The week went quickly and before I knew it, it was Friday. I woke up in the morning feeling a groggy. My concentration was at a minimum, my forehead was a little warm and my movement was slow.
To be honest I felt as sick as a dog.
I moved like a zombie as I showered, keeping my forehead against the cool tiles as the water slid down my body. I took about ten minutes just to dry myself as I kept stopping to breath.
I slowly pulled on some dark jeans and a 'rolling stones' t-shirt. I couldn't be bothered with makeup so I just pulled my hair up into a high ponytail.
I had to go to school, I didn't want to spend the day at home and I didn't want to miss the bonfire tonight. So I was definitely going to school, if I didn't die on the way.
I grabbed my bag and stumbled downstairs, wiping the sheen of sweat from my forehead. I went to the kitchen, walked straight passed dad and poured myself a glass of water and downed it.
"You ok Bells?" Dad asked, I turned around and gave him a small smile, I noticed that he had made me some eggs.
"Yeah, I just feel a little off today." he frowned and got up, walked over to me and placed the back of his hand on my forehead. His hot skin burned, I hissed and pulled away.
"You're burning up. Maybe you should stay home." He said.
"No, I want to go, I cant stay home all day." I protested.
"Honey, you need to sleep it off." I frowned, "Fine, you can go. But I want you to call straight away if you get worse. I'll find five minutes to pick you up."
"Ok. I'm gunna leave breakfast today though. I'm not hungry right now."
"Hmm, ok, but you have to eat later." he didn't sound happy, as if it was taking every ounce of control he had to keep himself from dragging me to my bed and making me stay there all day.
"I will. I'm going to go now, I can get to school early and sit for a while." god, my voice sounded so forced and one-toned. Dad frowned at me.
"Come on Bells, you don't sound well at all."
"No, I'll be fine, Dad. Don't worry." I pushed myself out of the front door, ignoring him when he called my name.
Jake was driving himself to school today so I jumped in my car and headed straight to school.
I kept blowing my breath out to cool my face. I was getting really hot.
By the time I got to school I was feeling worse. There as a permanent sheen of sweat on my forehead no matter how much I wiped it away. My breath was coming out in pants and my body ached.
I went and sat on a bench, it was better outside because it was a cold day. The cold felt good.
I don't know how long it was until I felt the presence of someone else. I focused my eyes on the figure opposite me and smiled a little.
"You look like shit."
"Thanks, Landon. You're really lovely you know that." I grumbled.
"Sorry. You not feeling too good?" he stroked my hair and cussed when he felt the heat from my skin.
"You could say that." I mumbled.
"Shit Bella, you need to go to the hospital. That's a far from normal temperature." he sounded worried.
"Nah, its just a fever. I'll be fine." I moaned.
After a lot of protesting and blatant ignoring on my part, Landon finally got the fact that I was not going to take the day off and fell back with a sigh. He continued to tell me how stupid I was until the twins, Luke and Kyle arrived. He told them about it and they began fussing around me. The twins kept stroking my hair and pulled out a cold bottle of water from Colton's bag and held it to my forehead.
I moaned and leaned into the bottle. The coolness was a relief that I wanted and needed.
"Jeez." I heard one of them say. The bell went out, signifying first period.
I made my way there, struggling only a little, it wasn't hard to move, its just that I couldn't make myself want to move. I just wanted to find a freezer and go to sleep.
It was my breathing and the heat that was getting on my nerves and I was beginning to feel sorry for myself.
Throughout English I had to deal with a shifty Paul. He was acting worried and nervous. He kept asking me if I was alright and insisting that he call Sam to come and get me, which I refused.
When the bell finally when after what felt like a million years I rushed out of my seat and away from one fussy male and into the clutches of five more.
Biology was much the same as English. I rested my forehead on the desk and ignored the ramblings of the boys. Landon looked really worried and I felt a little bad. He kept on checking my forehead and making weird throaty sounds when he realised that the heat just kept on coming. I didn't say anything, and when he unscrewed the lid off of a bottle of water and held it to my lips I just tilted my head a little and he tilted the bottle to pour the liquid down my throat.
By the time lunch came I was dead.
Trig had been a no-go. I couldn't understand a word the teacher was saying. I couldn't even remember his name.
The Twins had to support me on the way to the cafeteria as my legs were to tired to move. Kim followed us hopelessly and herded them straight to our table and plonked me down in the seat next to an overly concerned looking Jake.
"Hey Jakey." I whispered, he rubbed my back and I closed my eyes, breathing in heavily.
I could hear everything around me. The chatting of the hungry students the hushed, frantic whispers of the guys on my table. I didn't know what they were talking about but I couldn't find it in me to care.
I wanted to go home now. I wanted to sleep and never wakeup.
"I called Sam." Jared said. I opened my eyes and groaned.
"Don't fuss Bells. You seriously need to go home." Jake said, his voice hard, daring me to say something 'cause he was getting his way this time. He was sure of that.
"He'll be here in a minute. He said he's gunna come in and get her." Jared informed. "He sounded worried."
"He should be worried, look at her." I think it was Embry that said that.
"I'm scared." Kim said and I frowned.
"Why." I mumbled, I was falling asleep. I couldn't open my eyes.
"Don't be scared, sweetie. She'll be fine after she gets some sleep. You know Sam will look after her." Jared comforted.
I wanted to scream that I was still in the room but I couldn't. The worse I felt the more sorry for myself I was and then the more pissed I was.
It was getting ridiculous. I've never been this ill before. In fact I hardly ever get ill, I never have the flu or anything.
I sighed and started to feel around for a drink. My eyes were still closed and I felt like an idiot.
"What do you need, honey?" Jake asked.
"Water." I sighed, I felt his hand force its way under my head and he pulled me up gently and poured some water down my throat. It help cool me. I could feel the icy liquid run through me and it helped a little. I needed to top up on my liquids.
"BELLA!" a deep, beautiful voice shouted out through the cafeteria. I sighed…happily this time. My Sam.
"Over here!" Jake called, I heard the whooshing of air that must have been him waving his arm.
There was utter silence in the cafeteria now, except the fast pounding of booted feet on the linoleum. I knew everyone was staring at Sam, that was pretty obvious to me even with my eyes closed.
Who wouldn't be looking at him. When this huge, older, really attractive guy comes bursting through the cafeteria doors yelling out someone's name, it pretty much calls for attention.
Then I got a thought. Keira must be crapping herself. I would laugh only I cant be assed. I could imagine her watching him, her murky eyes wide and her sickly-pink lipgloss smothered lips parted as she took in his…well his everything. And then she'd have to watch him come over here to ME!
Mwahahahahahahahahaha!…ok got that out of the way.
The footsteps came closer and then I could feel him next to me. I forced my eyes open and saw that his face was aligned with mine as he was squatting down.
He looked pained when he saw me and stroked my hair.
"Hey, baby. I'm gunna take you home and look after you. Ok?" his voice was soothing. Just what I needed. It took my a while to nod but I did.
The place was still silent. "I need your car keys." Sam stated calmly.
I made an odd grunting sound which was my tired way of say 'back pocket'. Somehow he managed to get what I was saying and reached in and grabbed them.
Then his large hands gripped my waist and I was hoisted into the air and pulled against his chest. I automatically wrapped my arms around his neck and my legs around his hips, so that I could hold on. I rested my head on his shoulder and buried my face into his neck, inhaling the smell of him. He smelt of the woods and man. Mouth-watering.
He wrapped his arms tightly around my back. One of his hands was fisted as he kept hold of my keys.
"If she feels better later I'll bring her to the bonfire. But we don't know what this is, it could be a fever or something else." Sam said to the guys in a quiet voice. I could hear there mumbles of agreement and their goodbyes.
I didn't bother fighting as Sam carried me through the cafeteria. The students and teachers still watched, mouths open, in silence. I kept my eyes open now. I felt a little better in Sam's arms.
"Its ok baby." he whispered in my ear. I secretly loved it when he called me that. I didn't want him to know that though.
Soon enough he was placing me in the passenger seat of my car. I stared blankly out of the window screen and cussed myself for getting ill today and not staying in bed.
Sam jumped in and started the car before pulling out of the parking lot.
"We'll be home soon and I can look after you. You need to drink lots of water and I'll bathe you. Then you can get some sleep." he said as if part of that sentence was as normal as the rest.
Bathe me!! Ah nah, that I cant deal with. I'm not letting him wash me, no matter how good that cool water would feel on my skin, I'd rather risk drowning right now.
When we pulled up I was expecting to be outside my house. But instead we were parked outside a lovely detached house. It was quite large, possibly a four or five bedroom. The front door was a crisp white colour and the bricks were a dusty grey that made the house look as if it was in the wrong century, however incredibly well kept.
"Where are we?" I asked as Sam helped me out of the car.
"My house."
"I though you said we were going home."
"We are home." he said nonchalantly.
I sighed and groaned under my breath. I didn't really understand why he was acting as if we were married. It was annoying.
It took everything I had to get my legs to move, "Why are my legs not cooperating?" I whined.
Sam chuckled, settling an arm around my waist to keep me steady. "Your legs are fine. You just lack the energy to do anything right now. You'll be better once you sleep."
I moaned, "Sleep sounds real good right now."
"Well, lets get you a drink and in a cool bath first." he said.
I thought that was it but all of a sudden he swept an arm up under my legs, making me fall backwards. I let out a startled squeal, thinking I was going to land on my ass, when his other arm came behind my back and he lifted me into his arms.
"Dick!" I wheezed and he chuckled and carried me through the door.
The interior of his house was very modern. All shiny and beautiful. He went straight up the stairs that were opposite the door and carried me into the bathroom.
I nearly had a heart attack when I saw the bath. It was huge. As in could-fit-a-football-team huge…well maybe I'm exaggerating a little. But it was big and beautiful.
Sam set me on the toilet and caught me when I swayed to one side and almost fell off. He steadied me, stood to full height and moved to the tub. He put the plug in and turned one tap on a little and then put the other on a lot. The water splashed everywhere at first, after it hit the bottom of the bathtub but then as the water rose the sound became soothing.
"I'm just going to go and get you some water. Don't move." he bounded out of the door. It was the first time I saw what he was wearing, when he left the room. It was a white button down again and a pair if real tight jeans. I nearly drooled…but maybe that's cause I don't have that much control over my body right now.
I managed to catch myself before sliding off the seat again. I felt as if I was drunk, I had no balance or energy to do anything. But the heat, the damn freakin' heat. That was the worst part.
I seriously felt as if I was on fire. The feeling swallowed me and made it had to breath.
"Here you go."
I looked up and saw Sam holding a glass of water towards me. Determined not to look like an idiot I took it and held it to my lips. After a few minutes I tilted the glass and ended up downing the whole thing in one.
"Thirsty, I see." Sam chuckled before rolling up the sleeves of his button down to his elbows. He plunged his hand into the water and moved it back and forth before turning the taps off.
"I can do it by myself." I said, looking pointedly towards the bathtub, "You can leave now."
Sam frowned, "I'm afraid I cant do that, Bella. You don't have enough energy to pull yourself up if you go under. That wouldn't end good, honey. I'll get you clean"
I narrowed my eyes on him as he came closer to me. "I'm not going to let you give me a bath. I'm not a baby." my voice sounded pretty determined to fight but I didn't really feel it.
"Right now you're my baby, so don't argue with me." there was a hint of steel in his voice that I'd never heard before. And if the situation was different, I would have really liked it.
His hands went to the bottom of my shirt and I just managed to catch his wrists. "Sam."
"Its alright, Isabella, your not well. Let me take care of you."
I lifted my chin and tried to ignore the gentle, caring way he pulled my t-shirt over my head, leaving me exposed in my lacy bra. I ducked my head and brought an arm over chest to cover me, although it did not good. The great lord was very generous with me when it came to my breasts.
Sam ducked down and pressed his forehead against mine. The heat of his skin add to my discomfort for a second and then it felt alright…it felt normal.
"Your safe with me Bella. Remember that." he soothed and I dropped my arm. Normally I wouldn't be this embarrassed. But this was Sam. The only guy I've ever felt this way for.
I tried to ignore the stupid feeling in my stomach as he unclipped my bra and threw it in the direction my shirt went. I hated that the first time he would see me naked was when I was ill. That wasn't fair.
I felt his heated gazed on me and tried to cover myself once again. He didn't say anything this time.
His calloused hands skimmed down the sides of my stomach and over my hips. His fingers hooked my jeans and boy-short panties, dragging them down my thighs and urging me to step out of them.
I heard his sharp intake of breath before he lifted me into the bathtub.
My teeth chattered as I sunk into the water. It was cold, but not freezing. Enough to cool my skin and still be comfortable, although I'm pretty sure I wouldn't have said no to lying inside a giant ice cube.
I felt good to get rid of the sweat that had rose on my body throughout the day. I was feeling icky before I got in the water. However no matter how cold it was my forehead still sported a thin sheen of perspiration.
One of Sam hands rested behind my head as he crouched down beside the tub. His other hand grabbed a wash cloth and dunked it in the water, he squeezed it out before dabbing my forehead with it and then proceeded to wash the rest of me. Not letting his hands linger on any part of my body.
After a while he lifted me from the tub and placed me on the counter by the sink. He grabbed a large fluffy white towel and started gently dabbing the moisture from my body.
Neither of us said anything as he slid my panties back up my legs and left the room. Coming back a few moments later with a large black t-shirt. He came over to me and held out my bra that was hanging on his finger by the strap.
"I may have had pratice taking these off but I have no idea how to put them back on." he admitted and I couldn't help but laugh, even though it caused my head to throb.
"That's probably a good thing." I voiced quietly, "Don't worry, I can deal without it for now."
He pulled the shirt over my head and down my body. It smelt like him.
He slid his arms under my body again and carried my out of the bathroom and through a door to the left.
It was his bedroom. The first thing you saw was the huge four-poster mahogany bed that lay in the centre of the back wall. Protruding out at almost half the width of the room. It was an expanse of black silk sheets that looked divine.
There wasn't much else to the room. The walls were a plain white, there was a few great pictures of the boys around. One of them was of the group around a bonfire. They sat around beautiful, crackling flames, a few sparks flying about creating a lovely scene.
There was a some draws with a television rest atop them and a lamp by the left side of the bed. It was minimalist but homely.
Sam walked over to the bed and laid me down on top of the cool crisp sheets. It would be to hot to get underneath them. I sighed and buried my head further into the soft pillows.
"Drink this." I lifted my head and took the glass of water Sam was holding out to me. I hadn't even seen him leave the room and it was really quick. I downed the water and he took the glass back and placed it on the bedside cabinet.
He stretched over and laid down next to me, I turned onto my side to look at him, he was already looking at me.
"Thank you." I whispered, letting the aches in my body relax a little as I sunk deeper into the mattress. This was a great bed.
He reached out and tucked a stray strand of hair behind my ear. "you don't have to thank me, baby. I'm just doing what I'm suppose to do. Looking after you." he kissed my forehead. "Now get some rest. You might not be able to go to the bonfire tonight."
"No. I want to go. Please Sam."
"Ok, we'll see how you feel. Just sleep now."
I yawned and my eyes drooped, "Will you sing to me?"
He cleared his throat uncomfortably, "Why would you want that?"
"It would just be nice."
He cleared his throat again, "Ok" he said somewhat reluctantly and began to sing and at once I was captivated by his voice.
(In love with a girl - Gavin DeGraw)
So many people gonna say that they want you,
To try to get you thinking they really care,
But there's nothing like the warmth of the one
who has put in the time and you know is gonna be there,
Back your border when she knows someone crossed it,
Don't let nobody put you down, who your with
Take the pain of protecting your name,
from the crutch to the cane to the highwire
I'm in love with a girl who knows me better,
Fell for the woman just when I met her,
Took my sweet time when I was bitter,
Someone understands,
And she knows how to treat a fella right,
Give me that feeling every night,
Wants to make love when I wanna fight,
Now someone understand me,
I'm in love with a girl (I'm in love with) [x2]
After many broken backdoors and windows,
Through the valley of the love of the lost,
Is a hole that is cut through the souls falling down
from the thrones without any innuendos,
But you drown in a piece for the moment,
The moment was over in time,
Then its gone the hit and run the guiltless one has a short life
I'm in love with a girl who knows me better,
Fell for the woman just when I met her,
Took my sweet time when I was bitter,
Someone understands,
And she knows how to treat a fella right,
Give me that feeling every night,
Wants to make love when I wanna fight,
Now someone understand me,
I'm in love with a girl (I'm in love with) [x2]
Gonna tell you what you do to think you practice what you preach,
Now I know there's nothing we can't reach,
'cause the heart can't erase once it finds a place to be warm and welcome,
To be held in shelter
I'm in love with a girl who knows me better,
Fell for the woman just when I met her
Took my sweet time when I was bitter
Someone understands,
And she knows how to treat a fella right
Give me that feeling every night
Wants to make love when I wanna fight
Now someone understands me
I'm in love with a girl (I'm in love with) [x3]
Who knows me better
Wants to make love when I wanna fight
now someone understand me
His voice was amazing. So rich and sensual. I wanted to hear more and more of it but I was fighting a losing battle as my eyes fell closed and I drifted off to sleep.
When I awoke it was getting dark. The last of the sunshine was dimly lighting the room. My head was throbbing less and I didn't feel tired but the heat was still there, sending fire through my veins.
I blinked a few times and took in my surroundings again. I felt a weight on my stomach and I was wedged against something hard. I turned to find Sam sleeping soundly against me. A section of light slashed across his face, highlighting the hard, rugged features that captivated me. His hair stuck up and funny angles and I resisted the laughter that bubbled up.
I was surprised that I didn't feel worse when I was against him. He was so hot normally that I was sure I would burn fiercely when our skin touched. I looked down at our intertwined hands, it felt nice, comforting instead of the horrible, overwhelming heat I was worried about. But it didn't feel hot either. He didn't feel like he normally does. My hand wasn't sweating in his for a start, because we were regulating the same temperature.
I listened to our steady breathing and pulled our hands up and kissed the back of his. I looked back up at him and jumped when I saw that his eyes were half open and he was watching me.
"Hey." I whispered softly, he smiled at me, a great lovely smile and it was times like this that I wondered what the hell I was playing at.
"Hey, I fell asleep not long after you. It was too comfy."
"What's the time?" I croaked and he looked at his watch and sighed.
"Seven. How are you feeling? If you still want to go we have to hurry up cause we're half an hour late already."
"I'm good, I want to go." I said, blowing some air on my forehead. I was incredibly stuffy from all this heat and it was making my breathing come out in short frequent gasps.
"Come on then." he sigh and got up, leaving the room and coming back with my t-shirt and jeans. I managed to dress myself this time, only having a little bit of trouble getting my t-shirt over my head which Sam help me with, but other than that it was ok. I suppose I really did just need to sleep and gain some energy.
"Do you want me to carry you to the car? We can drive to the edge of the beach so we don't have to walk far."
"I can walk to the car thanks." I said just as my legs wobbled. He chuckled and put an arm around my waist, applying enough pressure to keep me from toppling. I wanted to tell him that my legs are only wobbling because I hadn't used them in a few hours but I forgot as soon as his fingertips brushed the slice of skin that had been revealed on my hip from my shirt riding up.
We were just driving down the road when my stomach rumbled so loudly I would be surprised if they hadn't heard it in Japan. But since I haven't eaten since yesterday it was justified. Thinking about it I'm starving, I cant believe I managed to go this long without anything to eat.
"There will be loads of food at the bonfire. I'll grab you something." Sam smiled.
It only took a few minutes to get there in the car. From the edge of the beach I could see the bonfire and the dark figures sitting around it.
"Come on." Sam said, taking my hand and pulling me towards the group.
Everyone was here. All the guys include dad and Billy of course and Leah and Kim. When we got there everyone stopped and looked at us. A few of them had half eaten meat in their hands and surprised faces.
"Hey guys." I said and extracted my hand from Sam's before sitting down next to Jake on the log.
"Hey. How are you feeling?" Jake asked, pressing his hand to my forehead.
"A little better. It must be a fever. I'm really hot."
Dad shook his head, a worried look plagued his face, "You should have just listened to me. I cant believe you ran off this morning."
I grimaced, "I know daddy, I'm sorry. I just really want to do well in my last year of school. I didn't want to have a day off." I ducked my head and he sighed.
"Its ok. Just focus on getting better now."
My stomach rumbled loudly informing everyone of my hunger. Sam handed me a sausage and I took a large bite and moaned at the taste. God I was hungry.
Half an hour later and all the food was gone. I think out of everyone I ate the most. I had to drink a lot to and sometimes I just ended up pouring water onto my face to cool myself down.
The guys spoke about the angry squealing that Keira emanated after we'd left. They were laughing so hard, I though a few of them would have wet themselves.
"I don't know why she just doesn't tell me what her problem is." I thought aloud.
Sam, who had somehow managed to situate himself on the ground in front of me, his back resting against me knees, tilted his head back and looked up at me.
"You already know what her problem is." he chuckled, he thought she was silly. All he did was laugh when this problem was mentioned.
"Yeah but if she says it to my face I can tell her where to stick it." I smiled and then groaned as a strong wave of heat pulsated through my body. Not good.
A throat cleared and everyone's attention zoomed in on my father. "You probably wondering what all the fuss about tonight was about?" he said, talking to me.
"Yeah, it went through my mind a few times." I said slowly, anticipating what was to come.
"Well, its about time we tell you." he paused and took a deep breath, he looked really nervous. Billy patted him on the shoulder and gave him a weird look that dad nodded to.
Billy turned to me and spoke, "You've noticed things are different with the boys right? The size, the hunger, the strength, the Heat."
I frowned, "Yeah, its hard to miss." I'm not sure I'm going to like where this is heading.
"We're werewolves!" Dad said quietly as if ashamed of something.
My mouth dropped.
I stared blankly at my father, wondering whether he's taken any drugs recently. I blinked a few times, everyone was staring at me now, my throat was suddenly dry so I closed my mouth and licked my lips.
"Are you crazy?" I asked, my voice was calm even though inside I was freaking out.
"No bells, they're not crazy." Jake said beside me, giving me a small smile that I think was suppose to reassure me but didn't.
"This is a joke isn't it. Its cause of that stupid werewolf conversation we had." I was talking more to myself than to the others.
"Its true Bells, I didn't believe it at first but its true." Kim said, her voice soft and caring…like a mothers voice.
I looked up at her alarmed, "Are you a werewolf to?" I couldn't help the fact that the word 'werewolf' came out rather sarcastically.
She chuckled. Now's not the time to be chuckling, I'm having a crisis!
"No, I'm not a werewolf. I'm Jared's Imprint." I don't think I like the sound of that.
"His what?" I asked, somewhat rudely but I had a bad feeling.
"His soul mate, only its stronger than that." Dad answered. I gulped down some air and stood up, using my legs to shove Sam away from me. I stood behind the log, my back to the group, and ran my hands over my face. I knew there was something else I was missing, and I knew they were about to tell me.
"Your Sam's imprint." Dad said in a whisper that I could barely hear, but the words branded themselves into my brain.
Imprint. Soul Mate. Friend. Lover. Life. Everything.
"Your lying." I snapped, I wasn't going to believe this crap. I couldn't believe it. I couldn't deal with this now. My head started to throb again and I was getting angry.
"No Bells! I wouldn't lie to you!" Dad yelled, I turned around to see his face was the epitome of sadness and worry and the slightest bit angry.
"I don't believe you." I whispered.
Sam stood up and started to walk over to me but I took a step back. I didn't want him near me right now, I didn't want any of them near me. Because in my heart I knew this was all right. I knew this was true and I was scared.
He looked pained when I stepped back from him, and turned and made his way into the forest and the edge of the beach. I wanted to ask where he was going but I didn't dare. I stood there, not saying anything. My body shaking a little.
There was a rustling from where Sam had gone into the trees and I looked to see a huge black wolf emerge from the brush. It was giant, at least the size of a horse, but wrapped in thick muscle. Its muzzle protruded and when it gave an awkward grimace, a line of dagger-like incisors were revealed. It gave a yip.
I stood stock still as it moved towards me. As it came to stand before me, casting its large shadow over me, my body wracked out a sob. This was Sam, my Sam. It was all to much for me to handle. I was used to my easy human life and now I have been emerged into this mix-up.
I didn't want this. I wanted to live a normal life. Not be Sam's bitch…literally. This thing, this imprinting, was that suppose to make me feel better? Was it suppose to make it ok? As if it justifies the fact that it can never be my choice anymore. They may say that it still is up to me but it isn't. I hate that.
I turned away from the wolf…from Sam, but he just licked a long sloppy line up my cheek with his wet tongue. I wiped my face and without a word walked over to the log and sat down.
I ran a hand over my face again, willing this all to be a dream. I was vaguely aware of Sam bounding back into the trees and coming out again. Only human this time.
"Bella" he whispered, I held up my hand to kept him quiet.
Suddenly it just wasn't enough. To say I was mad would be an understatement…I was seething.
I glared at my father, "Are you one?" my voice portrayed my anger, hard and unyielding.
He nodded his head glumly. "Yes"
My jaw clenched as didn't my fists, "You never said anything. Never."
"I wasn't allowed, its against the rules." he said.
I stood up, "Fuck the rules Dad. I'm your daughter, you never thought to tell me." my body vibrated as fire shot through my vein so hot that I could almost follow the pattern in my mind.
"Of course I did. I wanted to…I just couldn't." he hung his head, which just made me even angrier. He was acting as if he was the one wronged.
"Couldn't or wouldn't? There was always a choice." I yelled. This is the first time I've ever wanted to hit my father. And even though I knew it was bad I felt it anyways.
"Bells, lay off. Its not his fault." Jake said, placing a hand on my arm.
I pulled away sharply and turned to him, "Stay out of this!" I yelled.
Then everything within me erupted. The anger was too much. I hated everybody, I wanted to hit, kick…bite.
I was yelling obstinacies at all of them, not caring at all for what I was actually saying, the hurtful things that I probably wouldn't be forgiven for.
It wasn't for a few minutes that I realised that no words were coming from my mouth, instead a series of growls and ripping snarls emerged.
I silenced myself immediately and noticed how everyone was staring at me. Their faces ranging from confused to surprise and one was smiling so bright I was nearly blinded. Guess who that was.
I slowly looked down at myself, suddenly feeling heavy. And all I saw was a chest and two long muscular legs that led to two huge white paws.
I was covered in fluffy white fur and could only see half of myself. I turned my head to see the other half that stretched out behind me. It was all snow white. I think part of me fainted when a huge tail propped up and waved at me…well it moved but still.
I moaned unhappily but it came out as a depressed whine. I decided that this wasn't me and to prove it I started to move. But when I wanted to move my hands the giant paws moved, digging into the sand.
Ah god…this can't be me.
A few minutes later I was walking in circles as I tried to decipher how this could actually be me, when I heard Jake laugh. I looked at him and narrowed my eyes, which made him laugh more. So I did the one thing that came naturally.
I pounced.
My body collided with his and he was sent flying back off of the log. He landed on his back in the sand, still laughing, I had my front paws either side of his head and my back paws either side of his knees.
I lowered my muzzle in his face and let a growl roll out from between my teeth. He just laughed again and shoved his hands into my fur.
"God, you're so soft and beautiful. Even in wolf form." he smiled proudly and I snapped my jaws in his face and got off of him.
The bad thing was…I didn't know how to turn back.
"Bella, come over here."
I looked toward Sam and froze.
I felt my jaw slacken as I took in the sight of him. He emanated a golden light. It was as if he was glowing. He was so beautiful that it took my breath away and I wanted to leap into his arms. I wanted to make him happy and keep him safe.
Thankfully he took my stillness and awe as hesitation. I couldn't let any of them know about this. I need time to figure this out.
"Don't worry. You can come to me." he said softly. Begging me, I could tell.
I moved slowly and came to sit at his knees. I couldn't help but plonk my large head into his lap with a tired sigh. His hands weaved into the fur on my neck and made their way up to the top of my head in a soothing massage pattern that made my eyes flutter closed.
He moved his big hands to my ears and scratched the behind them. He got to one spot on my right ear that was amazing. I purred with delight, which says a lot seeing as though I'm technically a dog…urgh that fact's not going down to well.
He moved his hand a little which didn't please me so I tilted my head and forced his hand back into the right spot. He chuckled as scratched harder, causing my tongue to loll out.
That's when I decided it was enough, I'm acting to much like a dog for my own liking.
I stared up at Sam and willed him to tell me how to turn back. Only to have him look at me in that lovey dovey way he always does, and I nearly returned the look only to remember the matter at hand.
I frowned and smacked my paw against his chest.
"What?" he asked, confused. I let out a puff of air and nudged his forehead with my muzzle.
"What?" he repeated.
"Dude, she wants to return to her human form again. Jeez, even I figured that out." Paul smirked, I looked to his left to see Leah with tears in her eyes but a smile on her face.
"Oh, well you just have to think about yourself. Your body turning from wolf to human again. Its easy." he said. I nipped his knee for jinxing me and saying that it was easy cause now its going to take ages.
I closed my eyes and thought about how I looked in wolf form. Large, muscular, snow-freakin'-white and fluffy like a bloody Samoyed dog. And then thought about my body morphing and reshaping into human Bella.
When I opened my eyes again I was looking out at the woods behind Sam's head. His eyes were level with my breast…my bare breasts. I gasped as I realised that I was butt naked in front of everyone. My clothes obviously hadn't survived the trip into Wolfland.
Sam was looking at me differently then before. I suppose the first time he saw me naked I was sick and venerable and all that matter was getting my well.
Now however was a completely different situation and his eyes were pitch black with lust as his gaze travelled leisurely up and down my body.
I gulped at the intensity of his gaze when the moment was completely ruined.
"Niiiiice." Brady drawled and I gasped and tried to cover myself from the eyes of the miniature perverts that inhabit this group.
"To late, we saw everything. Wow." Collin said from next to him.
"Hey, eyes off. I've put up with it for to long. No excuses now." Saw growled and boy did he sound mad. He glared fiercely at them before turning back to me.
Right then all of the immense things that just happened crashed down on me. I fell to my knees and burst into tears.
Sam slid off of the log and onto the ground and wrapped his arms around my sobbing frame, pulling me to his body. I put my arms around his neck and rested my head on his shoulder, my nose pressed against his throat as I continued to cry.
I don't know how long it was until I stopped. But throughout my meltdown everything was quiet, except the sounds of my sobs and sniffs. Sam held me tight and ran his hand down my back. It was soft, fingertip touches that comforted me. His hand went from the nape of my neck to the small of my back and back up again.
The good thing was that I felt fine now. I felt one-hundred percent. I noticed how Sam skin was the same temperature as my own. It was lovely.
When I stopped crying I lifted my head and wiped my tears and giggled.
"Its really not nice being naked around sand. That stuff gets everywhere." I sniffed and Sam chuckled and placed a kiss on my forehead. He whipped his shirt off and pulled it over my head and down my body, it just covered my butt.
I licked my lips and stood up. Sam sat back on the log as I stared at the thick piece of wood, my eyebrows raised.
"Why aren't you sitting down?" Jake asked.
"Are you kidding? Look at that thing. I'll get splinters in places that should never get splinters." I said.
"I hear you there." Seth nodded and I cocked my head but he just shook his with wide eyes, "You don't want to know."
Before I could reply I was pulled into Sam's lap. "You wont get splinters now." he breathed.
"Well I don't know, something's definitely poking me." I raise an eyebrow as the guys laughed. I felt Sam's chest rumbled with his own laughter.
It wasnt exactly comfortable sitting in his lap in only a shirt with nothing underneath. Especially since the top kept riding up.
"Does anyone have any spare shorts?" I asked.
"You can have mine if you want." Sam said instantly.
"No thanks. They will just fall down. Look at your thighs, they're huge. Let alone you hips. And no one could deal with you sitting here naked." well I wouldn't be able to deal with it. He chuckled beneath me.
"Hmmm, really. Not just a peek?"
I cleared my throat as a pink piece of material hit me in the face. "Erm…thanks…Paul." I teased as I held up the small stretchy shorts and pulled them up my legs.
"Ha ha, they're Leah's not mine." he said, sticking his tongue out at me.
"Thanks Leah." I smiled at her and she pounced on me. I was a little shocked to say the least. "Wow, I know I'm irresistible and everything but this is unexpected."
She laughed as tears ran down her face. I was a little alarmed. "I'm so happy. We have another female in the pack." she squealed loudly and my newly enhance hearing didn't take well to that, I grimaced. "I'm not a freak after all." I raised an eyebrow to that and she pulled a face at me.
"Its cool. We can rule havoc now." I smirked and she laughed.
"You will not cause 'havoc' I prohibit that." Sam said all high-and-mighty.
"Who made you boss?" I asked and he smirked. "Crap, you're the boss aren't you."
"Yep, I'm your alpha. You have to do as I say." my mouth dropped and I turned to dad.
"Daddy that's not fair. What if makes me do all the things he wishes that I'd do." I leaned forward as if I was telling him a secret, "Naughty things daddy, he wants me to do naughty things."
"I'm not a pervert." Sam protested, "You'll want to do those anyways." I glared at him and his smug butt. Then I remembered something and turned towards dad.
"Oh daddy I'm so sorry about earlier. I don't know what come over me." I pouted and he laughed.
"Don't worry about it, honey. It was the wolf in you. You had to become angry to let it out and that's what happened. Some of that anger wasn't even you." he smiled and I rushed over and gave him a hug. Then I sat down on the log next to Jake again and smiled apologetically at him. He chuckled and kissed me on the cheek.
"Don't worry Bells. I'm proud it was me that brought out the wolf." he laughed again and I shook my head.
Billy was still looking shocked to say the least. His mouth was in a perfectly formed 'O' and his eyebrows were furrowed.
"What's up uncle Billy?" I asked, his mouth opened and closed a few times before he said.
"You're so…so white."
I frowned, "Racist"
Jake spat out the water he was nursing and burst out laughing as did the others, even dad. Billy looked a little embarrassed.
"I didn't mean it like that Bells. I mean your fur is pure white. That's never happened before…even your dad is brown"
I shrugged, "I'm special, what's different there?" I smiled.
"I'm still the boss." Sam felt the need to point out.
I scoffed, "Yeah but I'll bet I could find a way to make you bend the rules."
"I don't think so."
"Hello…you're my bitch now. Alpha or not, I own you." I said smirking at the look on his face.
"Well, I think you find the bitch in the relationship is actually —"
"Yeah yeah. Bored now." I yawned and he narrowed his eyes on me.
"If you weren't so tired right now I'd pounce on you." he said.
"I bet you say that to all the girls." I smirked and before I could blink his mouth was on mine. I stiffened and he moved back and looked me in the eyes. I held my own, not backing down. I wanted him to see that this was all to much for me at once.
He sighed and sat down, I bit my lip and turned away.
"So Billy, how come your not a wolf, yet dad is?" I asked.
"Your family descends from a different tribe of wolves that came to us a few generations ago. You have mixed blood but that part of you is strongest. My generation of Quileute's didn't change."
"So only you and Kim are the non-wolves here."
"Yeah."
"And I was looking forward to have an imprint to talk to." Kim pouted which Jared gently kissed.
"I'm still an imprint" I said unenthusiastically. "No one else has an imprint?"
"I do." Quil said, wow I never would have guessed.
"Really?" he nodded and smiled that dopey smile that imprinted males tend to get.
"So…where is she?"
"Erm…its late for her. She's asleep." wasn't it like nine o'clock, I raised an eyebrow at him and he said, "She's three." quietly.
Ok so I don't know quite how to react to that. But I suppose its different for him. I bet he just keeps her safe and happy, 'cause I know its nothing perverted.
"Ok." I said nonchalantly, "What's her name?"
They all gaped at me. "Her name is Claire." Quil said, he seemed shocked.
"What?"
"Nothing. Its just no one acted that way before. They all though it was weird." Quil said shyly, I shrugged.
"Nah, I know its not like that." I smiled and he frowned.
"How do you know its not like that. You would know who it feels to imprint would you?" he asked curiously, not rudely.
I shrugged nervously, "No but I just figured that it was just a love that can be nurtured and shaped depending on the stage of life the imprint is in. Its obvious that Claire cant love like that so it would happen now."
He gave me a yeah-right look that told me he didn't believe me. The others however didn't notice anything.
We stayed there for a bit. Billy told old stories of the tribe with pride in his voice. I started to warm up to the idea of this whole wolf thing. It wasn't easy, but I wasn't alone, and I'd get used to it.
Midnight came and went and it wasn't until one that we started to pack up. I stole peeks at Sam the whole way through the stories. I couldn't really keep my eyes off of him.
This imprint thing was making it way to difficult to stand my ground. All I wanted to do and kiss him and hold him and be close to him. But I wouldn't let myself do that yet.
I sighed at my own stupidity.
I was told that I'd have to have two weeks off of school in order to learn to control my phasing. Apparently anytime I get angry…poof, I'm a wolf. Not good during school anyways.
I finally understand some things that I wish I didn't have to think about. This year was going to be tough, I knew that.
I walked to Sam's car with him. Things were a little awkward.
"Thank you for everything today." I said, trying to break the tension.
"I told you already. You don't have to thank me." he smiled a little sadly.
"Sam…" I trailed off, not really knowing what to say.
"Do you want a lift?" he asked, stopping in front of me and turning to face me.
"No, I'm going to walk home. I need to think. Thanks anyway." I smiled and his gaze went to my lips.
"Just one." he asked, I knew straight away that he was asking for a kiss. I grimace as a huge part of me parted my lips and shook to fulfil his needs, but there was still a little part of me that held on tight.
"I though you weren't going to ask. Didn't you say something about me getting used to you stealing them?" I said.
His gaze darkened and he fisted his hands in my hair and pulled me to him. His lips settled over mine and his tongue was quick to snake out and slide between my parted lips. It was a great kiss, but then they all were and a part of me felt bad for doing this when I keep denying that there is an us.
After a while I pulled away gently and looked up at him. He gave me a look that shook my soul but instead of show it I smiled.
"Night boss!"
He smiled sweetly at me and ran his thumb over my cheek.
"Night baby."
I walked home somberly. Thinking about everything that has happened within just over a week of my stay here. I met Sam, had some freaky connection with him. He was my soul mate, the other half of me and that just stirred everything up.
Hell, I was a wolf. The one thing that I dreamed of being, and I was exactly that. Jeez, I never thought that this would ever happen…I mean, who would? It was unbelievable.
Yet I was definitely going to enjoy my new found being. I couldn't wait for the mayhem to start.
A/N- Review please. This chap was hard!! :) Hope you liked it. It's taken the place of Longest chap yet.