Disclaimer: I don't own Glee, nor do I completely own Nick and Jeff (although I'm pretty much creating their personalities myself since we haven't gotten to know them too well on the show).

A/n: So this is yet another word courtesy of Susie's choice. I actually kind of like having someone pick a random number from my list and making me write for whatever word comes up. It makes this all even more interesting, especially when I'm having trouble deciding which word I should use next. I just have ideas for too many of them!

Letter

Jeff had to admit, he was a little surprised when a few days after Nick's funeral, he found a letter in the other boy's handwriting slipped inside his chemistry textbook, inscribed with the instruction that he wasn't supposed to open it until after classes and Warblers rehearsal. Given the fact that every reminder of his boyfriend turned him into a crying mess, it wasn't all that difficult to force himself to follow instructions – even if he normally really sucked at doing so. So instead of going to dinner after rehearsal with the rest of the guys, Jeff curled up in a corner of one of the couches in the Warblers common room, pulled out the letter, and carefully broke the seal.

The boy couldn't help but laugh at the fact that it was written on a piece of notebook paper that seemed to have some old algebra homework written on it. That was so like Nick.

Dear Jeff,

I know it sounds ridiculous (you're probably going to laugh at me when you find this letter, to be honest), but I'm afraid. I have this… feeling. That I'm not going to be coming back to Dalton after this weekend. That something bad is going to happen to me.

I know you don't believe in premonition or anything like that, but it's real to me right now. So I want to make sure you know the truth.

I love you.

I want to spend the rest of my life with you, even if it's only the next couple of days.

If something bad happens to me, I'm going to be waiting for you up there. Even if I have to wait sixty years, or even more, I'm going to wait for you. And you don't have to hurry to join me, Jeff… I'm not going to be in any rush. I'd rather wait a lifetime for you, than to have you join me in whatever comes next as soon as you can get there.

If nothing bad happens, if I'm just being stupid and you find this, please don't laugh at me. I only wrote this letter because I couldn't stand the thought of leaving without letting you know that you meant the world to me. That I'd give anything to have more time with you. That I want you to be mine, forever. Because that's the one thing I'd ask for, if you gave me three wishes. I have no clue what the others would be, but that would be wish number one.

I love you,

Nick.

Jeff didn't really mind the tears that were flowing down his cheeks as he read the letter over and over again. He'd been so numb for so many days before he found the letter, it actually felt good to feel something, even if it wasn't a positive emotion. Feeling something was better than feeling nothing, and the longer he went without feeling anything the more Jeff worried whether or not he was ever going to feel normal again.

"Jeff… dinner?" Jeff looked up, forcing a smile for Trent and David as they watched him from the doorway. He reached up and wiped away the tears.

"Yeah… yeah, dinner sounds good."