AN: Hooray for more updates! Not so hooray because this chapter is just talk. Sorry all. Enjoy anyways.

Chapter 19

Kurt snuggled into Blaine as he answered. "You know my dad had heart problems last year. Well, he was in a coma for over a week after and I didn't know if he would make it. And the last thing he had said to me was that he was disappointed in me." Kurt buried his face in Blaine's neck, not wanting to say anymore as he was close to tears again.

Blaine rubbed his back and answered. "It didn't happen because he was disappointed in you though. It happened because he wasn't taking care of himself."

Kurt pulled back and responded. "I know that logically, my disappointing him didn't set off his heart attack but I can't help but worry when I hear someone say that to me. I don't want something to happen and that to be the last thing you said to me. And then you said you were disappointed and I started panicking."

Blaine nodded. "Okay. So we set that as a hard limit for you. I promise I will never say I'm disappointed. Why didn't you say anything?"

Kurt rested his head on Blaine's shoulder. "I didn't want to seem stupid because I know it isn't a rational fear and I was being punished. I figured that I wasn't supposed to say anything."

Blaine sat thinking for a moment, shocked a bit at Kurt's words. Once he had what he wanted to say prepared, he moved Kurt a bit so they sat facing each other. He lifted Kurt's chin so they were making eye contact. "You can always tell me if something I'm doing is hurting you emotionally. It's why we have safewords. Why didn't you use a safeword when you started panicking?"

Kurt shrugged. When Blaine just kept looking at him for an answer, he said hesitantly. "I-I don't know. It happened so fast and I didn't want to disappoint you more by not taking my punishment."

Blaine's face got sad at that. "Kurt. We agreed on this arrangement for your benefit. And yes, I get something out of it but it's to make you feel better and to help you in your relationships. If I'm doing something that has no benefit for you, I need you to tell me that. And you standing in a corner, having a panic attack is not beneficial for you."

"I know. I know you are doing this for me. I just, I forgot I guess. I was already upset and then it just started building and the moment where I could have said something passed and I was in a panicked state where I wasn't able to talk." Kurt tried to explain to Blaine his thought process.

Blaine nodded slowly. "Okay. So you were in the corner and you started to get more upset. But by the time you realized how upset you were getting, you were already panicking. Right?"

Kurt nodded, glad Blaine understood. "Exactly. I was upset at what you had said but I thought it was just normal upset at having earned a punishment. If I had known how upset I was going to get, I probably would have said something."

Blaine quirked an eyebrow. "Probably? Babe, if you have any idea that you are going to get that upset, you have to always tell me. I understand if it happens so quickly that you don't realize it until it's too late like today but I need to know that if you start getting upset to the point that you are hyperventilating, you tell me right away. Got it?"

Kurt nodded. He moved to cuddle back up to Blaine as he answered. "Yes, Blaine. I'll try. But what about if it happens like today?"

Blaine pulled Kurt in and wrapped his arms around his waist. "Well, if you start getting upset super-fast like you did today, I'm not going to be upset with you. I think that by talking, we can hopefully weed out any possible triggers you might have. Like because of today and talking with you, I will never say I'm disappointed to you again. And hopefully, you won't ever panic about that again. Right?"

"Yeah." Kurt answered quietly.

Blaine started rubbing Kurt's back even as he continued talking. "But if you ever don't tell me that something I'm doing or saying is upsetting you like today, then you will be in serious trouble." Here, Blaine reached down and patted at Kurt's butt to give him an idea as to what he meant. Kurt blushed a bit and squirmed, getting the message. "Situations like that are what safewords are for and I need to know that you will use them. Got it?"

Kurt softly replied. "Yes, Blaine. I-I promise I'll use the safeword if I have to."

Blaine gave Kurt a kiss on the top of his head. "Good boy. I love you so much Kurt."

Kurt shifted and he gave Blaine a kiss on the lips. "I love you too."

The two sat in silence for a few minutes, enjoying the feel of the other and feeling emotionally drained.

AN: Tomorrow's update will feature them talking some more. Something to look forward to. Sorry if this is boring for you all. I just really think them communicating is important.