Okay guys, 1 I'm sorry this took kinda long-ish, school suddenly became a crazy surge of work. 2 I'm super sorry I haven't been replying to your guys' awesome reviews, like super sorry. I'm usually really good at replying, but again the school work kinda jumped in and took that time away, so I promise you from this chapter on, I will reply to every review. Okay? Okay.

Now, who loved my awesome cliff hanger on the last chapter? ...Aw, nobody? Was it that cruel of a cliff hanger? Oh, well, let's fix that up with chapter!

Chapter Three: Thoughts.

James ran in after the paramedics, the police man following closely behind. He didn't say a thing as he saw the paramedics roll Logan through the room, yelling things in their medical codes. All he could focus on was Logan, and how he looked just so white/gray. The red tint on his cheeks that always seemed to be there was gone, as were those sparkly beautiful chocolate brown eyes, hidden under his closed eyelids, which were, at this moment, unlikely to open again.

The realization of Logan probably being dead hit him hard. "Logan!" He cried out, just in time before the paramedics took him behind some large double doors.

"Oh my god." James said, legs turning to jelly and threating to give out. The police man seemed to realize this and gently lead/pushed James into a chair near the doors.

"You okay, son?" He asked.

James just shook his head weakly. "He just- He was- oh my god." James said, dropping his head into his heads.

The police officer just sat down next to James and rubbed his shoulder in what was supposed to be a comforting way, but it caused the tears to start falling. James didn't want to be comfort by some cop in the middle of the emergancy room because his boyfriend got shot!

James wasn't sure how long he sat there, just re-thinking over the day. From when he woke up with Logan looking up at him, to the mess they made just trying to make brownies after lunch (to keep things simple, the brownies never made it to the oven), to when Logan asked him to come to the store with him.

He was thinking about Logan calling Kendall when the doors opened again. He was thinking about Logan falling to the ground when hurried footsteps enter the room. He was thining about the-

"James!" A voice called.

James looked up to see Carlos and Kendall running towards him. Carlos tackled him into a hug while Kendall waited patenintly for his turn. Once Carlos released James and moved to the side, Kendall stepped foward and got on his knees in front of James. "Are you okay?" He asked gently.

James laughed sarcastically. "Oh yeah, I'm fine. My boyfriend just got wheeled away by paramedics yelling random crap because they couldn't get his heart to start again." James said, only realizing what he said afterwards.

"W-what?" Carlos asked, tears instantly filling his eyes.

"Oh my god." Kendall said, tears also falling from his eyes.

"Uh, now that your friends are here, I think I'm going to head back to the office. Try to find out if that woman shot, Logan is it? If she shot Logan or not." The police man said, standing up. He was capable of tacking care of 1 upset teenage boy, but not 3. He was still knew at this.

"What's your name?" James called as he walked away.

"Did I not give it to you?" He asked back. James shook his head. "Oh, I'm Officer Jones, but you'll probably hear from one of my superiors if we find out anything. It was nice meeting you, though I wish it was a better situation." Officer Jones said, before reciving a nod from James and walking out through the doors.

"What did you mean by them not being able to start Logan's heart?" Carlos asked, his voice filled to the brim with fear and worry.

"When we got here, the paramedics rolled him in yelling he was crashing. I don't know much about medical terms, but I'm pretty sure that means he-" James choked back a sob, the other two knowing what he meant.

"Oh my god." Kendall repeated, as if those were the only words he remembered.

James only nodded in agreement, the three of them falling into silence. At one point the two boys on the floor moved to sit in the chairs, Carlos in the middle. Even though James was more upset than he ever remembered being, he was good at hiding it. Carlos was the oppisite, showing all of his feelings easily. He was laying against Kendall's chest, Kendall's arm wrapped around his shoulders, as he cried semi-silently, a sniffle or hiccup escaping his mouth every now and then.

James gently ran a finger along Carlos' knees, where his hand was resting. He was so lost in his train of thoughts, he wasn't even sure where his train of thoughts were. Somewhere along the tracks of yesterday and tomorrow.

"J-James?" Carlos voice broke through his mixed up up thoughts.

"Yeah 'Litos?"

"What's that?" Carlos asked sniffiling slightly, pointing to the teaddy bear in James' hand.

"Oh...it's the, ah, teddy bear Logan gave me today. Then I- uh, it went kinda downhill from there." James said, getting a look from Kendall. James knew he knew that he was going to say something else, but James had told Officer Jones that he told Logan that he loved him, but he didn't feel like he was ready to tell his best friends, which was kinda wierd, but a stranger wasn't going to judge who he loved. Especially if who he loved was also their best friend.

"Oh, okay." Carlos said, trailing off.

James closed his eyes, trying to pretend he was somewhere else. After a few minutes, James had almost conviced himself he was back in 2J, when someone grabbed his hand. He looked up, expecting to see Logan. His eyes were meant with Carlos staring up at him again. "He's gonna be alright, okay?" Carlos said.

James smiled, giving a small nod. "Okay." James knew there was a slight to none chance of Logan being alright in the world of the living, but he also knew that's what Carlos meant. Logan would be alright, no matter where he went.

James brought the teddy bear up to his chest, laying his head against Carlos' shoulder, and taking in the small scent of the teddy bear. Rain water and coke. He had to wash that thing eventually.

Okay, so it's a little after midnight here, so I fail at updating when I told some of you guys I was gonna update, but I was close! This was just kinda a filler chapter, you know, get rid of Officer Jones, and give him a name, and bring Kendall and Carlos into this.

So, I hope you guys like this alright-ish chapter.

Review, pretty please with kittens on top.

-Saun