Chapter 5
"Hey Clarke? How you feeling?" Raven bolted into the room excited to see her friend only to be hauled by Octavia holding onto her leash. "O!" Raven groaned. "I wanna go see Clarke!" Raven complained impatiently.
"Fine, but just for a while! After that back on your leash." Octavia smiled as she removed the leash that was attached to Raven's collar.
"Clarke!" Raven exclaimed tackling Clarke who was still trying to relax on the bed.
"Hehe hey Raven. How are you?" Clarke asked hugging her friend.
"Mhmm good , Octavia took me shopping today and she ended up buying me some stuff for a thing I've been working on building. Also she got me a nice coat cause winter is coming soon and I don't really have anything to warm." Raven explained happily.
"Oh look at you Octavia, big spender!" Clarke teased.
"Who me? Pfft!" Octavia joked.
"Speaking of the coat you brought it with you right ? It's kinda cool up here." Raven shivered.
"Of course, my omega will never go cool." Octavia replied draping the coat over Raven's shoulders and hugging her from behind.
"Mhmm much better thank you!" Raven smiled and turned her head to kiss her alpha appreciatively.
"Good, only the best for my little birdy!" Octavia smiled hugging her omega tight.
"So Lexa told us you would have some questions?" Raven asked.
"More like I wanted to bond and she wouldn't let me without talking to you guys about what all comes with bonding." Clarke explained.
"Oh cool! Bonding is great!" Raven smiled and pushed back against her alpha.
"Hmm yeah. It's really nice." Octavia agreed holding Raven even tighter as they both smiled against each other.
"Well what makes it so great or so nice?" Clarke asked impatient.
"Well first off it makes heats-" Raven was interrupted.
"And ruts!" Octavia added.
"And ruts way more fun." Raven finished with a look at Octavia. "you are the worst!" Raven teased.
"Bad little birdy!" Octavia reprimanded with a playful spank.
"Uugh you little!" Raven teased as she wrestled Octavia down on to the bed and kissed her.
"You , little, brat!" Octavia replied in-between kisses.
"Wait what's that!" Clarke interrupted. "What's a brat!" Clarke asked.
"You really know nothing about Bdsm or anything do you?" Raven teased still holding Octavia down.
"Well?" Clarke insisted.
"Well she is being a brat because she is the sub and she is trying to fight my dominance, but I love her so it's not a big deal when she is such a brat!" Octavia teased Raven with a kiss.
"I love you too O!" Raven smiled releasing Octavia.
"Wait what the hell I was apparently being a 'brat' and Lexa punished me pretty bad!" Clarke questioned frustrated.
"Well i would bet she wouldn't be accustomed to people doing anything other than what she said. Lexa is an extremely powerful alpha, I've seen her take a whole army to their knees just with a growl. What did you do?" Octavia asked.
"I called her a fucking dick." Clarke admitted.
"Haha yeah that'll do it." Raven and Octavia laughed.
"What's the big deal?" Clarke didn't understand.
"You insulted her, Probably yelled at her, and she punished you for it." Octavia explained.
"I guess I did raise my voice." Clarke admitted.
"Haha what would you do to me if I did that?" Raven asked.
"You wouldn't be able to sit for days." Octavia teased.
"I don't think I will be able to!" Clarke yelled nodding.
"Aww poor omega, was that your first punishment?" Raven asked sympathetically as she made her over and hugged Clarke.
"Second and thanks." Clarke noted and hugged back appreciating the physical contact.
"Honestly I look forward to punishments, I even occasionally brat to get worse punishments." Raven whispered into Clarke's ear.
"Gotcha!" Clarke smiled and nodded as Raven pulled away. "So any recommendations on how to not accidentally be a brat and have a sore backside?" Clarke asked hopefully.
"Umm you will kinda just know instinctively once you finish your first heat cycle, that's how it was for me at least." Raven explained.
"I just don't want to be accidentally be a brat and upset Lexa like that again all the time." Clarke explained defeated.
"Well that is where bond can come in handy! When you are bonded with someone both of you can feel some of each other's emotions. So Lexa would be a to tell the intent of your words." Octavia explained .
" Wait what , I will feel Lexa's emotions?" Clarke questioned .
"Yeah , I feel a little of everything Octavia here feels. If she is hurt, happy , if she feels good, if she is angry, if she is sad, if she is horny." Raven finish with a smile at Octavia.
"And I can feel the same for Raven. Whenever I punish her I can feel a bit of the effect of the the punishment I give her whether it be good or bad." Octavia elaborated. "It's part of the reason why I as Raven's alpha am so worried about her happiness , because if she is happy I can feel it too." Octavia continued.
"Oh so like you could feel that she was cold?" Clarke asked Octavia as she pointed to Raven , remembering that Raven had been cold and needed her jacket.
"Yup , it was really subtle, but I could tell, it's why I bought her the coat in the first place, I know that she runs cold and that she has been needing one for a while." Octavia replied with a hug to her omega. "My favorite is the feeling she gets when I hold her, she really likes cuddles and hugs!" Octavia held tighter to her omega who smiled happily.
"Yeah she is right I do love this." Raven practically purred.
"Mhmm that sounds really nice!" Clarke whined needily as she could feel her temperature rise suddenly.
"Hehe it's coming on fast this time." Raven giggeled.
"Oof that's gonna hurt." Octavia chuckled.
"Ahhh what the hell is happening to me!" Clarke yelled in pain as she doubled over in the bed.
"Aww poor girl!" Raven crawled over to Clarke and hugged her again knowing that it would help.
"It hurts!" Clarke screamed again as Raven hugged her trying to help with the pain.
"O help me out here , she is really hurting! And you are the one who is good at helping omegas in heat!" Raven requested.
"Yeah yeah sorry!" Octavia made her way over and scratched behind Clarke's ear.
"Oh god Octavia! That feels so good!" Clarke moaned and collapsed into her lap.
Octavia quickly rolled Clarke over to Raven's lap and placed Raven's hand where she had been scratching. Octavia then began to whisper into Raven's ear. "I knew you would get jealous, I only have eyes for you my beautiful bird." Octavia comforted after feeling Raven grow jealous thought their bond.
"Thanks, I love you!" Raven replied with a kiss to her loving alpha. "Is this any better?" Raven asked Clarke as she scratched behind Clark's ear.
"Mhmm a lot , thanks Raven!" Clarke hummed.
"Good I'm glad." Raven replied happy her friend wasn't in so much pain anymore.
"I brought the book Heda wished would be taken up here!" Titus exclaimed as he entered the room with piles of books. "I also have the list of specific excerpts and the order you have to read them in.
"Hey can you get her some suppressants?" Octavia asked getting up to take the books from Titus.
"Right away! I shall request a slightly weaker batch do she can stay awake enough to read these." Titus replied scurrying away.
"we will have suppressants soon." Raven comforted Clarke .
"Hey you wanna start on that reading?" Octavia laughed as she placed the stack of books on the bed.
"Actually yeah, I Probably should. It's actually a punishment from Lexa." Clarke explained.
"Ohh what did you do this time?" Raven laughed.
"It's a long story." Clarke replied.
"Haha ok, well do you want us to go while you read?" Octavia asked.
"If you want , but can you guys at least stay till I get the suppressants , it really hurts when Raven stops." Clarke replied.
"Raven would you like to stay here with her?" Octavia asked.
"Mhmm yeah I could stay here and comfort Clarke all day. Whatcha planning?" Raven asked able to feel through the bond that Octavia was planning something.
Octavia got in close and whispered into Raven's ear. "My omega needs another coat , and maybe hmm something sluttier?" as she finished Octavia bit softly at Raven's ear teasingly.
"Oh fuck!" Raven moaned at the sensation of Octavia's bite and Octavia could feel the pang of arousal resonate through their bond.
Octavia them pulled back and ordered Raven loudly. "You will stay here in the bed with Clarke untill I get back. And you will be a good little birdy and follow my orders!" Octavia finished with a commanding voice.
"Yes my alpha!" Raven replied nodding.
"Good birdy!" Octavia praised with a loving kisses before she headed out to go shopping again.
"You don't have to stay with me!" Clarke offered.
"Hehe I do now." Raven giggled to herself as she continued scratching behind Clarke's ear.
"Thanks. This means a lot. " Clarke thanked feeling the relief of Raven scratch behind her ear.
"I'm glad to help." Raven smiled.
"I thought you hated me after Finn?" Clarke blutted out anxiously.
"I did, but in a way you are the reason I have Octavia now, and that makes us alright, and then there is the fact that omegas are pretty rare and we have to stick together and take care of each other. Also I understand how much it hurts when you aren't bonded." Raven explained scratching more vigorously .
"Mhmm that's so much better!" Clarke moaned thankfully. "I'm sorry about what happened you know that right?" Clarke asked beginning to cry.
"I had a feeling somewhere month two of your self imposed exile." Raven giggeled. "It's ok Clarke. I'm happy now. And everything is ok." Raven comforted wiping away Clarke's tears.
"thank you." Clarke thanked.
"Time for some reading right?" Raven tried to cheer up Clarke.
Clarke turned around and hugged Raven tight. "Yeah time to read." Clarke replied cheering up."Here's the instructions!" Clarke said grabbing the instructions. "It says I have to at least read the notebook labeled 'hodges pramheda' until I feel like I completely understand master slave relationship it contains because it is the most similar to what she and I would have. everything else is just if I need to understand more or if I want to look into anything else." Clarke explained.
"i know what hodnes means!" Raven exclaimed.
"What's it mean?" Clarke asked eagerly.
"It's a term of endearment, it means my love. But only bonded mates ever use it for each other. Octavia taught it to me when we bonded. " Raven informed.
"Aww!" Clarke paused before looking towards Raven. "What happened and what was it like to bond with someone?" Clarke asked.
"Well Octavia found me hiding away in the engineering bay screaming in pain one day. She said she could smell me from miles away and that she knew I needed help. Then she explained to me what had been going on, and she stayed with me until it was over , she only left my side to get me food and drink. She refused to bond with me the whole time, said I didn't know what I was talking about when I asked her to knot me. We got to know each other really well over the next month before my next heat. She took me out on dates , she took care of me , and when it came closer to my heat she asked if she could knot and bond with me when my heat came. I immediately said yes and when it came round, Octavia, she , she had flowers set out on the bed , choice cuts of meat and my favorite fruits . She did everything she could to make it special for me. And when we were done eating she took me in a warm embrace and it was amazing, all the pain melted away and it was replaced with pleasure even greater than the pain before it. I can't explain how it feels , it's just amazing. And then she was stuck Inside of me , and we slept together that night, cuddling as we fell asleep, it was the best feeling ever. And the next morning when I woke up I could just kinda feel Octavia, and our scents were intertwined, we both smell a little like each other, and we always will , that's just part of the bonding. Umm other than that the only things that you don't already know about bonding are that they sync your heats to your Alpha's ruts , and they make it so that other people's scents don't affect you and you don't affect them but the scent of your mate affects you way more. It's really nice, I love being bonded to Octavia." Raven explained to Clarke.
"That sounds really nice." Clarke smiled. "I hope Lexa tries to make it special for me like that." Clarke admitted.
"I will make sure to tell her you want something special so that she knows." Raven offered.
"Thanks!" Clarke nodded.
"I have the suppressants! Sorry it took so long, I had to have a special batch made!" Titus burst into the room and gave the bottle of suppressants to Raven before running off again looking as if he were terribly busy.
"Here you go Hun." Raven passed the suppressants to Clarke who downed them quickly. As Clarke swallowed the suppressants she could see Raven laugh and smile.
"What's up?" Clarke questioned curious.
"Umm Octavia said she was going to find me some lingerie, and I could just feel her get really horny. She found something she really likes." Raven smiled.
"Haha nice." Clarke laughed.
"yeah I'm excited!" Raven smiled wide.
"Hehe now time to do my reading." Clarke smiled and turned to the books. "You wanna read one? One of them has to be interesting?" Clarke offered grabbing the notebook that Lexa had ordered she read.
"Hmm yeah I will look them over while you start reading." Raven replied.
"Cool." Clarke said as she got comfortable and began reading.
My soon to be alpha pramada ordered me to write this today, she said it would be a good idea to keep a written record of what happens when I bond with a night blood. She told me to just think of it like a diary, and that I would be punished if I didn't. She hasn't punished me much, but when she does it is exciting, in a way I love it , but also in a way she can scare me sometimes. Anyway here is the diary/written record for anyone who wants to read it.
I can feel that my heat is coming again, my alpha found me during my most recent heat, she said she could feel my scent calling to her. The weirdest thing is I know what she meant, she smelled amazing, better than any other alpha. And it did kinda feel like her scent was calling to me, especially once she entered her rut a week ago. Fuck she smelled amazing but she won't let us do anything until my heat starts. It felt like her scent was begging me to bond with her. My friends have told me that this is special and that it means she is the perfect person for me, but I feel like her scent already told me that. She has taken such amazing care of me ever since she took me in, I don't quite understand why she has taken such a liking to me, but I also don't understand why I have fallen in love with her so suddenly. Every day she ensures that I am comfortable and that I am well fed. When she first found me I had barely been getting a meal a day because food has been so hard to come by , but Pramada ensures that I eat at least three times a day , and she always has a snack set out for me just in case I want it. And even though she is really busy she always makes herself available to be there for me if I need anything. I don't know it just fulfills some deep omega craving I have to be cared for. I am extremely excited to officially become her slave once we bond. She is already rather dominant with me now, and I love it when she is, but I know she is holding back. She said she bought me a set of chains, and beautiful collar but she won't give them to me until we bond and the anticipation is killing since she found me she has kept me in the tower, I am free to come and go as I please for now but we have discussed that once we bond I am to ask her permission to leave the tower, and when I do I will either be accompanied by her and or her guards to keep me happy and safe. Even though I am allowed to come and go as I please I only go out once or twice a week to see the stars. I don't have any other reason to leave, my alpha has ordered everyone in the tower to treat me like a queen and they do. Everyone here is incredibly kind to me and they treat me like royalty. My alpha and I have talked about this and she wants that to continue once we are bonded and I am her slave, she wants me to feel special and cherished while I am here in the tower.
It finally happened! My alpha is officially my bonded mate! It was the best thing I've ever felt when we bonded , and after we woke up she finally places my chains on me, they are beautiful, and they make me feel so treasured. The chains don't hurt, the barely even restrict my movement, instead they just make me feel like my alpha is always there , hugging me , comforting me, loving me. It is honestly the best feeling.
"Clarke!" Raven yelled waving a hand in front of Clarke's face. "Are you ok? You are whimpering!" Raven added.
"Huh what?" Clarke asked the moment she could feel the pain of her heat multiply. "Owe it hurts so much!" Clarke moaned a hand shooting towards her core. "Why does it hurt so much.
Raven grabbed the book and skimmed the page Clarke had been on. "Oh hehe yeah wearing something that your alpha gives you is really nice. And you smell like you are just craving Lexa's affection." Raven explained.
"I need her so bad!" Clarke yelled on the verge of tears.
"I know girl, it will be ok. Come here , I know I'm not an alpha but I will do what I can." Raven offered wrapping Clarke in a hug and scratching behind her ear.
"I need her! I need Lexa!" Clarke cried broken and holding on to Raven.
"Aww poor girl." Raven sympathized. "It will be ok." Raven comforted running her hands through Clarke's hair soothingly.
"Uugh it really hurts!" Clarke groaned.
"I know. Lexa will Probably come back soon and then she can hold you and it will help more." Raven comforted.
"Mhmm Lexa!" Clarke moaned at the thought of Lexa holding her.
"Is there anything I can do to help?" Raven asked still trying to comfort Clarke.
"Can you just keep scratching behind my ear?" Clarke requested.
"Of course girl." Raven replied.
"D-does it really feel that nice to have a collar and or chains?" Clarke blurted out.
"Mhmm yeah. It does. I've never had chains , but I imagine they would just feel like an extension of the collar which I really like. It is just like a soft reminder that I am loved and cherished." Raven explained.
"Oh god that sounds so nice!" Clarke moaned loving the idea of having something that made her feel like Lexa was always with her.
"Yeah it is." Raven agreed.
"hmm what did you end up reading?" Clarke asked.
"Oh hehe this one, it's totally sumt , I'm trying to see if I can get Octavia horny enough through the bond to distract her while she is out." Raven giggeled.
"Omg you are evil!" Clarke laughed.
"Haha it can be fun to mess with your mate through a bond." Raven smiled.
"Mhmm sounds fun." Clarke smiled back before returning to the reading she had to do..
Now that we are bonded My alpha keeps me on a leash whenever we go out of the tower and I am only to call her "my alpha" and "heda" when we are out. I messed up and called her by her name the other day , and she took me over her knee right there in the middle of the Polis streets. She spanked me hard until I cried out begging her to forgive me. She then picked me up by my collar and calmed me down using her scent before telling me that I was forgiven and that everything would be alright. I remember being dripping wet by the time she could get me back home. Something about her forcibly pulling me down bending me over and striking me until I begged her for forgiveness, it drove me mad with lust , i spontaneously started a heat only a week after my latest one. When we got back to our room the second we were alone she ripped my clothes off and took me. We didn't even make it to our bed, we could feel each other's craving for the other , how much we needed the other and it resonated between us through the bond until we passed out physically welded together through her knot.
"You really need to stop reading that!" Raven laughed.
"Hum what why?" Clarke snapped away from the book in front of her.
"Because every time you get more than a page in you start whimpering." Raven replied.
"Oh god. I'm sorry I don't mean to." Clarke apologized embarrassed.
"It's still technically your first heat, don't worry about it." Raven comforted.
"Thanks." Clarke thanked still embarrassed.
"I heard my omega screaming, is everything ok!" Lexa burst into the room desperate to make sure Clarke was ok.
"Yeah she is-" Raven began but stopped when she saw Clarke bolt over to the alpha.
"Lexa!" Clarke cried as she jumped onto Lexa wrapping her arms and legs around her.
"Hey girl, how are you?" Lexa asked stabilizing her herself to stop from falling down.
"i missed you!" Clarke squeezed tighter to the alpha. "Mhmm you smell so good!" Clarke hummed.
"You smell pretty good yourself Clarke. And I missed you too." Lexa replied with a kiss as she made her way to the bed where Raven was still sitting. " Hey Raven, thank you for taking care of my omega for me while I was gone." Lexa thanked.
"Oh no problem and I didn't have a choice Octavia ordered me to stay here till she returned." Raven explained.
"Ah gotcha, where is Octavia, should I send for her?" Lexa offered.
"She is just shopping, she will probably be back any minute now." Raven dismissed.
"Ok, is there anything I can get you two?" Lexa offered to the both of them.
"Mhmm I'm kinda hungry." Clarke mentioned.
"I will return immediately with food!" Lexa replied pridefully.
"Thanks Lexa." Clarke blushed at how quickly Lexa snapped to provide.
"Of course I would provide, I will always provide for you Clarke, anything and everything my beautiful omega ever needs. Ai hod yu in Clarke." Lexa assured.
Clarke moved to to hug Lexa and whisper into her ear. "I understand now. I want to be yours; yours completely" Clarke whispered holding the alpha tight.
"Are you sure?" Lexa whispered back.
"Yeah, I need my alpha." Clarke replied revealing her neck submissively.
"Mhmm good girl." Lexa comforted before placing a single loving kiss at the crook of Clarke's neck.
" Ai hod yu in my Heda." Clarke whispered as Lexa slowly released the hug and headed out to gather her omega food.
"Hehe what was that?" Raven teased Clarke as Clarke fell back in the bed.
"I think I just became Lexa's slave?" Clarke half questioned herself.
"Yeah, I'm pretty sure that is what just happened." Raven confirmed. Clarke felt in a way like she was trying to catch her breath even though she was breathing just fine. "You will be ok Clarke." Raven comforted brushing Clarke's hair out of her face.
"I am ok, I'm just really happy." Clarke smiled still trying to gather herself.
"Good." Raven replied as she returned to scratching behind Clarke's ear. "Not used to it yet huh?" Raven teased.
"Used to what?" Clarke questioned.
"To having an owner, to that feeling you get." Raven thought about how she feels whenever Octavia is around. "You know what I mean." Raven added.
"Yeah I think I do." Clarke nodded , still attempting to collect herself and sort out the flurry of emotions finally submitting to Lexa like that caused.
"We are back!" Octavia and Lexa both exclaimed as they entered the room each of them with a beautiful plate of meats, cheeses, and fruits in their hands.
Clarke and Raven both attacked their alphas with hugs and they both softly pressed their faces against their alphas loving the physical contact with their alphas. "You were a naughty girl while I was out , trying to make me pop a boner in the middle of the Polis market!" Octavia scolded Raven , whispering in her ear.
"I'm sorry my alpha , I just missed you and wanted to make sure you were thinking of me." Raven replied teasingly feigning innocence.
"Ohh I'm sorry you missed me , but I'm back now and I have some fun things for us tonight." Octavia comforted.
"I love you Octavia." Raven cooed holding tight to her alpha.
"I love you too hodnes." Octavia replied.
"Off to the couch?" Lexa offered so that they could all rest.
The other three girls nodded and agreed as they shuffled over to the couch where Octavia and Lexa set down the plates of food.
"Oh god Lexa! You got so much food!" Clarke cried out excitedly as she hugged the alpha tight.
"Hehe you are really deep in your heat aren't you?" Lexa asked.
"How did you know?" Clarke asked still hugging tight to the alpha.
"Because you are so obsessed with how well I can provide." Lexa reasoned.
"Hmm yeah that makes sense my heda. I really love it when you provide like this." Clarke snuggled Lexa as she spoke.
"Good girl." Lexa praised loving the omega's affection.
"Octavia?" Raven asked spontaneously as they continued cuddling.
"Yeah what's wrong Raven?" Octavia replied.
"May I begin to eat?" Raven asked permission.
"Mhmm yes. But I get to feed you the first bite." Octavia allowed as she reached out at the plate and picked a nice piece of meat and placed it in Raven's open mouth.
"Mhmm really good!" Raven moaned at the taste of the tender meat as she licked Octavia's fingers clean.
Watching on at the wanton affair occurring between Raven and Octavia Clarke craved for Lexa to demand that she ask permission before attempting to eat. Clarke then reached out to take a piece of food only to be delightfully surprised by Lexa smacking her hand away. "You want to be mine right? My slave?" Lexa teased.
Clark turned around to face her alpha eagerly. "Yes of course, I want nothing more!" Clarke pleaded, just the idea driving her mad with need.
"Well when out in public and when in front of the coalition you will have to ask me permission to eat." Lexa instructed.
"Please! Mhmm please!" Clarke whimpered as she pressed her forehead Into Lexa's chest.
"Please what?" Lexa taunted.
"Please I want to be your slave. I want this!" Clarke pleaded in need.
"Good girl!" Lexa praised as she rubbed a hand calmingly on Clarke's back.
"May I please eat my Heda?" Clarke asked submissively.
"Of course girl, you are welcome to eat as much as you like." Lexa replied grabbed the plate holding it In Front of Clarke.
"Thank you Heda." Clarke thanked before taking berry and eating it happily.
"Good girl." Lexa praised.
"You two seem to be enjoying yourselves." Octavia teased.
"Clarke is just getting used to being an omega." Lexa replied as she continued rubbing a calming hand on Clarke's back and holding the plate up for her.
"Mhmm Thank you Heda." Clarke repeated as she ate another bite.
"I remember when everything was that new." Raven smiled lovingly at her alpha.
"Mhmm yeah." Octavia agreed thinking of the first time Raven submitted to her. "You two must be having a lot of fun." Octavia poked fun at Clarke and Lexa.
"I'm not going to lie, I love seeing Clarke like this." Lexa said happily as she gestured for Clarke to turn around and rest against her in-between her legs.
"I am just happy to be in my alpha's embrace." Clarke smiled and pushed back against her alpha lovingly.
"Hehe I definitely understand that." Raven agreed doing the same.
Lexa adored the feeling she got as Clarke pushed gently up against her clearly craving her care. "Someone get a little deep into their reading?" Lexa asked teasingly.
"Uugh yeah. It all sounded so nice and i-i just really needed you after reading it." Clarke explained.
"I'm glad that I am the one you crave." Lexa spoke softly as she ran a hand thought Clarke's hair.
"Of course I crave you, your scent it is always calling to me, you are the only one I want when my core aches from my heat. I need you my Heda." Clarke explained.
"Ai hod yu in Clarke." Lexa replied softly as she hugged the omega as tight as she could. "I will take care of you , you will never want for anything, Ai hod yu in Clarke, Ai hod yu in my precious omega." Lexa comforted with a series of loving kisses to Clarke's neck.
Clarke quickly became absorbed in her alpha's words , adoring every minute aspect of Lexa's words. "Mhmm my alpha." Clarke moaned.
"You two are really cute together." Raven smiled as she and Octavia continued eating.
"Yeah, you guys look happier than I've ever seen either of you before." Octavia added.
"Thanks " Clarke thanked slowly coming back to reality from the world Lexa had created for her within her arms.
"Yeah thanks." Lexa agreed. "Clarke you need to eat." Lexa reminded Clarke with a small shake.
"Mhmm yes Heda." Clarke obeyed grabbing a piece of meat and eating it slowly.
"Good girl." Lexa praised.
End of chapter 5
Author's note: Hey ! I really meant to shove this in last chapter but I totally forgot! Special thanks to Zero Candy- they helped me out alot with this fic and helped me bang out some ideas. They are actually where the whole reading punishment came from! So super big thanks to them because they helped me power through my writer's block ! And they are totally the reason the past few chapters came out! Cause my writers block was like a little to end this story prematurely but they helped me out alot. So one last time huge thanks to Zero Candy
! Your help is greatly appreciated!
wolfy's mauzy chapter 4 . 10m ago
I don't see Clark as slave material she is to in charge for that once she gets a handle of what she is she would be again but the story needs to go on and I want clexa so I'll ignore the fact that Clark sucks as an omega totally awesome thank you
From Jessica: I understand what you mean , but in this story I am kinda going for the change in Clarke from wanting more dominance before her implant failed and now that she is finally actually becoming an omega she will crave to submit more and more.
Examples- in the beginning when she would growl at Lexa for trying to treat her like an omega, and how in chapter 4 she wanted to tie Lexa up and be the more dominant one when she blew Lexa , and in this chapter when she is reading the first heda's omega's journal and she begins to crave Lexa's dominance more and more.
Idk does that make any sense? Like to me the story is entirely about the dominance in Clarke melting away as she becomes an omega and she craves an alpha's dominance more and more.
ccm artsy girl on Clarke's first heat
Yay you updated! I love lexa's punishment for Clarke and I can't wait to see how it's implemented in the next chapter. I love the whole sub/Dom roles, and I can't wait to see that when Clarke becomes Lexa slave. Also a word of advice don't apologize for how your story is structured or what you put in this story. In the end this is your creation and if you like what you put in it then stand up for it. Not everyone will like it but then you get the group of people who do (like me) and it's all worth it. Can't wait for the next update!
From Jessica: You won't have to wait long! (i'm writing this reply and then I am going to post the next chapter! If you didn't read the authors note , Huge thanks to Zero Candy! They helped me with the idea for that punishment. They gave me their kick a while ago and they have been helping me by giving some stuff an early read b4 I post and giving me feedback. I also love just everything Sub/Dom. Eek thank you so much! Honestly it was really fucking with me , and this story was actually giving me so much anxiety that I actually got stronger anxiety meds because of it. It was really stupid , but idk :/
And thank you so much for being positive and leaving a review it means alot! Really it does. Haha i'm still really new to writing these and i'm also just naturally a terribly insecure person.
shadowclub on Clarke's first heatIt's all jammed together again.
You may want to change the tags to bondage...because if you had I would have skipped over it.
It's already got more ropes and shackles and chains than I ever wanted to see in a story that I thought would
be a vanilla love story and not some rope kink.
I'm just too vanilla to enjoy this. Spanking and chains are so far out of my comfort zone I need a telescope.
Good luck with the fic.
From Jessica: sorry I honestly still don't know how to fix it. I honestly don't know how kinky a fic is gonna be before I write it. But yeah that is a good idea to put it in the tags , i'm just shit at remembering to do that.
If you are interested I plan to one day revisit this concept ( from the summary) and make a more vanilla version of it that is actually just a love story. ( probably about the amount of kink from my supergirl fics)
C on Clarke's first heatYou have nothing to apologize for. If this is something that peaks your interest then go for it. I didn't mean anything in mean or negative way. Just because I don't like that type of stuff (enslaving and complete domination storyline) doesn't mean it won't hit home with everybody else :). Maybe add a tag or 2 to prepare people for that part of the story. I think the idea of her never having a heat on the ark is really cool and a fun idea for you to explore. Reading the summary I just thought lexa would show Clarke a better way of life (I know how cliche that sounds). The cliche in my head makes it hard to imagine lexa following outdated and cruel laws/traditions after meeting Clarke. IE her character screwed up in s2 then fought like hell to stop senseless murder in s3...she changed years of traditions/laws with 1 action. It was the coolest part of her character for me. Jerk behavior is smacking Clarke hard on the butt demanding her not to whine or complain (bratty behavior in her eyes) then apologizing to relieve guilt directly after. The subservient slave was promised to be outside only...inside lexa was going to be the sweet and doting alpha. She has flashes but it's after she punishes Clarke for random human actions. You have written Clarke as the selfless hero which she is and is awesome. She will sacrifice all for peace which is right on par with who clarke's true character is. Again, I say keep up the hard work and don't doubt what hits home for you. Omegaverse is different from regular humans so who am I to say how dominant or submissive they should be?
From Jessica: Thanks , I do totally plan to revisit the never having heats on the arc! But that will probably not be until after I finish a story or two. Lol having 3 stories going at once is a bit too much for me. I have had 2 comments recently (including yours) that have helped me a lot with just writing more for myself in a way? Lol that also sounds super cliche. And I understand what you mean on all fronts. The only thing I have in response is really that Lexa was in rut and thought that Clarke was trying to be a brat , so less control and heightened need to dominate and Lexa has been trying to show Clarke what it will be like when she does leave the tower after they are bonded. Also in the chapter 5 she is more of a caring and doting alpha. Oh also I didn't see the apology as just Lexa trying to relieve her guilt , (in my head at least) she honestly felt bad for having hurt Clarke and wanted to comfort her.
I appreciate your support and kind words, they mean alot!