AN: So we finally get around to something. Totally honest, last chapter wasn't meant to happen and then it did. I never understood that whole 'characters take over the story thing' but it keeps happening. Especially with Kurt. Such a brat. Anyways, more talk this chapter, this time about kinks. Let it be known, I am not trying to put down any kinks or anything. The opinions expressed by the characters are just how I see my story. In other situations, I would include some of the very things they disagree with. So please, don't hate on me for any of the un-included kinks. Definitely not putting down people who like those things, it just doesn't work for my story. Anyways, on with the story.
Chapter 6
After finishing up lunch, Kurt and Blaine headed back up to Kurt's room. Blaine pulled Kurt's desk chair and sat it facing the end of the bed. He gestured for Kurt to sit in it as he sat opposite on the end of the bed.
Kurt glanced at the chair and made his way over. Taking a seat, he felt like that was a bigger step than it should have been. Looking up, he caught Blaine's eye. Blaine winked and Kurt smiled. His anxiety melted away. It was just Blaine, his love.
"Well, now that we are full and focused" Blaine began only to get cut off by Kurt.
"What is this, a mini-wheat's commercial?" Kurt joked, sending Blaine a smirk.
Blaine sent one of his own back. "Nope. This is a discussion of how your behavior lately has affected our relationship and what actions we are going to take because of that."
Kurt lost the smirk on his own face really quickly as it became clear Blaine was not up for joking around. "Sorry." Kurt said softly, understanding the point Blaine was trying to make.
Blaine gave a nod. "Good boy. There will be times when I won't care if you make jokes but right now, we need to figure out us and I need us to be serious. Alright baby?" Blaine reached over and grabbed one of Kurt's hands, hoping the physical contact would help him.
"Okay." Kurt replied, giving the two hands twined together a smile before glancing back up at Blaine.
"So, as I was saying, now that we have taken care of everything, we need to talk about where we are going from here. A few rules for our discussion, no insulting me or you. If you have a question, ask it. Be respectful. And tell me if there is something you want or something you don't want. This is for you Kurt so I want total honesty. Got it?" Blaine listed off the top of his head a few rules he had come up with as Kurt and he ate lunch.
Kurt nodded. "That sounds reasonable." Quite frankly, Kurt was a bit astonished at how prepared Blaine seemed.
"Good. So to start, I'm going to say some stuff I don't want. I don't want you to be upset or scared by anything we do. I don't want you to just go along with what I want and not get something out of it yourself. I don't want who we are to change because of this."
Kurt was in agreement with everything Blaine said and told him so with his own additions. "Those all work for me. Also, I will never call you daddy. Or master. No judgment to those who do but it would just be awkward for me. I live with my dad. And I just can't see myself seriously calling you master. Also, nothing that permanently does anything to me. And nowhere that is visible in public. We won't be doing anything public right?" Kurt's mind flashed to the school cafeteria and an image of Blaine spanking him in front of the school flashed in his mind.
"No Kurt. I won't punish you in public. I might give you a warning but I won't do anything in public. Or any of that other stuff. Maybe we should write this down."
Blaine pulled out a pen and started writing on the back of the articles that had been left on Kurt's bed. "Is there anything else?"
Kurt thought about some of the stuff he had read and seen today and during his porn explorations. "Nothing with bathroom functions or anything like that right? Because that is a line for me. And no needles or blood."
Blaine looked at Kurt in wonder. He teased. "How on earth do you know about all these things? Whatever happened to my baby penguin? But no worries. I don't intend to do anything along those lines. That isn't us. It's too heavy."
Kurt blushed but didn't look away at the penguin comment. Choosing to ignore it, he asked "Well, what do you see as us? Because we have a whole list of what we aren't so what are we?"
Blaine waited a second to collect his thoughts so he could phrase what he wanted to say correctly. "I see us being just like we are now but more. I see you letting me be in charge and submitting to me. I see us experimenting maybe with some bondage during sex. Maybe try toys and stuff like that once we are more comfortable with sex. I see me in charge and you listening to me when I tell you to do something. I see me punishing you if you break our rules. I see us going on picnics and heading off to New York together and living happily ever after."
"Cheesy. You are so cheesy. But that's part of your charm." Kurt smiled brightly at Blaine for a moment before focusing back on the topic. "I would be okay with bondage and toys and all that. Nothing too intense at first though. I may not be a baby penguin but it doesn't mean I'm some sex machine or something."
Blaine laughed at that. "No, not too intense. And you will have a safeword that you will use if anything makes you uncomfortable or scared. Got it?" Blaine gave Kurt a very serious look at that.
Kurt agreed quickly. "Yes. Of course. What will my safeword be?"
Blaine reached out and squeezed Kurt's hand and said "Good boy." He then picked up his pen again. "I was thinking we would keep it simple. Red for stop. Yellow for slow down. That okay?"
Kurt flushed at the 'good boy' and felt his insides fill with happiness at the praise. Smiling at Blaine, he agreed. "Sounds simple enough."
"Good. So what about the other side of it? The discipline part. What do you see with regards to that?" Blaine questioned, knowing that this would be the hardest part for Kurt but knowing that he had a real need for it.
Kurt blushed and looked down. Thinking hard, he began describing how he saw their relationship. "I'm okay with you punishing me however you think I need it. I just have one request. Umm, no belts. It is too easy to accidently mark my skin and the idea of a belt kind of terrifies me. I had this really vivid nightmare after my first time watching porn and it kinda scarred me for life."
Blaine raised an eyebrow at that but accepted it. Adding 'no belts' to his list, he smiled at Kurt. "Anything else?"
Kurt shook his head slowly. He didn't want to give Blaine any new ideas he didn't already have for how to punish him. So he asked. "How do you see the whole punishing thing going?"
Blaine put the pen and paper down as he contemplated that question. "We will have a set of rules that we decide on together after this. If you break a rule, you will be punished. When you are being punished, I expect respect so you have to answer 'Yes, sir' or 'Yes, Blaine'. Whichever is more comfortable for you. Depending on which rule and how badly it is broken would determine how bad the punishment is. I might have you go to timeout or write lines. I'll probably spank you a lot as well. Unless you do something really bad, that should be it. I might put you on restriction from certain things. It just depends. We will see what works for us and figure it out more as we go along. I will always warn you ahead of time if I think you are going to do something against the rules or you are reaching a line or if I am going to try a new punishment."
Kurt felt like he should be objecting to some of this but he couldn't. Blaine loved him and wanted what was best for him. And Kurt knew that this would be good for him. That didn't make it any less embarrassing and Kurt's red cheeks could testify to that. But still. "That sounds…right. Just perfect."
Blaine grinned at that and gave Kurt a hug. "I'm so happy with how well this is going baby. Now, all we need to do is write out our rules and we are done. So let's get to it."
"First off, no disrespect. No rude comments about others or yourself. Got it?" Blaine asked after writing it down.
"I'll try." Kurt responded, knowing that this would probably be the hardest rule for him.
"That's all I ask baby. And I will help you." Blaine smiled at Kurt for a moment before continuing. "Next, no disobedience. If I tell you to do something, I expect it done or a safeword. Anything else is punished. Okay?"
"What about if I don't understand?" Kurt questioned.
"Ask me. I'm still here for you always. Never feel like you can't ask me something. That is part of your next rule. Communication. If you have a problem, tell me. If I do something wrong, tell me. If you do something wrong, tell me. If I ask you a question, I want you to answer me completely and honestly. Better that you tell me too much than you tell me too little. Okay?" Blaine stressed this point, not wanting any harm to come to the relationship.
Kurt got a little irritated. "Should I tell you everything I say and eat and wear too? Geez." Kurt scoffed as he leaned back in the chair, a bit grated by the telling Blaine everything rule.
"That's one Kurt. I'm going to take it easy right now. Consider this your warning. Knock off the attitude. Got it?" Blaine had taken Kurt's chin and forced eye contact. He continued holding him until he got a response.
"Yes, Blaine. I'm sorry." Kurt blushed, feeling very small as Blaine's hazel eyes glared into his, forcing obedience.
Staring for a bit longer, Blaine then dropped Kurt's chin and continued on. "I want you to eat three meals a day at least. It isn't healthy to eat less. And I know you have been skipping meals lately and it's going to end. Okay?"
Kurt looked away from Blaine as soon as he was no longer being forced. He responded quietly. "Yes, Blaine."
"Good. Last rule for now. You do not put yourself in danger. And I mean my definition of danger, not yours. So no more agitating the jocks. I know they normally start it but I have seen you go up to them sometimes. No more of that. If you are in doubt about your actions being considered dangerous, stop and ask. You can always ask. Understood?"
"Yes, Blaine." Kurt looked up at Blaine and made eye contact again. Blaine leaned over and gave him a peck on the lips.
"Good boy. We got through that relatively painlessly. If at any time we need to, we can always change the rules or add to them. Just let me know and I'll let you know. Okay?"
"'Kay." Kurt answered before pulling Blaine in for a hug on the bed. It quickly turned into them cuddling again.
"How would you feel about napping? I'm pretty tired. All this talking, wears me out." Blaine asked, maneuvering the two of them so that they were spooning, Blaine as the big spoon.
"I think a nap sounds perfect. I love you." Kurt said and then yawned, his eyes drooping shut as the emotional toll of the last day hit him.
"Love you too." And with that, they drifted off to sleep.
So thanks to everyone who has reviewed so far or alerted or favorited my story. All of those motivate me to write and I could use motivation. I get off track fairly easily. Too many shiny objects. So hit one of those buttons in the corner. Thanks!