Chapter 20
Lexa and Clarke returned to their room to give Abby space as she examined Illian further and assisted him with what his near future would consist of. "Are you ok Lexa? " Clarke asked tentatively as her alpha sat down on the couch by her fireplace.
"I.. Yeah. I'm ok. Just. A little confused. " Lexa sighed relaxing softly into the couch. "What is it? " Clarke sat down in Lexa's lap, situating herself perfectly on top of Lexa, and then leaning against her lover's chest, resting a hand over her heart and pressing the side of her face to Lexa submissive and craving all the contact she could have with the woman she had fallen so far for.
"Doesn't it seem so weird?" Lexa asked.
"What is it? " Clarke asked legitimately missing how odd it it was that Illian had already begun to move on.
"He lost his alpha. His lover. I… I introduced them to each other five years ago! I was there, I watched them fall in love. And now… I had to kill his alpha. And he just gets over it immediately? Forgets about him. Its like I took his death harder than his omega!" Lexa almost began to get angry as she spoke.
"Lexa. " Clarke lifted her head to look at her alpha. "First I don't think it's that simple. " Clarke sighed taking a moment think about how to explain it best. "Do you remember the day you found me, in the cave alone and in the pain of my first heat?" Clarke asked.
"Yes. I thought I had lost you in trying to save my people. " Lexa admitted full of guilt. "I.. I honestly wasn't certain you wouldn't shoot me that night like you had the others who had attempted to pull you out of your encampment there. " Lexa's voice began trembling slightly as she spoke. "I… I honestly don't know that I wouldn't have if my heat hadn't started. " Clarke paused again feeling guilty for admitting it. "But… when your scent hit me.. The anger I held against you melted. Lexa. I hadn't gotten more than an hour of sleep uninterrupted by the nightmares of what I had done. And all that fear and self loathing melted. Your scent overwrite it. And it's not that those emotions were gone forever. I ended up working through them myself later, and understanding that I would have done the same thing, and that I did what I had to and nothing else. So I kinda understand. I'm sure that he will eventually end up dealing with the emotions of losing his lover eventually. But when around an alpha like that. I'm not surprised that his body left that loss, those emotions on the backburner for now. " Clarke explained.
"Oh God….. That actually makes makes sense" Lexa gasped realizing that it was more than less likely just Illian's body's way of ensuring his survival and procreation. "Yeah. But I have no doubt it will hit him soon. " Clarke added.
"Clarke… I know that we just left but can we go back to him. I'm worried that now without Bellamy and his scent to distracted illian that the really of losing his lover might hit him like a ton of bricks. " Lexa requested. "I'm worried he won't be ok. "
"Of course Lexa. Let's go make sure he is ok. " Clarke smiled getting up and grabbing her alpha's hand, pulling Lexa off the couch.
"Thank you baby." Lexa smiled kissing the omega before they headed off.
"But Ooooo! " Bellamy cried petulant and impatient.
"No! Not till you understand what all this means! I know that you paid it no attention when you thought yourself a beta, but that isn't the case any more." Octavia scolded still dragging her brother.
"Uugh. Whatever! Grr… want him… " Bellamy groaned and growled as Octavia pulled him into a meeting hall. "What are we doing here? "
"We are gonna have the talk, mom is gone, and she actually taught me about alphas and omegas because I was never registered on the arc, no implant like the rest of you. So she had to teach me how to deal with this stuff when I turned 13 incase I ended up being an alpha or omega. And lucky she did, or else we would have been caught when i was 15 and I started howling in pain with my first rut. " Octavia explained grabbing a chair for Bellamy and one for herself.
"Fine! " Bellamy huffed.
"Better! Now what do you know about alphas and omegas?" Octavia sighed.
"I dunno, when they lose their implants they feel like they are gonna get sick and then spend a week super horny? " Bellamy shrugged.
"That would be a heat / rut. And it's more than just getting horny. Your fertility also rises significantly. Did you know you could get Illian pregnant? " Octavia sighed.
"Well I don't think that's true. " Bellamy smiled with a shit eating grin.
"Well it is! "Octavia snapped irritated.
"That would be really interesting considering he is already pregnant. " Bellamy laughed.
"Uugh! Fine. You can't get him pregnant now, but if you bond with him now , you will almost certainly end up fucking him after his pregnancy is over and then he would actually end up pregnant with your pup! " Octavia countered.
"I… mhmm his next pupps could be mine? " Bellamy swooned at the idea, crossing his legs and blushing as he contemplated what it would feel like to seed the sexy omega.
"Jesus Christ. Fuck Bellamy focus! " Octavia sighed seeing him obviously trying to hide his excitement.
"You are bonded! You actually get to bury yourself in an omega regularly! " Bellamy growled Jealous and irritated that his sister would give him shit during his first rut.
"Yes I am! And even though I was around Raven during her first heat I never touched her without her permission like you did in there! What you did isn't acceptable! " Octavia argued frustrated.
"What's the problem he said he liked it, he even complained when you pulled me off of him! " Bellamy yelled irritated at the insinuation that he didn't care about consent.
"That doesn't matter! Raven begged me! She actually tried to take my pants off of me! And instead of nipping at her neck like I was testing where I wanted to mark her I taught her to defend herself! Defend herself from alphas who would care more about tasting first asking permission later. " Octavia knew she was being harsh especially since she knew it was his first rut and the time he would be the most likely to slip up, but she didn't want to let him think it was ok. She never wanted him making that mistake again.
"I… geez. Tell me what you really think why don't you O? It's not like I started stripping him without his permission. I get it, I should have asked first. But I got caught off guard and I made a mistake. " Bellamy sighed hurt.
"Its ok." Octavia gave her brother an understanding hug. "I was a little harsh. But I wanted you to understand. And its important to know that omega's aren't capable of consenting while in a heat. The pain is too much and it's too big a decision to make when they aren't in a stable state of mind. Ruts traditionally aren't as bad as heats either, but that doesn't necessarily mean that you will be in the most cognizant state of mind while in one. Ok? " Octavia explained.
"Got it." Bellamy nodded, the wind thoroughly knocked from his sails.
"Are you ok? " Octavia asked realizing how downtrodden her brother had become.
"I.. Uugh." Bellamy tried to hide his disappointment with realizing he probably wouldn't be able to mate with Illian before his heat set in.
"Fuck.. You really like him? This isn't just that he smelled good. " Octavia sighed.
"I.. I don't know how that would be possible! I… all I've ever done is smell him. " Bellamy admitted frustrated with himself. "Fucking Chris he is your intended mate. " Octavia sighed. "Come on, let's get you to him before his heat sets in and he can't consent. "
"I… what?" Bellamy jumped out of his chair. "His heat hasn't actually started yet!? He can still consent!? "
"Yeah. You thought his heat had already started? " Octavia asked incredulous.
"Yeah, he smelled sooo good." Bellamy cooed.
"Dear God, I forgot your new to this. Let's go. " Octavia smiled and headed out with her brother who had already began sprinting back to be with Illian.
"Abby?" Lexa questioned cracking the door to the med bay after receiving no answer to her knock.
"Mom? Illian? " Clarke echoed.
"Coming! " A rushed and distressed voice yelled almost out of breath.
"Abby?" Lexa's face scrunched suddenly. "Oh dear god. "
"What is it Lexa? " Clarke questioned holding to her alpha's arm as they entered the med bay to see Abby, disheveled as she stood up from her desk and shifted her leg violently.
"I.. Uugh what do you need my heda?" Abby asked clearly frustrated and in a hurry.
"Hi Kane." Lexa sighed.
"Told you. " A voice noted snuggly from under the desk.
Abby's jaw dropped shocked at how easily Lexa found out as Kane stood up from behind the desk.
"Oh fuck…." Clarke gasped having come far too close to walking in on her mother about to be knotted for comfort. "Love you Lexa. I'm gonna go look for Illian. " Clarke sighed walking off.
"Sorry Clarke. " Abby attempted to apologize for not having locked the doors. Lexa immediately gave them both a look as if to say and what about me!? In turn Kane shrugged earning an exasperated sigh from the commander.
"Love you mom. Talk to you…. Some time this century when I can look you in the eyes again. " Clarke joked heading off.
"So… umm what was it that you needed my heda? " Kane attempted respectfully.
"First off? For the love of god no knotting in the the med bay. I get it there are no patients due to the peace time, but still . " Lexa glared semi serious.
"Yes my heda. " Kane and Abby replied.
"Thank you. If you need a room just talk to one of the guards. They will show you to the quarters for the skykru commander. " Lexa offered.
"Wait that's a thing? " Kane asked eagerly.
"Of course it is! All the clan leaders have quarters in the tower incase we have meetings between the clans that go on for more than a day. "
Abby and Kane both looked to each other eagerly before all but sprinting away for the room. "Thanks My heda" Abby thanked heading out.
"You are a lifesaver! " Kane called halfway out the door.
"Wait! Where is illian!?" Lexa questioned to the now empty room regretting allowing them to run off.
A man covered in the heavy pelts of attic animals approached the lone omega that seemingly everyone was now searching for, holding his daggers close to his hips ready to strike.
"Who's there? " Illian asked feeling the ominous presence.
The man licked his lips slowly readying himself for the kill, the white face paint obscuring almost all of his face but his blood red tongue and his dark eyes. "Your alpha failed his task. Mhmm and somehow you lived? Unacceptable. " He growled dark brandishing his blades ready to pounce.
Author's note!
I'm back! And I'm so happy to be writing again! Hope I didn't lose all my readers while I was away! More chapters soon! Regular upload schedule coming soon!
Alos what did anyone who read this think of the chapter ?!
I actually liked it alot myself haha , one thing that always bugged me about this fic is how easily clarke forgave Lexa . And this kinda explains that more now , only took 20 chapters lol