickly as possible. Then politely, and again quickly, thanked the driver and gave him a generous tip by way of apologising for my strange behaviour. He seemed to appreciate the gesture enough. After he left I re-entered the apartment to find Lisa awake, with tears rolling down her face. Immediately I rushed to her frantically asking if the pain was worse, if there was anything I could do for her.

She shook her head "It's this" she said as she looked around the walls of our new home.

"The apartment?" I questioned as I held her hand "I can look for another if you'd like".

"No it's not the apartment"

I breathed a sigh of relief inwardly, I really liked the new flat, It was the ground floor apartment in a 3 floor converted 1930s house. We had two bedrooms and a fireplace and bay window in the living room. I was dead chuffed with my find; but naturally I would have hesitated to relocate for her.

"It's us, we're living together just as we wanted, just as we planned, how did it turn out so wrong? I'm so sorry"

I squeezed her hand tighter "You have nothing whatsoever to apologise for, I should be apologising to you, I didn't find you soon enough. But I will make things better Lisa I promise".

The plan for tomorrow is to find Captain Jack Harkness. Whilst hacking into the old Torchwood files to look up anything on the Cybermen or cybertechnics, I researched Torchwood three. Captain Harkness leads the team, and he is my best and only shot of helping Lisa. I will find him and do whatever is needed for him to give me a chance working for Torchwood three. He is said to be an intriguing yet agreeable man so hopefully with a bit of good fortune and a lot of blagging my way through I'll be successful. I won't tell him about Lisa yet, just in case I am wrong about what they will think, but as soon as I'm in I'll with any luck get a plan in motion.